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Made rice with this. Yum!

I'm waiting for a great time with Andrew but he is busy and so am I. I wish I could hug him I'm planning to meet him at the end of this week.

My chalkboard for my vision 2020

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I want to have like a chalkboard for my vision

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I can give 3 tips 1. Emotional comfort. I used to indulge in eating and cutting in order to get emotional comfort. However it wasn't healthy. Over time I have realized that the body/mind craves emotional comfort one way or the other and even seeks it in unhealthy ways. So turn it to something healthy. Like playing, exercise, listening to peaceful music, relaxation exercises, laughter therapy. 2. Living a clean life. Try cutting out bad habits and anything bad/addictive, it saps or drains your emotional energy 3. Writing a vision board and taking baby steps towards 2 important things - SELF CARE and PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT /PD. Hope this helps.

February 11, 2020 Today is really time for final changes. Wishing myself good luck.

At this point I need razor sharp focus. I want to be totally focused on my body.

Just trying to get my shit together. I need to focus on nutrition and retaining nutrition. Today is February 11. Can't take it much longer. I need to go in overdrive and get stuff done.

Yesterday one of my family members had a long talk and explained some stuff and that was a great relief. It was a slap in the face.

Depression is the Cinderella of psychiatric disorders! Pretty much

A whole lot of women are just completely oblivious to the so called access to sex card that they have been given. Guess it's a phantom privilege then, eh! To have something you do not want is not exactly a privilege.

A lot of women are enablers. They use victimhood as a cop out to their accountability. "I was going through depression and I was sick all the time, that's why I did whatever I did, I wouldn't have done it otherwise. My depression was causing" So when a man does something wrong, it's because he is evil. But when a woman does something wrong, oh wait, it's her depression!!! No woman, it wasn't your depression. You actively caused the abuse. My abuse.

I do not inherently trust anyone as a result of these experiences

Criminals underestimate things. They are ignorant. They don't know how things are going to play out. How eventually justice will come. Even when I was just 7 years old I was able to process things. I had an encounter with a neighbor who was sexually abusive. And even then as a kid, my intuition told me that he is not a good person And I told him to leave me alone and that is how I was freed from his sexual abuse.. I remember that incident very well. The whole idea that kids do not understand things is wrong. They do.

Seeing a person close to me being abused for such a long time, of course it's going to create hate.

@Bill W I'm seeing the psychiatrist for her. For myself I have a therapist that I visit sometimes that gives me advice on life's issues.

So I had been to the psychiatrist. And the doc prescribed meds to my mom for depression and bipolar disorder. I hope and pray that it works this time.

This may not be social anxiety. You're dealing with a psychological clash. That is some people just do not get along with you. They trigger you for some reason. I suggest you should avoid them as much as possible Just like the body is allergic to specific antigens and the presence of these elements triggers a Defence response so in the same way certain people are triggering your nerves, thoughts, mindset, mentality, and your heart Chakra. Stay away from people who are incompatible to your mind. How to know beforehand? Do you know specific behaviors and traits of these people from past experiences? Note down their appearance, body language, opinions, traits that make you feel they belong to that category. For example you might be getting triggered by argumentative people. The best way to screen such people is communication. The first communication tells you that the person is argumentative then avoid. Notice the behavior pattern, in this case an argumentative person is more isolated or standoffish or is repetitive in their questioning or contradictory in their statements. You wouldn't exactly know a person without the first interaction. Very hard to figure out just based on body language. But there are always clues. One way of managing the anxiety is by letting go or simply ignore or rebuff them in your mind as crazy people. Compartmentalize them in your mind. React least. Just avoid reacting to them, become a mute statue. Distract your mind while they talk. Do not think about them. That way you give them power. Do not try to reason with them.