Preety_India

Lately I have been too hard on myself. One big word - acceptance. Don't try to change anything. It creates great conflict and stress.

I have always exposed to a very masculine environment where it's always push push push push It never allowed me to be gentle with myself.

I had some shoulder pain on March 12.

I also do not want to interact on the forum much anymore. It's mostly been harmful for my health. But my mind is too inquisitive. Anyways I found a ton of answers to many things.

I'm an introvert. I like to stay in my shell, in my cocoon. In fact that's what I'm going to do now. I have found that being in a shell makes me calmer as a person. Another thing I need to work on is dopamine addiction.

It's best if I lose my memory.

I need to focus on whatever I need to do next. It's best if I remain in my shell.

This makes me happy right now.

I suffer horrible levels of abandonment anxiety. I want a secure attachment. Not an insecure feeling. Uncertainty of emotion. I don't like it And not a withdrawing attachment.

I'm sorry I love you.

I feel like a lost puppy. I feel sad. I cannot stand coldness I cannot stand someone not talking to me. I feel so alone. I'm crying again. I feel so hurt whenever someone acts cold with me. It hurts like a dagger. I don't want to be with men who don't allow any intimacy or openness

A guy who will not make it difficult for me to talk to him (because I'm already such a bad introvert, I hardly open up)

I cried so many tears.

I'm kinda tired.

I want someone who will have a very deep intimacy with me.

I'm very shy and sensitive.

A cool calm collected guy who would really love me for who I am. Deep down I'm just a gentle sweet person although on the outside I appear like an egotistical hot tempered person. Maybe I always attract men who always want to play with me.

I'm slowly getting pushed into solitude mode..

Just try to be calm.

Thank you

.. I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed.