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I should not trash talk or bad mouth anyone.

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I feel so frightened right now. ______________________

Psychic intelligence Empathy for self Self connection

One of the reasons for this is the Elliott Hulse type of Go hard masculinity. I consider it to be toxic masculinity where a man is never allowed to be vulnerable or himself.

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I can't read the article. It's asking me to pay for it.

I kinda feel like I'm slowly getting there Leo said today "my body is my temple," that's beautifully said.

Forgive me for my weaknesses. I didn't know better..

I feel lonely again. I constantly feel like all of my answers lie deeper into my own femininity. The one song that describes my personality perfectly is this.

I'm left in this jail of my own womanhood

Yes I have deep deep self image and self esteem issues The pain is almost unbearable Society judges you on so many parameters and sometimes I feel like I'm not a complete woman.. My heart aches...... Have I ever been truly vulnerable?

I never got to explore my sexuality properly. My sexuality was always repressed in some form probably because my culture shames women who say anything sexual. So I never felt free or relaxed.. I'm a deeply submissive shy reticent girl and every day it feels like I'll recoil further and further back into my shell. It's just too much trauma to even be able to express it. Like how long have i kept my feminine emotions repressed? How long have i been trying to cope with my own repression?

Deep down I'm a very emotional woman Have I made mistakes? Yes yes yes yes. It's time for me to analyze my own womanhood and resolve issues within me. First of all I feel very confused as a woman I don't feel confident enough. I feel like it's difficult for me to navigate this world as a woman. I never had a proper mother who would understand or guide me I had to learn everything on my own It hurts. I wish my mom was a proper role model..

These people are loving, caring, technologically advanced and robust people

An advanced system. I had this in my imagination long ago. A alien race of humanoids..

I'll refer to the people as Anterius people.

Anyway time to focus on who I am

Innate wisdom

I observe that I'm a bit angry and whiny like a silly teenager. This could be me unable to act out my inner rage during my childhood now surfacing itself as a repressed emotion. I'm very resistant to criticism of any kind.

It's time I cultivate my psychic intelligence. It helps a great deal. I wish myself the best.

I mean I get it that I become angry. But sometimes people have a role to play in this. I don't get angry at people who are authentic and helpful. Who aren't trying to play smartass. Who aren't trying to be condescending. For some reason, my intellect is so psychic that I can easily detect the tone a person uses with me. I can easily tell if they are trying to overpower me or trying to find harmony with me. I don't like ego games. So I kinda feel it when someone is trying to be patronizing or condescending. This is not like anger. It's only me saying sssssshhhh. Don't. I'm usually not pissy at people who are truly putting the effort to decode my psyche who are genuine when they are trying to help.. My mind is like a radar. I don't like it. But constantly being brought up in survival mode has made my mind to work like a scanning radar, anything that doesn't feel genuine is immediately thrown out.. People think that I get angry if they criticize me, no.... I don't...i simply don't like invalid criticism. I find it condescending and unnecessary.. I'm not open to critical attitude. It makes me feel punished. Because I was raised by cold critical people. That was my source of trauma.

I'm so upset. I simply ask a question and I get attacked so horribly. They use my question to incessantly attack me passive aggressively.

I want to cultivate innate psychic intelligence. I find this to be a spiritual trait.

Even in my dreams he appeared to me, I saw his face, And I jumped at it and screamed - MARCEL I LOVE YOU