Preety_India

This is just about general friendship, not dating specifically. I always have to deal with this problem that I feel like I want to appeal or impress someone to seek their approval. Although I try hard not to and I do say no when I have to, but there is always this nagging feeling where I feel guilty if I don't get along with someone who I am friendly with. I have this intense need to make myself look like the good person and I usually go to extreme lengths to be in their good books. I want to feel strong enough that I can let go and not feel dependent on that person's perception of me and not have this need to constantly please them.

These lines help me reconnect with my faith in God and christ as the messenger. To me it means becoming a divine light and the concept of power of the positive spirit and the power of the healing spirit. Jesus was truly descended from a holy spirit. People losing christian values is not a good sign. Verse 1] Silent night, holy night! All is calm, all is bright Round yon Virgin, Mother and Child Holy Infant so tender and mild Sleep in heavenly peace Sleep in heavenly peace [Verse 2] Silent night, holy night! Shepherds quake at the sight Glories stream from heaven afar Heavenly hosts sing 'Alleluia! Christ the Savior is born Christ the Savior is born [Verse 3] Silent night, holy night! Son of God, love's pure light Radiant beams from Thy holy face With the dawn of redeeming grace Jesus Lord, at Thy birth Jesus Lord, at Thy birth

I can think of many levels of both material and spiritual growth. Sage - a level of wisdom Phoenix - a spirit that learns and grows and experiences and renews Yogi - a master that connects body mind and soul Pegasus - a personification for great abilities and qualities. A master. By practice and not by creation. Bahamut - strong and mighty. Physical strength and master of the physical world. In creation itself. Not by practice Shaman - the one who heals Dionysus - the one that enjoys life to the fullest Hippie - the one that is free Saint - spiritual cleansing Mason - an observer and researcher, a rational thinker Manticore - who is on a destructive spiral or is destructive to the system Artisan - someone who is a beginner and trying to master his physical and spiritual craft. Finally Master /Jupiter - the one who has gained mastery over all the above

I am going to use talk therapy as a part of my spiritual practice.

You are a person who gives me depression. Thanks for the depression and disrespect. I don't need it

A Saint is like a shaman

Everyone deserves a good life. Every person will leave you to have a good life and they deserve it. Why not. Why should you have a bad life in the name of love. If you think that others should deserve a bad life just because they are in love with you and because you need them, then you are incredibly selfish. That person you claim to love deserves the best life.

This symbol represents everything to me about spirituality We learn so much through insight and observation From now on I'm going to use this symbol very often as a sign of spiritual insights and meditation.

I'm going to include masonry into my witchcraft practice. A standard collection will include an apron, a compass, a square and an all seeing eye symbol. An eye usually represents the all seeing of God who observes all you do. Like you can't escape his judgement. However I will look at it in a different way and put my own twist on it. The eye represents to me an intelligent observation of the world by a person. Since I believe the masons are highly intelligent and gifted people I think that it should represent who just observe the world and absorb the information for their good or bad but at the same time they are not impacted by the illusions of the world so they keep themselves free and their observation helps them to recognize these illusions and stay away from them. The symbolic representation for the 3 step masonic method to life based on rationalism including observation, analysis and solution is as follows Symbols and instruments Masonic eye for observation via Imgflip Meme Generator Compass symbol and magnifying glass symbol for analysis via Imgflip Meme Generator via Imgflip Meme Generator Key symbol for solution via Imgflip Meme Generator Telescope for observation Magnifying glass and compass for analysis And keys for solution

What happens inside a Masonic lodge? Routine Masonic lodge meetings are broadly similar to a rotary club or parish council - a register is called, minutes are taken, and updates on charitable and social events are shared and discussed. However, it is the society’s mysterious ceremonies that have captured the public imagination for centuries. Members are initiated as an “entered apprentice”, eventually passing to “Fellowcraft”, before finally acquiring the experience and knowledge of the society’s dogma and rituals to be named a “Master Mason”. According to the Grand Lodge of Scotland, a “series of ritual dramas” is used to teach members the precepts of freemasonry, which include an allegorical founding myth linking the order to the biblical Great Temple. “You come into life with absolutely nothing, and that is what the initiation is about,” senior Mason Nigel Brown once told The Telegraph. “The second play is about living a good life and the third is about preparing for the end of your life.” Masonic rituals also feature symbols depicting masonry tools such as the square, compass and apron, as well as the famous all-seeing eye symbol, widely associated with freemasonry.

I have been curious about freemasonry for a while now The Masonic lodge is the basic organisational unit of Freemasonry.[1] The Lodge meets regularly to conduct the usual formal business of any small organisation (pay bills, organise social and charitable events, elect new members, etc.). In addition to business, the meeting may perform a ceremony to confer a Masonic degree[2] or receive a lecture, which is usually on some aspect of Masonic history or ritual.[3] At the conclusion of the meeting, the Lodge might adjourn for a formal dinner, or festive board, sometimes involving toasting and song.[4] The bulk of Masonic ritual consists of degree ceremonies. Candidates for Freemasonry are progressively initiated into Freemasonry, first in the degree of Entered Apprentice. Some time later, in a separate ceremony, they will be passed to the degree of Fellowcraft, and finally they will be raised to the degree of Master Mason. In all of these ceremonies, the candidate is first obligated, then entrusted with passwords, signs and grips (secret handshakes) peculiar to his new rank.[5] Another ceremony is the annual installation of the Master and officers of the Lodge.[2] In some jurisdictions Installed Master is valued as a separate rank, with its own secrets to distinguish its members.[6] In other jurisdictions, the grade is not recognised, and no inner ceremony conveys new secrets during the installation of a new Master of the Lodge.[7] Most Lodges have some sort of social calendar, allowing Masons and their partners to meet in a less ritualised environment.[8] Often coupled with these events is the obligation placed on every Mason to contribute to charity. This occurs at both Lodge and Grand Lodge level. Masonic charities contribute to many fields, such as education or disaster relief.[9][10] These private local Lodges form the backbone of Freemasonry, and a Freemason will necessarily have been initiated into one of these. There also exist specialist Lodges where Masons meet to celebrate events, such as sport or Masonic research. The rank of Master Mason also entitles a Freemason to explore Masonry further through other degrees, administered separately from the Craft, or "Blue Lodge" degrees described here, but having a similar format to their meetings.[11] There is very little consistency in Freemasonry. Because each Masonic jurisdiction is independent, each sets its own procedures. The wording of the ritual, the number of officers present, the layout of the meeting room, etc. varies from jurisdiction to jurisdiction.[11][12] The officers of the Lodge are elected or appointed annually. Every Masonic Lodge has a Master, two Wardens, a secretary and a treasurer. There is also a Tyler, or outer guard, who is always present outside the door of a working Lodge, to secure its privacy. Other offices vary between jurisdictions.[11] Each Masonic Lodge exists and operates according to a set of ancient principles known as the Landmarks of Freemasonry. These principles have thus far eluded any universally accepted definition.[13] Candidates for Freemasonry will have met most active members of the Lodge they are joining before they are initiated. The process varies between jurisdictions, but the candidate will typically have been introduced by a friend at a Lodge social function, or at some form of open evening in the Lodge. In modern times, interested people often track down a local Lodge through the Internet. The onus is on candidates to ask to join; while candidates may be encouraged to ask, they are never invited. Once the initial inquiry is made, an interview usually follows to determine the candidate's suitability. If the candidate decides to proceed from here, the Lodge ballots on the application before he (or she, depending on the Masonic Jurisdiction) can be accepted.[14] The absolute minimum requirement of any body of Freemasons is that the candidate must be free, and considered to be of good character.[15] There is usually an age requirement, varying greatly between Grand Lodges, and (in some jurisdictions) capable of being overridden by a dispensation from the Grand Lodge. The underlying assumption is that the candidate should be a mature adult.[14] Additionally, most Grand Lodges require the candidate to declare a belief in a Supreme Being. In a few cases, the candidate may be required to be of a specific religion. The form of Freemasonry most common in Scandinavia (known as the Swedish Rite), for example, accepts only Christians.[16] At the other end of the spectrum, "Liberal" or Continental Freemasonry, exemplified by the Grand Orient de France, does not require a declaration of belief in any deity, and accepts atheists (a cause of discord with the rest of Freemasonry).[17][18] During the ceremony of initiation, the candidate is expected to undertake or swear (usually on a volume of sacred text appropriate to his personal religious faith) to fulfil certain obligations as a Mason. In the course of three degrees, new masons will promise to keep the secrets of their degree from lower degrees and outsiders, and to support a fellow Mason in distress (as far as practicality and the law permit).[11] There is instruction as to the duties of a Freemason, but on the whole, Freemasons are left to explore the craft in the manner they find most satisfying. Some will simply enjoy the dramatics or the management and administration of the lodge, others will further explore the ritual and symbolism of the craft, others will focus their involvement on their Lodge's social side, perhaps in association with other lodges, while still others will concentrate on the charitable functions of the lodge.[19][20] The most commonly shared rules for Recognition (based on Regularity) are those given by the United Grand Lodge of England in 1929: The Grand Lodge should be established by an existing regular Grand Lodge, or by at least three regular Lodges. A belief in a supreme being and scripture is a condition of membership. Initiates should take their vows on that scripture. Only men can be admitted, and no relationship exists with mixed Lodges. The Grand Lodge has complete control over the first three degrees, and is not subject to another body. All Lodges shall display a volume of scripture with the square and compasses while in session. There is no discussion of politics or religion. "Antient landmarks, customs and usages" observed.[30]

I have been curious about freemasonry for a while now The Masonic lodge is the basic organisational unit of Freemasonry.[1] The Lodge meets regularly to conduct the usual formal business of any small organisation (pay bills, organise social and charitable events, elect new members, etc.). In addition to business, the meeting may perform a ceremony to confer a Masonic degree[2] or receive a lecture, which is usually on some aspect of Masonic history or ritual.[3] At the conclusion of the meeting, the Lodge might adjourn for a formal dinner, or festive board, sometimes involving toasting and song.[4] The bulk of Masonic ritual consists of degree ceremonies. Candidates for Freemasonry are progressively initiated into Freemasonry, first in the degree of Entered Apprentice. Some time later, in a separate ceremony, they will be passed to the degree of Fellowcraft, and finally they will be raised to the degree of Master Mason. In all of these ceremonies, the candidate is first obligated, then entrusted with passwords, signs and grips (secret handshakes) peculiar to his new rank.[5] Another ceremony is the annual installation of the Master and officers of the Lodge.[2] In some jurisdictions Installed Master is valued as a separate rank, with its own secrets to distinguish its members.[6] In other jurisdictions, the grade is not recognised, and no inner ceremony conveys new secrets during the installation of a new Master of the Lodge.[7] Most Lodges have some sort of social calendar, allowing Masons and their partners to meet in a less ritualised environment.[8] Often coupled with these events is the obligation placed on every Mason to contribute to charity. This occurs at both Lodge and Grand Lodge level. Masonic charities contribute to many fields, such as education or disaster relief.[9][10] These private local Lodges form the backbone of Freemasonry, and a Freemason will necessarily have been initiated into one of these. There also exist specialist Lodges where Masons meet to celebrate events, such as sport or Masonic research. The rank of Master Mason also entitles a Freemason to explore Masonry further through other degrees, administered separately from the Craft, or "Blue Lodge" degrees described here, but having a similar format to their meetings.[11] There is very little consistency in Freemasonry. Because each Masonic jurisdiction is independent, each sets its own procedures. The wording of the ritual, the number of officers present, the layout of the meeting room, etc. varies from jurisdiction to jurisdiction.[11][12] The officers of the Lodge are elected or appointed annually. Every Masonic Lodge has a Master, two Wardens, a secretary and a treasurer. There is also a Tyler, or outer guard, who is always present outside the door of a working Lodge, to secure its privacy. Other offices vary between jurisdictions.[11] Each Masonic Lodge exists and operates according to a set of ancient principles known as the Landmarks of Freemasonry. These principles have thus far eluded any universally accepted definition.[13] Candidates for Freemasonry will have met most active members of the Lodge they are joining before they are initiated. The process varies between jurisdictions, but the candidate will typically have been introduced by a friend at a Lodge social function, or at some form of open evening in the Lodge. In modern times, interested people often track down a local Lodge through the Internet. The onus is on candidates to ask to join; while candidates may be encouraged to ask, they are never invited. Once the initial inquiry is made, an interview usually follows to determine the candidate's suitability. If the candidate decides to proceed from here, the Lodge ballots on the application before he (or she, depending on the Masonic Jurisdiction) can be accepted.[14] The absolute minimum requirement of any body of Freemasons is that the candidate must be free, and considered to be of good character.[15] There is usually an age requirement, varying greatly between Grand Lodges, and (in some jurisdictions) capable of being overridden by a dispensation from the Grand Lodge. The underlying assumption is that the candidate should be a mature adult.[14] Additionally, most Grand Lodges require the candidate to declare a belief in a Supreme Being. In a few cases, the candidate may be required to be of a specific religion. The form of Freemasonry most common in Scandinavia (known as the Swedish Rite), for example, accepts only Christians.[16] At the other end of the spectrum, "Liberal" or Continental Freemasonry, exemplified by the Grand Orient de France, does not require a declaration of belief in any deity, and accepts atheists (a cause of discord with the rest of Freemasonry).[17][18] During the ceremony of initiation, the candidate is expected to undertake or swear (usually on a volume of sacred text appropriate to his personal religious faith) to fulfil certain obligations as a Mason. In the course of three degrees, new masons will promise to keep the secrets of their degree from lower degrees and outsiders, and to support a fellow Mason in distress (as far as practicality and the law permit).[11] There is instruction as to the duties of a Freemason, but on the whole, Freemasons are left to explore the craft in the manner they find most satisfying. Some will simply enjoy the dramatics or the management and administration of the lodge, others will further explore the ritual and symbolism of the craft, others will focus their involvement on their Lodge's social side, perhaps in association with other lodges, while still others will concentrate on the charitable functions of the lodge.[19][20] The most commonly shared rules for Recognition (based on Regularity) are those given by the United Grand Lodge of England in 1929: The Grand Lodge should be established by an existing regular Grand Lodge, or by at least three regular Lodges. A belief in a supreme being and scripture is a condition of membership. Initiates should take their vows on that scripture. Only men can be admitted, and no relationship exists with mixed Lodges. The Grand Lodge has complete control over the first three degrees, and is not subject to another body. All Lodges shall display a volume of scripture with the square and compasses while in session. There is no discussion of politics or religion. "Antient landmarks, customs and usages" observed.[30]

On 10/25/2019 at 10:01 AM, Preety_India said: Morning hat Gold water Foil hat... Take a ribbon and tie a rectangular silver foil box hat or folded foil on head. Folded foil held in place by ribbon. Start ceremony Start binding rope as paper rope with staples or foil rope. You can even write sigil on paper pieces used to make the creeper rope. This represents synchrony of life. On 10/26/2019 at 1:18 AM, Preety_India said: Spell work. Elements of a process Initiation Completion Order, synchrony and sequence. Momentum Progress Improvement or enhancement Degradation Obstacle Disruption Loss of momentum Halt Abrupt termination Unsuccessful or Non completion Influencers Inertia of Momentum Inertia of lag (slowing or diminishing of momentum) Inertia of inactivity or non initiation. Binding the rope Offerings Initiation ceremony Completion ceremony Obstruction Initiation sigil Completion sigil Synchrony sigil Momentum sigil Progress sigil Lag sigil Inactivity sigil Non initiation sigil Inertia sigil Obstruction sigil Non completion sigil or cessation sigil that is sigil or unsuccessful completion Termination sigil or for abrupt truncation How to proceed with initiation and completion of spell 1.....Wear Elaborate head gear. This is general initiation 2......Drink gold water.. This is general initiation 3.....Start initiation spell. Take jar. Put initiation sigil, the main sigil or symbolic sigil along with indicator sigil. Start with soap stick. This is initiation ceremony 4....Visualize spell upto completion 5......Along the way, Add offerings like Shells leaves, dried flowers, papers, herbs, pearls, jewels, foil chits, cinnamon sticks, all sorts of witchcraft items 6....If you do not want to use a spell jar start with a silver cauldron. And put a main and initiation sigil into. On a piece of paper, you can write both the symbolic or main sigil side by side with the indicator sigil. 7.....Start binding rope of sigils or give offerings of different sigils into silver foil cauldron. Either just bind a rope or give sigil offerings or both or bind the sigil into a rope. This binding and or offerings represents synchrony and sequence or progression of spell. 8....There are 2 types of sigils here. One is symbolic sigil or main sigil. Like a sigil for financial prosperity. And an indicator sigil which indicates either the progression or degradation or termination of a spell. 9....At the end there will be 3 things either completion or cessation that is failure or termination due to an obstacle. Cessation and termination are similar but they differ in a way that the spell was suddenly abandoned or could not be done exclusively due to the obstacle. Cessation means that the spell was never initiated in the real sense or could not be completed within the given time due to laziness or lack of momentum of keeping up with it or eventual loss of steam or interest or enthusiasm or lack of sequence or bungled sequence,unable to keep up with the sequence and synchrony. Whereas termination is because of some unforeseeable obstacle suddenly halting it or causing it to be abandoned or withdrawn. 10... Completion stage.. put the completion/termination /cessation sigil on the rope or give it as offering. abandon the rope and throw it out if the spell is complete 11.... Keep some portion of the rope in case of termination /cessation. Do not wear the Headgear in this case 12... if the spell is complete then wear the headgear again as a mark of completion. 13.. 14.... wear the head gear anytime a major milestone is achieved during the spell progression. 15.... Mark completion by placing a completion sigil along with a soap stick in the spell jar. 16....Thus one soap stick represents only initiation whereas the presence of 2 soap sticks in a spell jar represents both the initiation and successful completion of the spell after which the spell jar can be completely emptied for the start of the next spell. 17....This whole ritual contains all the elements of a process or spell from initiation to synchrony /obstruction to completion. On 10/26/2019 at 6:23 PM, Preety_India said: I'm going to use totem in witchcraft practice.. This totem will involve a cylindrical round hollow pole. This pole is like an upright telescope Take a piece of Paper. First fold it to make a double side. Fold it again to make a double side to make it thicker. Write totem on top. Now start drawing a totem and fill in with paint. A totem is a collection of symbols. This rectangular stacked symbol collection either tells a story or can be a group of relevant tarots stacked together or a mixture of both tarots and sigils mixed to create either a story or describe an event, form a guiding manual for the day or week, or a representation or reminder of something important like a witchcraft God or a collection of spell or a single spell. Once the totem card is ready, drop it into the tubular hollow pole and insert and stuff into it. Now draw another totem and keep inserting all handmade totems into the totem pole. Keep this totem pillar pole at the altar as a reference marker. Refer to it anytime and remove totem cards or mini totem pillars and read them out loud. If there is a very important totem, carve it into wood, soap or candle wax or clay or draw on a crystal like rune stones and stick together to make a more permanent totem. Another method of combining totems and tarots is to take a big tray and place rectangular soap bars one by one beside each other and then placing the tarot or sigil or totem can then be fixed into them by using a small wooden twig or a toothpick. Thus it remains fixed or put and easily be replaced by another by removing the stick and sticking another tarot on it... Also if soap bars are not needed then just use the cardboard pasted tarots on the tray or wooden board and create a tarot sigil totem chart.. Sigil represents a symbol Tarot represents a full picture rather than a symbol Totem represents a set of symbols arranged in a line to represent an event or message or sequence

Got this Santa muerte skull necklace yesterday and it's awesome for both mediation as well as prayer to the Bony Lady. Happy Diwali to Indians.

I'm just going to cook simple food every day and it's going to be a part of my personal development..

A favorite music of mine that resonates with my philosophy. If you are the person who is trying to feel better every day and it's a big struggle just to feel better every day then free your mind... This song represents to me ultimate truth of being free and setting yourself free from this whole world which is in itself a massive cult and we are slaves to this world cult. And we have to be labor away like the guys in the video. And when one day we break all these social illusions created by the world cult we will be truly free. And for that we only have to free our mind... Lyrics Free the night and you can find the truth Free your mind and you can find the groove Free the night and you can find the truth Free your mind and you can find the groove Free the night and you can find the truth Free your mind and you can find the groove Everyone's the same, everyone is trying to find, Some kind of better life to take them all the way Everyone one can play, everything is intertwined, Every colour of the rainbow, watch it break the rain Free the night and you can find the truth Free your mind and you can find the groove Free the night and you can find the truth Free your mind and you can find the groove Time can slip away, time can tell a thousand lies Take away the heart's disguise and you can find your dreams Tell me that you'll stay, tell me that you feel this high Never ever wonder why the night is what it seems Free the night and you can find the truth Free your mind and you can find the groove Time can slip away, time can tell a thousand lies Take away the heart's disguise and you can find your dreams Tell me that you'l stay, tell me that you feel this high Never ever wonder why the night is what it seems Free the night and you can find the truth Free your mind and you can find the groove Free the night and you can find the truth Free your mind and you can find the groove Free the night, free the night, free the night.. Free your mind

I am not fully aware of spiritual cleansing. I think that when you do spiritual cleansing it appears like a cloud of dark smoke and you are rubbing on it with your Positivity and slowly the dark cloud begins to clear up and then you can see this white cloud forming out of it but there are still some dark portions or spaces within this white cloud that need further scrubbing. And as you gradually scrub it off, the darker parts clear away and the cloud gets shinier and whiter and brighter. Each time that you want to dispel that dark part you have create a more benevolent, open, positive, wise, matured protective spirit. You have to keep cultivating these divine qualities to dispel those darker parts. Your qualities will dispel that.

A part of my spiritual growth focuses on this insight that i had a day ago in which i said to myself that i want to be a saint, not like the messiah but a Saint in terms of a sage or a positive spirit. A blessing spirit that continues into eternity. That continues to have a big heart. Whose spirit expands and whose spirit is cleansed everyday. And when the spirit is cleansed it gets brighter and brighter every day. Like bright white light. It spreads. And when the person dies, this bright spirit continues to inspire and bless people who connect to that spirit's energy. I think such a spirit that is eternal and immortal and spreads its benevolence is a saint. And in my spiritual journey i want to achieve that. I want to be that saint, i want to be that spirit that is immortal and lives through eternity and blesses people who come her way. My inspiration comes from a mexican guy who is already a folk saint by his presence and he is Jonathan Legaria Vargas. And i feel for him and i feel his energy. He is such an inspiration. He was a good person who died and his spirit is eternal and his spirit is a saint. One can pray to his spirit for that peace. I think during massive spiritual growth and cleansing the person creates an ocean of tremendous peace. The peace is so deep and so spread out like an ocean that every thing in the world is going to be like a stone dropped into it that creates ripples. It won't change the ocean. The peace won't be destroyed by any negative energy and by any demonic or evil force because it's so deep. I think this is spiritual cleansing, attaining that sense of deep peace that cannot be destroyed. And this peace then transforms the spirit and makes it eternal and makes it saintly. I think its similar to the Buddhist principle of the "jewel is in the lotus" or om mani padme hun. This quote reminds me of the journey towards spiritual cleansing where you cleanse yourself gradually and your spirit becomes brighter and more peaceful and attains a sort of Calmness and beauty of the ocean. In my future spiritual journey i will focus more on spiritual cleansing that helps in the ultimate spiritual growth towards becoming a benevolent eternal spirit which i will call a saint and attaining this sainthood is the ultimate part of the spiritual journey. Its almost like enlightenment.

Today is October 28. It was a party at home by my mom. I got tired because I was the only one doing all the work. So i kinda fell into a slumber. When I woke up i thought about my dad and i cried a lot. And then I thought about him and how much of damage this guy had done that i will have to undo.. I mean i built him up. And he broke me down. That pretty much sums it up. Because guess what when his fist doesn't work, his words do the ammunition. I know domestic violence is really the worst thing. But there are other ways to hurt. That's called psychological and emotional abuse. And that can hurt equally. And there is no way to recognize it at first and it takes time. Narcissistic, self centered, predatory, hypocritical, insecure, abusive, passive aggressive and emotionally draining control freaks. That's the favorite strategy a cult leader uses is to abuse a person to control him. Taken enough of your emotional aggression You know how it feels when you have a shit*y ex boyfriend Guess who was the real bit*h...

Always remember that every person plays a distinct role in this world. And they constantly evolve. What you are at a point of time is only a reflection of your continuous evolution.. I feel like Selena Gomez's latest song is very inspiring, "Lose you to love me"..... Felt special because I could relate so much since this is my huge breakup phase. During a recent interview on the Zach Sang Show on Oct. 25, Selena dropped a bomb when she told everyone that she wants Justin to hear her new tracks. “Yeah, I do [want him to listen],” she said. “And here’s the whole point: being able to say something on your own, and being able to say something that actually is beautiful. For me, my intentions are never evil. They just aren’t. I don’t even know how to do that. My intentions can be a bit snappy but I always want to come from a place that’s genuine, and when I feel like some things haven’t been said, then, I get to turn things into art.” I feel like i resonate so much with the last lines. Sometimes i get snappy too. I'm not very fond of Selena Gomez but these lines are true. I get snappy too but like she said one has to come from a place that's genuine. I feel this is a phenomenal song just because of the title. I have grown so much throughout my relationship. All the passive aggressive abuse. When you lose someone it can create a guilty feeling , like you did something wrong to deserve it but at the same time it can be a liberating experience. When you lose someone you can discover yourself. Its a new birth. A rebirth of the soul. Along the way you realize how much your self needed you.. How much you neglected yourself. You lose that person and come back to yourself and discover the new version of you, more liberated, more confident, more free. A similar thing happened to me. I don't care enough what he might want to say anymore. I feel like I can focus so much on myself. I can appreciate myself more than ever. You feel independent. You feel like you don't need someone's approval. Most importantly you feel liberated and unbothered unphased by whatever that person wants to do. The jealousy, anger, frustration, vengeance leaves the body and it is replaced by a calm satisfaction in oneself. You are happy being you. You are more centered, not scattered. You are focusing on your goals, on your life, on your problems and your path, your purpose and your well-being, your happiness, your joy. It's like your boyfriend is cheating on your back but you could care less about that ducker and you just set out to a bowling alley to have fun with your friends. Or you call up your office buddy to discuss an important project or you are discussing with your therapist the next best method to suit your needs which will help you deal with your psychological issues so you can make progress. All in all the focus is only you. This is suddenly so liberating. No more worries about what someone else is doing, or this secret insecurity that they might be doing better than you, this tug in the chest, this knot in the stomach, this itch to know everything about that person to know what they are upto and this hate vengeance complex that brings this hurt, pain and rivalry. You feel liberated. It doesn't matter even if that person was moving on and being successful or happy, you just don't want to live suffocated in that little space of hurt forever. You are not going around cautiously trying not to get triggered or offended but you end up getting. You are no longer a victim of this hurt cycle anymore. You are free from that cycle that begins with judgement. I don't think loving people go on word ammunition rides. You weren't a straight shooter when you said to me that you were having a weed plantation and a future in robotics. Because thats the course you wanted to complete. Now prison is shit huh. It wasn't shit when you were in it. That time you were just being a victim.. . I call out on your hypocrisy and it hurts. You weren't such a straight shooter when I callled another guy handsome.. You are a piece of.... Oh you are so loving that you love attacking. You won't be a straight shooter if someone called your son autistic..... Would you.. When your shit is handed back to you, you cant handle it so don't dish it out. A loving person doesn't hurt. Why should I give 2 shiits about you. You are a narcissist nut job. Im not surprised that you are a hypocrite too. Because guess what narcissists are big time hypocrites. They turn every principle to serve their agenda. Basically convenient behavior. Do everything to serve your convenience. Not only is time wasted on you. Even love is wasted on you..... You did everything to serve your purpose and you used every guilt trap you could use. Let's remove your chill factor with all the weed and cigarettes and drugs you take to keep yourself chill. Then let's see how chill you are. Insecure is you who needs to attack others to cover up for your insecurities. You are not a fragile person. Fragile is your ego. Fragile is me who suffered so much being with you,who started showing signs of degradation you piece of...

Be a straight shooter in life. Self honesty is the key. Be self honest. Sometimes have a sit down and do a bit of self assessment as to what is going on in your life and what can be done and what type of reality you are dealing with. Life is really like looking through a telecope of 3 lenses. One lense shows the reality of your life which is observation. The other lense shows the analysis of it. And the last shows what solutions you can use to tackle that reality. That's all. Be an inspiration not a success. Be real and honest. Stop living in a false reality.

Drank my spiritual tea early morning and had these wonderful insights during meditation - What your mind is trapped in is a delusion and what you see around is an illusion. You need to be free from both. - Live a toxic free life today - You have years in front of you. Imagine the progress that you can make in another full decade or 10 years and Visualize that right now everyday - An inspiring person improves his life in increments over a whole period of time. And at the end there is a huge difference. Monumental difference. Maybe this person is not successful in the eyes of the world because success is a social standard. But this person is an inspiration. He is not a video game character. He is not fancy or Julius Caesar or a warrior out of a novel, colorful or passionate looking like a movie character just an average nerdy looking simple person yet so inspiring by their thoughts and actions and by their simple way of living a fuller inspiring life - People who look photogenic or movie like or act like that are abnormal because they are born in abnormal conditions. Only abnormal conditions like war create abnormal personalities and we call them heroes because we can't be like them. In reality they are puppets of an abnormal system. They are not role models at all because we don't need those conditions to create such people. - The reality around you even though it's a reality is a false reality. Learn to live in true reality. And true - And true reality is like beach pebbles. Pebbles represent us and our lives. Because pebbles are in basic unnoticeable colors like dark black grey white blue sand colored, dull everyday colors nothing striking and passionate like pink, orange, red, yellow, purple, turquoise.. Yet there are people who are molded by those conditions and they look red. When we look at them we find their lives interesting and find our own boring and we want to be them which is basically conforming to something abnormal. This is what society does to us every day. These pink stones are nothing but the reality warped by social illusions making the pebbles turn red with layers and layers of red paint placed on the pebble to make it interesting.. All these layers of red hot paint is social programming and creating of social illusions that begins to deceive and color our lives. Remove this red paint and it's the same grey pebble again. It's important to be free of this red paint plastered on by social illusion. Be free. Live how your heart wants. - Live free from false reality. Live in true reality. True reality means being yourself, improving your life everyday, improving your self everyday, doing your own thing but also knowing what is good and what is best for you, not doing whatever I want but knowing that it's in my good interest. Stop living in false social paradigms.

Imagining to myself the progress I could have made in the last 3 years or even last 6 years . It's a slow building and improvement process

It's witching hour

Another method of combining totems and tarots is to take a big tray and place rectangular soap bars one by one beside each other and then placing the tarot or sigil or totem can then be fixed into them by using a small wooden twig or a toothpick. Thus it remains fixed or put and easily be replaced by another by removing the stick and sticking another tarot on it... Also if soap bars are not needed then just use the cardboard pasted tarots on the tray or wooden board and create a tarot sigil totem chart.. Sigil represents a symbol Tarot represents a full picture rather than a symbol Totem represents a set of symbols arranged in a line to represent an event or message or sequence