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@ajasatya Yep. I care about him. Yes it's about him also. I want him to grow out of his dysfunction and find peace in his life

@remember I don't know how his mind works now. Also he is more busy now than before which is an advantage to him. I was sick of his narcissism. And I'm glad I'm out. This was the right way to end it. I don't regret the relationship overall but towards the end it was getting worse. So it was best for both of us to bury it. It does show frequent changes in his behavior which is a symptom of his bipolar condition and he has to be on meds to control his mood swings. I was still supportive of him for as long as I could be but I have limits to how much I can take and maybe he realized that. I wish him the best and all the good in the world. I'm glad that I'm free from a dysfunctional unhealthy relationship and I can now focus on growth. I have no contact with him now since the breakup which is the only way to completely forget him and not allow him to contact me back because he can get very persuasive. The first month will be difficult but eventually me and him both will let go of the need to reconnect and everything will fall in place. Thanks for the kind words and support

@tsuki I completely agree with the whole amygdala and sexual arousal part. And having been with a narcissistic partner, I can say that they are hell to be around with. Yet they have a wonderful side of love and kindness buried inside which very few people get to see. If a narcissist seeks therapy, he can bring a big shift in his behavior towards his partner. Lesser need to devalue her.

A lot of the images are beautiful Hahaha the funny thing is I was blabbering images in sleep

So yea this space/wall will be about music, art pieces and English phrases

And how does sex feel. To me it felt this way

This was the image...all mixed patterns and colors . via Imgflip Meme Generator

How I felt A bit spaced out and like traveling into a portal ...like walking through a galaxy but ever changing. Sometime anxious sometimes chill and easily tired and lot of brain work...like brain exercise lol. Felt exhausted in the end. A bit acidic. The images were flurry. .but I had flashbacks. No nightmares. But a constant feeling of sleepy wakefulness. Like I can't escape it. Like I have to be on this mind traveling trip as long as it takes me. Reminded me of Matrix Reloaded. . Wanted to come down and say I don't want this..but it would continue without my permission.. So I let it happen as long as it does . It started to taper off ...tapering ...then some consciousness peeking through like coming back to normal but laughing while coming back. Looking at everything like what the fuck is this...why you guys arguing. What's special.....hehehehehehehehehe ..this is madness. Reality madness. Felt like I was mocking the world. All it's traps and ways. Felt like a misfit...but it's okay..felt like..the message...you are born to live... but hey you belong somewhere else okay...to a cosmic world where you are loved and wanted

This is my low grade psychedelic experience. I try not to up the dose at all. I'm aware that it can be messy . So for me just a little works fine.the pure form can be very intense. But mixed with a little bit of other stuff it can have the right impact. It takes hours to feel a bit better. But I feel steady. I cried a lot....whoooooosh... It released a lot of tension. And the visuals were flashing and bright and colors stood out and there were many many structures and patterns .. One pattern mixed with another. Felt like a labryinth world. But I'm good. Not as bad as thought. I feel more artistic after this... I also feel like I wanna be a free bird and the need to let go is strong This helped me deal with the breakup . I'm grateful to you mother Ayahuasca

This is my most fantastic find. Had ordered it last week. And had it before my sexual experience..this helps a ton. It made me laugh and cry at the same time.. My boyfriend isn't here. So i am free from him. I don't have to worry anymore. This is my safe space away from his space. I will never mix myself with his space. Never ever. I'm far away from him completely safe..but the sex was amazing. And I have that. Now it's his world that I could rarely care about..but now it's my world. My own little world where i have him blocked and thrown away. He can never come here. He can never bring that torment again .. The drink was great. I wish I could do more . But I can only sip just a bit at a time . The Ayahuasca is strong. It makes me feel Spacey.

This has been fantastic..been trying this and along with my Ayahuasca tea this helps a lot in feeling spiritual.

So yesterday I took some Ayahuasca. Mixed with a lot of herbs But before that I had to drink a passion flower concoction to feel better and restful.

So today a new chapter finally begins. And I'm hopeful that finally this will be something good. Trying to focus on whatever I need to be doing . My focus cards are helping me

You killed me

I love British people..they are cool

@modmyth thank you so much

I 88 ultra.. A thousand and one

Don't sweat it Meaning/Usage: To tell someone not to worry

Feeling better and free today Finally breathing