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@Eph75 thank you for your support as well as to all others on the thread for their great input. Much appreciated.

*promptly ignored

A woman can give so much. She gives life. She gives birth She can give healing life and love. I won't feel unloved. I'll let my femininity to heal myself, to love myself. And finding love in love itself Find your own love Find your own light Find your own peace Rest your head in the lap of your own female nature and let your soft heart cure your heartache.

I'll help my family. I'm also helping my neighbors with essential supplies. I'm giving support to my friends. I am constantly checking on my family to see if they are safe. I'm putting my time into reading and cooking and spending time in my garden taking care of plants. I'm also spending time with craft and decor ideas along with my meditation and relaxation exercises.

When you truly love someone you give them freedom.

Don't give away your emotional and sexual freedom.

@supremeyingyang thanks

When a man doesn't realize the truth, he is made to realize the truth. Any culture that destroys a woman's femininity eventually expires.

Don't say that to a Brit @Bill W you know the brits can't live without the beer and the tea. And I can't live without coffee.

There is no need to follow someone even if the mind wants one. Sadhguru is in no way awake. He has his own brand that is all. He is involved in a lot of controversies in India. Not all Indians are supportive of him. A lot of Indians don't like him. Like me. I don't like him. Although I like only some of his teachings, I don't worship him. I don't see any need in holding someone as a spiritual messiah. You actualising yourself everyday, you become a good person everyday, you growing in unconditional love every day, that in my opinion is better than following any man on earth. Because they are not perfect. They are as much as fallible as the rest of us. I won't put a human being on a pedestal no matter how awoke or enlightened that person is considered. I believe each and everyone has a unique journey towards spiritual fulfillment and I think that eventually through their spiritual journeys come to one conclusion ... And that is... UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.

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And finding love in love itself Find your own love Find your own light Find your own peace

I need to invest more into loving myself.

Feeling better now. I'm ready to move on.

Just remember that whenever you are hurting, I'm hurting too. You're not the only one.

Only if you had said " I know bad things happened in this relationship. I did you wrong. I treated you bad. I wasn't the best boyfriend. Maybe I failed in showing you love." Yea I remember once you said "maybe I'm not the best boyfriend." I remember when you came back from jail you said, "I know I didn't love you enough. I know I never made you feel loved." Yes.... Right there. Just an acknowledgement would have been enough. I would have felt a bit better in knowing that you at least acknowledge how I felt. But then again, what to expect from a narcissist? To be honest, I didn't deserve the painful relationship. It wasn't fair to me. I started living like a zombie after you bullied me. To continue loving a man who made me feel like I didn't deserve love, how fair was that? Even when I dumped your sorry ass, I still loved you. That's the part that hurts the most. I just couldn't unlove you. I couldn't hate you even if I wanted.

@Galyna it came like a ton of bricks. Never thought that I would need to take infections so seriously. Earlier when they used to announce on the news that something broke out in China like Sars or whatever, I used to think "no worries, it only happens in China" I know it sounds selfish but I used to not worry. Now I can't believe I'm worrying about something like a flu. Never know what happens in this world.

This is going to change the world. First of all we'll never look at flu the same way. Second, if anything happens in China or anyone, even a small infection, everyone is going to feel the tremors.. Third. We'll stop taking presidents and prime ministers and governments seriously because we were left alone to fend for ourselves with no masks and no testing kits. Only fake promises. Also. We'll know once again that humanity is fickle. Even a small invisible thing like a virus can change our lives within days. It's time to accept our smallness. And Lastly... We're never really prepared for anything. We just like to pretend like we do And yes...whenever Trump says that something is a hoax, time to take it seriously and not call it a hoax.

Learning to look for love in myself. Within myself Loving myself for a better tomorrow.

Maybe he wants to finish his business with me. I'll let him vent. That's some generosity I'll show to him He was cold, unemotional, abusive, insensitive and selfish. And he will always be that..

My silence to him will be the best answer to him.. I hope he has a day of awakening some day where he will turn around and think about me. And in that moment he will (should) realize how much I trusted him and how much he disappointed me. I think in that moment he will feel the pain that I felt for so long. In that moment he will feel like a piece of ass. I told him once what an ass he was to me. And one day he will realize how he was to me all along. That moment when he really feels what he did, will be closure and justice for me. He thinks that everything is a joke. In that moment he won't think that. He thinks that I'm guilt tripping him. In that moment he will realize that I wasn't guilt tripping him but telling him the truth.

Thanks for sharing.

You were emotionally abusive.. I'm traumatized by you You used everything Gaslighting Playing on emotions Emotional blackmail Guilt tripping Passive aggression Inducing Fear Abusive language Create fear panic trauma hurt Apologizing when I tried to withdraw Then hurting again Confusion Lack of clarity Taking advantage of emotions Emotional control Mind control Dehumanization Demonization and shame tactics Insensitivity in times of suffering Counterintuitive behavior in every situation Narcissistic Abuse Mocking, ridicule and Invalidation Projection Sexually Exploitative An abuser always needs his victim. Because that's where he finds his sadistic attachment. He doesn't want to talk too much with people he is thriving with. Because there is no emotional thrill there. Therefore whoever he is happy and non-fuss or bland with, he gets too bored. He wants to be back with the one he feels he can torture again to get his thrill. His highs and lows. Abusers get too bored with people where they have to moderate their behavior constantly. They can't have public or socially thriving relationships where families get to watch their behavior. They can't play out their darkness. They want secrecy, sadomasochism. They want to let loose their anger, find a punching bag that will accept them even after the punch and won't judge or discipline them. Since in modern civilized society they can't be allowed to be impolite, their inner harshness and need to beat up and victimize (their bullyness) doesn't find an active outlet. Mental weakness is a fertile ground for abusers. They don't feel stimulated in those situations where they can't abuse.