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I can't believe Joel said that. I'm not surprised but that tweet was very blatant from him. Like wow.

So I was discussing about the male and the female ideal roles or characters. This has always been an important part of my religion.. Here the female role is called Epthinus and the male is called Odinyus. Both combine to form a special environment which is supportive to growth. Both are static role models. That is when they create the next generation, it is just an upgrade in terms of knowledge and skills however their root behavior is inspired by the ancestors Epthinus and Odinyus. So they are merely procreating copies of each other in a very static stable fixed system. I feel very inspired and comforted by the character Epthinus. She is pleasant soothing and wonderful and graceful.

I like this cute gal. She makes me so happy

And the other thing that's encouraging me are my gender characters I created that to do their specific gender roles and they perform them gracefully. Odinyus does what a patriarch should do. And Epthinus does a great job at being this amazing gentle caring soothing soul..

These three things are very encouraging right now.

I don't know how to feel about this. Maybe there is some truth to that article, just maybe. In that case if there is any mooji event in my town, I'm going to completely avoid it. I can't support an abusive guru. Spiritual gurus being abusive is nothing new. They feel like they are Gods and absolute. Because people give them disproportionate power It's crazy

These words are helping me

I HAVE LOST TRUST IN YOU COMPLETELY.

. Don't try to beat yourself up when all you were doing was just trying to cope with life

Qualities of both archetypes will be described later. Also opposites of these archetypes.

These are important for the smooth flow of social order. The perfect man is the patriarch. A Godhead. The perfect woman is the submissive gentle humane woman who is supportive and understanding. She is the epthinus. Epthinus is like boann the goddess of creativity. And the patriarch is a Godhead. I will call him odinyus from Odin.

I was abused throughout my childhood. I was treated very harshly. I went through so much. And I won't forget all that.. I have been through too much. Too freaking much for me to feel normal at all. I don't like this bossy woman in my life who keeps judging and manipulating me.

One day I'll wake up from this nightmare and I'll lead a good life She is so selfish. Both of them are. She didn't even care what I was going through. It's January 13. And she switched off her phone like it's nothing. What a selfish pathetic woman?!!! And so is the other one. I'm fed up with both. Thanks for all the pain. God is with me. I have only two things to go with me now. Only 2 things. God and the world. I will tell myself that the world is too big. Yes it is. It's a big world. It can accommodate me.. It can fit me in. God will take care of things. God is there.. God will help me.. God will help me. I'm too fed up with such people. They have caused me immense mental pain.

I will never forget this experience. I will remember January 8th as my day of great success. That day I achieved something that I thought I couldn't achieve. It was a door to positivity I was sitting outside in the middle of the night in the cold and thinking about it.. And I was very emotional and sensitive. And I thought it was such a happy pleasant moment. And the same day my family member was trying to destroy that wonderful victory by discussing things that were depressing me. I told her to shut up. I'm a positive person and she kept telling me that Im negative. She can't be grateful for shit. Such a shitty personality both of them. Unbearable. How do you have a family that doesn't jive with you spiritually. They won't understand shit. They think spirituality is bullshit. I can't deal with such people. They eat junk food. I can't eat that. Im tooo pure for such people and I'm done with them. It's a new year and it's a new me. And I want to prove to them what I can do and I will do it. I am not a slave to someone's commands.. I'm the owner of my soul and my body and I'm the only owner and none other So they cannot have authority on my life. Period.

I need to break off with them which is going to be hard. And this will require a few months. Right now I'm just dealing with the fact that I can't trust them anymore. I cannot trust them anymore. They destroyed my dreams, my hopes, my passions, my inner needs, they sabotaged my growth, my potential, they destroyed me in every possible way...

I need to do what's good for my mental health. I need to be away from my family for the rest of my life. I need to leave them for good. Because they have hurt me too much and caused me too much pain. I don't care what they think. I hope and pray. That everything becomes alright. @Bill W thanks for the support. It means a lot. I'm sorry I'm in the middle of something. I'm just dealing with some stuff mentally so forgive me.

So I was thinking about the archetype of the perfect gender They come together to create a perfect environment. The perfect woman.. The perfect man I'll call these some names. I am going to take Sanyaas. This is ultimate decision. I am going to quit being with my family because I have realized that I can't trust them anymore. It's very hurtful to be with them. So the next few months are going to be extremely hard for me because I am finally going to sever ties with my entire family and move on alone. It is going to be very hard... They constantly push me to do things that I don't like to do. It has been detrimental for my personality as a whole and it has been cruel to my soul. My soul will never find peace as long as I live with such horrible family members. I don't need such people in my life who have zero value for me. So I have decided to do. To cut them off. Death is better than living among such people. This is an emotional experience for me and deeply distressing. But this decision is spiritually significant. I'm crying as I type this. Because this has been so hard for me. I can't take it anymore.

I am not able to recollect the titles of the books I have read so I will get back to your question a bit later, maybe in a few days

If they are strangers then it's expected. This is how it is. It takes a great deal to find anyone that you fully resonate with. Have patience. You will bump into someone that clicks with you sooner or later and they would appreciate your company. But don't take it for granted or just be friends for friends. Try to look more matured and secured. Don't come off as needy or else people will think you're a waste of time. Join different groups.. You need to be able to offer something if you want that person to stick around longer. Be friendly with them. Always be available if someone needs you. Such things take an incredibly long time

Two words that describe my situation are Trauma and Stress I need to resolve both

Today it's 10 Jan and I'm feeling much better than the last turbulent week I had. . Lot of my issues have been resolved and put to rest. Now I need to get back on and get normal. sight is reasonable Foresight is intelligence.

I like how she says that she wants to put her shame away into a box out there. Labeling your emotions can help a lot

I call this transcendence

Such people are selfish. I call them fitters

Rainbows and unicorns