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Some of the things that I lacked during the past years that slowed down my progress are Lack of awareness Lack of focus Lack of concentration Lack of motivation Lack of knowledge Lack of inspiration Lack of physical energy Lack of willpower Lack of direction Lack of freedom Lack of purpose Lack of love or support Lack of stimulation Scattered brain Distractions Erroneous beliefs I also need to go over my diaries sometimes And I'm Going to talk about an important concept called spiritual concentration Spiritual concentration is the extent of the quality of being spiritually focused, aware and spiritually involved and motivated in life. its the single most important thing to have in life. And Improving spiritual concentration on the deepest desires. That is first knowing or being aware of the deepest spiritual desires. Second is not losing focus on these goals or desires. Third is growing this concentration, focus, and awareness of these desires. Growing your spiritual concentration every day is very important.

You don't have to hate other women in order to love me. Don't kid yourself. The cognitive dissonance lol ------------ If you are beautiful and have problems with relationships then either there must be an awful competition, or you're choosing terrible people or that you do something wrong enough to put off that person in a real bad way.

My other motto is We will survive by our own strength. Your own strength will be the fuel to drive your life In the end you will have to rely on your strengths and creations.

God can move mountains. His greatness is great. Let him touch you You need healing after all the damage

I guess I needed this cruel experience in my life in order for me to love myself

Getting away from you helped me. Because i found myself now. Lose you to love me ehh. I have found renewed confidence. I am able to love myself more now. Thats what i needed. The holy spirit is a blessing spirit. A giving spirit, a noble spirit, a positive spirit and a healing spirit. It's the power of the healing spirit that heals you. And he was born that way. He was hated and derided and cast out because he did not look like them. Yet when the holy spirit descended on him, he was blessed. Divine was his light. He had love and mercy. And if he spoke it melted, if he walked he wont be known, he was a blur, he wasn't fantastic for the world, just simple but his spirit is eternal, he did things and they just happened, he was anointed, he was protected, He glided through things. And things happened. His despair was gone. His despair and pain was replaced with subtle joy and hope. His hurt was drowned. His sorrow turned to peace. His loneliness turned to love and comfort.

Essential life components Spiritual living Organic living holistic living optimized living Strategic living The other is balanced living that carefully balances all the components of essential life components.

My heart was broken in several ways. Try to love yourself sometimes. If you cant live without love or passion, try to have some beautiful imaginations and live them. Its ok if it hurts. Let it go.. To crave so much for something and to know that you will never have it is to burn slowly. My heart was broken in several ways. I didn't feel love. I felt pain, just in several ways. It was going to be different, just a different way of feeling the same pain. Just a different way of getting broken. My heart was broken in several ways, once again.

The spirituality associated with each constituent is the improvement and growth and purification of each component. Like for example lets take the mind and the thoughts. Now thoughts can be both good and bad. So obviously the good ones are preferred over the bad ones This is a process of removal or elimination of the bad and the growth of the good. Increasing the bad part is like corruption or contamination. Spirituality will focus on two things "growth or improvement" and elimination of bad. Elimination of toxins. Soul Body Mind Brain Spirit Heart Energy Consciousness But the conscious growth of constituents necessary for survival isn't really a part of spirituality but elimination of toxic factors for these constituents does become a part of spirituality because it comes closer to living an organic purer life. Thus living can be broadly defined as many parts Spiritual living or refining growing spiritual constituents. Organic living that is elimination of toxic factors. Spiritual living will focus more on soul, spirit, heart and energy. And organic living will focus on body, brain, mind and consciousness. Oragnic living is important for survival and continuation and preservation. Whereas spiritual living is a true purpose for being closer to the holy spirit and for spiritual growth Since the soul mind body system is in close correlation to the environment in which it sustains the study and improvement and sanitization of this environment is equally necessary. So the third branch will focus on that What's the name I will call this branch holistic living It focuses on diet and sleep and water and sunshine and atmospheric gases and social factors. All these factors are outside of the body. And also factors like medical conditions, race, past history, family history, community, ethnicity. Plus the environment of work or workplace, etc and climate. Medications and general skills like iq level, memory, ability to survive conditions. The next should be optimized living. There is yet another branch that focuses on static factors and our correlation to them. In the absence of other environmental factors. Like time and space. The most general factors that are universally common and mandatory to all no matter what race or social factors. This branch focuses on how to live a more productive life. How to get the work done fast, time management, productivity management, getting better output at home and work, schedules, situations handling, crisis management, space handling, stress and work management, task management, people management, real time solutions,stargetic maintenance etc. The 4th branch should focus on environment care, species preservation, disaster management, entertainment, sports, arts, architecture, building, population health, population dynamics, community health, crime solving, education, religion, law,military, politics and government, social or community order, civil order, invention and innovation for human and environmental benefit, optimization and maximization of productivity of both individual and community, eugenics. This branch should be called Strategic living Spiritual living Organic living holistic living optimized living Strategic living What is growth and elimination of toxins. Examples ???Spiritual living Growth ??Improving spiritual concentration on the deepest desires ?? Improving calmness ?? Detachment Elimination of toxins ?? Get rid of distractions ?? Do not give into cults ?? Being wise ?? Dont follow a false doctrine ???Organic living Growth ??A good diet ?? Physical stamina and exercise ?? Improving memory Elimination of toxins ?? Avoid junk food ?? Avoid bad emotions ?? Lower stress ???holistic living Growth ?? Improve core survival skills ?? Have positive social connections ?? Work on childhood issues or trauma. Elimination of toxins ?? Avoid toxic people ?? Avoid toxic gases and allergens ?? Avoid a toxic job ???optimized living Growth ??Time management ??Crisis management ?? Productivity management Elimination of toxins ?? Avoid distractions ?? Don't waste your time on pointless degrees and relationships ?? Do not work in a job that drains you. ???Strategic living Growth ?? A good law system ??Balanced population ??Environment friendly production Elimination of toxins ?? Control over population ?? Control pollution ?? Prevent pollution and misuse of environment.

I will say that spirituality should be focused on the source element. The source element can be called a part or constituents. So i will call them visible constituents. These constituents are Soul Body Mind Brain Spirit Heart Energy Consciousness

I have always believed that the human mind is very complex. And its not how we see it. Its both good and bad. And i call that "diabolique"

And the other mottos that closely associate with my spiritual emblem are Vivat Romanorum. Which is Long live the romans And Sic Semper Tryannis Which is thus the tyrant will be fallen by his own Timeant Romani Which is fear the romans Romanis mos lucror The romans will win.

The one thing that you can't defeat in the universe is logic. Because logic is grounding principle of the universe which is based on karma and the cause and effect principle. You cannot defeat that no matter how much ever self righteous you are. One thing leads to another and you cannot stop that whether you like it or not. Everyone has a distinct role to play.

Symbols for karma

Creation of the symbol emblem and mantra The mantra is We are victorious. We are spiritual. We will overcome (life) and we deserve to continue. This is the full version. We are victorious not only in terms of superior traits and qualities but also in regard to overcoming adversity and evil and problems and emerging victorious without succumbing to deception, fakery and shallowness. And we have faith in God. The short version is We are victorious. We are spiritual. --------------------

Symbol to represent the following Kali or soul force.. Kalis ornaments or objects Spiritual nature or water or sun or good heart or creative force or spring water Fusion a filled dot Cro magnon.. A line or weapon Fire..flame or line with dots. Intent.. Half part of the swastika Bad intent the other half of the swastika Initiation ceremony the hat Good thoughts or a good mind or intelligence. Lotus. Three or 5 petals Faith to override circumstances through Heroism and divine determination... Volcano Protection from sinning... Karma.. Arrow Reward and successful continuation of the righteous creed/tribe. Sign of the roman. The roman symbol has to be a part of it. It can be a roman fasces. The labrys cannot be used since its used by some special communities. ?? The bottom mantra accompanying this symbol has to be "we are victorious/we will overcome (life) and we deserve to continue"

Symbol to represent the following Kali or soul force Spiritual nature or water or sun or good heart or creative force Fusion Cro magnon Fire.. Fire as a test of life of both character building and survival. Intent Initiation ceremony the hat Good thoughts or a good mind or intelligence. Lotus Faith to override circumstances through Heroism and divine determination Protection from sinning... Karma. Your karma Reward and successful continuation of the righteous creed/tribe. The tribe represented by the seed of the roman

Ok I needed a symbol I wanna carve on a piece of wood and recite it every morning. I think a mantra can help a lot. A particular mantra One thing I read yesterday about was the cromagnons. And it was amazing how modern humans evolved from them They were the earlier sculptors and artists. To me they represent the reptilian side of life. The animalistic side. Which is more necessary for survival and reproduction and protection from predator. Like good defence mechanism But spirituality and character are also needed in a person. So a blend of both qualities makes a person perfect. Yesterday I was thinking about how real life really is. Like everything is real. Life is like fire and you can't escape it. If you escape you don't learn and you are not prepared for challenges of life. If you live in fire you become fireproof after some time and struggle and determination. The fire builds you. Both survival and character building happens during this phase. A lot depends on the cultural upbringing. How the culture shapes the character. The set of moral values taught or upheld. All 3 factors, genetics, the spirit/soul at birth, and cultural morals or environment are responsible for shaping the character. But at the same time, the fire itself is a test of character. Not only does it build but it is also a test. A test of karma and reward. Those who have a great conscience come out pure and uncorrupted and further build their moral strengths and inhibit their moral weaknesses through this test. Of course they get the karma for what they do.. They also get a reward if they do well. If they do wrong, they bring bad karma on themselves.. If you are great in your values, your values further get chiseled and sharpened and ripe in this fire and you pass the test. Your determination, purpose, intention and faith wins over the bad circumstances and you achieve heroic victory. But this can only come from being a good person because faith and courage are divine or godly qualities or virtues. If you are evil you have no source of faith Another part of the symbol should be initiation ceremony. The wearing of the hat One part should show fusion between both character values and survival values. A good heart and a good mind. A good soul and a good body.. A good mind is wise and intelligent. And knows the goal and is intent on it. So what's the difference between a good heart and a good soul I think it's this A good heart is helpful and kind. A good soul is pure energy, the intensity of determination. A good body is a good fit. When the determination is good its spirit or soul is benevolent and innocent. Like snow. When the determination or intent is bad the spirit is satanic or of the opposite virtue. In this soul means power or inner power. I will associate it with kali.. The hindu goddess. The significance of inner strength or force to overpower the presiding circumstances and to bring change merely through inner force and overcome adversity and evil. But this can only come from strength of character A malevolent spirit. The other kind of spirit is equally persistent but is evil in its design and purpose. However it is unmatched to the determination of the good. But there is a difference. A good person can be strong. A good person can also be weak. Kali is not a representation of weak but of strong spiritual strength. It means a person has to draw on greater spiritual strength to defeat the demons or else his weakness is his own death despite his goodwill... This is what kali means. Victory over evil... By spiritual strength. In some ways Santa Muerte is the Mexican version of Kali.. So there has to be a symbol representing kali as well... Kali the representation of soul energy or spiritual power. Next is a good heart.. This is just character of a person. But I don't know what defines it. If it's genetics, upbringing, or just the person's own evolution.. Why are some people more kind and empathetic and others aren't. It's somehow intricately woven with the nature of the spirit. I will call it Ma'at or brahma. The creative force of growth and benevolence and goodness. Of helpfulness. Goodness. It comes from an innate desire to only want good and inner kindness or mercy. I have no way to know what makes one person more loving than another. This is a mystery. This benevolence or nature of a spirit is a complete mystery. I think it's the aura of the spirit. And green means a good aura. Whereas brown or black means bad aura... But where does this come from. I think character is a huge complex of both spirit and genetic factors. The soul that enters at birth. And the genetic traits inherited as well as the general upbringing. All in one affects the character shaping of a person. Both genetic and environmental factors are controllable but the spirit is not. If a person receives a good spirit he is simply the chosen one. I feel that the nature of the heart is intermixed with the spirit. That is spirit is what comes at birth. But heart is what builds through conscious thinking and actions. So there is no regret if a spirit is vile. It can be gradually softened and mutated by the heart. The heart can change it.. They say change of heart. The heart can find remorse and repentance and I think it's the seat of Conscience. The voice of God. God speaks to the heart through the practice of spirituality. And the heart listens and reacts. These reactions definitely have a ripple effect on the spirit and the mind. Now the mind. The mind is a conscious creator through thoughts. Our thoughts constantly change and are a potent way of bringing change in a person's character and nature and traits. Brain is obviously more functional and reptilian or physical whereas mind is more emotional similar to the heart. The heart feels the mind perceives or senses like psychic senses. The psychic nature of the mind is similar to the emotional center of the heart. Both go together. One influences the other. The body is completely functional. The only part of the body that influence character are genetics. Of course this can't be undermined at all. It's the most basic physical necessity. It's what creates race and culture. So what represents a good nature or a benevolent spirit or a good heart. I think the sun is the best representation of a generous giver. The giver of light. Creator. Another representation can be a fountain or a river of love that keeps flowing. The benevolent waters. The water from the mountains heavenly and pure, generous and abundant and ever flowing representing a constant flow or growth or a never ending source of kindness and mercy.

November 2 I thought about how our future is going to be really bad. I just never thought of it like that. I never thought I would draw the hate of your child and family towards me and a life of humiliation.

Try to understand everything in relation to God and spirituality. Ask yourself if God would do that, if it's right in God's books. If it is spiritually right. If your mind is on fire, your life is on fire

If you are shaming me, it's because of your judgemental attitude. Your convenience principles and ethics. Basically hypocrisy. If someone shames you, they obviously dont love you. They shame you because they don't care about you. They shame you to put you down. They shame you because they are the ones who have a problem in accepting you unconditionally. They don't have a big heart but they want to guilt trip you like it's your fault. If someone shames you and your achievements and personality it's because they are selfish and demanding and they want more. They don't want to accommodate you. They don't care if you are hurt. They lack generosity and acceptance. They are greedy. They see you as a detriment to their own goals. They let you know that you are unwanted. They shame you because they see you as a loser and because they are narcissistic they cannot be with someone who they think as a loser. They want to be with someone they can easily accept and be socially comfortable with, they can flaunt that person for their own ego. It's about them and their needs and their wants and their pride. Your presence is hurting their pride. You are nothing to them so they could care less if your emotions were hurt. They don't want to know how you feel. Because that's not an imperative for them. They dont empathize with you. In fact they want to make you feel bad. Will they shame their own sons and daughters the same way, nope... They shame you because they don't consider you as family so its okay to hurt you. Deep down when they are convincing you that you are not worth their attention, they are convincing themselves that they can deserve a better deal.. They can ditch you in the blink of an eye because you are not important enough. But they can't come to terms with their own hate and tell you that they don't have a heart big enough to love you, that they are being cheap in judging you. So they want to do projection. Now they are not the problem if they can't appreciate or love you, you are the problem because you just aren't worthy of it, since they have projected on you that you are responsible for the hate you receive and how deserve it, they are freed from the responsibility of having to show love and acceptance to you and they have freed themselves from guilt with this strategy They don't have to feel guilty anymore for dumping you because they have proved to themselves and to you that you dont deserve it and they have the final say. Such people are hypocrites because when they are judged they feel bad. But they have no problem in shaming others. Because. They live by the principle of convenience, do wjat suits you. They do what suits their narrative from time to time. If they need you they won't judge you because they need you. So they kinda lay the judgement aside. How does their shaming help you. Clearly it doesn't. And they know that. Their agenda is not to help you. Their agenda is to declare you as good riddance. If they wanted to help you they wouldn't shame you to begin with Shaming you is a way freeing themselves from the guilt of rejecting you. They don't want to feel bad for either losing you or guilty or regretful for rejecting you. As soon as they learn they don't need you, they want to throw you out or replace you so the clever strategy is to Shame you. Whether you are above or below, lesser or greater, a loving person will find a way to appreciate you and your presence. Will never think that you are replaceable or disposable. A hateful selfish person will find a flaw even in your progress. They will try to challenge you, ridicule you, mock you, disparage you, discourage you and doubt you. Because they just do not want to appreciate you because they can't afford to think losing something they appreciate, that's a blow to self esteem. In fact making you feel bad is better because then they are relaxed in knowing that their judgment is right or they might end up feeling regret that they are losing a person who is actually really good. They want to feel justified. It's fox and the grapes. If the fox cannot get the grapes or if he doesn't want the grapes then these grapes must be bad and have to be bad. Because the fox wants to reject those grapes because he thinks what if he gets better, so sticking with something bad will be a loss deal in the end. See what happened since you wouldn't let go of those reject ones, you missed out the good ones. So they are emptying space in their mind to reserve it for something they think is more deserving of that space. If the fox accepts the grapes as good, he will have to deal with conflict whether to leave or not to leave or select the other one or not to think about the other one. In order to remove this conflict, he has to brand those grapes as sour. That will better fit his agenda or narrative. A very important lesson to learn when someone shames you is that you are not what they think. If they think that you are not enough, then doesn't mean that you are not good enough. If they brand you as a person who is lacking or undeserving that doesn't make you undeserving. In fact you should rise above their opinion because their opinion will only hurt you. You are going to feel ostracized, abandoned or secluded. If they really cared, they wouldn't want you to feel abnormal or secluded unless they are very keen on helping you and their criticism is only meant to steer you in the right way. A descent person is never mean. They never wish to hurt you. If they really want to change you they will have a sit down with you, gain your trust and then help you out because they want you to overcome your flaws so that your life will be better or not harmed or your life will suffer as a result of your flaws. They will put ginormous effort in getting you out. ______________________________ You never made me happy and are never going to make me happy. Why do i expect it still. Because maybe I think you love me.. I should start expecting that you are going to say something hateful anyway something hurtful because that's what you do. I should be fully expecting that your agenda is never to make me happy but rather to upset me because in upsetting me you derive pleasure or you feel grounded. You don't have to feel the obligation to have to get along with me that way. You can be yourself and you don't have feel the need to impress me so that way hating me makes you more comfortable with your inner agenda. With your inner cognitive dissonance. I should start expecting that you are anyway going to show hate and let me down because that way my emotions are safer. I dont have to feel shocked or hurt or triggered every time because of how it conflicts with my inner assumption that you must be loving me. I am sorta prepared for the incoming hate and that way im more protected.

Primordial starts with intention. Then proceeds to quality. Then to energy. Then to attraction. Then to materialization. Primordial - > quality - >energy - > attraction - > materialization You cannot bash yourself for things that you don't have a control on

Last night had a terrible nightmare. It was about a crime. Terrible crime. Somewhere in Seattle Woke up feeling discomfort and like I knew something. So the bad dream goes like this This person is a violent man an abuser. He abused his 3 sons and mentally harassed his wife. The family hired an Ecuadorian young virgin as a nanny housekeeper and she is uninterested in this man. But he wants her. He threatened her many times but she rebuffed him. So he is pissed off at her. He sets his eyes on his wife's sister. And she is sorta a bimbo type. So she caves in. And they have sex. The wife finds out and is grossed out. But they mock her.. The sister is a weak person. She easily submits to his passive aggressive behavior When the eldest son complains to his mom, she confronts her domineering aggressive hostile husband and he loses it. He flies into a rage and then hurls her to the floor. Then he drags her and throws her out. She falls into this gap between two pavements outside the small driveway and she is scared. He takes his bike and loads his sons on it and rides out the gate and at this point the wife screams and tells him to not harm her kids. He threatens her that they are gone forever and she will never see them again. This is a nightmare for her and she wants to call the police. But she feels helpless. She asks her sister for help out of desperation but she acts numb. The man comes back and the Ecuadorian nanny is standing like a statue there and he approaches her to make an advance and offers her to get with him but she ignores him and he is infuriated and threatens her. Now he proceeds to drag his wife and beat her up while the sister watches it all go down. He either disappears or gets arrested and is serving time for murder and abuse. However the woman develops a contentious relationship with her sister and finds it difficult to forgive her. The sister shows false shame but wants to be accepted by society despite her association with the killer.. It seems the woman wants to move on and she forgives her sister eventually realizing that it's human weakness and flaws that caused her to act evil.. The case has a lasting impact on the local community and the man becomes a standard symbol of an abusive violent domineering freaky animalistic husband stereotype.

Anyone who has grown mentally, physically or spiritually knows that growth is not found in comfort. You have to question everything every day when you wake up. Almost everything

This is a great message You cannot expect your life to be on a steady good track when you are stuck in a bad situation or a bad emotional mental state. It doesn't work like that. First you have to get unstuck and move on released from the bad state holding you and then set order and growth in your life.