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I want to try a different form of art where I can let my personal feelings be expressed in it in a weird kind of way (well I had to be weird haha) Like simply drawing an eye to reflect pain Something simple but profound at a the same time. Like a paradox. To Marcel - thanks hun. Just saw your comment.

Honestly doing this art makes me feel like I'm creating music. Don't know what it is but it gets me hooked And it feels like pure music in my mind.

I completed this last week and it caused me massive strain on my eyes while trying to fill the details. Especially the white dots with the glow brush and I completely smeared the hanger part. I had to keep zooming to do a detail sketch with my pen. I was feeling nervous and unsteady while doing the top part and some part of the hanger got smeared. I couldn't help that because it was too delicate. So I smeared it a bit on the other end to make it symmetrical on both sides. Took hours to achieve the right effect.

I drew the blue flowers on the side, especially a bigger one on the bottom left side of the painting and then I heavily smudged it with water paint brush. The result isn't very aesthetic as it completely destroyed the flower. I wanted to look faded a bit and smudged the blue color on to the free space to get the faded appearance on the sides. Maybe better luck next time This one came out a bit obscure but salvageable.

@River of Souls you're welcome. If you need any help feel free to ask me or even pm me I hope you must have figured out how to use pm or you can ask @Michael569 It seems you're a newbie here. So welcome here. And feel free to use your journals as you like.

@Michael569 @River of Souls This is an easier way of getting your lost or buried journals or your current journals. Do you see the arrow in the picture? Go to your profile page. Click on that symbol in the middle of your profile page just below your profile (see the red arrow). Once you click on it, it changes to the symbol shown by the red arrow below. You'll also see content type shown by the green arrow. Click and expand it and you will have options to just see your topics in compressed format. All your journals and topics will be visible as shown by the second red arrow. Click on that person symbol (shown by the red arrow in the second pic) once again and you will be back on your profile page

I love doing Mosaic art.

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@Marcel thank you for asking. Yea I got some rest after all. Yesterday was heavy. Good morning my Ewige Seele.

Some more Halloween costumes.

Right now I'm thinking about Halloween costumes. Like witches vampires elves and fairies.

If I wear a wig I would look somewhat like this. Sometimes I can look like this (below) minus the hazel eyes.

I will talk about language later. Right now I was looking through some wigs and I felt like I could look like those if I wore those wigs. I'm not so much into wearing wigs and I have never worn a wig before. But these wigs were kinda tantalizing. So i was thinking how i would look if I put a wig on

This is a good technique. I can simply cut the text I want and then refresh the page and stuff doesn't get lost.. So yea, what was I talking about? Language acts like chat fodder. There is a certain monotony to it.. Every question no matter how complex is broken down to the same stereotypical answer. It's almost like a rehearsal for a show or interview, you already know what you're going to say and you keep parroting the same response every time. Now this turns into some sort of language vocabulary in a way, I'm not talking about conventional vocabulary here. I'm talking about how language turns into a syntax and the same vocabulary or style is used over and over. For example, if my response to a situation is - Lets pick another example. I just read Leo's response to a post and it goes - Humorous, positive, deatched from outcome, confident in himself, assertive but very socially calibrated, non-controlling, self-amusing, not explicitly sexual in a vulgar way. Creepy/scary guys fail on all those points. Humor and playfulness makes her feel at easy. Creepy/scary guys are serious and lack humor. Just being friendly and socially calibrated is huge. Creepy guys lack that calibration. They act like social retards. This is an example of syntax I was talking about. Which means every time the same question is put forth, the same exact answer is rolled out. It's sort of a particular type or thing where no matter what the subject matter or no matter what the question and how differently it's worded, the response is the same and the style of delivery and tone remains the same as well. Thus a good communication pattern is made of many syntaxes. Those syntaxes keep repeating throughout like embroidery on fabric

Yea someone might be good at - Talking cheap things in a cheap non offensive way and so?????

Make mental notes. If someone is not being serious, just don't deal with them. Adapt and learn. It's all about adaptation and not fighting. And what do you gain out of fighting anyway? Nothing. You don't need someone who doesn't understand you, doesn't take you seriously, doesn't talk seriously or acts seriously then let them go, they're not meant to be. These days I'm taking a lot of interest in art. It has come back again. The thumb rule in everything is karma. (dissociative thoughts). If someone acts in psychopathic ways their own karma will backfire, this happened to me as well and l learned my lesson. The difference between me and them is accountability. I admit that I must have done wrong things in my life (not too wrong or bad but wrong nevertheless), yet the one thing that distinguishes me by a huge margin is my ability to accept accountability for my actions. I simply admit and move on because what's there to hide once the cat is out of the bag.. Its not up to anyone to psychoanalyze me or others. Again disconnected thoughts. Language acts like chat fodder. There is a certain monotony to it.. Every question no matter how complex is broken down to the same stereotypical answer. It's almost like a rehearsal for a show or interview, you already know what you're going to say and you keep parroting the same response every time. Now this turns into some sort of language vocabulary in a way, I'm not talking about conventional vocabulary here. I'm talking about how language turns into a syntax and the same vocabulary or style is used over and over. For example, if my response to a situation is - Lets pick another example. I just read Leo's response to a post and it goes - Humorous, positive, deatched from outcome, confident in himself, assertive but very socially calibrated, non-controlling, self-amusing, not explicitly sexual in a vulgar way. Creepy/scary guys fail on all those points. Humor and playfulness makes her feel at easy. Creepy/scary guys are serious and lack humor. Just being friendly and socially calibrated is huge. Creepy guys lack that calibration. They act like social retards.

"play stupid games and win stupid prizes" is the thought that comes to my mind recurrently. Now looking back at my own behavior, I'm asking myself - what the fuck was I doing in the first place? Why was I being so naive at understanding clues? Anyway im much smarter in the " social smart" sense, much more now than last year. All I needed was a bit of experience and education. Now I'm doing a good job at this. Still given my condition and situation this is not an easy feat for someone like me.

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