Preety_India

@RickyFitts maybe you could write all this in a journal and I can help you with that. Like a separate journal.

Writing it here I heard the first song i posted earlier only yesterday for the first time. But it sucked me right back into the past. When i was sitting in front of my computer all day, my mom coming in from time to time and telling me she would kill her self and threatening that she would jump infront of a train. I don´t know what it is about this song that resonates with me so much. Maybe is is the artist C-Mob on the first song that triggered all of these memories. My mind running through my schedule in my teen years 3 am getting woken up by my mom with a friendly "I will kill myself today" 7 am getting out of bed after breaking my mind for 4 hours how i would get through this day again. 7:45 am school starts, im always there on 7:43 on time, because i don´t want to stand around in front of the classroom for too long. 1 pm, the typical school day ends and i walk to my grandparents house to eat lunch 1:30 pm I arrive, i eat lunch with my grandparents, like always my grandpa has to start a toxic argument, even when im there 2:30 pm I get home, my mom stands in the door way and i can see that she cried again and says "im still here" as per usual, that is what she did if she was not laying on the couch and watching TV. 3pm i set myself in front of my Pc, play video games listen to music, do my homework 11pm I go to sleep Rinse and repeat that was my day and the first song i posted fully got me back in to the way i felt back then. Just hoping that i can make it through this hell. Well im here now. So i guess i made it after all.

Want to keep an exclusive journal where I can express my deep feelings for my lover.

You can actually make your passion your purpose.

I don't wish this to be dragged any further. It's already addressed in previous comments. Thanks.

Deep house. Romantic

Deep house

Yes that's what I meant. Hard for me to do as well. But finally I've become good at it. I try to keep it short or else fights can turn into a mess. Best is to keep it minimum. Fights are inadvertent. That's understandable. But one can use one's fair judgment

It's ok to disagree but when a person is done with the argument, have the decency to not keep going on and on. That definitely helps to not derail the thread. I don't keep attacking someone's opinion non stop.. Not wanting to derail a thread but at the same time not wanting to drop an argument, that's exactly what's counterintuitive. You should know when to drop an argument.

My list is similar to yours. 1. Intelligence and skills. Mastery 2. Social skills. Social Mastery 3. Life purpose 4. Health. 5. Spirituality. Although I won't consider to be a part of Mastery

Watching cat videos lol. I do the same, just that I don't regret watching. Don't be too harsh on yourself. Some enjoyment is fine, as long as it's refreshing to the brain. Try to schedule your time. Keep a check on what things you spend your time on. Note down those things in a notepad right the moment you catch yourself doing those things, that will serve as a reminder that you are distracting yourself, once you catch yourself doing something on the spot you'll have a better way of sorting your time, assign specific times for specific time periods and stick to those timings. Keep separate time for activities that you enjoy like watching cat videos and that way you won't feel guilty. Watch motivational videos to uplift your mood early in the morning and get yourself going. Gradually cut down your time on distractions. Note down things that consume your time unproductively and don't repeat them again or catch yourself doing them. Then set reminders every time you are engaged in these activities.

I think intelligence is needed throughout the SD spiral. Even at stage Red you need intelligence in order to survive. Only the form of intelligence is different. For example stage Red intelligence is quite different from stage Green intelligence. So you need another form of intelligence at stage Yellow. Yet every form of intelligence on whatever scale is just intelligence at the end of the day.

Maybe look for a group of like minded people in your area. Connect with them online.

@RickyFitts thank you

Don't think too much about it Also learn to accept how people are. That this is how things are and you have to constantly adjust and attune yourself to a new state of being. Also use PC language

Different kinds.

@cetus look I don't want to start a fight here. I'm not here for that. I have told that user to stop being aggressive and constantly attack me on my opinions. I'm not interesting in debating him. Maybe the civil behavior lies in respecting each other's requests. So if someone told me that they don't want to engage with me in an argument, my decency would lie in leaving them alone and not provoke them any further. Or call them a victim if they don't feel comfortable. At least my policy works that way. I'm not going to be lying down and simply swallow someone's personal attacks against me and do nothing about it. That's direct abuse it's not okay at all. I have the right to defend it someone is attacking. Then don't call it derailing when I wasn't the one to drag the other. Also everyone has the right to their opinions. If someone says something that I don't agree with, instead of making them uncomfortable or attacking them directly, I'll try to be civil about it and maybe after stating that I disagree with them, I wouldn't constantly launch a crusade against them. That's like restricting someone from freedom of opinion. It's fine to disagree to a certain extent. But don't keep dragging someone on and on their opinion, especially if the user doesn't wish to derail the thread. That's all I have to say. I'm out. Handle it yourselves.

@Carl-Richard can you please look into this user's behavior, I have told him persistently to not provoke fights and derail the thread. The user @Jacob Morres I don't wish to respond to him but he doesn't stop attacking. Thanks @Michael569 @cetus

@Jacob Morres dear can you stop mentioning me please and throwing your personal aggression at me. Your own behavior is causing derailing of the thread. Can't you see it? I didn't mention you. I was simply expressing my own opinion. But somehow you can't control your aggression and the need to jump on me even when I told you that I don't like to argue with you.. Why provoke someone to a fight and then blame them later or call them victim or make personal comments about them. If you left your opinion about the thread, I wouldn't feel the need to jump on you. Then why do you do it? Learn to control your urges to control what others do and everyone can breathe in peace. Even while apologizing you still felt the need to mention me in the form of an attack. Maybe don't attack others so much.. I'm obviously going to defend if someone attacks me, that's natural. I'm not wrong in defending when someone is attacking. You need to learn to control your aggression if someone has a different opinion instead of wanting to keep attacking them over it. It's your ego need to prove that only you can be right. It leads to nothing but fights and defensiveness. You can't provoke someone in the same breath and in the same breath call them a victim for feeling attacked. This is like the very definition of attacking someone's integrity. Of course you have the right to debate but only when the other person is ready to debate, you cannot force your debate on someone. The thing that tells me that you have a propensity to provoke unnecessary fights is the fact that you constantly want to mention me (and that's how the thread is getting derailed) despite me frequently requesting you to not mention me. This is probably the 4th time that I'm telling you to not mention me and yet you keep doing the same. So you will say some bullshit to me and I shouldn't defend? How does that work? You will go on insulting me and I should simply sit silent? Dude stuff doesn't work like that. Look at your own hypocrisy. You talk about not wanting derailing the thread but you obviously know that I'll respond to you if you attack me in a personal way (you're this you're that, kind of way, that's an obviously hurtful way of attacking because it's an attack on someone's character, rather than a simple disagreement) and so you mention me again out of spite to throw an attack at me again, this does not show an intention to not derail the thread. Your apology is fake and not grounded in good intention if what you're doing is opposite of it Do me and everyone a favor. Don't mention me constantly and make me defend myself if you really really don't want to derail the thread. Show it in action. I'm done with this seriously.. The level of aggression from this user is just beyond normal. I hope mods can look into this. I'm tired of responding to this user who is constantly provoking me to a fight despite persistent requests to the contrary.

Maybe try to focus on other things that can be productive and give up the forum totally. Just curse it already. It's not even worth it. Be in places where you can use your time productively. At the end of the day nobody can take away your power

If there is forum frustration, Then learn to find a way around trolls. Talk to very few people After exercising great control over my emotions, I finally cut off some people from my life who belonged here. It was tough but taking tough decisions is what bravery means. When you're brave things fall in place. Don't let others have the upper hand. Be cautious. Be cautious of your own presence.

Maybe don't start a fight over other's opinions and threads won't get derailed. Let people have freedom to their own opinions and don't drag on it. If everyone just calmly leaves their opinion without the constant need to jump on others, we won't have this problem.

First observe good people's behavior..