Preety_India

@Marcel @AriSujan @Gesundheit2 @Flowerfaeiry thank you for the responses. @Loba your response is really helpful. Thank you for the time. Really appreciate.

I'll agree with the above user. Stage Green masculinity means the man is very matured and has integrated the feminine in him. Stage Green men are more relatable to women and they understand empathy and emotions and have a much better understanding of their environment. They are less likely to be aggressive to women.

@RickyFitts Hehe. Interesting.

@Marcel This is yours Black heart And a pink heart. The setting is perfect my love.

The last journal's name was changed as the subject changed organically on its own. Need to start new one.

@Marcel that is very sweet of you honey.

@Marcel You are Blackrose I'm a pink Periwinkle

@Marcel for me the name Michael is important because it reminds me of Archangel Michael. That's why in my mind Michael feels like a holy name. Grace reminds me of being graceful and taking things with grace and if I had a daughter I would teach her exactly that.

@Marcel How do you know that I always wanted to name my child Michael. That's such a coincidence Btw. Yea I wanted to name my son Michael and if I had a daughter I would name her Heather or Grace. For me Michael is the purest name for a son. I always believed it to be the best name for a man to have.

@Marcel We're not even Marcel and preety anymore. We are Blackrose and Periwinkle. Yours a black heart and a black rose and mine a pink heart and a pink Periwinkle.. ??

@Marcel You are the hero of my life. I never felt I deserve someone like you. You made me feel loved and accepted. I usually don't feel worthy of anything but you make me feel a bit worthy from time to time. I feel very safe with you You are my knight in shining armor. Whenever I'm with you , I feel loved and accepted. You are giving me so much confidence that I lacked for so long. I never felt so much confident in life before meeting you You make me feel so wanted and accepted My family almost made me feel unloved and discarded. But you make me feel accepted. I trust you blindly After meeting you I feel very motivated and encouraged to improve my life I never felt like I could do anything better. But with you I feel like I can do a lot

@Marcel You are the hero of my life. I never felt I deserve someone like you. You made me feel loved and accepted. I usually don't feel worthy of anything but you make me feel a bit worthy from time to time. I feel very safe with you You are my knight in shining armor. Whenever I'm with you , I feel loved and accepted. You are giving me so much confidence that I lacked for so long. I never felt so much confident in life before meeting you You make me feel so wanted and accepted My family almost made me feel unloved and discarded. But you make me feel accepted. I trust you blindly After meeting you I feel very motivated and encouraged to improve my life I never felt like I could do anything better. But with you I feel like I can do a lot

I usually don't feel worthy of anything but my lover Marcel makes me feel a bit worthy from time to time. I feel very safe with him He is my knight in shining armor. Whenever I'm with him, I feel loved and accepted.

I feel dead inside. The only thing that makes me feel better is my new found love.

Have to drill this into my paper mache head constantly. Like a gazillion times. Don't don't go on the other side of YouTube and get fucking depressed. Stick to cats and long nappy videos. Hmm. Thanks.

How do I love myself more? This question is not about self image issues that girls usually have. I don't have issues regarding looks or body image, most of the time I am fine with it. I don't even hate myself. But deep down I feel like I don't love myself. Like it's all hollow there. There's no hate. But also there is no love there. It feels empty inside. I have empathy for other people and I quickly reach out to people who need help or support. One day a friend of mine said to me - "you are good at taking care of others, but you fail to take good care of yourself." I never feel like I'm important enough. It is always others others others. My family never taught me that I was important enough. In fact they always did the reverse. I was always told to sacrifice myself for others. As a result if I needed help, I never asked I would help others in my family but never myself. I would schedule appointments for my mother but not for me. If she needed to eat, I would go hungry that night The problem is that all this tendency has bottled up over the years to where I no longer feel myself deeply I feel like a dead tree dying. I feel like I never have myself. There is always something more important to do and it's not related to me. Deep down I feel tons of self pity because I was made to feel undeserving of anything good for years as a child. I was tirelessly nitpicked on by my mother, constantly criticised If I ate an extra morsel I was called selfish. I developed a shadow against self care and selfishness. If I felt uncomfortable doing something for her, I was labelled selfish If I felt lazy or unwell and did not schedule her appointments, I was called selfish and useless. It was as though my whole life was a duty to others I have come to realize that this pattern dominated my life and caused me immense suffering to the point that if someone showed me love and acceptance I would break down in tears I never felt loved and accepted by my family, except for my dad who died years ago and I don't have much of a memory of him. Feeling isolated and disowned by my own family made me feel very vulnerable and unworthy. How do I feel strong enough to love myself from deep within? The inner feeling of worthlessness doesn't go away no matter how hard I try.

That is so gentle and cute. I'm thankful for your gesture. I always feel very safe with you You make me feel loved and accepted.

@BadHippie you are absolutely not wrong about your worldview and whatever I am hearing about Germany isn't leaving a good taste in my mouth either. However I have learned that at least as an individual you can't change hate. I have faced racism in the past and thought a lot about why someone hated me for my race. Or why someone made a racist joke. I couldn't sit and reason with them because they simply won't try to understand. There was no point and it creates a lot of frustration. I finally overcame this frustration by learning to accept people who were racist to me and understanding that people with ignorant minds will exist and nothing can be done about it unless they are ready to change on their own. You can't change hatred to love. I can't make someone who hates me love me no matter how much I try. If they hate me, they simply hate me one way or another. Now I'm not completely pessimistic about change because everything is quite complex. So if there's an organization trying to bring change and you're keen on social revolution you could try contributing to it in whatever ways you see fit. However chances of solving anything that has no institutional or social support, all by one person are very slim.

Understanding other's stupidity also requires intelligence. It doesn't mean insulting someone. It only means not being a part of their harmful scheme and consciously Detaching from it. Some things are stupid whether you like it or not for example believing in Qanon ideas.. Not trying to moralize shit, simply using basic sense.

@BadHippie it's basically survival in stupidity. It's not wanting others to perish or delighting in their stupidity or miserable outcome. It's simply realizing that if you become a part of it, a lot of harm comes your way and it leads to nothing but futility in the end. So basically wisen up, transcend the stupidity instead of trying to fix it and move on. There is a saving grace in coming back to yourself and realizing that it was only you who began this journey and only you who dies in the end. What you choose to do with this journey lies in your hands and choose wisely.

I've contemplated on this question for a long time now. And the answer that finally gave me peace is this - You have only 2 options in this world. Either help yourself and others like you or go down with the rest. This is the simplest most logical rational sensible solution my INTP mind came up with There are people who won't change no matter what. There are people who are beyond stupid and cannot be fixed. And unfortunately these people are in Large numbers and they are very self righteous and delusional and beyond common sense. Now If you try to reason with them, it's simply a huge waste of time. If you let them consume you, you stand to lose your own survival along with them. Your idea to change the world will only remain a pipedream and the sooner you realize this the better for you because the mounting frustration of witnessing this massive stupidity will only break your brain and waste your time. So you got three things to do here. One is to stop thinking that you can go about changing these people, if they happen to exist in your family or close circle, just let them be who they are, it's a paradigm lock, no point in hopelessly trying to change them. Next is to completely Detach yourself from this stupidity and not be consumed by it or be drowned into it or distracted by it, the more you consume this type of information or environment, you remain stuck in it unable to do anything productive as all of this unproductive drama around you occupies your mind and keeps you away from doing things that will bring a positive momentum in your life, so keep ten foot distance mentally away from these topics, people, news, events, information etc. Next and the last thing to do is to ground yourself in reality, focus completely on yourself, draw the focus back to you where it rightfully belongs and then continue to develop yourself and save yourself from the bullshit of the world. This is the only solution I came up with after a lot of hard contemplating on this issue.

What?? BS

How do you view women?.

Feels like he is making up things, associating things where no association exists. Technology is simply a tool. Psychedelics are simply chemicals.. Zero connection..

Obeying your order. I'll try to learn to walk in heels and whenever I fall you'll hold my hand.