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I'm no health expert. 1. No problem with fish in India. Less toxins and heavy metals here compared to America. American water is full of chemicals. 2. If you are trying to gain weight the fastest way is to eat chicken if eating chicken is not a problem for you. There is no healthy way to gain weight. Anything healthy gets processed easily and actually causes weight loss. So you have to eat fatty and sugary. Eat more meat and stuff your body with carbohydrates. 3. There is a problem with that. Are you consuming acidic, gas inducing or too much veggies. Do you drink too much milk or eat too much fruit. Are you drinking too much tea or coffee. If you are eating too much liquid or too many fruits or vegetables, it can cause mild diarrhea like symptoms. Also if you eat few meals, the body produces acid that is left unused and is the cause behind loose motions or diarrhea. Cut that out of your diet. Eat meals three times a day - morning breakfast, then lunch and dinner at night. Eat normal meals that everyone eats unless your doctor has suggested something.

@Marcel I hope you slept well

@Marcel hun thank you so much. The power came back yesterday after a long time. And I'm still sneezing and runny nose. Thank you for helping me. I love you. Hun I'm not keeping well, I'm sorry. Maybe my responses and replies will be slower than usual. Sorry about that You have a great time.

@Marcel I am sorry, I'm not able to understand your post. What was the confusion?

@AdroseAkise that's my selfie I took on Christmas, haha. I was too self conscious about using my own picture, I thought people would judge my appearance. Then I felt like maybe I can just give a try.

@CodyXarex stay well and happy holidays and be strong.

I can sometimes be very ideological. In the sense I hold on to things. Certain ideas are important to me and I feel like certain things have to be a certain way. For example I consider myself to be an SJW. This is very ideological. Because it's an identity built around a body of beliefs. The problem with the SJW mindset is that it clashes with reality. My SJW mentality or mindset means the lack of ability or simply the inability to accept things as they are. In this sense, I need to be able to free myself from this self delusion. Free myself from illusions. I have to be honest with myself. I have to see for what works and what doesn't.. Who am I deluding other than my self?

@CodyXarex I vent my daily personal frustrations and anxieties in my journal. This is hugely helpful because I refer to it from time to time and I get some insights on what I Can do about it. At least it helps me be aware of my problems and keep a track on progress. Do that. Give up all drugs seriously. Live a Clean life. You got this. You can do it. You are feeling helpless, it happens. Develop a grit and savviness that you will sleep without any drug, work hard on self control and self confidence. When your life is on the line, you will do everything to save it. Get up and get going. Pull up yourself by the bootstraps before it's too late. It's time for action and no more dilly dallying and no room for mistakes. Stop abusing your body. Take action to save your own life. Nobody else will do it for you. And you can do it.

I think the traps that I usually set myself into are generally idealogical traps and self denial. I'm looking forward to these things that I wanna do for 2022. Spiritual work. Emotional and psychological work Stage Orange Productivity stuff I want to combine all the above. Recent entries

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The thought about self honesty popped up in my mind today. It's December 27. I really don't know where this is going ........................... ............... I feel like if I had a true guide/therapist they would deconstruct me little by little, like peeling the layers of an onion. Quick access

@Karmadhi if you keep trying with a lot of girls, maybe you will find someone who doesn't care so much about looks. I was always a bit insecure about my looks and I thought a guy wouldn't like me. But I got so many good looking guys to like me, Lmao. I was kinda surprised that I could actually attract men.

. I can give you an example. If I wanted to be a millionaire, I should be ready to put in the work that is needed to earn those millions. If I have to be honest and humble enough to admit that I cannot work that hard or do what it takes, then I should stop thinking/dreaming of becoming a millionaire and accept my current state of conditions and live a low budget life. It's almost like champagne taste on a beer budget, if you don't want compromises in life. On one hand you want what guys with infinite confidence end up getting - a high value woman. On the other hand, you aren't willing to cultivate that confidence because you find it unnecessary and fake. In that case since you wish to remain humble, you have to go with the tradeoff that comes with your territory, and accept the woman that you will win at your level of confidence, which might be an average woman or below average. You have to settle for what's given to you if you cannot do what higher goals demand of you. I have to settle for a humble life if a high value life means I have to compromise with my principles. And that's exactly what I did. I left a high paying Wall Street type of job (I was working as a financial analyst at the time for 2 months), because it meant I had to compromise on my core values and cheat people into investments because that's what my boss was doing. I resigned and quit the job because I didn't want to scam people out of their hard earned money. Now that guy who was the boss had fast cars and big homes and big toys because he did all this unethical stuff as a Financial broker. I didn't want to be a part of it. So I don't regret not having that kind of lifestyle because I at least have my principles, I get good sleep at night,because I didn't do what I fundamentally found unethical.. You want something you go get it. If it feels fake, then you do things that are not fake or insincere. Any outcome that occurs is a natural consequence of your actions and you will deserve it. You will have to settle for it because that's how the world works. Quick access to journal entries

If you want high consciousness, then you shouldn't worry about competing with low conscious high confidence men. That's an irony.

@Karmadhi for example, if I tried to look sexy to win a guy, would you call that fake? Lets say I always wore long baggy clothes that don't look sexy. And in order to win a guy, I began trying makeup and wearing sexy, would that be fake and insincere? I don't think so. If getting a guy meant that I have to do something unethical, then, no thanks, I wouldn't do it. But as long as I have to do something to impress a guy like looking sexy, even if I don't exactly feel like doing it, I might have to do it because men prefer it. Dating game is cruel. People have to do a lot to get a mate. Personally I wouldn't hesitate to pull out all stops to get a high value man if that's what I have to do.

@Karmadhi this is literally impossible. Like I said champagne taste on a beer budget is your problem. Dating in and of itself is a very low conscious activity. How can you expect of Purity of self while at the same time placing your hand in mud? You can't become a millionaire without a bit of manipulation. You can't get a woman without some manipulation. Simply impossible. You want to play the game? Then you roll the dice. You can't win a game without playing it.

Also my own experience in life, especially after watching my dad growing up working hard and being honest is this - Honesty doesn't pay except for your own conscience. Honesty and humility are good in books. In real life, psychopaths win (not saying that you should be a psychopath). But from my observation, a brutal part of living in society is that it rewards jerks (I also have a thread on this), and punishes morally good people. I have seen humble people being sacked and fired from their jobs and Dishonest jerks being rewarded because they bring in more profit at the expense of moral values. Are we surprised to see more psychopaths in society everyday? It's obvious with the way society positively rewards bad behavior, domination and greed and negatively rewards honesty, courage, integrity, compassion and humility. People who are humble and authentic are consistently dragged down whereas people who act like jerks get the bigger piece of cake. It's because society is fundamentally stage Red. We want it to be turquoise but that's just a pipedream. Maybe that's why all those yogis go live in the Himalayas because society is so sick.

@Karmadhi also an interesting thing I observe about your posts is that you tend to sort of create a conundrum or paradox for yourself. I can give you an example. If I wanted to be a millionaire, I should be ready to put in the work that is needed to earn those millions. If I have to be honest and humble enough to admit that I cannot work that hard or do what it takes, then I should stop thinking/dreaming of becoming a millionaire and accept my current state of conditions and live a low budget life. It's almost like champagne taste on a beer budget, if you don't want compromises in life. On one hand you want what guys with infinite confidence end up getting - a high value woman. On the other hand, you aren't willing to cultivate that confidence because you find it unnecessary and fake. In that case since you wish to remain humble, you have to go with the tradeoff that comes with your territory, and accept the woman that you will win at your level of confidence, which might be an average woman or below average. You have to settle for what's given to you if you cannot do what higher goals demand of you. I have to settle for a humble life if a high value life means I have to compromise with my principles. And that's exactly what I did. I left a high paying Wall Street type of job (I was working as a financial analyst at the time for 2 months), because it meant I had to compromise on my core values and cheat people into investments because that's what my boss was doing. I resigned and quit the job because I didn't want to scam people out of their hard earned money. Now that guy who was the boss had fast cars and big homes and big toys because he did all this unethical stuff as a Financial broker. I didn't want to be a part of it. So I don't regret not having that kind of lifestyle because I at least have my principles, I get good sleep at night,because I didn't do what I fundamentally found unethical.. You want something you go get it. If it feels fake, then you do things that are not fake or insincere. Any outcome that occurs is a natural consequence of your actions and you will deserve it. You will have to settle for it because that's how the world works.

@Karmadhi actually yes, it does seem fake. But then there are lot of things where you have to compromise on your principles and values. Like survival? People have had to sacrifice their health just to survive. This is just a trick you're using. It's not such a big deal. Think about the things that people have to do just to survive. People have to play games to survive a job. Manipulation etc. So you're really having a cakewalk in comparison.

Sometimes you have to pay a price for someone else's idiocy and freedom.

What city is MS Stop doing whatever you're doing. Whatever drugs you are doing, that's super unhealthy. You're taking a big risk on life. Total self abandon and neglect Stay with your parents even if it costs personal freedom. Do a local job. Save enough. Move to a high paying job if possible. Then you can start living in rented housing if you consistently maintain a job. Keep learning new skills to get better work. Also a forum can't solve your issues. These are things that you will need to fix yourself. No advice can give you financial independence, it's something you gotta work at yourself.. Your core issue is financial independence. It's up to you how you build your life. Nobody can help you with this. It's cruel and harsh out there especially for core survival. You have to try multiple jobs and save up money. Also you need a proper sleeping place. All these things won't work. You have to work on your sleep and your eating habits because health is a core factor for work. If you can't have decent health, you simply can't work.

You have to up your game. Your self confidence should be so high that you walk into the party thinking that you're the most attractive guy in it. You should not even think that other guys are anywhere better than you. You need psychopathic levels of confidence otherwise your insecurities of other men will take over. The more power you give to your insecurities, the more they grow. Instead think that you're the only male who is attractive and approach women in those parties with this mindset

I feel like writing such a letter a thousand times. And even then It won't be enough. I might get so angry I'll slap the letter on their face. This is difficult for extreme trauma.

Just imagine that those guys don't exist literallyyyyy

I'm laughing so hard because I actually thought you meant something that I should not look up