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This is an interesting thing for me. I somehow make my own salad. I do believe in demons, not in like they are actually present or around us but hypothetical demons, like going demon hunting inside your soul and casting out all that negativity created by all the hurt or shadows etc. This subject is always interesting. But I don't believe in the third eye. A lot of it appears bogus to me, but then that's just me. People make very unusual claims with that sort of thing. However I do believe in Activating Chakras. Now you might say what about the third eye. Shouldn't that be a part of Chakra system. I really look at Chakras in a more objective sense. So third eye stuff doesn't make the cut. I keep that stuff out. I don't think that it's necessary to follow each and every word and concept of a particular system, guru, philosophy, technique to the core like walking a line perfectly, I believe in mushing and matching and seeing what fits your paradigm. My brain works like a decorator crab, it takes whatever suits and attaches it and if something doesn't fit, that's left out. So I keep certain things and aspects that benefit my growth and something doesn't make sense or if I don't want to experience it, I just cut only that much out. I don't want to throw the baby with the bathwater. I don't see any problem with being selective.

It also helps in freeing the mind. Like liberation. I have always found such statements powerful.

I'm a practicing witch lol so all the comments about hot witch girlfriend are cracking me up. Will show the video to my future cold witch boyfriend.

Good documentary. Enjoyed it. Shows how taking things out of context can cause so much damage to a person's reputation and also disrupt elections, people's careers. Can even lead to riots. Caused by the media. The media is a bully. What does a bully do? Answer - Always take things out of context and twist them to suit their narrative of demonizing the person in question. Basically Slander, the oldest crime in the book that crucifies hundreds of good people and creates a catastrophe. Almost like a swarm of locusts destroying crops Eye opener documentary. Not that I didn't know these wicked workings of the mainstream media but still it's an in depth exploration of the psyche of the mainstream business. Media is nothing but hypocrisy at its finest. In a democratic society, one way to resolve this problem is to suspend the license of the media companies for a month. Make them serve time or penalty for publishing bullshit and cutting and pasting quotes. Media is a relatively new phenomenon because back in the 30s the radios only broadcast shows to let people know major announcements. But today they have mushroomed everywhere and all they care about is profit at the cost of someone's career. That's why the documentary is banned by Amazon Since the media taking control is a relatively new phenomenon, we don't see a lot of amendments or laws in the American constitution regarding them. This a loophole the media is primarily taking advantage of. They can easily get away with bad reporting. However if the constitution is amended and rules are included as to what is acceptable and what's not, then people and organizations can file defamation lawsuits against the media. This will bring some level of control. Such a social upheaval will need people protesting on streets and fighting the bullying nature of the media. Only after repeated protesting and petitions, the government will probe into it and take action against media houses. Till then the media will continue to believe that they are untouchable.

My fears about the coronavirus have significantly reduced over the course of the past few days.. Also I got some groceries 3 days ago. I don't have to suffer hopefully at least for another 10 days. I got 10 days worth of groceries, flour, rice bags, some chicken, veggies and cheese, milk and yogurt, and lots of cookies. I have 10 packs of cookies now. Enough to last 1 to 2 weeks. Also dal pulses. It was out of stock for so many days. But finally got it. I got 2 packs of salt. I wish I could get a coke bottle. Some days I really crave these cold beverages especially during this summer. Right now a coke bottle is a luxury because none of the shops or malls have it. I got onions. That was fortunate find. Some lettuce and potatoes as well. Hopefully my situation doesn't get desperate again. I sold some camping material last week and I had enough money to get the groceries.. Milk is still a huge problem. But I have enough milk for now. I got tons of tons of cleaning supply, tisssue rolls, detergent, soaps, sanitizers, dishwashing detergent, all sorts of cleaning detergent and liquids and bathroom cleaning supplies. Tons of it. I stored it in the garage shoe rack. There's no room left to store these items. I don't even know If I will even use them. I almost got a 1 year supply and stocked it. Ridiculous. I feel stupid for buying so much. Anyway I am stocked up at least with the cleaning stuff but not with the groceries. Because the grocery was difficult to get.. All stores were out of stock most of the days. So far so good. Building my Morale

I had a nightmare problem since childhood. During my childhood years I used to suffer nightmares where the usual theme was some animal chasing me relentlessly through woods or in a residential area. It was almost always an animal chasing me all the time.. I would run and run and run in panic and keep running and then wake up and snap out of the dream sweaty and with palpitations and just feeling very anxious and pounding.. The common animals that I saw in my nightmares as a kid were Foxes Wolves Lions Tigers Bears Elephants Dogs Dog like looking animals.. Usually these dreams/nightmares used to make me very anxious. Sometimes panic attacks.. These dreams were very recurrent.. The only recurrent theme throughout my childhood nightmares was being chased and me running for my life.. Once I saw a large truck like a Mac truck following me at high speed and chasing me. I was running and finally some object came and blocked the truck before I could get hit. The usual ending to these nightmares would be Either I would suddenly wake up or snap just before the animal or thing attacked me Or something would happen and block the animal from jumping on me. For example once I had this dog or wolf attacking me and jumping on me. And he kept chasing me until I reached my house. I tried to forcefully open the door but the door was locked. So I pulled out my keys and tried to unlock the door. The problem was that when I was trying to move the key into the lock, my hands were shaking a lot and the shaking wouldn't allow the key to open the door. Meanwhile I was panicky thinking the dog like creature was behind me. And I force the door open finally and just as I am trying to close the door I see the dog pouncing and I immediately shut the door and put the latch all in a millisecond as fast as I can. I remember this dream distinctly. This was like 15 years ago when I was 12 years old. I usually suffer from bad memory but surprisingly I remember a lot of my childhood nightmares very distinctly to this day. Either I forget the dream the moment I wake up or if I remember them I can remember them for life.. Weird.

Aye, don't call it Murica lol. America is still far better than most countries. Your law enforcement system takes good care of the bad guys. The American law enforcement and Forensic and Justice Department has no match in the whole world.

Moments ago, (knock knock) good 15 mins now, I've been going through a total awakening Knock knock. What is What is that at my door? What? Adjusting the camera. Yes!! Amazon guy gives package. I'm recording here. Care to join?

Omg YESSSSSSSSSSSS. Our birthday gift is arriving early. Desperately waiting. This video gonna be a bomb.

@fridjonk yea I agree. Being stalked is a very scary and traumatizing experience.

This nightmare that I had is just the worst ever nightmare I had in my life. I have been stalked at least 3 times in my life. And it's not good at all. Being stalked makes you miserable. The last stalking experience I had was 3 years ago. It was so bad that I totally stopped leaving my house for some months. I was suicidal at the time. There was no way of reporting the stalker because they wanted his name and I didn't know that person. The nightmare I had was extremely vivid and very horrifying. Warning - do not read if you are uncomfortable reading bad stories. The story contains imagery of bad things happening to me. I need to record these nightmares and present them to my therapist so that they understand why I'm suffering these So the nightmare goes like this. Me and my friend. I'll call her Diana. Me and Diana are going grocery shopping together and then we are returning home. We're walking home. We take a route that is very dark and very lonely. Nobody usually takes that. We just thought we would reach home faster that way. As we are struggling we hear footsteps behind us. We are scared to bits. We turn around and see this huge masked person with a knife in the hand looking at us. We are too scared at this point. He/she tries to attack me with the knife and at that time the mask falls off revealing the face. It's a woman with a creepy smile. and somehow I run out of that place and me and Diana make it to the main street from where we had started earlier. We then decide that we will never take dark alleys or roads and walk through places where we see other people too. For protection. I am at the bus stop and I see the bus coming. I can see the girl from far running towards me with the knife in her hand but it's concealed underneath her clothes so others don't see it. But I know she has it. I am too frightened. Me and my friend try to hop into the bus. Now we take a sigh of relief thinking that it's all gone and we never have to worry about that stalker girl again. The stalker girl has a weird face. She smiles when she looks at me. Not a good smile. But the smile of duping delight and an expression like "hey, you can't escape me, see I got you, haha" her face is very strange because I have never seen her before and don't know who she is. I can't really describe her face. But her eyes look chill and face is plain, her nose is long, her lips are very thin and wide, her face is chiseled and rectangular in shape her cheeks are flat. There is this ghostly silence on her face like a coldness with that freakish smile.. The moment I see her face I panic..I know she wants to kill me. Now me and Diana are trying to get comfortable in our seats and I'm searching for money to pay for the ticket.. Meanwhile I look up and I see the mirror on the front side of the bus which shows the people in the bus and I see her... Again. Omg not again. I tell my friend and she looks at the mirror and now we are both mortified. I decide to get off the bus and take another one. Me and my friend get off the bus. I can see the girl at the other exit of the bus and she got off as well. Now she is following me. We both are desperately running towards the next bus stop. She is running towards us. She tries to attack me once again and I get sharp cuts on my arm and bruises. I immediately run around the street corner along with my friend and we keep waving to the bus but the bus doesn't stop as it usually does. And now we are very scared for our lives. We keep running around in panic looking for another bus. This time we see a cab. We hop into it. I'm telling the cab driver directions to go home. He doesn't care to listen. He is constantly complaining about his cab and he fears it will break down. I'm begging the cab driver to listen but he is in his own world. As we drive out that place, me and my friend breathe a sigh... We think this is the last we had seen of that girl. As the cab takes many twists and turns, I realize suddenly that the cab has a back transparent screen through which you can see the streets that are behind you as you drive. You can see everything. I look back and to my horror she is there. Standing at the corner of the street looking at the cab. Omg. How could she have known that we boarded this cab. She hadn't seen us getting in it. This is frightening. I'm getting all sweaty with fear. I tell my friend that this is probably not the best idea of escaping that girl. She nods. We both are on edge. Right now my brain is frozen and I don't know what's going on or what to do. The cab driver is being rude and aggressive towards us. He is constantly complaining. So I just tell him to take a turn and he keeps looking at me and says "oh madam I can't do that"... He keeps repeating and it's annoying me. I tell him to stop and I struggle to find my cash. I keep looking through all the pockets of my wallet and just all sorts of trash in it but no cash. I think I might have given all the cash to the ticket collector on the bus out of panic. Oh my God. I finally find some money at the bottom of the wallet and pay that driver and we both are now standing on the street looking for a way out. We cross the street and I can see a huge neon sign of a bar next to where we are standing. The space behind the bar is all empty like a graveyard. I don't know but for some reason everything appears scary and remote and I feel that girl's presence everywhere like she is laughing at me. I look around, frantically scanning the road for any signs of her. The road is crowded with people. It's almost late evening. Once it's past that hour, we will have some difficulty in getting a cab because people are returning home and transport will shut down. We both are praying we get a cab. Please fast. Fast.... Fast. We are waving at all the cabs, just anybody who is ready to drive us home. At this point I'm short of cash and I am assuming my friend will pay some.. I don't know if she got the money or not. Most cabs are just rejecting us. The cab drivers are asking me too much. They are getting confused with directions or just do not want to drive. I'm panic stricken with cuts and blood over my arm. All I'm thinking is to get home somehow. I finally see a cab.. It has a huge velvet seat inside. This thing looks very odd. I've never seen a cab with this huge seat. The seat looks like a huge couch. So not thinking much, we decide to get in. But we can't. The seat is completely blocking the way to ender the cab.. The driver is trying to push the seat to the back so that there is enough room for me to hop on it. But he is unable to push it. He is trying Right now I'm sweating. I don't want to see her face again. I am telling the driver to make it fast. Please fix it.. Right now this cab is our only last chance to get out of that place.. The seat is very awkwardly placed and almost stuck. He keeps pushing. Nothing happens.. A lot of time is getting wasted here. Finally. He makes some space. We crawl into it. Like huddled into this little space. We can hardly breathe and we are sitting awkwardly with our heads bent forward. But can't help it. He starts and I tell him to keep switching the streets. This is my strategy of avoiding that girl and fooling her if she is behind us.. I tell him the longer route, it's more winding and I want him to constantly take another street to escape the main roads. I am directing him to take a lot of turns and he is getting confused. This is my only trick of evading that girl. My friend is asking me about the next day. Like what are we going to do. Will we never ever go shopping to that place again? I don't know what to tell her. I tell her to not think about tomorrow,..." just think about now okay." I tell her that I don't have enough cash and she might need to pay the rest. She agrees and I feel a bit better. I don't want to look outside anymore, scared what if I see that face again. We are going at a very slow speed through all the narrow streets and main roads. I told him to avoid main roads Now I'm scared. What if we see her again. I'm thinking the best way to escape her notice would be to slouch back as much into the car and look down and away, kind of hide into the seat and go deep inside so our faces are never seen. I tell her to push back into the car seat as much as she can. The problem is that the seat is too rigid and we are almost falling out of the car and anyone can see us through the window. So me and Diana are pushing our backs into the seat to sink inside as much as we can.. It's really hard to push because the seat is so hard and stuck. We are trying. I don't look out at all.. Abrupt End of the dream.. Woke up in deep fear.

Some Hindu astrologer had predicted my dad's life many years ago. All of it came true. It was based on his horoscope. So I believe it. The same astrologer told me that when I find my soulmate I will be eternally bonded to him through every reincarnation after my death..

Leo has such an angelic face. LMAO. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEO. Hope I can make some jokes for his b'day and he won't mind. @Leo Gura, Leo lol you need to release a live awakening video as a birthday gift to all members of Actualized.org family..

I never thought about self actualization. I had no clue about it. What got me into it? Well I accidentally clicked on Leo's video some 3 years ago. This was that video. And after watching that video, everything changed for me and here I am today. This video changed my life. Huge thanks to Leo Gura for making it.

You are right about it. I have found a person who understands me. He is also Stage Green. He is from another culture. I feel very connected with him. That's where my heart is.

Read @electroBeam 's post. To me it's the greatest post ever made on Actualized.org. That's how life has to be for me.. Right now I don't have the confidence to pursue it. But at some point I will follow his lifestyle and thinking. It is connected to the earth in the most holistic way. It's not necessary that everyone should follow it, of course some people might not like it, and I'm not saying that everyone should follow him. But can't deny that it's a near perfect way of living the life mother earth wanted us to live.. At some point when you will be free of society's conditioning you'll begin to resonate with his lifestyle and thinking. When you grow spiritually every day you will resonate more and more with nature. My favorite thread. Please take a moment to read.

I can say I have given up my rational mind. I only have a logical mind now. I try to see the logic in everything. I try to connect the dots.. I no longer associate with rationalists. They can be very stuck in their thinking. Maybe it's good. But I'm going more and more green everyday. Green is about harmony and the ecosystem. I'm more focused on the ecosystem than the self. I know my thinking pattern resembles hippie culture lol. I don't like governments and systems and rules. And rule makers. I don't like materialism and consumerism. I don't like rigid systems and rigid people. I don't like blue stage people so I find it difficult to connect with stage blue people because I don't resonate with their way of thinking. I am a free bird. Totally free of society's bullshit rules and rigidity. Society to me is an illusion. I'm a hippie at heart.

Totally agree on this one.. Porn causes objectification that's why I stopped watching it. It made me feel like a man was just a tool of my sexual satisfaction or pleasure. It induces the mind into thinking that sex is just for pleasure. But in real life, sex is so wholesome. It's not just an exercise but a way of bonding and connection. After quitting porn, I am much happier with my sex life because now it's more biological than mechanical. Now it's more wholesome and natural and a way to connect with my partner on a biological level. I don't look at him as a sex machine anymore..

This guy is so fast. Nooo. He is making me jealous.

Totally!

What if someone gave you all your material needs and told you that you never have to worry about survival anymore.. I guarantee you that you will stop thinking the rational way and not be interested in chasing money or material success. To me all material success is bullshit. Look at the coronavirus. Even the rich die with the poor. Virus does not discriminate.. The universe gives you a higher calling, listen to the universe, it calls you to invest in love and empathy and joy. Real success of entire humanity lies in everyone loving each other unconditionally. Till then all material success is like trinkets and pearls. All glitter no gold.

@LaucherJunge agree

I want to drink litres and litres of this.. Chug it girl.

OH my God, you're so right on it. You almost stole my thoughts. That's why I stopped watching porn. It raises expectations in me from my partner in the bed. I tend to tell him to do what the guy in the video does.. It's just not a good thing to do. It raises expectations for both men and women.. After leaving porn I was able to enjoy sex in a more natural way with my partner. I was addicted to porn.. Then I figured it just wasn't the most natural way of looking at sex.. Now after stopping porn I feel much more free and I can find a lot of men attractive.

@UnconsciousHuman I kinda of just agreed with that post in general but I didn't put it in context with your post. My bad. Sorry. and now I see how it would make you feel. You're right that people should be more transparent.