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Chapter 51 Hindu symbols Taken from a website.

Chapter 50 Symbols Dzhin - pentacle Zhin - pebble or crystal or ring. Zveth - flame. Itztli - a vase or a pot. Solis or Sol - sun or mountain or black trapezoid Meszezeteotl or mezeteotl - black trapezoid. Raum or MALPHAS - letter T or raven bird. Unfulfilled desires - skull. So essentially during divination 1st stage we are praying to Meszezeteotl [black mountain or rock or big pebble ] and Dzhin that is the pentacle. Also the black block represents sol or Solis as well. Both Sol or Meszezeteotl are synonymous. So need of separate symbols. Dzhin represents the spirit of the Meszezeteotl resident within us, like a personal God. So Sol/Solis is practically irrelevant. Dzhin is more relevant since that is the source of divination. The central or core concept is connection to inner self wherein the source of divination lies. The God is within.

Chapter 49 The greatest message is life is sacred so enjoy every moment and create something good and purposeful in this life, if you take pain, take meaningful pain, pain that will help you or someone else have a better life. You need to preserve every day, preserve every moment so that there is least harm and more growth. The ultimate goal is that life is sacred and we squander it moment by moment.

Chapter 48 Spirituality lies in not suffering and wanting others to not suffer. Spirituality in being joyful and spreading joy to others. If you haven't figured it out how you can move on. You want to create some place perfect through toxicity. Still human body is a Miracle and can endure so much despite all the chaos. There is a joy and there is a test. Life is made of both pleasure and pain. Your God lies in your inner self. A God is present in the inner selves of all. Therefore love yourself as the first principle. Because not loving oneself is not loving God,the God within you. Religion can never tell that God is within, because who are you going to worship then, how will they profit, so they need an external God, to create some bogus things. A human being or creature being worshipped as God is the worst thing to do. Even if God is an animate object, at least it's better that way. The greatest message is life is sacred so enjoy every moment and create something good and purposeful in this life, if you take pain, take meaningful pain, pain that will help you or someone else have a better life. You need to preserve every day, preserve every moment so that there is least harm and more growth. The ultimate goal is that life is sacred and we squander it moment by moment. You cannot feed junk and expect miraculous results out of it. You need nourishment and growth. You need to be empowered and equipped. The suffering has to cease.

Chapter 47 Aztec concepts Meszezeteotl or mezeteotl As the understanding of tonalli is reliant upon conceptions of warmth, heat, and the sun, the absence of tonalli is felt as fluctuations in internal temperature. The inability to re-implant the life force leads to a decline in health and ultimately death. The modern Nahua and the Mexica have identified the tonalli’s departure as the cause of illnesses with the same general Teyolia is to be called zveth or life force. Tonalli is consciousness that comes and goes and is permanent. Teyolia is the soul of the heart. It leaves upon death. Upon death there is loss of both teyolia and Tonalli. Ihiyotl is resident in the liver and releases as gas upon death. Zveth is life force, enters at birth and leaves at death. Zvether is the nature of the soul of the person. Zvether of the zveth Itztli is the consciousness or Tonalli. Will remain after death. Also lost just before death Itztli is attached to zveth in life and gradually dies but remains independent even after loss of life. It's independent of the mind. Zveth is permanently lost upon death. Zveth is the soul. Nature of heart or soul is zhin. It develops with zveth. Zveth, Itztli, Zveth is same as teyolia Itztli is same as tonalli Zhin is zvether. Nature of heart or soul. Zhin and Zveth are both present at birth. Itztli can be developed. Dzhin is the God component of the zhin. Dzhin is God within you or the God accessible. Sol or Solis is the nature of God soul or God consciousness. Zveth and Zhin are a part of human. Zveth and zhin are both lost. Itztli is permanent. Zhin can be changed with the help of Itztli and Dzhin Solis is the God consciousness of the universe. This is not accessible to us directly. However a part of this in the form of Dzhin is accessible to us that we can reach within. When we are connected to God we are not connected to Solis but Dzhin. All Dzhins come together to form a part of Solis which means we are all one. It's like we cannot get access to the universal God and it wouldn't make sense because it cannot guide us since it's responsible for all the good things together. The highest wisdom[logic of logic] not the wisdom resident in per particle or element. It's like we are floating particles and there is a sense and direction and wisdom for each. Now take all particles together and they are also guided by a universal wisdom . The Dzhin is like the personal coach or foreman. There are many departments in a factory that need to be run simultaneously and coordinated with each other. The higher coordination of all together is done by the boss or upper level management. So the coordinator at the highest position is God consciousness and the level which is relevant to the life of a worker is the foreman or Dzhin. The higher management cannot deal with your situation effectively but foreman can. It's like Dzhin is the wisdom of a smaller picture or a smaller portion of the picture magnified. Whereas Solis or SOL is the wisdom of the larger picture or the bigger picture in context. Therefore Sol is irrelevant and relevant only in terms of a bigger picture. What is relevant every day is Dzhin. Symbols Dzhin - pentacle Zhin - pebble or crystal or ring. Zveth - flame. Itztli - a vase or a pot. Solis or Sol - sun or mountain or black trapezoid Meszezeteotl or mezeteotl - black trapezoid.

Chapter 46 Santeria, Voodoo, Wicca, Hinduism and Buddhism, October 23 2018. I'm leaving Christianity. My heart is sinking. Today is an emotional moment. ?

Chapter 45 The answer lies in the question itself.

Chapter 43 Black color represents mystery, something sinister or serious, depth, darkness, nothingness, no distinction, omnipresence, universal color, space is black, when you close your eyes, everything is black, solemnity, serenity, shadow, silence, lack of a specific identity, no specific character, form or structure. It's a spirit. The Mambo must combine the skills of a medical doctor, a psychotherapist, a minister,, a teacher and a mother, Altar, shrine, temple, place of worship, rock stone, structure, obelisk, pillar, tombstone, pebble, statue,

Swan wiccan started on 21st September. It has given me huge relief from depression and solved my problem of having a trajectory in life. It feels good and peaceful finally. Finally my soul has found peace and the continuous restlessness is gone. I can finally breathe and be confident to move on and put things in order finally. I know I was never very mentally tough. But I found a way.

There are a tons of challenges in life and we have to somehow get through them. Find a place, a heaven of peace. A place where we can rest and feel better. I'm trying to do the same since the past few days and it has been difficult with both my emotional and health problems. Nobody wants to be fucked with. Nobody likes that. And you waste time with energy vampires and suckers. There are suckers, fuckers, users, vultures, scavengers, bullies and players everywhere and it's difficult to deal with it. But one day I will emerge stronger above all, find my path, get healing and move on. I won't let myself be permanently damaged. I can do better and I will do better.

@seeking_brilliance Thank you

I reported the bully Speedscarlet. I hope he won't post anything on my journal again. Thank you.

Don't bully people on their journals.

What

He is deleting his comments after posting them.

@Speedscarlet hmm. What is it about?

16th October I'm depressed. I'm trying to heal. Today is a bad day.

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Did you get your high? Happy? This world is not as much a sad place without food or a home as it is with people like you. You are a cyber bully.

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Chapter 42 3 concepts 1. If I wasn't so hungry for affection I wouldn't been so needy. This neediness is not fake. Rather it's a sign of a deeper hunger due to lack or deprivation at early stages in life. This deeper need was never fulfilled even once as a result there is a gaping void that is left that was never fulfilled that in turn gave birth to extreme emotions, feelings of inadequacies, insecurity and low self esteem and lack of trust in others. Leading to hyper vigilance and hostile defensive behavior. Also causing moodiness and low motivation. Never felt motivated enough to do something for someone else. To live for others. That maturity never came. There is a huge difference between attention seeking Narcissism and deep hunger for love.. In hunger real help is needed. Its like saying to a homeless person seeking a home, "you are being very selfish." this is very abusive. And there was nothing to compare to. No positive emotional state to compare to. Nothing to draw from. No earlier or previous boost for self esteem to rely on or draw from. 2. Projection of character. If a person does not try to put effort to understand you better and make you to be something you are not and project your character to be something it's not, and this is consistently happening and despite you requesting them that's its just their misunderstanding, they still do not believe you, then such people are only going to hurt you more down the line. It's best to avoid them because eventually they will only shate and disagreement. Those misunderstandings are never going to be resolved no matter how much you hope for it. And such people are eventually going to prove to be toxic to you. Therefore you should avoid them and they should not have a place in your life especially when you did nothing wrong and they are still misunderstanding you. Their misunderstanding means they don't deserve you, because you don't deserve people who misunderstand you despite claiming they love you. You deserve people who understand you. 4 qualities of people who love you. 1. They care about every little thing about you 2. They have deeper communications with you 3. They fight and get angry and upset and possessive about you. 4. They do not want fights with you. So they believe you 5. Let go. When someone tries to project your character in a certain way then they are either causing huge misunderstanding or they are doing this on purpose because they don't want to put the effort in understanding you. They just don't want to be on the positive side of you or think positive about you. This I will refer to as either lack of understanding by mistake or on purpose, when it's on purpose for narcissistic self serving goals then I will call it projection of character. If someone is trying to project your character in a way which is not even remotely close to who you are then they are covertly demonizing you. This is a covert attack or covert bullying. In such a case, this person does not deserve to be in your life as your friend/partner for the simple reason that the person who truly loves you will try to understand you in the best possible way, mostly in a positive affirmative way unless you are showing very abnormal behaviors where it's difficult for them to support you, otherwise they will mostly be supportive of you and they will try to resolve any misunderstandings and they will know you for who you truly are. This line is golden. The person who loves you knows you best, that is, they know you for who you truly are, and you know yourself better, you know who you are and how you feel so there should not be much difference between what person thinks you are and what you think you are. If there is a huge difference then it means either there is a true misunderstanding or they are trying to judge you on purpose mostly to serve their own goals. But love is sorta intuitive. So eventually at some point the misunderstanding will resolve as the person tries to live you more and know more about you, Narcissistic Behavior article excerpts Calling you things that you are not A classic example, “You’re cheating on me,” when you are not, but you can bet they’re cheating on you. Or, “You’re selfish because you don’t want to do what I am asking you to do. You only think about yourself.” Meanwhile they are the ones who constantly make up excuses, break promises, are unreliable, think only about themselves, or compete with you. Not only that, they will forget all the things that you have already done for them. 2. Projection. One sure sign of toxicity is when a person is chronically unwilling to see his or her own shortcomings and uses everything in their power to avoid being held accountable for them. This is known as projection. Projection is a defense mechanism used to displace responsibility of one’s negative behavior and traits by attributing them to someone else. It ultimately acts as a digression that avoids ownership and accountability. While we all engage in projection to some extent, according to Narcissistic Personality clinical expert Dr. Martinez-Lewi, the projections of a narcissist are often psychologically abusive. Rather than acknowledge their own flaws, imperfections and wrongdoings, malignant narcissists and sociopaths opt to dump their own traits on their unsuspecting suspects in a way that is painful and excessively cruel. Instead of admitting that self-improvement may be in order, they would prefer that their victims take responsibility for their behavior and feel ashamed of themselves. This is a way for a narcissist to project any toxic shame they have about themselves onto another. For example, a person who engages in pathological lying may accuse their partner of fibbing; a needy spouse may call their husband “clingy” in an attempt to depict them as the one who is dependent; a rude employee may call their boss ineffective in an effort to escape the truth about their own productivity. Narcissistic abusers love to play the “blameshifting game.” Objectives of the game: they win, you lose, and you or the world at large is blamed for everything that’s wrong with them. This way, you get to babysit their fragile ego while you’re thrust into a sea of self-doubt.

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