Preety_India

So what's the reason for a bad day today lol

Real people have real values. And real values represent Christ And with good intentions come good outcomes. So with real people comes real change. Sadly real people are going extinct and fake is increasingly becoming the norm.

This is so funny.

It was just so relatable like so relatable. I kinda forgot it completely. But it was so relatable. I was watching this interview and it hit me....like this is what my life was . My life was that ... exactly that ... I never learned. Never noticed ... It was something like you never realize that every day was a bad day .you never had a good day in life. You were the guinea pig. Like everything happens to finally make your day go bad. Like every day there is a new reason for the day to be bad...yes yes yes yes .finally I got it .I was writing exactly that ...everybday is a reason and some shit happens like it's planted on purpose like the devil wants you to have a bad day so shit happens to give you a bad time ..all that you will ever get will be pointless waste of time and pain and agony . It's like you need to let go. If someone bullied you , finally it's your loss even if you tried fighting hard against the haters,it's not gonna work . Because finally they are all having a good time. And you are the one who suffered. So no point in engaging them. They will want to engage you even more ,create more drama because they don't lose anything and as they watch you suffer they delight , they can waste their time on you and go about with their stuff like nothing happened and emerge out feeling great with no impact on their health yet you will be the person who goes home feeling distressed and hurt and the cycle continues with you being the ultimate sufferer and loser because you're the sucker who succumbs to their attacks and preying on your fragility . Their drama will continue forever but you will come out of it with kidney failure .... Kidney failure being a pseudonym for extreme stress and body harm and major health scare as a result of the emotional stress.... You become a dummy when you waste your time on them and let your time be ruined. When you let your time be ruined ,when you let your day be ruined , you give power to those whose purpose was to give you a bad day , a bad time at first it only looks like a bad day and nothing much, but over time it builds into a massive stressor as it goes on every day,that's what my f*cking mom did, that's what my f*cking mom did .... bullied me all along, intense mental abuse and shit ...and I never realized that only I am going to be the loser and not her while she carries on like her life is great meanwhile destroying mine. Yea even the school bullies do the same thing to you. Even people at the workplace. Social media. It's tough. But remember one lesson. You are the one who is at the receiving end of their drama and tactics. They will escape off light. While you will simmer under that stress. And when this psycho-mental-emotional stress builds up every day recurrently over a period of time without you noticing it or aware of it, it starts to wreck your health and gobble you up and slowly eat into you,taking pieces away one at a time, slowly steadily,until you reach a point of such damage that a return looks impossible. Yea ye yea yea exactly that....that's the kidney failure point...the last point where even if you tried to save yourself, there is no saving because the ultimate harm is done and now you can only have damage control but no damage reversal....I wish there was a strong brave young girl who would just stand upright against bullying and throw a smack into the faces of bullies and just explain it out what horrible damage they do and effing teach them a good lesson so they don't come around trying to look good again and escape with their sociopathic shit...like no one got the right to treat others bad and give them a hard time. Got no time to deal with that hate. I wish there were more role models trying to take up a cause that someone is dealing with and help them out especially if that person is unaware or blind to their problems and just knock sense into them and help them out to have a better life. That would be awesome. Because you don't have to live a life to feel bad about yourself every day .that's not what life is for. If you are in that type of a place where you are feeling bad about yourself every day where you are made to look like the wrong person then get out of that place . Get out of that relationship if it's the relationship that makes you feel like you are wrong all the time . You did nothing wrong to deserve that. And there are people out there those mean sick bullies who want to make you miserable because that's their goals and they delight in your misery and pain and you allow the whole cycle because you don't realize it's only hurting you, just avoid whatever is hurting you and go in ICU mode... Don't let anyone bother you... And remember the most important lesson is that they are all going to have a good time they will escape unscathed, and you will pay the price for nothing and you will be targeted for nothing. And they will get off it. While you suffer. And they will justify your downspiral as something you deserve because of their fake assumption and demonization of you that you should deserve it which is absolutely wrong or they will show that you are the cause of your own misery that you brought it on because there is something wrong with you that is causing it, a favorite is mental illness even when you are not mentally ill.......but they have to show that to dismiss you and ridicule you. It's their strategy. They feed on that. They know how to keep a nice front..... And they are good at being backdoor bullies because behind doors they are absolutely terrible but in front they have a good reputation it's all narcissism and people never get to see their real side. Don't be in a narcissistic abusive relationship where you are always humiliated and made to look like a bad person,be with people who appreciate you,let the devil fail each time he wants to manipulate.. remember whatever they do is manipulation because at first they want you and use you for their purpose and after the use is done they want to turn around and bully you and poke fun at you and feed on your fragile mental state because they want to look great at your expense. And you are the preferred target,why, because another person will expose them and make them suffer but you can't and they can easily see that. . that's why they can choose to harm you and it does good because it's working as long as you are suffering ...so don't back down . Don't let them win and have yourself suffer. Life is not to be lived feeling bad about yourself everyday and even an enemy wouldn't want that for you so a person who hopes you suffer for whatever silly justification in their mind is obviously bringing bad karma on themselves and giving you a hard time for the sake of hating you. Making you look bad or horrible. (I'm not going to kiss and make up )....don't succumb to that "I must be bad and so I deserve it " bullshit...it's the narcissist's favorite weapon to feel great about himself./herself.. The cute thing would be to just laugh it off in their face and make them see how silly and immature high schoolish they are. ..and going on about your life with utmost maturity and dumping them and never kissing their ass so they are the losers in the end ,making them realise how they would lose people with their bullshit and how it's inexcusable. They can't go around bullying and expecting others to put up with that without repercussions. Karma comes.always.. And because you had such a bad time in life and you never had a good day to count, that's the reason why you never realize how much harm it is actually causing you,You see it as a daily grind which is farthest from the Truth ,the truth is that if you had a great life then you would actually realize how toxic this whole thing is how much it is sapping from you and how much it has already drained you and it would be a big deal and you would absolutely hate and take urgent action to get out of it but since you are used to having a bad time most of the time, you don't realize how much bad it really is for your health and you just get used to putting up with it whereas another person (who is having a great time in life )in your place would have completely escaped from it and removed themselves from it and never engaged with it ever again.... Such people have a healthy sense of self esteem because of their good circumstances and supportive people around them who don't let them feel bogged down and help them up so they don't have to remain stuck with abusive manipulative narcissistic bullies. They can set themselves free and live their fantastic life away from energy drainers aka bullies . These are nothing but energy drainers and time wasters and shit starters who take pieces out of your life. They are by no means decent and they should be kept at Bay and if they do not and continue to harass then there should be legal action against them . (Because he doesn't have any self respect or integrity and nobody can cure that part ) You know what, if you have to feel bad about yourself every day with those people then you can do better in life especially away from them. Trust yourself. You can do better... You can do way better. You deserve better. And you will do better once you are away from such drainers. You are going to feel awesome and you will discover yourself once you learn to disappoint those who try to bring you down.

If you never had a good time in your relationship then it wasn't a good relationship. That's all.

I want to write a rap lyric on the destruction in the world.

Sometimes he is so sweet to me like this gif. I miss him

My journal henceforth is going to be spirituality mixed with some emotional stuff. I understood that being a woman the emotional stuff is sort of a huge release ... I'm going to have to divide this into two parts. One I'll call the spirituality bucket. The other I will call the life bucket that deals with everyday real life stuff and some emotional stuff thrown into it for therapeutic reasons.

I also wanted to discuss this snowball effect in life. Where things go wrong in your life and then they continue to go wrong like a chain reaction set up. Especially with health problems In my childhood every day was like a bad day. There were no good days. So sometimes it feels like this whole life is a journey of waking up to a bad day . Like you are living just to feel bad every day. You are sick of feeling sick everyday. 2 mysteries these are the how does a person turn out to be good and the other bad. What causes this change in person to person . I know that parental upbringing and culture and genetic factors play a huge role but I'm also aware that there is more than only these. The nature of the spirit of how's it's acquired is a huge mystery the next mystery is the transformation. How does a transformation occur. That certain people when they are placed in certain circumstances they learn to survive and adapt and this causes spontaneous mutation and adaptation and transformation. I will call this spontaneous transformation. Yet this does not happen all the time. Certain harsh conditions can elicit a fatal response rather than invoke an adaptation response. Which means those harsh conditions can prove fatalistic and the person dies. There is no scope for adaptive mutation. So here is the mystery. What's the exact point that decides the difference between adaptive and fatalistic and how does this mutation or adaptive training occur. What set of conditions or caveats are needed for such a spontaneous beneficial or protective transformation to take place.

And that is that.We live in a very elitist world. People need something to better off off feeding a person's weaknesses and problems. The whole American system is designed on that.Because Western psychology focuses so much on how a person behaves regardless of his environment. Like if a person eats crappy food for decades they are going to have mental problems. but it's like everything is that person's fault. But looking at it in a different way. Let's say you are given the best circumstances in life. Where you grow up in the most idyllic conditions, your stress levels are definitely going to be the lowest. So you can take on more in life .more challenges in life. Because you are equipped for it. You're not worn out just yet. But if you always lived a shitty life since childhood eating bad food and having to deal with bad emotions like distress and dysfunctional family you are not going to turn out super fine and wonderful . Your body is going to register signs of stress. It's gonna show not only on your body and face but also in your demeanor. You are going to be defensive and cranky and easily offended and aggressive. Bitter. Because you have always been miserable. So it's gonna show. But if you always had the best life with virtually no problems then you will not react in an agressive manner because you don't need to. And people will say you are pleasant. But that's because you are blessed with great genetics and also because you never had to deal with shit in life. But when you have problems you are just not the same person anymore. Life happens to you and it changes you in ways you didn't want. And then when you get angry ,people judge you instantly calling you an unpleasant person. They bully you because they know how easily they can trigger you for a few laughs . That's awful when you have to face that. Because not only you have to deal with the shit in your life but now also deal with people judging you for reacting to it the way you do. And even if you have bad genes that alter your mood,can you really help that. It's something unfortunate that you have to deal with. My point is that there is very little understanding and empathy in this world and too much guilt tripping, demonizing, finger pointing and judging in this world. I just go home knowing that I'm a good person at the end of the day and haters can fuck off and I know that I am not a bad person so I don't have to care what someone thinks because they don't care to know me. If they did they wouldn't be judging me without knowing me first And the worst part is that when you are born a certain way and around certain things and and bad food , and bad health and then you are moody or grumpy then you are blamed . On top of all that, even a little remark or comment or action sets you off into a rage and turmoil and you feel massively triggered even when it's not that bad ,like even a simple joke hurts you and then your so called friends or frenemies turn that on you and say you are not fun that you can't take a joke, but you really can't take a joke because you have been through some serious shit in life and those jokes are exactly which trigger your PTSD so you don't want to hear those jokes so it's insensitive for that person to make you the target of their jokes.maybe choose someone that doesn't get offended and the leave the person the fuck alone if they don't wish to be bothered by your crass jokes. That's what they used to do to me in my office. Play these stupid jokes on me without knowing my family life. That's called being insensitive. Well I don't need to impress them.i can choose to be who I want to be. And if they don't like me then they can leave me alone If you are already feeling miserable then there are a 101 different ways to feel even more miserable. Like imagine if a person was bullied in his school and he got fat because of that. Because he was affected by that bullying and chose to seek comfort in food. But now that he is fat those same people bully him for being fat. This is a vicious cycle. Yes I'm a fragile person at heart and nobody has the right to tell me that I shouldn't exist because I am fragile. I can live. The world can be a very cruel place. And bullying is sometimes treated as a non issue. But seriously it is a serious issue. It is a big deal. I know what it does. It's not about being a snowflake. It's about being yourself. And and victim playing is completely different. A person who plays victim is a person who was never attacked to begin with and was never referenced or mentioned or approached and all interactions with such a person were decent enough yet that person turns something into something else to set himself or herself into a victim for gaining sympathy. I'm as serious as a heart attack. I can't deal with either of those, both aggressors and victim players, the former has zero conscience or empathy and the latter is narcissistic and wants too much attention or sympathy.

Life bucket

The world likes shiny objects. They don't appreciate Valor and courage

I was just sleep walking through the years but not any longer

Some of the things that I lacked during the past years that slowed down my progress are Lack of awareness Lack of focus Lack of concentration Lack of motivation Lack of knowledge Lack of inspiration Lack of physical energy Lack of willpower Lack of direction Lack of freedom Lack of purpose Lack of love or support Lack of stimulation Scattered brain Distractions Erroneous beliefs I also need to go over my diaries sometimes And I'm Going to talk about an important concept called spiritual concentration Spiritual concentration is the extent of the quality of being spiritually focused, aware and spiritually involved and motivated in life. its the single most important thing to have in life. And Improving spiritual concentration on the deepest desires. That is first knowing or being aware of the deepest spiritual desires. Second is not losing focus on these goals or desires. Third is growing this concentration, focus, and awareness of these desires. Growing your spiritual concentration every day is very important.

You don't have to hate other women in order to love me. Don't kid yourself. The cognitive dissonance lol ------------ If you are beautiful and have problems with relationships then either there must be an awful competition, or you're choosing terrible people or that you do something wrong enough to put off that person in a real bad way.

My other motto is We will survive by our own strength. Your own strength will be the fuel to drive your life In the end you will have to rely on your strengths and creations.

God can move mountains. His greatness is great. Let him touch you You need healing after all the damage

I guess I needed this cruel experience in my life in order for me to love myself

Getting away from you helped me. Because i found myself now. Lose you to love me ehh. I have found renewed confidence. I am able to love myself more now. Thats what i needed. The holy spirit is a blessing spirit. A giving spirit, a noble spirit, a positive spirit and a healing spirit. It's the power of the healing spirit that heals you. And he was born that way. He was hated and derided and cast out because he did not look like them. Yet when the holy spirit descended on him, he was blessed. Divine was his light. He had love and mercy. And if he spoke it melted, if he walked he wont be known, he was a blur, he wasn't fantastic for the world, just simple but his spirit is eternal, he did things and they just happened, he was anointed, he was protected, He glided through things. And things happened. His despair was gone. His despair and pain was replaced with subtle joy and hope. His hurt was drowned. His sorrow turned to peace. His loneliness turned to love and comfort.

Essential life components Spiritual living Organic living holistic living optimized living Strategic living The other is balanced living that carefully balances all the components of essential life components.

My heart was broken in several ways. Try to love yourself sometimes. If you cant live without love or passion, try to have some beautiful imaginations and live them. Its ok if it hurts. Let it go.. To crave so much for something and to know that you will never have it is to burn slowly. My heart was broken in several ways. I didn't feel love. I felt pain, just in several ways. It was going to be different, just a different way of feeling the same pain. Just a different way of getting broken. My heart was broken in several ways, once again.

The spirituality associated with each constituent is the improvement and growth and purification of each component. Like for example lets take the mind and the thoughts. Now thoughts can be both good and bad. So obviously the good ones are preferred over the bad ones This is a process of removal or elimination of the bad and the growth of the good. Increasing the bad part is like corruption or contamination. Spirituality will focus on two things "growth or improvement" and elimination of bad. Elimination of toxins. Soul Body Mind Brain Spirit Heart Energy Consciousness But the conscious growth of constituents necessary for survival isn't really a part of spirituality but elimination of toxic factors for these constituents does become a part of spirituality because it comes closer to living an organic purer life. Thus living can be broadly defined as many parts Spiritual living or refining growing spiritual constituents. Organic living that is elimination of toxic factors. Spiritual living will focus more on soul, spirit, heart and energy. And organic living will focus on body, brain, mind and consciousness. Oragnic living is important for survival and continuation and preservation. Whereas spiritual living is a true purpose for being closer to the holy spirit and for spiritual growth Since the soul mind body system is in close correlation to the environment in which it sustains the study and improvement and sanitization of this environment is equally necessary. So the third branch will focus on that What's the name I will call this branch holistic living It focuses on diet and sleep and water and sunshine and atmospheric gases and social factors. All these factors are outside of the body. And also factors like medical conditions, race, past history, family history, community, ethnicity. Plus the environment of work or workplace, etc and climate. Medications and general skills like iq level, memory, ability to survive conditions. The next should be optimized living. There is yet another branch that focuses on static factors and our correlation to them. In the absence of other environmental factors. Like time and space. The most general factors that are universally common and mandatory to all no matter what race or social factors. This branch focuses on how to live a more productive life. How to get the work done fast, time management, productivity management, getting better output at home and work, schedules, situations handling, crisis management, space handling, stress and work management, task management, people management, real time solutions,stargetic maintenance etc. The 4th branch should focus on environment care, species preservation, disaster management, entertainment, sports, arts, architecture, building, population health, population dynamics, community health, crime solving, education, religion, law,military, politics and government, social or community order, civil order, invention and innovation for human and environmental benefit, optimization and maximization of productivity of both individual and community, eugenics. This branch should be called Strategic living Spiritual living Organic living holistic living optimized living Strategic living What is growth and elimination of toxins. Examples ???Spiritual living Growth ??Improving spiritual concentration on the deepest desires ?? Improving calmness ?? Detachment Elimination of toxins ?? Get rid of distractions ?? Do not give into cults ?? Being wise ?? Dont follow a false doctrine ???Organic living Growth ??A good diet ?? Physical stamina and exercise ?? Improving memory Elimination of toxins ?? Avoid junk food ?? Avoid bad emotions ?? Lower stress ???holistic living Growth ?? Improve core survival skills ?? Have positive social connections ?? Work on childhood issues or trauma. Elimination of toxins ?? Avoid toxic people ?? Avoid toxic gases and allergens ?? Avoid a toxic job ???optimized living Growth ??Time management ??Crisis management ?? Productivity management Elimination of toxins ?? Avoid distractions ?? Don't waste your time on pointless degrees and relationships ?? Do not work in a job that drains you. ???Strategic living Growth ?? A good law system ??Balanced population ??Environment friendly production Elimination of toxins ?? Control over population ?? Control pollution ?? Prevent pollution and misuse of environment.

I will say that spirituality should be focused on the source element. The source element can be called a part or constituents. So i will call them visible constituents. These constituents are Soul Body Mind Brain Spirit Heart Energy Consciousness

I have always believed that the human mind is very complex. And its not how we see it. Its both good and bad. And i call that "diabolique"