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••••••••••••<<<•••••<<<•••••>>••••••••••••••>>>•••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• So yes I was talking about the devil. And how being seduced by the devil gave me an enormous sense of comfort. I don't know why I felt this way. But it was like that. I still feel some sensation over my whole body like a mild tingling. I woke up but I felt a bit terrified. I'm still reeling through these sensations. I still can't figure out what must have happened while I was asleep. Maybe I was going through a nightmare and didn't realize that it was hurting my skin.

••••••••••••<<<•••••<<<•••••>>••••••••••••••>>>•••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• When I woke up from the dream, I saw that the lights were out. I screamed loudly out of pain. I don't know why. I just felt so scared to death. I could feel chains around me. I was feeling awkward and frustrated. I got up and I felt drained. I touched my body on all sides and kept rubbing my skin. It was all itchy for some reason. I could not understand what was going on. Why was it so itchy? What had I eaten? I looked around me. I felt so controlled. I could feel a scissor under me. I don't know what that was doing there. I had finished an entire bottle of coke. I felt like the devil was with me. And the devil had been sexually seducing me. I don't know why this thing gave me such an enormous sense of comfort. Why is the idea of a devil seducing me such a sense of comfort? Why did I feel protected?

••••••••••••<<<•••••<<<•••••>>••••••••••••••>>>•••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• I want to follow these principles in my life.. This is my handbook for the rest of my life I'm proud of it. This is what I always wanted. Now I'm kinda comfy and sleepy. I really wanted to create a textbook I could rely on as a framework for my spiritual life. Now it's all ready.

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✸⊰⊰⊰⊰••⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰⊰••⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰•✸⊰⊰⊰⊰• ••••••••••••<<<•••••<<<•••••>>••••••••••••••>>>•••• The only way out for the struggling deeper selves is to have faith and believe that God wants the best for them.

••••••••••••<<<•••••<<<•••••>>••••••••••••••>>>•••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• There is a reason why both extroversion and introversion are necessary. You have to be an introvert. There are obvious benefits to it.. Extroversion on the other hand is more suited to an open environment.

••••••••••••<<<•••••<<<•••••>>••••••••••••••>>>•••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• What about introverts like me? Maybe my extroversion caused me to go further and further and further and further. What's left of me now? I have a very high degree of introversion in me.. The problem is that I tried to break free of it. Because I realized that long term introversion will lead to loneliness and lack of social skills.

Extroverted people don't thrive in this area. You would ask why? Because extroverted people tend to reach out way too much. Whereas introverts remain to themselves. It takes a great degree of effort to pull an introvert out of their zone.

So I'm coming back to the same question. How will I know if I a guy is committed to me or not? The question is a great question but there is no straight forward answer. Psychic protection perfume lol One way to find out is to not create camaraderie with them. The more you give in, the more the person is at an advantage to have power over you. You give your power over to them. You let them decide your fate. You shouldn't do that. Take control within your own hands. This might seem dominating and bossy but this is about self protection. You stay stoic. You stay where you are. You stay how you are. Let the other person come to you. Let people come to you rather than the other way around. This way you have monopoly over your own emotions and you are less vulnerable or prone to being emotionally exploited. You set your own rules. You define how things are going to be. If they truly wish to be with you, they will find a way to be with you. You have to learn to let go. You have to test their commitment rather than the other way around. What does this truly mean? I think the best solution is to be an observer and spend time observing rather than believing. Your own belief, naivete and trust can come back to bite you. The best is to limit yourself as much as possible. The best is to not show much Camaraderie. Show it after a year of having neglected that person. Is the person still showing interest even after you have never shown much closeness to them? Don't reach hook point. Because once that is reached it's easy for them to let you go. If you didn't invest too much, you don't end up feeling like a loss. So what you do is just be on standby mode. Do nothing. Ask nothing. Expect nothing. Don't give affection. Don't be too vulnerable. This is about self empowerment. You be you. You don't give away your power. You get to play your own deck. What happens then? The person who truly wishes to be with you will continue showing interest and if he doesn't then it just wasn't meant to be. You automatically screen them out. But the ones who truly care and are sincere enough will be with you through and through. Extroverted people don't thrive in this area. Why?

What I gather is this. Yes this question comes to my mind very often. The answer is all about strong intent. Psychic intelligence when cultivated really strong helps you to smell intent even from far. The second thing is to not trust easily. The third is time. Time tells you everything you need to know. Time is the great revealer. You also need to test commitment and loyalty in your own unique way And yes stop giving a fuck. The other thing that you need to understand is what is fundamentally true is fundamentally true and what is fundamentally false is fundamentally false. If you hold the bastion of truth, you will attract truthful people. Your own conscience is the attracter. You attract what you are. This does not mean that you can't attract bad apples. Yes you can. But sooner or later there will be a fallout with bad apples. Because they won't align with your conscience. If you give leeway to sociopaths, you will attract sociopaths. But if your conscience denies sociopaths you won't have them in your company. It's what you choose to associate yourself with. This is ultimately decided by your own conscience, nobody can do this for you.

Chapter 9 LIFE AND THE WORLD First we need to understand 2 things here. This is the ultimate spiritual truth and this part is important. There are two selves on planet earth. GOD created two The first self is the deeper self. Since everything in this world follows the principle of duality (night and day, bitter and sweet, love and hate), it was natural that an opposite to the Deeper Self has had to exist. This opposite self or counterpart is the Outer self. The more materialistic Self. This self has different needs and psyche than the Deeper self.. The Deeper Self is at conflict with the world..because this world is not designed to be perfect. It is opposite to the Divine world. The divine world is the perfect world. The deeper self cannot find fulfillment in this world because this world is too shallow to fulfill the needs of the Deeper self. As a result, the Deeper Self will always be in a state of restlessness in this shallow world. The Deeper Self will rebel against the world. The Outer self however is a conformist. It conforms wonderfully with the world. It is made of Outer values. It supports outer values that are based on survival and maximization of survival and ego. These are egoic values that are highly destructive (imagine a Roman Senate where everyone is conspiring and killing each other to get a higher seat or position). These outer selves will easily be at peace with the world and thrive well in it. They will have all the material pleasures and the material rewards. They won't feel dissatisfied because they lack depth. They will love all the shallow things and the shallow ways. However these outer selves will never be truly happy and this is their hell. Their metaphorical hell. They will never meet true love or infinite love in eternal life after death. That is they have restlessness waiting for them in the afterlife. The Deeper selves will suffer deeply in this world.. They will struggle to fit in. They will not like anything materialistic. They will never find deeper love or connection. They will suffer betrayal and suffer immense pain and suffering. Their only way to deal with this suffering is to bring God's intervention into their lives. Like Infinite Waters the YouTuber says there are organic and inorganic people in this world. I have reached a similar conclusion. The organic ones. The inorganic ones. Now the inorganic ones are permanently restless. The organic ones are free spirited and Empathetic. Yet the organic ones will endure great suffering..because of clash of their deeper values with the world. However in the afterlife, the organic ones or Deeper Selves will forever bind with Infinite Love in eternity. This is their reward. And what will they do. The only way out for the struggling deeper selves is to have faith and believe that God wants the best for them.

Chapter 8 GOAL We are agents of God and our fundamental role is to follow the principles of divinity and live by those principles. There is a divine world in which everything operates on divine principles and in divine ways because of which every creature is fulfilled and there is peace and perfect happiness. There is righteousness and there is perfect order. There is only joy, no pain, no suffering, no sorrow. This divine world is a perfect world. Our ultimate goal as agents and workers (workers of God) is to do God's work on earth (this kinda reminds me of Christianity), we have to do God's work. What is this work? This work is nation building which means build a community or world that perfectly replicates the divine world. Almost like bringing the divine world on earth (does this sound familiar to bringing heaven on earth). Once you bring the divine world you have restored healing, order and peace.

CHAPTER 7 ACTS God makes necessary interventions. God does these interventions after we have approached God's grace via supplication.

CHAPTER 6 GIFTS Gifts are God given. God has given you many gifts at birth. Something that we usually take for granted. God continues to give these gifts throughout our lives. Like gift of healing. Gift of affection. Gift of health

One way is to keep some boundaries.

Thank you for the comment. That was very supportive and encouraging.

@Etherial Cat I understand your concerns. I'm not demonizing the whole forum. Just a few users here make it difficult for me to be here. If such attitude is dealt with, then I have no trouble here All I am asking for is "zero personal attacks" and non invasive behavior. Calling for some user's ban is not how we create peace. I don't go around saying that a user should be banned.

LEFT THE FORUM PERMANENTLY. BYE How much can I take? It's too much.

I'm logging out. Enough. Keep attacking me guys. It shows how much attacking is allowed here.

I'm so fed up with this forum Everyday some member keeps complaining about me even when I don't do shit to anyone There is no love or tolerance here Always complain complain complain about me I feel unaccepted, underappreciated and constantly unloved here. No matter how hard I try to fit in here or help people. I'm always treated like an outsider or pariah. So much for a spiritual community? Everyone here is always either angry or arguing with each other. There is simply no friendliness. Fed up with the unfriendly cold feeling here. There is zero tolerance here especially for me. It kills my free spirit. This forum treats me like garbage and I have the right to voice my feelings. Everyone treats me like an unwanted person here. Even after being here for so long still all this coldness from everyone.

Just expecting people to stop personal attacks and be more friendly, that's all. This place is way too harsh. And I'm not the only one who says this btw

Rude behavior is just rude behavior. I can't call it masculine. Rather it's toxic masculine. Leo has even acknowledged this. Healthy masculine is protective not rude Healthy masculine is not pouncing to attack

Complaining about how one feels in a community is far from drama. There is a wound that needs addressing. One cannot dismiss that wound. No point in keeping it private. A loving community will actually encourage open complaints. It's only a cult that will hush hush complaints.

Beginning to feel that way Look at the comments on this thread. It's depressing to say the least.

Why is this topic being constantly churned into how much I use the forum versus how rude this forum is. How masculine this forum is. How in-gentle this forum is. Even if I used this forum sparingly, the problem doesn't go away, even if I come back after 3 weeks, the rude comments and complaining attitude is going to stay the same. I want the forum to be less vulgar, more loving and more compassionate, more tolerant and less personal attacks Why is this so hard? Are we going to have low empathy on a spiritual forum?