Preety_India

I'm getting a new wave of confidence these days. I just fucking don't give a shit anymore

Becuz... Easterners are authentic. And western is sold out capitalist bullshit.

I have to work on several projects right now.

@Space Lizard lol. That made me laugh.

Such a gentle giant. https://youtube.com/shorts/kOI-pqtWZ34?feature=share

I had a dream where cats, Elephants and Native Americans were trying to save me.

Such a gentle giant https://youtube.com/shorts/kOI-pqtWZ34?feature=share

Love this. The majestic Indian Elephant.

Go find some better job to do, since you are so talented, instead of psychoanalyzing some random woman on a forum. Omg I remember these words from years ago. Deja Vu moment.

I like ancient Hindu Radha pics Got this from the internet. Nice sketch that I found on some website. I like how the lips are red

It's funny how people assume that they have the right to attack others but when you defend and fight back they suddenly see a problem..

I was thinking about so many different things.

@Marcel I love you. Feels like a relief.

(writing a long post for those who constantly misunderstand me). I'm an enigma. I am in no way simple. I am aware of this. At the same time what I am is really a product of my parenting, my genetics and my awful circumstances. As well as my own unique personality that grew from my base character. I'm no Saint neither I'm a sinner. Don't call me good or bad. I am a mirror. I only show you what you show to me, nothing more, nothing less. So how I react to your words is a good indicator of how you acted with me. I have zero agenda and I find no reason to please anyone. I don't need your love. Because nobody can love me truly if they never understood me. I'm ferocious, I'm fierce, I'm strong, I'm brave, I'm guilt - free. I fucking did nothing wrong in my life. I'M WILD. I'M FERAL. I have my own set of beliefs and principles and I'm ready to die to defend them. I lived in survival mode all my childhood despite my vicious bullying and abuse I suffered. It was terrible. I live in a stage Red environment. I adopted stage Green values but I also inherited stage Red ferocity. I learned that in order to survive I'll need to fight hard and harder. I'm a fighter and a survivor. I have the blood of a tiger, a panther, a lion, a wolf and an Elephant all mixed together. I'm agile as a panther, I will see through your shit before you test me. My intuition is sharp. I learned as a child for my survival. Don't mistake me for a fool. I know you before you know me. I have a sixth sense. You measure me, I'm secretly testing you before you know it. I'm 2 steps ahead of you in this survival game, I have to. Everything is survival to me. Don't ever underestimate my power. My sixth sense is running even in sleep. You just can't outsmart me. I'll know you before you even approach. I smell people like a shark. I'm ferocious. I am watching you even if you don't see me watching you. Don't play games with my head. Basically don't fuck with me. Because I'll figure it out. My karma is strong. You are barking up the wrong tree if you decide to play with my head. Like Joseph(my ex) did. I'm like a volatile liquid. You burn your own fingers if you have me in your hands. I'm ferocious as a tiger, don't bother provoking me or you get my roar. I have the spirit of Laxmi. So I'm caring. But I also have the spirit of Kali. I'm equally ferocious and dangerous. I am traumatized and wounded. Beware of a traumatized tiger. You ain't fucking going to teach me anything that I don't already know. I'm calm as a lion. Won't do shit to you if you just let me go about with my business. I'm royally calm when nobody bothers me. Just chilling like a king. Won't hurt a fly. Don't even pretend like you are getting on my nerves. I don't give a fuck what others are doing. My life is too big to care about others. I have to constantly deal with shit. I don't have the luxury to think too much about others. Stay the fuck out. Don't piss me when I'm calm. I don't take it gently. I'm clever and protective as a wolf. I stand guard near my loved ones. They are in my heart and I'm fiercely loyal. I'll pay with my life If need arises. I'm humble and protective as a dog of those who I love. I suffer guilt if I can't help those who deserve lt. And I'm territorial like an elephant. I'll whoop your ass if you put even one step in my territory. No trespassing. No fooling me. No testing my patience. Or my trunk knows how to smash I walk like an elephant. I'm a gentle giant. I walk free. I walk with pride. I have a clear conscience. Done nothing wrong to anyone in my life. I have helped everyone close to me. So don't dare to teach me compassion. I know enough about compassion. I have done more than my share to people, sometimes regretted being sweet. I'm defensive like an elephant. Don't abuse me if you don't want me to act insane. I have remained silent amid a lot of provocation. I don't provoke anything. I keep to myself mostly. Those who judge me should use a mirror. I have consciously tried to stay away from drama. You can't provoke someone and expect them to not react. Easy to preach me. Don't expect me to lie down and take your judgement. You can only judge me negatively if we have a strong bond of trust where you communicate with me regularly like a close loyal friend, only then I'm susceptible to your advice and criticism, not otherwise because I don't trust easily. Elephants are close to my heart. They teach me to be strong and defensive. If you are chilling with me and generally nice to me, you'll see a nicer friendlier side of me. I can be pretty friendly and cute depending on how you treat me. I don't expect much. Just simple friendliness is enough for me to start flapping my ears in unison. If you show me authenticity, zero agenda and true affection, love and loyalty, I can be very loving,sweet and Affectionate like a cuddly bear. I can be extremely gentle, playful and loving. AND LASTLY I'M NOT PERFECT. IF YOU CAN'T EMBRACE MY FLAWS, YOU CAN'T TRULY LOVE ME. DON'T EXPECT ME TO BE PERFECT BECAUSE I WON'T EVER BE. I'M A WORK IN PROGRESS. And one more. If you are fucking with me, you're fucking with the wrong person. I'm a psychopath.

It's completely fair for me to react defensively if someone attacks me.. If you can't handle it, then don't dish it out. I bite back if someone bites me.. Im not wrong. I have always operated in survival mode.. Come at me and I'll come at you. Why should I not stand up for myself? Don't I have feelings? Am I not a human being? I have the same right to live as all others. Who are you to tell me how I should live or what I should do with my time or with my goddamn life???? If you feel my hate, then that's because you showed me hate as well. I'm just a human being not a Saint. If I'm shown hate, here's my teeth for you. I'm going to hiss right back at you if you come at me. Call me whatever but it's my birth right.

This journal is meant for my personal feelings and to get my heart out. I don't like to bottle up things. I vent it out. As much as I can. Not fair to judge me. Judge yourself before you dare to judge others. You don't know me to have the right to judge me. Read the Bible. God promise. Your karma will come. Read Matthew Chapter 7, verses 1 —> 5 1 “Do not judge, or you too will be judged. 2 For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. 3 “Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? 4 How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? 5 You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye. People who judge me will meet the same fate they decided to put me through. Karma works and Karma will come like the knell of a bell.

How long before I get a heart attack? Because I have been through so much stress lately as a result of my family problems. It wasn't long ago when I felt suicidal. Get your act together before you become responsible for someone's death Literally......

I am feeling a bit weak, anxious, tired, upset The attacks in the morning have left me drained. To be honest I hate all this character analysis. It's brutal. If you don't know someone don't talk to them. Keep your judgement to yourself.

I like this accent.

There's a lot to learn from this. Trying to decode cat language.