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When you know you suck at life and you are still rolling.

~~~~~~~~~Punching bag~~~~~~~~ Lol

I hope tomorrow is a better day

A 90 Constant normal growth only ensures progress. The concept of "constant normal growth"

Forms of abuse 1 Gaslighting 2 passive aggressive 3 Codependency 4 domestic violence 5 Emotional Blackmail 6 suicide threats 7 Manipulation 8 curses and ill wishing 9 Guilting 10 Warnings 11 Stalking 12 Using past mistakes of the other as a way to cover up present misconduct or as a defense 13 Lying and Hiding 14 Pathological lying and compulsive lying 15 Use of physical force for restraint 16 Display of physical threat and intimidation 17 Abusive words 18 Discouragement 19 Obsessive Interference 20 Demonization 21 Systematic psychological degradation 22 Character Assassination and Witch Hunt 23 Targeting and Bullying 24 Slander 25 Cyber bullying 26 27 28 29 30

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1 goal completed. Yay.

To-Goal format Time 1 2 3 4 5

Borderline Personality Disorder. I will have to do more research on this one for comparison purposes.

How to reduce passive energy 1 focus less on the negative and the sad 2 remember life is unfair and there's no argument against failure. 3 most people fail because of lack of resources and not because of lack of intention... 4 create love in your heart every time you feel sad 5 focus less on problems and more on solutions 6.. do not be obsessed about life or the FINAL OUTCOME 7.. Embrace your struggle 8.. WORK HARD 9.. keep your goals and problems in mind. 10.. Everyone has a story not just you so don't feel alone 11 listen to sad music sometimes to let go the feelings 12 reduce stress 13 replenish every negative event with something equally uplifting and positive and more powerful to beat the negative that happened. You come out stronger and not weaker from the situation. 14. You are a survivor and also a fighter, a warrior and a struggler/worker. We are all workers, fighters,battlers warriors and survivors in this game of life.

A 83 I need to keep a folder to track my stuff. One thing I need to work on is increasing my active energy and lowering my passive energy. How can I achieve this Increasing active energy 1 good diet. Energy rich food 2 exercise of course 3 positive Engagement 4 increasing self focus 5 remind myself the word effort every time I think of the outcome 6 concept of Manhood 7 keeping a track of my progress 8 negativity based motivation 9 seeing problems as challenges 5 working to fix self esteem 6 realizing that progress is always slow 7 staying away from toxic people 8 baby steps all the way 9 keeping people out of your life. 10 following a To-goal schedule 11 12 13 14

Today I was being very contemplative and I thought of this hindi song that made so much sense. Lyrics Translation Banegi asha ik din teri yeh nirasha (One day this sorrow of yours will turn into hope) Kaahe ko roye (Why are you crying) Chahe joh hoye (Come what may) Safal hogi teri aradhana (Your devotion will bear fruit) Kaahe ko roye (Why are you crying) Chahe joh hoye (Come what may) Safal hogi teri aradhana ( Your devotion will bear fruit) Kaahe ko roye (Why are you crying) Diya toote toh hai maati ( If a lamp breaks, then it's clay) Jale toh yeh jyoti bane ( If it burns, it turns into light) Diya toote toh hai maati ( If a lamp breaks, then it's clay) Jale toh yeh jyoti bane ( If it burns, it turns into light ) Bahe aansun toh hai pani ( If tears flow, then they are water ) Ruke toh yeh moti bane ( If they stop, then they become pearls) Yeh moti aankhon ki punji hai yeh na khoye ( Pearl are precious to the eyes, don't waste them) Kaahe ko roye (Why are you crying) Chahe joh hoye (Come what may ) Safal hogi teri aradhana ( Your devotion will bear fruit) Kaahe ko roye (Why are you crying) Sama jaaye is mein toofan (You can weather any storm ) Jiya tera sagar samaan (Your heart is like the sea) Sama jaaye is mein toofan (You can weather any storm) Jiya tera sagar samaan (Your heart is like the sea) Nazar teri kaahe nadaan ( You're eyes are naive) Chalak gayi gagar samaan (As they shed those tears) Jaane kyun tune yoon aasuvan se nain bhigoye (Why moisten your eyes with tears) Kaahe ko roye (Why are you crying) Chahe joh hoye (Come what may) Safal hogi teri aradhana (Your devotion will bear fruit) Kaahe ko roye (Why are you crying) Kahin pe hai dukh ki chaaya (Somewhere there is shade from sorrow) Kahin pe hai khushiyon ki dhoop (Somewhere there is sunlight from happiness) Kahin pe hai dukh ki chaaya (Somewhere there is shade from sorrow) Kahin pe hai khushiyon ki dhoop (Somewhere there is sunlight from happiness) Bura bhala jaisa bhi hai (Good or bad, in whatever form it comes) Yahi toh hai baaghiya ka roop ( This is the form of life) Phoolon se, kaaton se, maali ne haar piroye (A garland is made from flowers and thorns) Kaahe ko roye (Why are you crying) Chahe joh hoye (Come what may) Safal hogi teri aradhana (Your devotion will bear fruit) Safal hogi teri aradhana (Your devotion will bear fruit) Kaahe ko roye Why are you crying Kaahe ko roye Why are you crying Kaahe ko roye Why are you crying

The only thing I can trust in this world is God. Thank you for being in my life since September 2015.

If you can't adjust with me, don't live with me.

Huh..... Finally a break after many days of Chaos.

A 78

Concept of Manhood Application of this concept Problem solving Instead of looking at problems as problems look at them as challenges. Positive Engagement Focus on spatial awareness 1....goals Goals goals monthly goals chart... Clicker and task lists 2.....problem solving.. Application of Education to solve real life problems. 3..Personal Growth and Spirituality 4. ACTIVE energy over passive energy. Even high physical energy. 5 three perspectives.

Increase will power Motivate yourself Reward system Points Reminders Focus less on the negative Keep timers Reduce distractions Positive engagement Self focus Self appreciation Remove negative thoughts and emotions Don't be upset if things didn't work out Say you deserve it Keep yourself intellectually engaged Task lists ready Positive visualization Keep yourself away from toxic engagement Be focused on the essential What positive can be done now What kind of negativity is dragging you down List of monthly and weekly goals

A 74 High physical energy How to have more active energy and reduce passive energy. Active Energy - - - Passive energy _ - - -

Three perspectives 1 Positive (step by step) 2 Nihilism 3 Combative but Grounded

 stupid ego matters in society like feminism, race, politics, ego, power, hate and such.... That's what it is. You will try to expand your understanding of the world through all the chaotic events and matters that draw your attention. The problem is that your real focus in life gets diverted by these issues of the world. The world is a dysfunctional place full of social conflict and even a million saints won't be able to solve its complex problems. Much of those arise from greed, power, ego, money and things that have no place in genuine love and consciousness and spirituality. You would get very confused if you tried to mix spirituality with your understanding of the world. Because the world you see is the last place that operates on principles of spirituality. Much of the bad you see is just an authentic reflection of human nature that many are too baffled to accept and mostly the good you see is just plain fake. There's really not much which is authentic good because when something is genuinely good or beautiful then there is no place for narcissistic or opportunistic behavior there.. Much that you witness may not be a part of politics but it's still politics in some form. It's all a big drama because politics is like drama somewhat and so lot of issues may appear social but they are political in context nevertheless. They are born out of power battles and someone wins and someone loses and everyone is striving for the piece of the pie. Everyone wants the good life but not everyone gets it and that creates the need to compete to survive. But your real motivation should be to focus on your spirituality and not get distracted by a world that revolves on a different wavelength. Don't try to fit in and be yourself. You just have to get by. Rest is yourself and personal development, spirituality and consciousness Dabbling into world issues does help expand your intellectual grip of everything but can be extremely addictive and a drain of time. So you could even keep it to a minimum just enough to keep yourself updated on what's happening around you so you are not left unaware of important events. However long term it's generally toxic and negative and addictive like a addictive game. Nothing much to profit from it but I do agree that it helps expand your logical interpretation and understanding of how the world works. Don't allow it to take centerstage though. Much of dissonance and addictive frustrating and obsession arising in the mind comes from the need to change the world to your notion of goodness which usually doesn't happen. Most messiahs out there are assuming they trying to achieve that. Some achieve but some don't. But people have an innate desire to see the world how they want it to be and they desperately try to change it to their desires. But it doesn't work often, I mean social upheavals happen like centuries ago there is documented account of major events of revolution in history. But it's not always necessary for things to change the way they did in the past. You just have to play the devils advocate and wait to see what the final outcome is. It's literally like watching a drama play out. The final outcome is not necessarily going to be the desired one. So you have to be ready to brace it and get along with the changing times instead of thinking too much about how it will change. Because all that you could do is just be ready to face reality instead of trying to fight or be frustrated or whiny about it. In the end you just have to pull yourself up by the bootstraps and move on and decide how you gonna survive in the world you see. That's the final motivation. But at the moment when nothing much is possible all of it is merely distraction

stupid ego matters in society like feminism, race, politics, ego, power, hate and such.... That's what it is. You will try to expand your understanding of the world through all the chaotic events and matters that draw your attention. The problem is that your real focus in life gets diverted by these issues of the world. The world is a dysfunctional place full of social conflict and even a million saints won't be able to solve its complex problems. Much of those arise from greed, power, ego, money and things that have no place in genuine love and consciousness and spirituality. You would get very confused if you tried to mix spirituality with your understanding of the world. Because the world you see is the last place that operates on principles of spirituality. Much of the bad you see is just an authentic reflection of human nature that many are too baffled to accept and mostly the good you see is just plain fake. There's really not much which is authentic good because when something is genuinely good or beautiful then there is no place for narcissistic or opportunistic behavior there.. Much that you witness may not be a part of politics but it's still politics in some form. It's all a big drama because politics is like drama somewhat and so lot of issues may appear social but they are political in context nevertheless. They are born out of power battles and someone wins and someone loses and everyone is striving for the piece of the pie. Everyone wants the good life but not everyone gets it and that creates the need to compete to survive. But your real motivation should be to focus on your spirituality and not get distracted by a world that revolves on a different wavelength. Don't try to fit in and be yourself. You just have to get by. Rest is yourself and personal development, spirituality and consciousness Dabbling into world issues does help expand your intellectual grip of everything but can be extremely addictive and a drain of time. So you could even keep it to a minimum just enough to keep yourself updated on what's happening around you so you are not left unaware of important events. However long term it's generally toxic and negative and addictive like a addictive game. Nothing much to profit from it but I do agree that it helps expand your logical interpretation and understanding of how the world works. Don't allow it to take centerstage though. Much of dissonance and addictive frustrating and obsession arising in the mind comes from the need to change the world to your notion of goodness which usually doesn't happen. Most messiahs out there are assuming they trying to achieve that. Some achieve but some don't. But people have an innate desire to see the world how they want it to be and they desperately try to change it to their desires. But it doesn't work often, I mean social upheavals happen like centuries ago there is documented account of major events of revolution in history. But it's not always necessary for things to change the way they did in the past. You just have to play the devils advocate and wait to see what the final outcome is. It's literally like watching a drama play out. The final outcome is not necessarily going to be the desired one. So you have to be ready to brace it and get along with the changing times instead of thinking too much about how it will change. Because all that you could do is just be ready to face reality instead of trying to fight or be frustrated or whiny about it. In the end you just have to pull yourself up by the bootstraps and move on and decide how you gonna survive in the world you see. That's the final motivation. But at the moment when nothing much is possible all of it is merely distraction

Fakery , cheapness and lack of depth, self - savvy. (Catwalk speeches and window dressing and fake humanitarianism), fame and power hungry and narcissism and intimidating personality. Too savvy and self centered and crowd pleaser. Lacking true courage and bravery or manhood. Autistic in approach and lack of true intelligence. Just superficially Graceful and polite. Cheap talk and no substance, air show or showiness.