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I never finished this one. Oh well.

I had a strong headache early this morning while creating one because I stared at the screen for an hour. It was excruciating on my eyes. Sometimes I just do this as a hobby. But it's not always easy to keep up with my art projects. I often get lazy and fall off the wagon

Some of the older pots that I had created. These are either early this year or probably last year don't remember now. Doing this the last time got me really exhausted. Total 63 pieces including pieces and projects from last year.

Looking at different art material. The art material is honestly more beautiful than the art itself. Some of these that I liked are Embroidery Crochet Tessellations Mosaic Doodle invitation card work. General doodle cards Soft clipart Soft clipart stickers in motion. Digital print on pots Tribal design on pots

I need to do Art and painting /sketching Dancing Singing Writing lyrics

Some random sketches that I tried in the past.

@Marcel Yea I kinda get that. For me it's being in a state of victim that kinda heals the trauma because it gives me space and time to assess how I feel about it. Being normal means I don't have a standard to compare my abnormal feelings with.

There are a thousand thoughts running in my head that I need to jot down.

@Marcel Thank you hun.

I'm generally never fishing for praises, likes or compliments neither am I looking for criticisms. Both don't serve any good anyway, all of it is just one giant heap of nonsense.

To kill a rat you have to burn the house down. This is what you need to do. The internet is a place of great complexity. You cannot simply avoid a few bad apples the way you do in real life, because in real life you simply stop visiting a person and poof their energy is gone. However this doesn't happen online. Online people can access you with the click of a button. They can steal your pictures, circulate your identity and private information, make multiple accounts to harass you, send you unsavoury messages, write mean and awful things about you in public or spread disinformation about you. The list goes on and on. The problem is that there is no way to really avoid all of this. The only way is to log out. But that is really not a solution, rather just an escape from the real problem. What I have realized is that the nature of internet is such that either you have thick skin and you let it slide or you simply don't deal with anything "online".... Burn the house down instead of chasing the rat. The online world is a giant paradox and a can of worms, looking for that one rascal is like searching for a needle in a haystack. Nope. That won't work. Once you realize that there's a creep and there are no adequate measures in place to keep you safe, you have to burn the whole house down in the proverbial sense. No point in chasing the rat because it's an infestation, not just one rat. You have to do the easiest possible thing and that is to block it entirely so the rats have nothing to feed on. You burn the house. And move on and create a new safe home where you don't have to deal with rats anymore. You simply block it off altogether. So nothing ever gets in. That way the port of entry or "the port" is sealed shut and forever closed. This is what you need to do. And if the place offers no such choice then it's truly shitty with infestations and It's best to not put up with it. Complaining about things won't work because you'll turn into a complaint box. Simply observe.

The only solution that I can profess to the aforementioned problem is to have a battery of safeguards against malevolent behaviors that might find their way into your peaceful Meta space and of course you don't want that creepy creeper to climb into the vortex of your inner space. So once you realize that, then use various tests like shit tests to know beforehand what you are dealing with. These are not the tests that you use in dating. These are psychological body language tests that you run on people that you come in contact with online and gauge their levels of empathy, subtle clues here and there that reveal their inner self, like peekaboo moments that allow you to know who you are dealing with, again this is not easy and often you could end up misinterpreting people but such tests and screening filters are handy to screen out people who are toxic to you. Also remember toxic does not necessarily mean that you're dealing with a bad hearted person. It could only be that they are slightly screwed up mentally and are toxic but they could be fine, yet they should be avoided because of their toxicity. Also the not so toxic ones could be pure cancer like frenemies. They might appear superficially nice but their real face shows when they are mean and cold in times when you really need them. There are so many aspects to this that you could almost write an entire book on this.

On top of all of that, there's a creepier aspect to writing. The pen is mightier than the Sword..people can really influence you simply through text. So even if you are creepy within, your text won't show it and people will really take you as an inspiration just because you write a few good things. That's why the online world of written texts cannot be valued for what it's worth nor can it be trusted or taken too seriously. Everything is at face value, pretty much. You have what you have and you don't what you don't. You can have someone who completely lacks social tact and acts like an edgelord and they could have a heart of gold or you could have someone who appears pretty decent in their conversations but could be a super pedophile behind those beautiful inspiring words. You never know what sort of weird you are running into.

All public relationships are collapsible and false. You'll never know how a person really is in the public sense since you are not in their head. What they write to you are simply pixels on the screen. How can you really anything from it? There are deeper layers to a person that are simply not visible in public conversations. Those are just pixels. If they are bad with pixels, then they are horrible in real life because they could not be decent enough when it comes to pixels. Or they are completely ridiculous to the point that they have no social tact and it is possible that they have a good heart but don't keep up with a good social image due to lack of self awareness. Orrrrr. They're really bad and have no qualms about it. One way or another, there's really no sureshot way to gauge personalities online unless you're in a relationship with them. Having a relationship with a person for years helps you understand that person inside out at least to a certain degree. But outside of it, that is outside of an intimate relationship online or offline there is really no way to navigate this terrain without error in judgement. That is, you can't really tell who you're dealing with and the only thing that you can rely on are a few non verbal clues, body language (since it's not visible) I'll call it body language of text. There is a certain body language to text that gives away clues about the type of person you are dealing with.. Analyze the text in multiple ways. Repeated exposure to how a person writes gives away important clues to a detective eye. There are intuitive elements and aspects to writing. You learn a lot intuitively about how a person generally responds and what type of person you are dealing with. This requires an expert level of expertise, skill and experience. Writing analysts and experts can easily decode personality through vast amounts of texts. These are the kind of people hired in criminal psychology. They are called profilers.. Can it be possible to know intuitively if you're dealing with a sociopath or psychopath through text? I'm not sure at the moment. Maybe there are ways that experts know.. "body language of text."

Evil can exist in any shape or form. It's not necessary that the person has to be deeply evil for evil to happen. Evil can happen anyway. Even mentally ill people end up doing evil stuff. Without realizing it of course. What you need at the end of the day is cognitive awareness, empathy and the willingness to change who you are. If you are ready to change you should be forgiven instead of being demonized and blamed, harassed or targeted, simply because you opened up about your flaws. Some people aren't willing to change their mentally disordered ways. This is where the real fault lies. I think such people should be cut out of society because they are truly harmful in the total absence of self awareness and how their actions cause irreversible damage to others. Such people are truly unfit and will cause severe damage one way or another and the best is to avoid them in your lives. Is to say bye bye to them.

What blocks me from truly getting the help I need = Me myself. How? By being hyper hyper defensive This becomes a barrier for trauma victims although it appears like a Shield. It blocks the individual from connecting to external sources that are actually ginormously helpful but the extreme inner defensiveness sabotages these forces from guiding you. Let go of the defense. This is easier said than done for a trauma victim. But when you completely submit and surrender yourself to external sources, perhaps they can actually be able to help