Preety_India

Portrait for Gerrie Portrait for Sek

If something is not beneficial to you, it could be harmful to you. Have you ever thought ?

Portrait for famguy Portrait for Gerrie

I have these characters ready Winderbeetle Bunny fam- Suburbians Famgirl Famguy Gerrie Sek

Someone gave me this advice. "consider being more creative about what you are grateful for and making a practice to develop appreciation as part of your waking routine for example Gary van Warmerdam, of Pathway to Happiness, has an exercise of filling a page with as many things as you can think of which you are grateful for - beyond the usual food, water, family etc. sort... i invite you to try this for a few days!" In the thread, So I'm going to use gratefulness cards and goal cards.

You could be introverted and uncomfortable opening up. Try to socialize more.. have the courage to be emotionally vulnerable. But be around people who respect you. Only then you can open up.

Someone gave me this advice. "consider being more creative about what you are grateful for and making a practice to develop appreciation as part of your waking routine for example Gary van Warmerdam, of Pathway to Happiness, has an exercise of filling a page with as many things as you can think of which you are grateful for - beyond the usual food, water, family etc. sort... i invite you to try this for a few days!" In the thread, my-mind-goes-blank

Those cards I can use in 2 ways. One as gratefulness cards The other as goal cards or vision board cards. I can have them side by side so as to not lose focus

I thought this girl could also be my famgirl. She is an old Indian actress. She looks like a beach girl.

A set of cards

Maybe.

I created another character who I'll call famgirl. My famgirl....

I created another character who I'll call famgirl.

@QandC going blank means I kinda feel very empty when I wake up. Absolutely nothing in my head. It makes me feel demotivated, idle and getting anything done gets too hard. It's like I'm in a different space, an empty room and nothing to do. Leaves me frustrated. I tend to slack on my goals because of it. I might feel physically active but mentally dull and empty. So I can't think of what I need to do, as a result I fail to make concrete plans.

I'm trying hard everyday to not ever have to deal with these people.

Something that holds me down. my-mind-goes-blank

I'm going back into my cold anxious withdrawn self. I hate my life. I hate the family I was born into. I hate everything.

They have so much time to spend in Aspen Colorado and what not. Yet they can't spare 2 minutes to listen to me Nobody wants to sit with me or hear my pain. When I say I need therapy for trauma, they deny it. I'm sick of these people. They ruined my life. And now the constant pressure that I should get married. So sick of all this I wish I was born in a good supportive family, this will always be my gripe till the end.

Last week my family returned from the US. They had been to Aspen Colorado for the trip. I denied going because I didn't want to My nightmare has begun again. For 2 weeks when they weren't in my house, I was feeling a bit free. I interacted in the forum..I was feeling good. Now that they are back, I feel clumsy again. Frightened, scared,nervous, anxious, withdrawn ....the symptoms will start Again. I don't want this whole cycle again. I'm too distressed. I feel like killing myself.

I'm just fucking tired of life sometimes. It's too much to take. I hate my family. I hate the pressure to stand up to family expectations. I hate how it has created life long anxiety in me. I wish I was dead

Good morning Suburbians it's not a great start today.. I mostly felt tired and stressed..I wanted to do something but the fear came back and it gripped me. I have decided not to talk as long as I'm in this phase. I feel pressured by my family and I don't like talking to them yet they constantly force me to talk..

My sense of vulnerability can go deep, something difficult to share with people. So I don't do it. I simply collapse back into my own shadows.

One thing that grips me is a huge sense of fear I have no idea what this fear is .

I can list a few things that are holding me back My own insecurities Negativity (mostly about the world, I don't mean to think positive on this.) My family Thoughts about men My mind going blank especially when I wake up....this is the biggest culprit My low memory. I constantly have to be reminded of things My lack of self awareness and self reflection My terrible lack of self confidence (self confidence is not the same as self esteem. I'm confident in who I am but when I have to start doing things, I feel cursed, like I just won't be able to do it, I have this tremendous hesitancy) Low energy and fatigue Bad sleep Fear and anxiety of unknown things/origin