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This is my favorite. Also it's from my favorite movie.

One of my favorites

I have decided to switch coffee with tea. I have been drinking since past week. I feel a difference in my brain state. I feel my circulation is supple, my brain slightly alert. Is this good for health ? Although I have anxiety.

Category - Alternative

Category - Rock/Hip hop

Category - Emotional /Sentimental Nothing beats the emotion in this song

Category - Emotional /Sentimental

Another beautiful EDM

Okayish

Category - Romantic EDM /Indie Dance This is my favorite song for today. It's Indie Dance genre.. It has a cosmic feel. I can't get enough of the romantic feel of the song. Different remixes of the same song.

Lately these are the genres I'm really appreciating EURO DANCE MUSIC ITALO DISCO FROM 80s ELECTRONIC SYNTH POP COSMIC/CELESTIAL (MY OWN WAY OF INTERPRETING CERTAIN TRACKS) EDM - ELECTRONIC DANCE MUSIC IDM - INDIE DANCE MUSIC DEEP HOUSE JAZZ LOUNGE AND BAR MUSIC TRANCE R&B SOFT ROCK/ROMANTIC ROCK

I struggled all my life with masculinity. I was deeply entrenched into my femininity. Most people who I met called me an extremely feminine woman. Well I do take pride in being able to relate to my sex in on such a level, yet not having any masculinity in me made me suffer in many ways in my life. People would attack me and I always cowered back into my feminine self and never fought back It was almost drilled into my head that a woman should never fight back. So i never did It took years for me to realize that I need to break this feminine mold and stop thinking like a female all the time. It's harmful because you lose self preservation that way. You take in so much femininity that it makes you very docile and submissive. I was always the submissive in all my relationships. I was always with strong masculine men because it complemented my femininity really well. But something inside was screaming very loudly.. Telling me how long can I keep putting up with the shit that others throw at me and having to preserve my femininity in the process? I felt like rebeling. I felt like screaming loud..

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More posts pending — I wish to give back to the haters. This is my turn on my own turf. — standing strong —I'm a winner no matter what, are you jealous? — this is my time and I'm enjoying. The Cinderella with the glass slippers. I'm not an ugly Duckling. — Emotional bloodletting — I have been through fucking trauma that you can't even survive. I'm strong despite being weak.. Got it????And I will survive all the Hate thrown at me. Sorry hate never wins. — lot to rant about. Now it's my turn finally. —I was lying low, waiting for this opportunity. Now you'll see who I am. — my bloodstream was injected with hate since childhood. Time to let it all out. You wanna know? —I won't stop until I give back a solid amount to those who judged me. — your hate won't stop me. Keep hating. I'll do better no matter what.. — finally I'm well prepared for facing your hate. Time for me to shine. — my final rant. You'll hear me really loud one final time. — Why am I so Angsty? Because I'm a Rebel. I'm a fucking rebel. I make my own rules, whether you like it or not. — am I annoying? Am I a nuisance? But I'm not going away. How about that? Haha, the joke is on you. — if you give me a hill, I'll give you a fucking mountain. Give me a penny, I'll give you a dollar. Say one word to me. I'll say a hundred. Not backing down no matter how much you hate me, no matter how much you judge me. — I finally got wings. —who says you are not enough. You're always enough. Don't let narcissists and judgemental people win. I say to you right now that you are enough. And my spirit is eternal. It will say the same thing to you even if I die or dead already. I will never stop holding your hand. — there is no shortage of masculine men I need a man who integrates the feminine. — somehow all women come to the same consensus as me. Femininity is connected. — my final word. You're a miracle to simply have survived this piss poor world.. You are worth more than a mountain, you're worth more than anyone anything.. You are a miracle, truly a miracle.

@RickyFitts thank you for the love and support. Highly appreciated.

More posts Part 2 There's so much suppressed inside of me. And I wanna let it all out and throw it at you Because I don't deserve how I was treated.

More posts Part 1

Why being defensive is a good thing. (all those who constantly check my profile, all you hate followers) I don't need your goddamn attention The curse of being an Indian woman. Being hated on for your race When you are hated by your own men in your own country. Deal with your bias. Not my problem. I'm not who you think I am, and I don't need to prove it. Stop Bitchifying me I want to have a say in what's being decided about me. Someone said that I have an ugly personality. Come at me. C'mon. I had to withstand massive hate but my inner core is love. Are you getting an ego boost at my expense, huh? I'm not famous for good reasons. Feels good to be hated. I was suppressed for so long Love grows and succeeds despite hate (all the covert narcissists who love to hate me to feel good about themselves ) I'm finally growing into my own element, thanks to love and support I was never allowed to by myself. Only others were allowed to decide who I was or am. Never me. So you get to decide who I am, but not me?