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Get better at my art Heal my trauma Get rid of emotional baggage Work on my health Spend more quality time with those who need me Become more productive and active Stage Orange stuff Make more money Get rid of my mental illnesses Do extensive spiritual work Clean my karma Take care of my mother Also find authentic people and authentic interactions.

Most of these discussions devolve into conspiracy. Nobody tries to discuss it in a free fair manner. However I agree that a certain level of openness is needed when the discussion seems fair.

Seems like fantasy meeting reality. Was interesting to read. Sometimes our best insights come to us in dreams.

Consciousness is already manifesting reality in absolute beauty. The problem is that we're too busy fighting to ever see it.

Respecting another's perspective even if one does not see the truth in it. Especially if one did not have a full grasp of the entire situation.

You're burning through a lot of baggage. You're going through mini awakenings. I like such awakenings which are short spurts and outbursts of massive growth through a series of insights and breakthroughs via contemplations. I encourage you to keep doing it. My journey was similar. I did all this 2 years ago. It's satisfying.

One way to heal is to build a shield. I'll talk about this shield later.

Bitcoin will become defunct and go out of fashion.

Your ideas don't seem pragmatic. Although coming from a good place. Most communes have cult like mentality. Simply doesn't work. You need to figure out a way to survive and pay your bills. There is no escape unless you are running a business. But handling a business is no less stressful than wage slavery. Come out of your illusions. See reality.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year 2022 to Everyone. Happy Holidays, hope you stay healthy and your family is healthy - and many wishes for a healthy and fortuitous year ahead.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year 2022 to Everyone. Happy Holidays, hope you stay healthy and your family is healthy - and many wishes for a healthy and fortuitous year ahead.

I WILL NEVER EVER BE WITH A NARCISSIST AGAIN IN MY LIFE. I PLEDGE TO NEVER FALL PREY TO A NARCISSIST AGAIN

I wrote the journal on narcissistic abusive personality On November 8, 2020 exactly the time I broke up with Joseph.

@Raphael good

@Breakingthewall this seems to be a great solution. Thanks for the insight.

This wound... it's always the same wound. This wound always try to feed itself in one way or another until healed: It tries to feed itself with food It tries to feed itself with the mind It tries to feed itself in business It tries to feed itself in porn It tries to feed itself in video game It tries to feed itself in sex It tries to feed itself by fucking women It tries to feed itself by desperately seeking men It tries to feed itself by watching dumb videos It tries to feed itself with success It tries to feed itself with video games It tries to feed itself by reading this forum, fighting, debating, and competing with others on this forum It tries to feed itself by being rigid It tries to feed itself with repetitive thoughts patterns It tries to feed itself by making meaning It tries to feed itself by recluding It tries to feed itself by smoking It tries to feed itself by drinking It tries to feed itself by over partying It tries to feed itself with TV shows It tries to feed itself with movies It tries to feed itself by not caring It tries to feed itself by overcaring It tries to feed itself by being perfectionistic It tries to feed itself by being needy for visibility It tries to feed itself by not taking risk It tries to feed itself by taking too many risks It tries to feed itself by being political It tries to feed itself by hiding its mistakes It tries to feed itself by hiding its failures It tries to feed itself by not recognizing itself It tries to feed itself by trying to fake itself It tries to feed itself by trying to be perfect It tries to feed itself by screaming at others It tries to feed itself by debating It tries to feed itself by hating itself It tries to feed itself... It tries to feed itself... It tries to feed itself by thinking that it can't resolve itself It tries to feed itself by hiding from itself It tries to feed itself by avoiding itself It tries to feed itself by sickening itself It tries to feed itself It tries to feed itself It tries to feed itself It tries to feed itself It tries to feed itself It tries to feed itself It tries to feed itself It tries to feed itself with itself but if it tries to feed itself by itself it will die by itself It tries to feed itself by killing itself It tries to feed itself by killing itself It tries to feed itself by killing itself It tries to feed itself by killing itself It tries to feed itself by killing itself It tries to feed itself by unbalancing itself I tries to feed itself by trying to go too fast It tries to feed itself... It tries to feed itself... It tries to feed itself... It tries to feed itself with the body It tries to feed itself by sickening the body It tries to feed itself by not recognizing itself It tries to feed itself by being afraid of itself It tries to feed itself by avoiding itself It tries to feed itself It tries to feed itself but doesn't know how to feed itself anymore It tries to feed itself but doesn't know how to feed itself anymore It tries to feed itself but is getting sick of feeding itself It is sick of being sick, it wants to heal, it wants to heal... What is this wound? Lack of love / distorted love. It is love and it is trying to show up to the surface.

@Breakingthewall I didn't quite get you. Can you explain again a bit more clearly. Who is the tyrant?

@Nahm what do you think I should do?

@Nahm she does not want me to stay in my room. She wants me to talk to those people. The problem is that I generally get uncomfortable and anxious around people that I do not know at all. I always socialise at my own pace. If I'm forced to talk to people it makes me super nervous and worsens my social anxiety. I have explained her this several times but she never understands. I have no problem if she enjoys her life doing whatever she wants as long as it is not at my expense. She is kinda extroverted and I'm sort of introverted. So we're a mismatch. Plus we never got along growing up I feel very uncomfortable to do things that I don't find authentic. I can't fake smile. Whatever I tend to do I just do it naturally. It would look very awkward if I sat with her guests pretending to laugh and smile when I'm feeling like shit inside. I don't want people to get this wrong idea that everything is great between me and her when the reality is completely different. I mean morning she will fight with me pretty aggressively and the guests will arrive a few hours later and I am supposed to smile at them. I find it gross and pointless. I mean what's the point of showing and keeping up appearances when things are so rotten inside?

I have postponed my first Covid Vaccine shot till January. I have heard people complain about heart palpitations and irregular heart beat. To what extent are these complaints legitimate and should they be taken seriously? I have constantly contemplated intensely around this vaccine, lots of doubts, fears, anxiety and insecurities around it. There is no clear cut answer to any of the questions. Are the implications real and what can be done about it? Thanks. Also please let me know which vaccine brand is a safer and better option since so many different brands are offering it, not sure which one to opt for. Thanks..

@Danioover9000 one thing I can suggest you personally (from whatever I know so far about heart issues because my father died from cardiac arrest many years ago), are a couple of things Try to reduce inflammation in your body to minimize palpitation. This you can do by drinking fruit juice especially citrus and drink a shit ton of water. Deep breathing also helps. Avoid eating anything that you might be allergic to. Don't eat very hot or very cold foods as they tend to worsen inflammation. Add turmeric to your diet. A small pinch in your cooking like you can add a bit to veggies. Don't eat anything too spicy Don't drink tea or coffee or that redbull or coke or any beverage that either contains carbonated water or too much sugar because these increase heart rate. Zero caffeine No drinking. No smoking. Good of you aren't doing it already. Eat at least 1 banana everyday. Very important to keep heart chill. Don't do any exercise right now. Simple walking is enough. If you can get berries in your local market then consume a cup of berries everyday Get good sleep each night. Don't change the time you go to sleep Don't eat much sugar or salt. But basic minimum salt is important Don't do any dieting. Sudden weight loss or gain can worsen palpitations. So don't do all that. Just keep a proper healthy diet Do relaxation exercises every day to keep mind calm. If you are not having a calm mind, heart palpitations can worsen. Don't use head phones. Avoid any form of loud noise or music. If you're arguing with your partner or someone in your family argues, stay away from it This much I can tell you off the top of my head

It's important to not get provoked or triggered. Remain as chill as possible. Do the counter intuitive thing.

@hyruga yeah. He took the first shot and then it began after some period of time. I hope that everything goes well eventually.

I'm going to focus on reducing my anxiety as much as possible.. I need to get some medical help once this omicron thing is over. I want to do some tests. A cancer test is also pending.

@Danioover9000 oki I got this information after some browsing. But I still recommend you take doctor's suggestions before starting anything on your own. Even discuss your exercise regime This is the link https://www.healthline.com/health/arrhythmia/alternative-treatments