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I didn't know mrrp meant "hello." many of my cats used to do that. https://youtu.be/cQzJcmwMwTA

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Somehow things are getting clearer as I grow further in my experience of the world around me. I am learning things that I wasn't aware of before. I'm a young person, a young woman trying to figure out her way in this world and it's not going to be easy as I'm still quite inexperienced in the way the world works. I still have to learn a lot on how people use me for their means and ends and keeping strong boundaries is the only way to keep predators out.

I lack at articulating my thoughts the way they need to be. Yet my writing is getting more and more nuanced everyday the more I write. I'm still not there yet. Of course I suck at anything social. I could never do things that other people do in terms of social context. But God compensated me wherever I lacked with things that are otherworldly. I have a massive sense of intuition that is unsurpassed. I'm yet to come across a person who thinks on my level of intuition. They simply can't. I hit the bull's eye right on target every time. Part of this is because I try to be as honest as possible with myself. So whatever comes to me is not tainted in any way. I mean can I be more honest than admitting that I am a psychopath? How much more honesty are you expecting? My own honesty and clear conscience is the reason why I always get along with the most authentic people. And also the reason why I constantly end up clashing with insincere disingenuous people the most.

I'm not asking for compliments. In fact compliments are a sneaky way to gain trust. What I'm saying is try to be as fair and non judgemental as possible since you really don't know me. So if you can't like or accept me then the best policy is to stay out of my zone, the lack of trust is only going to make matters worse. If you ask you for a fair assessment of me, then give it, not otherwise. If you are giving me unsolicited advice on my character, that's not welcome because it doesn't come from a good faith place. It's only meant to tarnish me. At least that's how I'm going to take it. Whatever you say or think of me is mere judgement and projection. Not to mention that I smell hypocrisy, double standards, mind games, social games, and (an effort to malign me), Patronizing condescending tone that I don't appreciate. You ain't doing me any favor by telling me my flaws. I'm well aware of my own flaws. No need to constantly dig up my flaws if you're really coming from a good faith place. Once you break my trust it's done. It's over with. I'm getting better at detecting authenticity. Another thing about compliments is that it is also offered by people who are trying to make themselves look better or cover their bases before attacking me later. Just a ploy... I have reached a point where I look at people who compliment me with suspicion. Why??? Because the people who did the most damage to me in life were people who complimented me the most in life. It's like a rouse. A ploy. I would feel happy receiving compliments (who doesn't), yet I would be betrayed later on. There is something inherently suspicious about people who compliment you. They are like fake friends. Maybe they are trying to lure you in. At this point I'll develop cold feet if someone who I'm not friends with excessively compliments me. Nope. Don't want. If you are going to dangle a biscuit in front of me, only to hit me when I eat it, I don't want it. No thanks. The need to seek validation and approval is slowly coming to an end. Its harmful. Don't try to gain social validation because people use it against you. They use it as a weapon. If you don't care about what they think about you, then you are freed from being subjected to the assaults of this weapon. The problem lies when you are trying to please someone who is hell bent on trying to hurt you. You feel like you will change their mind and things will get alright but that's a pipedream. It's an illusion and a dangerous one. The more you try to please, the more the person will try to hurt you. You are being foolish in thinking that things will work. Because they simply won't. The more you deal with that person who is holding a vendetta against you, the worse it will get over time and they will attack you or use you even more. Only more harm and damage will result from it. Just walk away from such people and never turn back. If they broke your trust, the accountability is on them. Because they created this. Not you. If they can't handle the shit they create, they have already proved that they are not trustworthy enough to make peace with. No. I have nothing to do with you anymore. I have understood what you are trying to do but I'm not going to say it openly. I don't want to be a part of what you're doing. Whatever it may be.

Don't show signs of misunderstanding me because then there is no harmony and simply clashing of perspectives. If you want harmony then you should develop trust If not then fuck off. When you attack me, it's a good indicator of your own character. I mean there is no risk to your reputation if you pounce on me.

Once I feel like you're misunderstanding me, the trust is gone. If the trust is gone, then don't come around trying to advise me because I won't see it as coming from a good faith place. If you really have good intent, then why would there be trust issues in the first place?????

Don't come around and compliment me in my journal.

Why should anything or everything revolve around me? I can't wrap my head around it when people have such a great deal of curiosity about me.. Do you ever let your curiosity rest?

Anyway I just need to focus on whatever lies ahead. Sometimes I feel like venting about my mother and her awful behavior. And I'll gradually blossom into a more calmer person hopefully I wish society would raise more awareness about trauma and how it impacts your personality. Most people are ignorant about trauma. Doctors and psychiatrists hardly talk about this publicly. They treat it as taboo.

Anger management My PTSD causes me to fly into rages because I feel betrayed and I can't trust anyone. One thing that I need to learn is to de-escalate a situation where someone is trying to provoke me by insulting my character or personality. Instead of angrily reacting to it the way I usually do, I can simply write one word and end it right there. Just one word. I don't like character and personality attacks. It resurfaces my trauma because that's what my mom's favorite hobby was. She used to constantly attack my character, self worth and personality like some mean school girl literally. Growing up she treated me less like a daughter and more like a rival. I hate that shit.

Fascinating wildlife of the Okavango Delta. Wildlife of the Okavango Delta includes a myriad of species including African Bush Elephant, African Buffalo, Hippopotamus, Lechwe, Topi, Blue Wildebeest, Giraffe, Nile crocodile, Lion, Cheetah, Leopard, Brown Hyena, Spotted Hyena, Greater Kudu, Sable Antelope, Black Rhinoceros, White Rhinoceros, Plains Zebra, Warthog . Greater Kudu Lechwe The topi, sassaby, tiang or tsessebe is a large African antelope of the genus Damaliscus and subfamily Alcelaphinae in the family Bovidae, with a number of recognised geographic subspecies. Sable Antelope The common warthog is a wild member of the pig family found in grassland, savanna, and woodland in sub-Saharan Africa. In the past, it was commonly treated as a subspecies of P. aethiopicus, but today that scientific name is restricted to the desert warthog of northern Kenya, Somalia, and eastern Ethiopia. Post in progress...

@Marcel hun thank you so much. I love you. Yes we need to go there some day. I would love to. Kisses. ❤️

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Botswana. Okavango National Park. The Okavango Delta (or Okavango Grassland) (formerly spelled "Okovango" or "Okovanggo") in Botswana is a swampy inland delta formed where the Okavango River reaches a tectonic trough at an altitude of 930–1,000 m in the central part of the endorheic basin of the Kalahari. The Okavango Delta in Botswana is one of the world's largest inland deltas. While most river deltas usually lead to an ocean, the Okavango River empties onto open land, flooding the savanna and creating a unique and ever-changing inland delta. ... The delta swells almost three times in size between March and August. You can expect to see lechwe, sitatunga, reedbuck, bushbuck, hippo, crocodile, elephant, buffalo, zebra, giraffe, wildebeest, impala and tsessebe. Predators – including lion, hyena, wild dog, leopard and cheetah – have also adapted to life in the delta, as have many smaller creatures. Hippos can be found throughout many reserves within southern Africa, but the Okavango Delta has high concentrations of hippo pods. You'll see them while in the open waters on the Delta or during the evening time when they come out to forage for food. Simply put, the Okavango Delta is paradise for hippo lovers. In the middle of the dry Kalahari desert, the Okavango Delta provides a welcome oasis for all wildlife. ... Even though it is commonly believed to be the largest inland delta in the world, it is not – there are two larger ones in Africa, the Sudd Swamp in South Sudan, and the Inner Niger Delta in Mali. The Okavango Delta would not exist as we know it without the help of a number of keystone species which help to shape the environment and habitats in and around the Delta. These eco-system engineers include the elephant, hippo and termites. The entire south western part of the Okavango Delta is as dry as a bone. The annual flood from the Okavango's catchment was at its lowest levels this year. The low water found empty rivers and it is unlikely that the trickle will reach Maun this year. ... The Thaoge River flow into Lake Ngami died in the mid-1900s. The floods normally peak in the Delta during July and August and start to recede again in September. Just to confuse a little, the time of year when the flood waters should be at their highest in the Delta, is actually known as the “dry season” because there is no rain at this time. Lions are not usually associated with water but in the Okavango Delta they have had to adapt, to pursue prey through water and have become accomplished swimmers. The lions of Botswana have the broadest range of prey in the African continent, known to hunt buffalo, hippo and even elephant. Lions get their water like most other savanna mammals, relying on watering holes and temporary pools to hydrate. Prey species are attracted to water, and lions exploit this nonrandom.

I yelled at my mother. Once again I don't like her abusing me. She always breaks my boundaries. I slept off on the couch in the living room and she entered my room while I was asleep and threw away two large bottles that I kept for storing water. She broke my boundaries I had told her multiple times to never enter my room. It triggers my privacy needs. I feel violated She broke my trust again Sneakily entering my room while I'm asleep is breaking my trust. She always breaks my trust. She has no right to do this She tries to control every aspect of my life I fucking hate her I lashed out at her I was a sweet girl. She turned me into a hyper defensive person. Fucking psycho bitch who tried to ruin my life. My room is my room and privacy. She should knock and come inside only with my permission and not otherwise. She always breaks my boundaries like it's nothing. I need respect. I'm not her slave One day she threw out my sweater without asking me and it was my favorite sweater I'm an adult. She should stop treating me like a kid She doesn't respect me and when I feel hurt I lash out, then she is surprised. She is fucking bipolar. Like a bully There was no need for her to sneak into my room. She takes advantage of my weaknesses. Whenever I feel weak, she will start controlling me. It always feels like I'm living in a war zone. Her happiness is fake. She plays games with my head. I don't like her fake love. If she truly loved me she would have respected me. She wouldn't do exactly what triggers me. She does exactly what triggers me and then pretends like nothing happened. And when I get angry she calls me mentally ill. Who is mentally ill? A person who triggers despite being told or the triggered?. She is an obsessed psycho. If I told her to not add salt or butter in cooking, she will deliberately add more butter. If I'm allergic to something, she will deliberately and purposely use that. It's like if you kept a cat and the cat doesn't like the smell of perfume and you are deliberately spraying the perfume near the cat or if the cat is getting diarrhea by eating popcorn, you are deliberately feeding the cat popcorn. Isn't this behavior abusive? She does this. But she maintains a happy cheerful image in public. She tries to make herself look like a fun loving excited person in public. So people usually assume that she is good at heart. But she is abusive. Stuff that people don't see. She will purposely break my trust and boundaries and then act like a child and say "what did I do wrong, I didn't do anything." It's almost like a child who steals candies from a jar and then you ask the kid because you saw him doing it, he will be like - "I didn't do anything." But you know the kid is lying. It's sociopath behavior. She is that way. I never see her sad or crying. She doesn't feel remorse. She is always like an excited kid. Even the day my father died, she did not cry. I get upset by her lack of empathy and compassion. She always talks about money and work all day. There is no place for human dignity or emotions with her. That doesn't matter to her. She used to watch TV if my father was crying in pain. Fucking abusive sociopath. I always have to impress her like a slave. Or else she starts playing more abusive games. The only place where I feel safe is my room. Yea she is like a possessive obsessed hyper excited immature kid. And she thinks it's cool. Those are all signs of bipolar. Fucking abusive bipolar bitch who is obsessed with my life. The only thing that hurts the most is that she is my mom. If I ever have a child I'll never allow my child to go through what my mom put me through.

National parks list in the continent of Africa. 1. Maasai Mara National Reserve, Kenya 2. Serengeti National Park, Tanzania 3. Ngorongoro Conservation Area, Tanzania 4. Amboseli National Park, Kenya 5. Kruger National Park, South Africa 6. Chobe National Park, Botswana 7. Moremi Game Reserve, Botswana 8. Etosha National Park, Namibia 9. South Luangwa National Park, Zambia 10. Kgalagadi (Kalahari) Transfrontier Park, South Africa 11. Tsavo Conservation Area, Kenya 12. Volcanoes National Park, Rwanda 13. Samburu National Reserve, Kenya 14. Makgadikgadi Pans National Park 15. Namib-Nankluft Park, Namibia 16. Hwange National Park, Zimbabwe. 17. Okavango National Park.

I wish to go back to my routine..

I'm upset, mad and angry

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@Marcel if you don't treat me to an Ice cream,then this.....