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Basically what should have been a fun enjoyable thing has become full of sadness and frustration. That's because the company's greed has ruined it. I can't believe this But thank God im now aware of how this thing is messing up my mind I'm not going to pay for it.. I'm not stupid. I already paid enough. I will work with its basic process. I'm pretty sure that even in the future they will come with ways to change stuff and change the nature of it all so that they can continue to bank on it. Little do they realize that frustrated consumers will give up and stop paying lol There is a difference though. They know all too well that even if the consumers are frustrated they are very addicted to it. To the highs and lows it delivers. To the interest it generates to new features. To the constant feeling that it gives of being productive. Therefore they know that people who are not involved in it for 7 years are not going to give up on it especially if they have put so much money and effort into it. Now those who put effort for 7 years, they can't give up because their effort is at stake and those Who paid money like me, their money is at stake. So now everyone is somehow tied up to it Some people are here because their friends are here. So again they need to keep up with their friends so they have to be in it. Wow. Wow wow. What a trap. I have been in this only for a year. I'm surprised that people who are in it for 7 years do not realize this mind game. And they are so brainwashed that they don't care. They won't believe it. This is not only a money pit but also a pit of tremendous frustration and luring. Constant luring with the anticipation of rewards. Maybe I can reward myself on my own hahahaha. Like deal with Nick twice today for some orange juice something like that. Hahahhaha I will have to be careful not to get manipulated and suckered further into this. I will do my own thing rather than go by the rule.. I will also not do the events. Those who think that they have succeeded at this are so crazy. They dont realize that it will take away everything from them their wellbeing their resources their money. It gonna get worse with time

I think this event thing (you know what the F thing) it messes up with my mood a lot. Not good for my mental health. It suckers me into it. I feel victimized when I am not getting what I want. And then it leads to frustration. This is like mind control and I've become aware of how subtly it is controlling my mind for the very first time. The Pike caused all of it. Now I know better. Not to get messed.. For the first time it gave me a mortal anxiety as to how I'm going to proceed with it. It's not late still.. Good that I came to know that it controls my mind. I need a word for this. I will call it Farzilveg. So yea I'm going to let Farzilveg conto my mind anymore. If I don't do well, I will just tell myself it's completely okay. It's supposed to be fun and not stress. But I saw it is stressing me out. That's not a good idea. And it's doing the same to people on fb. They are all complaining the same things. It makes them for the keys to the place. And buy everything. Not fair.. It creates this general anxiety that you are falling behind others or others are doing better. This is a mind trick. Like the stock market controlling the mind. When it goes up it gives a elated feeling and when things aren't going well it creates frustration and anger. That's why Pauline is so frustrated all the time. Now I get it. She has been into the for years. Even Cindy is becoming like that. Also it makes you survival oriented and not really a helpful person.. It's definitely not a source of joy. What it did to me was cause me panic and intense frustration like I'm going to lose something. Then I felt unhappy. Not even happy about the achievements so far. It doesn't make you grateful. It only makes you think now what now what now what This is not healthy. Plus the whole consumerism with show off. Like buy this buy that.... This will make you happy. This is a new thing that will make you happy. Only to disappoint you later. What a stupid lame thing Also there are so many people complaining already. Multiple complains and no one cares to address them.. That sucks. When I got the panicky feeling because Nick stopped working I felt absurd. I couldn't focus on anything. My mind was consumed by it. I waited for hours to get Nick to get it right. This was a huge waste of time. Lot of panic and frustration. Is it worth it. Not at all That's when I realized that it was controlling me. And consumerism works when something is your favorite because you instill into people that they are missing out on something so that makes them depressed, they are already depressed by the way that's why they turn to it, now they are more depressed because they feel like they need something they don't have even when they actually don't need it and then it plays a mind game. People then lose money buying it. Once they realize how much effort they put into it then they see that the benefit is close to zero, thats when the frustration begins Anyone who gloats about it is a sucker who is a loser who basically got sucked into it. Note to myself - beware of the mind control. It's a permanent cycle of frustration that one should be aware of.. The support team does nothing they are evasive. What they do is try to diffuse the trigger. They know that they are critical errors in the system. Instead of addressing it openly and because it's a costly business fixing these deep errors all they do is try some temporary patch solutions to fix it. This does not actually solve the problem because a complete renovation and makeover will be needed but the company hates to do that because it will eat a lot of money So the company finds new ways to make money to make people pay for its new features.. So cringey. This has everyone frustrated beyond the limits They give stereotypical answers to all the consumers. Wow. I didn't realize it until now.

I'm not going to do the events anymore. It's been too much. This was a crisis. But I will rise again to face it Also I'm going to reduce my interaction (sic) May God help me through this troubling times. Jesus help me.

Time to go underground and hide. Time to stop trusting Time to take urgent action

I will have to do this for my survival These two will destroy my survival.

@Raptorsin7 what makes you think that you are a narcissist. First you should make sure that you are a narcissist. How have you come to this conclusion. Can you elaborate and give examples. Side note :- If you feel that you have behaved in ways that are similar to narcissists then you need therapy. But since therapy costs a lot in our so called modern world, you will need to work on yourself on your own. Read a ton of material on narcissistic behavior. Suggestions on how to avoid narcissistic tendencies ? Narcissists have a deep need for power and control. When you have to react to a situation or deal with a person try being as polite as possible. Tell yourself that the other person is entitled to their way of life as much as you do. That you cannot control them. Narcissistic parents try to control their children to the maximum. Therefore whenever you have the urge to say something which means telling someone what they should or should not are early signs of narcissism. You should recognize and avoid it. You should let the person be who they want to be. Self criticism is the key. Narcissists are blind to their own behavior. They lack an inner voice that objects to their behavior. They are smug and self righteous. Therefore a lot of inner questioning is needed. You have to do self inquiry and become aware of your behavior around others. When you catch yourself being negative to someone you need to stop and doubt yourself rather than being self righteous. You need to ask yourself "am I being authoritative here. Is my behavior intolerant of that person's presence?" "who am I to tell this what to do" "am I unconsciously trying to control this person's destiny? Am I able to let go when this person disagrees with me or am I seeing this person as a thorn that needs to be removed for my own ego's sake? Such questioning will help you to recognize your thought patterns and behaviors that are making you a narcissist. Once you recognize them as toxic you will be less likely to display them. ? Narcissists are psychos. They make unusual rules and expect others to follow it. They get paranoid very easily. A simple example of this is where a boss is acting like a typical narcissist. Lets say there's a project that needs a minimum of 200 points from each employee for it to become a success. To reach these points every employee has to do certain tasks. He makes a rule that the employee should contribute a minimum of 200.points or else they will be fired. Now every employee is working hard to finish this requirement. One particular employee doesn't get along very well with the boss but is usually good at his work and always contributes 200 points. Certain times the boss gets triggered by the employee's cold responses. The employee does not praise him or act subservient to him. There are many employees that do not achieve the goal and contribute only 150 points. Now for the next month this employee contributes 198 points he is short of only 2 points for 200. Yet the boss seeks this opportunity to chastise the employee and treats him miserably and even decides to fire him This is a classic example of narcissism where the need to punish is very strong since the employee failed to please the boss or succumb to his domination. The boss wasn't being productive in is decision. He was using his control narrative thus causing more loss to himself by losing a potentially good employee because of his dumb narcissism.. He could have easily let go of a minor shortage of 2 points but he didn't. It wasn't a big deal. But he got paranoid about it. Yet he did not do anything to all those employees who were contributing much less. This is his narcissistic bias. Narcissists use their bias and hurt their own cause. This is their short sighted paranoid behavior caused by their need to carefully monitor or supervise even the minutest detail. Notice that they try to interfere where interference is not necessary. They blow things out of proportion. They make a huge deal just to make a statement. They can easily let go but they choose not to. In other words psycho behavior. Narcissists end up making stupid business decisions. They operate from their egoic paranoid psycho needs and fail to see the benefit in the bigger picture. When you are being psycho about every little thing. Catch yourself in this behavior and practice letting go.. Ask yourself "why am I being so concerned and paranoid when this is such a small thing. Does this look reasonable or logical. Can I let this go. Is this really a huge deal or im just making it up." ? Narcissists see others as a threat. This is because of their deep insecurities. Nobody is being a real threat to a narcissist more than he or she is being to others. They operate from a scarcity survival mindset. Therefore any disagreement appears to be a threat controlling everything means there is no threat. This is where the need for extreme control comes from. When you get thoughts and anxious feelings about a person, learn to see them as independent entities rather than as a threat. Understand that if you feel they are a threat it is most likely your own paranoia causing making you feel that. Address and calm that paranoia. Let go of thought that someone is a threat. Desensitize yourself by engaging more with that person rather than jumping to such a conclusion. Over time you begin to realize that the other person is as much a human as you are and your thoughts of that person being a threat are invalid.. ? Narcissists usually try to be punitive. They always find a way to punish a person usually for nothing. This is a sign of controlling behavior. You will need to do shadow work and learn to be sympathetic and forgiving another person instead of finding ways to punish them. ? Narcissists waste a lot of time concerned about little things rather than the bigger picture. Use systems thinking and big picture thinking and let go of the need to control little things. ?Narcissists project a lot. This means they suspect that a person is doing something that in reality they themselves are doing. An example of this is like this. A man is in a relationship and he often cheats on his girlfriend. Now when he sees his girlfriend being busy he raises a concern and assumes that she is cheating. This is an example of Projection. His girlfriend has done nothing for him to come to this conclusion. Yet the narcissist is fully convinced that he is right on the mark.. It's purely his projection and it has no substance to it.. This projecting creates a toxic pattern where the other person is constantly having to defend themselves to the point of frustration. This way the Narcissist keeps the victim feeling constantly judged and terrorized. How to avoid this. If a thought comes to your mind that causes you to think that the other person is behaving in ways that don't suit your preference then learn to first see if it is just an assumption or if it has any validity to it

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Narcissism is of 2 types. One is casual and easy narcissism. This is where the person shows narcissistic tendencies out on display. Their narcissism is toxic and they easily get into patterns of narcissistic abuse and people around them suffer their narcissism This is usually observed in men. The other type of narcissism is hidden deep narcissism. This is usually observed in women. They initially act very docile and cooperative and friendly and generous. As time goes by, they begin to show a domineering side of themselves. All the innocence and empathy is lost. They start acting rude and hard and bitter and do not care for consequences and just get plain bossy and hard to agree with. They create disagreements for no reason and start shit over little things that eventually leads to bigger consequences.

That person will never be happy in their life because that person is a maniac. They will always have something to bitch about all the time. They will never leave me in peace and constantly hound me. I have understood that. It's my bad luck that I can't get freedom from such people.

I think that particular individual in my life suffers from paranoid schizophrenia. If this person forever loses me its actually good because it's karma. It's hard to deal with them. God will never forgive them for what they did. They are a complete failure. I will boycott them They have created a lot of drama in my life. I have been treated miserably by this individual for years now and I wish to be free. I hope I get freedom from their toxicity. 9

I pray that I get freedom from 2 specific individuals who I think are out to get me. I have suffered in my life too much because of these 2 individuals. And I hope I get freedom from them

Sometimes we dismiss certain things as a a person lacking in intelligence. But it is not that. I have realized that it is deeper. It's that person's qualities that attract that person's level of intelligence. So if a person is selfish that's why they lack intelligence. Let's say jealousy is green and empathy is white.. And selfishness is red. This means the white ball in the space will attract deep intelligence. The green ball of fluid in space is unable to attract that level of intelligence. The red ball of fluid is also unable to attract intelligence. Because all these balls become impervious to the infinite intelligence inherent in the consciousness around them. White ball is like a sponge absorbing the intelligence from the consciousness. The other balls cant absorb. So finally it's the character that determines everything

I both agree and disagree with her. I agree with her that a person should not be fired for their opinions because it's freedom of thought. But I disagree with her for having supported a anti trans activist. She could have bypassed this by saying she doesn't necessarily agree with the activist yet does not find it fair for her to be fired. But she didn't do that. She has previously supported another anti trans activist so I think this tweet was deliberate. More like a statement. Transgender people are also people who need value and respect in society and their status cannot be denied. To deny their gender is to deny them respect. I won't say it is transphobic but it's definitely not supportive of transgender communities. By saying that she means that gender is not binary which means that only 2 gender exist that is male and female and this is decided at birth by the body anatomy and that sex change is just superficial and does not mean that a real sex change has happened. In other words a transgender man who was a woman is still a woman in her eyes and a transgender woman who was a man before is still a man. She does not identify their current gender but only the gender they were born with and thus according to her gender interchange is not possible

Of course it's not a gender thing at all. Men can behave bad in their own ways. I was just pointing out ways in which women can behave badly (especially when given control and power) and this bad behavior is usually hard to notice because it's covert.

What I saw from personal experience is that when women get full and absolute control and power, they turn into gangsters, they become hard and unempathetic. They get impossible to deal with. They develop this "my way or no way" attitude towards people and things. Conversely it could also be that women who are bossy and controlling are more likely to fight for a dominating position or a place of authority. They vie for such positions because it fulfills their need for power and control. Also in my experience I have worked under both a male and a female boss. And a domineering male boss is obviously bad but a domineering female boss is even worse. Here I'm not trying to imply that each and every woman is like that. But based on my personal experiences, I have tasted the toxic feminist experience and its hard to deal with. I want equality for both men and women but at the same time I have witnessed that women so often try to bring each other down that it's hard to believe if they really mean what they say when they use the word girl power. I have seen many examples of women tearing each other down by insulting, humiliating, Jealousy and sabotaging each other's progress that its hard to take a woman's word seriously and think that she genuinely wants other women to do well. Therefore at least in my opinion a woman cannot be completely trusted in a position of authority because she does not leave her emotions in her bedroom, she carries them on her sleeve. When I see a woman in a position of authority I see her more worried about her husband and kids than the role she is supposed to play in her capacity at her position. She appears to be psychopathic, manipulative and selfish and uses the resources for her and her family's benefit rather than focusing on the commitments of the role. It's like instead of using her skills and talents to bring value to her role, it seems like she uses the role to bring value to her life. The word that will describe this behavior is "self serving." Women are absolutely capable of achieving the same thing that men achieve but there's a caveat and that is her attitude. She brings this " I'm a woman" attitude to everything which makes it hard to consider men and women neutrally. It means that she wants equality but actually bags for more than equality, and she wants everything to be gender neutral yet her constant need to stress that she is a woman actually makes her very exclusive and difficult to be considered ordinary or unassuming. When a woman doesn't get what she wants in an authority position she is quick to play the victim which I see as another tactic to get what she wants. These are just some of the instances of behavior I normally observe in women in authority positions. These are not absolute representations of women, just relative and depend from woman to woman. Of course not all women are going to exhibit every toxic behavior, but these are some of the behaviors that represent or bring out the toxicity in feminism.

Is that the reason why prenups exist in the west. Is that the reason why men are scared to get married there. Is that the reason why my ex was never allowed to see his child and his ex got hold of his house, car and even his dog. I am not very convinced.. Men in western countries aren't complaining for nothing. I know how the situation is. The judge awarded the custody to the wife and he protested it in court. Still it was her win. Plus do you wanna know what else his ex did.. In May of this year she went to court to have their son's last name changed over to her last name, so basically completely obliterating her ex husband's identity from her son's life. And when he informed her that he is going to protest it in court, she immediately filed a retraining order against him on absolutely no grounds because a woman's word weighs more in American courts than a man's. It's the whole "me too" movement in America.. Believe a woman even when she is bullshitting. His ex has flouted all rules when it comes to coparenting. And the courts have never done anything. If he ever tried to protest he is made to look like the bad guy. He was hit by another woman in the face right in front of me when I was there with him in New Orleans. Guess what.. She went to her room and called the cops on him and lied to them that he was the attacker. My testimony saved him. Because there were injuries on his face. So they arrested her and basically just released within hours. So much for equality Casey Anthony is another great example. I'm not saying that equality doesn't exist constitutionally. But nobody cares about the nitty gritty of the constitution in small county courts. Women are easily believed and they also have an upper hand in divorce cases a lot of the time. The only time the man is believed is when there is hardcore evidence of her abuse and if she is a drug addict with a bad history of abuse. Maybe then Western feminism is just getting toxic day by day. It's getting sexist. Hillary Clinton defending a rapist and dehumanizing a 12 year old and getting away with it. Women in western countries don't face the same consequences as men for similar crimes.

Perpetuating my own cycle of grief is making me suicidal I hate everything at the moment. It's like everything has come down on me

Women are not trying to beat men. A woman needs financial independence. It's absolutely important for her. That in no way means she is trying to defeat the man. I have no idea why you think that. Women need a job just as much as a man needs. Why should it be otherwise. This does not degrade her feminine essence in any way.. In your mom's case I can completely understand that she might have wanted a wonderful person in her life to share her struggles and take pressure off her, but it's kinda unrealistic to expect that. There is no knight in shining armor kind of a guy who wants to rescue a woman from all her troubles and take care of her emotional and security needs. The word here is "willing" that you have used here Most men are not willing or they are willing only for some time. Do you think that if you were offered money to sit on the couch then you would say no. Absolutely not. Nobody will.. A woman is very lucky to find a man who is wonderful and kind. But it's not always a story with a happy ending. She has to find her own way. Now the toxic part of feminism. It is true that women need independence so they can survive on their own two feet. But feminism is not all rosy. There are parts in it which are toxic. Like I have seen women in higher positions wielding their power to demean and destroy people. My boss at work is a female. And I have encountered a lot of misuse of power and abuse. She fired an employee simply because they didn't get along well, she was a hard working girl and we had become good friends but the boss was sorta jealous of her and wanted to rid of her. This is where feminism gets toxic. Feminism is not inherently toxic. Because it was meant to empower women and help them with their survival, needs and ambition.. But a lot of women exploit feminism. A very good example of this is seen in divorce cases especially in the West where the woman strips the man naked of any financial asset and sometimes even denies the man the right to see his children. My ex boyfriend who was an American had this problem. His ex wouldn't allow him to see his own child. Its ridiculous. His mom sent him to a cult where he was exploited and abused. He was raised without a dad because his mom did not think that a man was needed around her kids. Now you see? His mom and ex made his life unbearable to the point where he was suicidal. That made him abusive to me in return because he started despising women as a result of his past and I had to suffer the brunt of his hate of women. But his hate is reasonable because he was a good guy, he was great at school but the women in his life ruined him. This is where feminism gets toxic. When a woman gets disproportionate amount of power and she can do whatever she wants for her family, children etc. Her decisions have no supervision or approval. And if she ever gets criticized she is quick to pull out the woman card. Feminism becomes toxic when a woman thinks she can never go wrong and when she is never subjected to scrutiny and when she is never held accountable for her bad decisions and choices. When she never has to pay or get punished for wrecking lives but let go with a slap on the wrist just because she is a woman. Feminism becomes toxic when a woman is not treated as a normal human being capable of flaws and failings, but put on a pedestal and treated like a goddess. I have seen both good and bad sides of feminism. It's like a double edged sword. The good side is when a woman is given support so she can survive on her own when she is empowered to Iive her life with confidence, when she given tools and resources and opportunities so that she can achieve her dreams and ambitions, when she is offered help in distress so she quits abusive dependent relationships and finds her survival. The bad side is when she uses her power to control and dominate other's lives, when she makes decisions that are never objected or questioned, when she assumes unquestioned authority and nobody can find her wrong because she is a woman.

She is a mixed Indian. A lot of Polynesians have Indian origins. Also I just mentioned her as indian, not that her race matters at all.

@Anna1 So true

Emerald has a bunch of videos where she explains Jungian philosophy in depth. Might want to start with that.

This Indian woman who is so eloquent is so much better for a candidate

People don’t spend time on “introspection”, their observer “judging” self with honesty. Instead, people judge and project onto others. Allegedly it is what they project that is an issue in themselves they refuse to own and address. It’s a way for the ego to protect itself. “That “bad” is in them, I see it, but it’s not in me, no way!”. Unfortunately, judging and projecting is addictive and becomes a natural thing many people never evolve from. And why is it that people will not and do not believe an experience they’ve never had? And why too do people think that everyone is or should be just like them? The unseen brain/mind is just as diverse as the faces we are born with. Concentrating on being objective during one’s thinking processes opens the door to conceptualizing and understanding things beyond one’s subjective reasoning based on their own p̶e̶r̶s̶o̶n̶a̶l̶ experiences. It’s not easy to do and be consistent about it as by natural most of us are emotional creatures under a lot of stress and pressure to live up to societal norms.

Heaven's gift to earth

Then why is he always winning? Why do people elect him?