Preety_India

Murph at night Twirl in the morning Play in the snow, when it's freezing Yyou can't even give 1 ounce of happiness to anyone. So stop the shit And mind your mit

If you have someone who truly loves you, you will not need to advertise yourself..

If someone pressures into believing that you are not the type thats likable then you should simply reply "that's not my comfort space"... That's alll.

The simple answer is just be yourself. You cannot be something that you just aren't and it doesn't pay long term, maybe short term gain like a a few dates but eventually your true side shows. So no point in hiding it. Just be comfortable with who you are. If you judge yourself too much, you will also begin to judge the other person equally. Much of social beliefs is just myth. Synchronicity and coincidence play a huge role in our lives and these can't be dictated by people's directives. You have to be who you are. Then you are authentically attracting the person who is right for you. If you display something you aren't, chances are you will attract some one that you won't be comfortable with in the long term. That's a lot of cognitive dissonance to deal with..

Go chill Boot camp season is on. 3 weeks Did you do activity no 27.. Yes or no Keep full sheet of activities with you during boot camp.

Men are so predictable

Then the next thing I wanted to get into is counterintuitive behavior. The more you learn to sway away from intuitive behavior its better. Always be counterintuitive always. This behavior helps with survival.

One Up-manship.. Jealousy Bias People pleasing Need to control Bias Labeling each other the stages of the spiral dynamics, "you're orange, im turquoise" Drama Pointless sarcasm just to appear intelligent or smart-ass Projection Prejudice Group politics Chimpery Aversion Meanness My shadow is people pleasing.

28 November Trying to not fall off the wagon. So did you do it - yes. But not great only half. One third still remaining. Did not fall off the wagon this time

She has moved on already. But you can still persuade.

I have no idea on how to connect to the mother of kindness though. But I'll try to..

I just love this guy...

I have understood that I'll need at least a week to 2 weeks of a perfect schedule. Only then things will work. Looking forward to it from today. I will use the terms on schedule or falling off the wagon for my habits.. If my day is on schedule I'll write on schedule or else I'll write falling off the wagon.

You look very curvy

@Raptorsin7 maybe idk.

Soulful

I want to add some music to my life. It helps in healing. I love music to death. So I will be posting any music I like and keeping a small collection I can always refer to especially during my sad times to let it uplift me and keep me in the zone and grooving... So here I go.

So I had a lucid dream this night and I woke up from it. It was huge. Like a near death experience. I felt first like I was focusing on the word spirituality. Then it came alive. Like suddenly everything grew cold. And then it was dark. I felt like my soul was leaving my body. Like a white Mist floating over me. This mist was separating from me. And I was calling it back. I told it not to leave me. Please come back into my body. During this transition I could feel like there are two places opposite to each other. On one side there was a smokey hue like greyish smokey and in that smoke I could easily see a structure like a bull with his horns. The bull shaking his head and the horns like in a rhythmic fashion. It felt creepy eerie and very demonic. Like the bull saying this is the end of my life and that he will bring me closer to death. It was his job to separate life and death and cut off the umbilical cord of the soul from life and take it to death and beyond. And he would do everything destructive in my life to attain this objective. I was scared. This was the face of demon. A bull. Then I looked at the other side. It was like a bluish bright white magical ice angel with wings. This angel was hard rigid ice. Transparent. It was feminine. She said something like don't give into his temptation and be strong. After that I felt like I was going to close to death but the angel was saving me. Then I told the demon to go. That I wanted to live. But this demon is stubborn. The angel said. She was like a mother, like a mother of kindness. She came closer and started pouring milk all over my head. She was carrying a huge pitcher and pouring milk. I said "hey stop this".. I was laughing and giggling because the milk was getting in my nose and ears. She continued pouring and she was giggling too. After that I felt an icy coldness. As cold as ice. Everything very cold. This continued for some time and then after that I was in a different place It was all digged up mud everywhere. And I was sitting on a stone block. Like a stone slab. There was nothing to do. I was bored and lonely. Something told me that this was heaven. But there was nobody there except me. There was orange light in the sky and I was feeling lonely But I wasn't sad. Then something from behind me said to me that it was time for me to go live my life. But I turned around to see there was no one there. After that I saw myself in a very narrow hospital room on a gurney. Strapped. The person in an apron looking like a doctor comes and switches the light on and off and then comes over to me and says "you should go to sleep" Over The mother of kindness was especially important. She told me that the demon gets stronger if you do cocaine and if you engaged in perverted sex and if you engage in Occult, if you are with a person who has a demon, if you do what the demon wants. But if I listen to her things will be okay. Then I ask her how can I be closer to her. She tells me that's the goal. Her goal is to protect. But I ask her how. Then she says all I need to do is say what I want and she will do. But I should want it sincerely or else she will do it for me but it may not be what I truly want. Then she tells me how the soul is immaculate, it's pure, white as snow. That the more spiritual I become the more I will be able to connect with this immaculate pure soul. That's what she says I should do.. I ask her if I can pray to her. She nods. After the dream I vomited a couple of times. Felt uncomfortable. But then there was a sense of calmness over me. I can't say it was a great experience but a memorable one.

I wanted to discuss my new concept of psychological affinity. It means having affinity for something or at least developing it gradually over time even if you had no liking for something. For example let's say I had no liking for cooking . Maybe I don't like to cook. But in harsh weather, where it would be impossible for me to step out and go to my nearest Chinese takeout or pizza shop, I really need to learn cooking and get by during a harsh winter. So yes in this case I'll have to develop interest in cooking even if I don't like it. This gradual affinity I develop over time for something I don't usually like can be called psychological affinity.

It's pretty natural I think to feel a bit uncomfortable about it. If I were a man, I'd feel too. I mean how are you supposed to do something like that in public. It never made any sense to me.. I think there should be like a wall between each of them.. That would make it more private. Just being honest hahahah

@Mikael89 you are not too old to try anything. You act like you are 80 year old lol who can't try anything or there won't be any point in trying anything

To lead a dream life, you don't need an awesome brain