Preety_India

Not a player.

Maybe I don't care about other's needs and only care about my own needs. That makes me a vampire or leech.

Yea it happens to the best of us.

Today I spoke with a man who said to me this - If he loves you he will chat I told him everything that's been going on and how I feel about it. Keeping fingers crossed till March 27.

What do I want really? An intimate connection with lots of love and healing and purpose and deep deep deep deep deep deep deep deep deep intimacy. Someone who accepts me for who am.. Someone who loves me for who I am

You need to be able to tell if this is an abusive pattern or you two just got caught up in some unconscious moments and have already developed a healthy level of trust, intimacy and vulnerability. It was March 16,17, 18, 19,20.

Thank you, yea transcending seems to be a good idea.

I just want to be deeply deeply intimate..

Can you rephrase this part and explain it to me again because I didn't understand it.

@Kksd74628 OK if you want to solve this then use pm

@Kksd74628 your problem with font or whatever is not my personal issue. Deal with whoever did it to you. This is my last post to you. I'm not addressing you anymore I suggest you to not shit all over my thread anymore (that's pretty uncool) and be done with this here for good. I'm getting helpful responses from other users here, please don't deflect it. Let them talk to me.

Well it seems like you have a hard time when someone is criticizing your behavior and yet you don't see a problem with nitpicking on their profiles picture or post count. I don't have an obligation to someone who is being straight up rude with me. People will treat you the way you treat them first. My response to you is obviously going to be negative if you bully me on my profile picture or nitpick on other things. You're expecting Positivity from me when you come to me with a negative attitude. I don't need to call your posts insensitive if you act respectful to me. Learn to command respect before blaming others for pointing out your behavior.

@Kksd74628 maybe you're the one creating drama by wasting my time, derailing the thread, taking the focus away from the topic and placing it on silly things like profile picture and my character/expression and then blaming other people here when they point it out about you. Maybe learn from others how to stick to something meaningful. .

It's not the matter of forgiving you. There is nothing to forgive or punish. It's just a complete lack of understanding on your part and constantly dominating and pushing your narrative on me. If you're genuinely respectful, you would stop trash talking and saying things that are hurting me. But that doesn't seem to be the case.

I'm not really angry with the world. The world has a lot of good people. I just feel very abandoned all the time and this abandonment causes me to go into panic mode and then turn into outbursts of trigger and anger. At the center of it is coldness and abandonment. I was raised by a dismissive, avoidant, unloving, uncaring, neglecting and abandoning family. That caused me to feel vulnerable and easily provoked to anger. I don't hate the world. In fact strangers have shown me more kindness on occasions than my own family.

@Kksd74628 your arguments are silly and have nothing to do with the topic. Leave me alone

There is some kind of thinly veiled personal attacks, the underhanded type, it's defeating rather than constructive. There is a certain Condescending kind of meanness in all of his posts directed at me, something that is hurting rather than healing

@Kksd74628 I'm going to have to ask you to stop responding to me as a request because whatever you're saying is putting me in a dark negative mood and rather than helping, it's making me feel blamed. It's toxic. I'll avoid you on the forum and I'll expect you to do the same.

You just don't get it and that's fine. We are on opposite sides and we won't understand each other. Your opinion is just an opinion at the end of the day, not my reality. I'll cut here. You're simply judging me by my posts at the end of the day and applying your perception to it.. You don't know me in real life so try not to come across like you know everything about me. I mean stop being so judgemental on my life,yikes You are simply dragging me into a debate that is going nowhere. Meanwhile I'm looking for something more productive and meaningful to me. You can always keep your opinions to yourself especially when they aren't helping me. When I'm constantly telling you that you aren't helping me, why are you still trying to dominate the narrative. I didn't start the thread for your commentary on my life, look at how others answer, they focus on the topic at hand. I didn't ask for personal commentary jesus. What exactly are you achieving by drawing me into a debate of disagreements, it's not going anywhere. Like I said your perspective isn't helping me, so for me it's practically useless, just words on a screen that don't matter to me. I'm looking for answers to my question and not an analysis on my life. So why don't you just let it go and quit? And others aren't writing poems. They are writing helpful suggestions. Your Posts are judgemental and don't resonate with what I'm looking for. You can say opinions but your silly little pesky judgements on me are not what I'm looking for. If you can't help someone, then just don't bother at all.. This is the kind of stubbornness I don't appreciate. The way you are constructing the frame here is coming across as unempathetic, non - resonating and lacking in true understanding and very negative. It's like I'm telling people that my medical issue is because of my poor diet and you are convincing me that it's because of my mind. It's unhelpful when you have zero clue about who I am.. So maybe when a person tells you that they aren't finding your comment helpful, then the better thing is to avoid?

True love Real love Deep love Eternal love Intimate love (spiritual intimacy with God) Ethereal love God's love

I experienced infinity

Why is community such an important word? Community Nation Culture Role model Leader Emperor Support

Let go Detach Surrender And have faith Don't hold too much on to anything. Holding too much onto life becomes self sabotaging in a way.

I think having that perfect Emperor gives you a sense of security.

You want to be in alignment with the Emperor and help him in his goal of nation building.. This whole world and universe can be a nation. And God is the leader. And we can be the agents who do his bidding of nation building. That can be a good life purpose.