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I'm thinking about what Godliness means and how it heals. And I get the instant answer that godliness means love.

Chapter 93 I had a severe headache today morning. Even yesterday. November 22. (. Hackle, curved hackle, fishmouth, roundabout, sea-wave, top A or half A, Straight A, double dip, double whammy, pocket, far shot, back sling, flamingo, twister, even or unique spread, chaos strategy, deflection, sync or flow, trapping, break strategies, spin strategies, diamond shot, middle shots, ribbed or ribbon shot, slow ribbed or full ribbed, roller shot, angular shots, perch angular shot or small L, double ringer, double ringer sea wave. )

The true meaning of life is realized when you have transcended everything, when you have become one with the ocean

Chapter 92 I am going to break the Jinx. I'm going to get out of it today. Now or never. It takes a lot of resources to build a life.

Chapter 91 Saturday 17 November Feeling bad. When can I get out of this jinx.

Chapter 90 You cannot lie to a mirror.

Chapter 89 How to increase emotional intensity. Zee expansion and intensification Feel an emotion Think about a situation Invest your emotion and purpose into your goal. Show love Feel the vibration Pray on it Be deeply engaged Constantly feel the same emotion. Bring up the same emotion Reiterate this emotion Repeat the thoughts. Remember and repeat. Be deeply attached. Be passionate. Make this an important life's mission Be completely devoted

Chapter 88 Moving onto greener fields. Today is November 15. An important day. Lot of the stuff needs to be sorted out. I need to take things strictly. Need to devote myself more to myself lol. Yea the agenda is surely going to change and the focus will be me. Haven't had that for quite a while now.. I am also thinking of something like time compression. And how to get more done in less. Today all toxicity goes away.

Chapter 87 Keep your psych radar always on.

Chapter 86 This has never happened to me before. This is mind blowing. All thoughts just percolate my mind. Never before. I don't need to decide anything. Decisions just flow. Everything just clicks in my head just like that. I have become so acutely aware of even the most minor things. A minor statement or a minor change and a minor difference in the human weather is enough to alert my senses.. Now I just know what it means. It's like I already know everything and it doesn't bother me anymore. I have become matured enough to accept the disgusting side of others.

Chapter 85 Suffered from flu on 10 November

Chapter 84 The other concept is basic narcissism. This is healthy because it is basic. Toxic narcissism is dangerous. But some basic narcissism is necessary for self preservation. It involves a strong self protective instinct, the ability to say no, draw boundaries, make others get along, be strict, not give in easily, not to fall in trap of other's judgement and validation,draw clear lines, express honestly, be assertive and self confident, be emotionally free and not dependent, bringing power to yourself.

Chapter 83 The other concept is emotional intensity or emotional strength. This means how intensely emotional you're about something. How much emotional value you attach to someone, an object, a goal, a desire, an event, a past incident, etc etc. Higher the emotional intensity higher is the passion. Passion helps achieve goals. Thus emotion is a central key to motivation.

Chapter 82 I know I know, I know what's happening with me. I'm just not crazy My emotions are just in a tailspin that is all. I am thinking about 2 different concepts that came to my mind a few days ago. That is emotional strength and emotional expansion. Very important ones. Emotional expansion means experiencing a wide range of emotions both from positive to negative. And the deepest side of the negative and the extreme side of positive. It also means that you experience intense emotionally challenging or psychologically challenging experiences and situations like a plethora of emotionally twisted or inert or subtle or situations involving emotional conflict or turmoil, and experiencing psychological impact of deeply emotional experiences, both good and bad. This opens up emotional maturity and extension and expansion of the emotional experience index/spectrum. Also it brings psychological experience and psychological maturity and psychological radar opens up. I can call this the psych-radar. The psych radar sharpens. Now you're easily able to detect and understand psychopathic behaviors. This is not all encompassing, in the sense it does not include all experiences of life like experiences related to health or financial disaster or the system or law enforcement or career etc. Just emotional experiences. So mostly relationships. However these experiences are intensely involved with the most personal part of our lives. The other added benefit of such an expansion of the psych radar is that they also help in daily evaluation of even those who are just acquaintances solely on the basis of body language and communication. What a person is really about is easily visible through what they write or speak. The way they communicate their different ideas. It is a wealth of information into the person's psyche. This field should be called "language character decoding." that is decoding a person's character based on their language or words. So instead of saying eyes are a window to the soul, it should be words are a window to the soul.

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Chapter 81 My only peace is the pool game, Wicca practice and this journal, a few video games.

Chapter 80 "Hydrate your soul." These words are so beautiful. Saw them in a random comment. They make perfect sense. All I needed was emotional liberarion to feel in place 1. First there is a man 2. Then there is a dynamic of the relationship. There are four types of people based on inward and outward behavior. 1. Outward behavior is unpleasant. Inward behavior is also very bad or unpleasant. Such people are " malevolent " 2.Inward behavior is good and outward behavior is good. "Healthy" or "Serene 3. Inward behavior is good Outward behavior is bad and outrageous . Such people are "innocent ignoramus" 4. Outward behavior is good. Inward behavior is mean and cunning and sociopathic or harmful. Such people are " toxic deceptive " 5. Outward behavior is crazy. And inward behavior is neutral or pleasant. Such people are "unstable volatile". 6. Outward behavior is neutral. Inward behavior is also neutral. Such people are "spectator" There is nothing like good or evil. There is only psychological profiles. Examples of different profiles Possessive, narcissistic, annoying, abusive, mean, catty, bully, sociopathic, dominating, aggressive, passive, volatile, impulsive, extortionist, manipulative, bitchy, user, bossy, follower, naive, emotional, overly sensitive, heartless, innocent, shallow

Chapter 79 There are different rooms. . Swan room... Self and self. Concept of the soul and the temple and the journey from birth to the afterlife. White room... Positivity. Growth of the soul. Flower room. Worship. Altar. Vortex room. Exploration of darker things, of knowledge and understanding of the world and reality. Evil and its impact. Scientific study of the human mind and psychology.. Black room. Earth room. Everything material and how things can be manifested into physical reality. Understanding the physical nature of things. And why physical or material is as important as spiritual. Therapy room... Healing the Ego. Talk therapy.

Chapter 78 5th November I have finally escaped and it honestly feels wonderful. A breath of relief. Everything can finally come together.