Preety_India

Yea I understand that type of situation I have been through tremendous trauma myself.

Yea I understand and support that.

@Marcel you had me worried. If I have to make love to you, I have to have it as a woman making love to a man. I simply cannot have it any other way. I know that you are going through a phase of confusion. In that case, I won't pressure you about anything at all. You can always take your own time.

If what you are saying is true, then this part is hurting me. Because I don't know what to do about it.

I'm not a lesbian. I cannot make love to a woman. I have to love a man and the man has to love me. It's just that my sexual orientation is a heterosexual straight female. I cannot change how I was born.

Are you sure about this?

Hmm. So i woke up and Leo was in my dreams. He was writing a thank you letter to everyone. It was a special feature he had started on this website where he would write thank you note to each person individually for following his work.

Maybe I can be myself.

I just saw Leo in my dreams. Leo was writing thank you notes in the dream. Not even joking.

I crave for your love and keeeeeeees Goodnight sweetheart. I'm always yours. Dreaming of you. May this dream never end. We're inseparable. We're truly Romeo and Juliet.. Never apart anymore. Together forever. I rest my head on your lap.

Yep it is. Massaging your belly.

No. I don't see it as belonging to myself. I see it as a universal standard. I have some expectations for what a man should be in this world. I have similar expectations out of women as well but more in the caring nurturing sense and for men I have these expectations in the more objective and leadership as sense. I see women as motivators and nurturers. And I see men as leaders.

Thank you so much. You are the sweetest and the bestest. There's a German girl in my messenger right now. Won't say her name if she doesn't want it. She is my friend as well. She just messaged me this very moment.. Marcel is German.. I guess I'm blessed by Germans. I feel at home Proud of the German people.

Hehe I am so happy reading this. It relieved my stress. I remember my ex stressing the fuck out of me with his 24/7 childish demands. He was so pressuring and narcissistic. Like constantly pressing my buttons..

@Marcel I also know that relationships are overwhelming. So you can always take as many breaks as you want. There's never any pressure from my end. I'm a bit possessive but I can control it well. I believe that a tiny amount of possessiveness in a relationship is like placing some butter on a loaf. It only enhances the taste I love you my angel.. Without you I'm never complete.

@Marcel I hope you don't feel like I'm spying on you if I visit your profile page. And I hope you don't feel ignored if I'm not around or busy with something. I'm just generally wary of not letting someone feel either way, because I never know how the other person tends to take it. My 3rd Boyfriend used to have a problem if I looked through his phone or social media. He used to tease me sarcastically that I'm a spy. Well I used to simply try to know more about him or just natural curiosity.. I used to feel very punished every time even for little things which were simply innocuous and perfectly innocent and he used to make it look like a crime because he was an absolute bastard and an absolute narcissist who used blackmail and threat throughout the relationship to control me. I remember feeling anxious around him all the time. It was AWFUL AWFUL AWFUL. He used to be like a boss in the relationship leaving me no freedom. I hope he Rots in hell. But anyway. I don't want to think about him. Just wanted to give an example.

I cannot wait either. You're the love of my life. I blindly trust you.. You're my heart, you're my soul. We're eternal.. I'm not a very verbose person. Yet I say a few words but those words are like bullets, they do the job right. Sex has never been a priority for me either. First comes emotions all the way. I cannot think of sex unless I'm deeply and passionately emotional with my man. I had made a thread about how I find casual sex a sin. I don't judge people who are into that lifestyle. But to me it ruins my integrity. I'll support you too. A relationship is and should be mutual.. I'm a multi dimensional person. Dealing with me can be hard. I'm sorry I'm such a complicated person but this is how I was born. Yep. Judging yourself is the worst form of disservice. You're beautiful and whole as you are. This doesn't mean that there's no room for improvement. But you should try to improve yourself from top side downwards rather than bottom side upwards. That is you should not negatively motivate yourself by judging and shaming, rather positively motivate yourself by improving what is already good. Judgement always has a bad outcome. In fact I absolutely detest judgemental people This is the most important thing to me. Yes I'm extremely vulnerable as you can see. I can never be with a person who isn't vulnerable There is nothing fundamentally wrong per se. But it doesn't fit in my book. I don't go around chasing and sleeping around with men. It doesn't fit with my moral integrity. I can say i have strong sexual morals I have never cheated in my relationships and I am very proud of that. Well you got a girlfriend. Her name is Preety Btw a girlfriend is not everything. SO DON'T PUT ME ON A PEDESTAL. PUT YOURSELF FIRST. Any culture or society that assumes virginity is shameful is an unfit society Your feminine will help you in life. I have a suppressed masculine. I am not masculine and that usually poses a problem because I get too girly girly. I'm always working on understanding and integrating masculine. I love your masculinity. It's very sexy. Well I cry a shit ton. It will fill up the Pacific Ocean.

Me too. Love you.

True Marcel I used to always believe that only opposites attract each other. Now I believe that even mirror selves can attract each other. You're my soulmate and lover. I love you deeply. And I'm lucky to have you by my side.

@Preety_India so this was my ancient post on divine masculinity.

I have written a post on masculinity and many people praised me for it. Give me 2 mins and I'll dig out for you.

Lmao. Wait a minute. Is this my result lololololol? These were my results. Openness: You are high open Conscientiousness: You are high conscientious Extroversion: You are medium extroversion Agreeableness: You are highly agreeable Neuroticism: You are medium neurotic Lets compare with your results. Openness: You are high open Conscientiousness: You are high conscientious Extroversion: You are medium extroversion Agreeableness: You are highly agreeable Neuroticism: You are medium neurotic Wow, it's same lol.

I can say I'm not jealous.

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