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•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• (Upper boundary) Giga healing will deal with inner organic healing right from the root. It's about cultivating love to heal deeply from inside. Inner child trauma work as well for those that feel unloved and for those who want organic healing. To be continued... (Lower boundary) •⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰••••••••••••••••••••••••••⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰• ...

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•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• (Upper boundary) We can do better! Many of us are busy, have a lot of responsibilities and obligations, and often feel strapped for time. Having a great morning routine can make all the difference in being productive, achieving goals, feeling organized, and doing all of this with confidence.

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• (Upper boundary) Applying unconditional love to the ego is a very healthy first step this way it feels safer to bring more of itself outside of the shadows, loving your failings allows you to keep them under tabs and transmute them much much quicker. Like a child who is scolded for being who he is will eventually begin to simply hide who he is and do what he wants more sneakily, I know i did haha. The whole "Ego is the enemy kill it at all costs" attitude which your likely going hear advised often and is just ego anyway. One who is truly without a shred of ego would also psychically die, even your body is just ego/boundaries, so if someone with a mouth tells you they have no ego guess whats talking. Supplement your spirtual pratice with some healthy structure to make your ego a more suitable tool for expressing the divine truths gained from the spirtual pratices. Things such as deepening your understanding of psychology and training your ego to have healthier goals and ways to satisfy its needs like working out instead of video games, a healthier diet, or making your dating standard focused on seeking a well rounded psychologically stable person with healthy self respect instead of the hottest person at any cost. On the psychology side I recommend Jordan Peterson's full psychology courses he posted on youtube, they are basically just him teaching a entire collage class that you can enjoy for free(although id take his emotional political criticisms with a grain of salt they have some truth but only partially like anyone who 100% sure of anything). They are great for providing a solid foundation that provide a support for your spiritual practices. Spiritual practices such as meditation, psychedelics, and yoga can decrease the density of your ego but if you dont build the foundation of a healthy relationship with ego first sometimes it backfires and the ego with will claim the insights creating the ultimate sneaky ninja of spiritual ego which often ends someones progress for very long amounts of time. (Lower boundary) •⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰••••••••••••••••••••••••••⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰• ...

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• (Upper boundary) A healthy ego is one that has been carefully weeded out so that you can use it when needed to survive as an individual in a world of form, create in a world of form and help others. Your ego helps you manage your time, care for yourself and others, plan for the future. Any past knowledge or future planning is all from your ego. You learn to use the ego and not have it use you. Denying the ego or not having compassion for the ego means denying your physical form and the physical world as whole. On the other hand, yes the ego IS the devil. But contrast is what allows our existence. There is no light without dark. They key is to keep as little of the ego around as possible and still have an amazing life while you are incarnate in the world of form. (Lower boundary) •⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰••••••••••••••••••••••••••⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰• ...

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• (Upper boundary) It's how you FEEL that matters. Don't control your speech to sound positive when inwards you are resisting it. The thought is a secondary manifestation of feeling. That's why it seems that we create with our thoughts, but thoughts only seem to have power exactly because they are completely powerless. Go direct to the Source, go to feeling, listen to feeling and you need not worry. You do not CONTROL your thoughts, you observe your thoughts and use feeling as a guide for whether or not to follow or believe them. You can select a better feeling thought, only because selecting a better feeling thought is dropping a thought that feels bad. When we bulldoze over feeling we are manipulating and controlling to get a positive outcome, simply to avoid feeling. Feeling is the unconditional love that trumps the duality of positive or negative and needs not wait for an outcome. This is why you think you're being kind of OCD, you interpret this in a way that causes you to focus on a thought that "you" FEAR a negative outcome. This is just one more thought that feeling is telling you "Nope" to. (Lower boundary) •⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰••••••••••••••••••••••••••⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰• ...

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• (Upper boundary) The key to living a good life and getting results is regular practice. That which you do with your mind (where you concentrate your mental resources) on a daily, weekly. The key to living a good life and getting results is regular practice. That which you do with your mind (where you concentrate your mental resources) on a daily, weekly, monthly basis. Consistent practice leads to an elevated level of skillfulness in that particular area which then translates into powerful action and results. (Isn’t it the case that the results are what you ultimately want?) Imagine if you practiced playing guitar (or meditation or any other skill) for 1 – 2 hours every day from age 5. Imagine you started programming at age 3 and kept doing it regularly for 10, 20 years. On the other hand, every practice be it good (like reading books) or bad (like watching TV) will lose its effect on your life without doing it consistently. Hard work- regular practice of worthwhile skills with no immediate results (otherwise it would be fun, therefore - easy) It is also important that you dedicate a distinct chunk of time to practice to give it the full focus (this is where the Time block planning technique comes into play [the idea of Cal Newport] ) (Lower boundary) •⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰••••••••••••••••••••••••••⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰• ...

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• (Upper boundary) Act first then from your actions you will find and customize a mental model you already know (or you will discover one along the way). What must the first action be? To be generous with others, consistently. What does generosity mean? In your case: give money to non-profit and see people you have avoided seeing (scarcity mindset applied to relationships). It's okay if there is a back & forth pattern. If you don't do this, you will be solving the scarcity mindset with a scarcity mindset and you will also probably never actually act because you will loose yourself in conceptualization and planning. (Lower boundary) •⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰••••••••••••••••••••••••••⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰• ...

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• (Upper boundary) I used to focus hard on techniques, try very hard to get somewhere and such, but now understand that really the only thing that matters is that I'm alligned with my own being/inner nature/soul. I would suggest to just choose whatever resonates most with you in every moment, because that's the option that is most you. In my experience that seems to mean often to just let go of things. If you by doing that, line up your actions and thoughts with what feels good to you, you'll come more and more into allignment with what you truly are, and become the most expanded version of yourself that you could be. And what is more worthwhile than that? Well, I can't think of it.. If you do things from an energy of wanting to get somewhere, you'll be practising that energy, which is pretty much the oposite of what you want. That would be practising how you don't wish to feel as a means of reaching how you do wish to feel. hmm.. (Lower boundary) •⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰••••••••••••••••••••••••••⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰• ...

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•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• (Upper boundary) Work standing up! Give it a shot. For years I worked sitting down and was always tired, but I find when I work standing up I'm able to focus and be productive, so much that my thoughts even flow smoother. This may be a great strategy for kinesthetic learners. Stand up, get the blood flowing! .. Yup I did this same technique today. I stood up and did my work and I saw that I felt a bit more motivated than usual Another technique I use is to talk to myself. I know it sounds absurd.. But whenever I talk to myself I feel more energetic and connected and in a flow. Like I'm getting stuff done without losing focus So Yea try talking to yourself. (Lower boundary) •⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰••••••••••••••••••••••••••⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰• ...

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• (Upper boundary) Correct. The only difference between introverts and extroverts is where they get their kicks from. Extroverts get their fix from socialising, introverts from pursuing their own thoughts. There's no difference in creativity, intelligence, emotional intelligence, passion, focus, strength or any other measure. In fact introverts can be quite social, they just don't get most of their pleasure from being social - introverts can be just as socially aware as extroverts. Also, it's not one-size-fits-all. Introverts are not introverts in all situations, and likewise for extroverts. Maybe you're more extroverted with close friends and less so with acquaintances, or more introverted in a work situation than outside of it. (Lower boundary) •⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰••••••••••••••••••••••••••⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰•

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• (1) Compassion - Compassion wins over empathy in my book, because empathy biases us. For example we have a much easier time empathizing with someone who looks and behaves as we do, and a much more difficult time doing so with someone who has very different values or life experiences. Empathy can also lead to projecting your life experiences and beliefs on to others. (2) Dignity - Both myself and others are worthy of self-respect. The primary purpose of social structures should be to make it possible for individuals and communities to live a dignified life. (3) Contemplation - One's meaning making apparatus should be cultivated over a lifetime. Attitudes and beliefs should be scrutinized and deconstructed. This also includes cultivating one's ability to adopt new perspectives. Learning should be a lifelong process.

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• What prevents you from doing personal development work? Lethargy, unwillingness, lack of motivation, lack of direction, lack of discipline Work on blockages ?How to organize, schedule and coordinate your effort in the right direction to achieve your goals? I cannot coordinate at all. Coordinate effort ? How to cultivate different forms of intelligence? My IQ is not very high in different areas. I need to improve this area. Improve intelligence ? How to motivate myself to get results? This has been a huge problem. Lack of motivation. Motivate yourself harder ?How to navigate through self help and filter information correctly? I never categorize information as per my needs. Customize and filter information to needs ? How to stop feeling blank and unmotivated? I often feel like I have no direction and I end up feeling blank. Have a sense of direction ?How to love myself? I don't push myself enough to love myself.. Push yourself to cultivate self love .

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• desire: oneness, happiness, love, abundance fear: fear itself, division, the opposite of happiness, scarcity

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• Journal Maintenance work

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About profile pictures. (journal maintenance work) I'm going to use a set of profile pictures to reflect my mood and the time of the day. One profile picture is set for evenings that reflects my introspective poetic mood/vibe. Each profile picture is set for a particular vibe. I want a more colorful (but not too colorful, I saw that colorful pictures look tacky on the forum, they look stark and I want something delicate but having some color.) So I decided to use a mix of black and white and color imagery and I carefully selected pictures that would go well with my theme. Now I have a nice faintly colorful picture set for mornings because when I wake up in the morning I want to see a nice bright mood enhancing picture. And then progressively through the day I want something that subdues my vibe and then a reflective picture in the evening. So I have 2 pictures for morning - one is a woman with a Hat and the other with a bunch of flowers. That will look good. So they are set. One is the current picture that I really love because it reflects my mood so intricately. It's perfect for my journal setup. The last picture will be the evening picture that is awesome while writing. It automatically induces me into writing my poetic reflective pensive thoughts. So everything has been set. My final collection of profile pictures for different emotions that I experience.

Testing some journal separators. (journal maintenance work) •••••• •••••• ••••••••• •••••••••• •✿✿✿⊱✸⊰✿✿✿• ✸⊰⊰⊰⊰••⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰⊰••⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰•✸⊰⊰⊰⊰• •⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰• •✿✿✿⊱????✳️?✳️????⊰✿✿✿• Post beginning •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• Post ending •✿✿✿⊱????✳️?✳️????⊰✿✿✿• •✿✿✿⊱ ♥♥♥✿✿♥♥♥✿✿♥♥♥ ⊰✿✿✿• Middle line separator •⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰••••••••••••••••••••••••••⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰• ... ✸⊰⊰⊰⊰••⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰⊰••⊱⊱⊱⊱✸⊰⊰⊰⊰•✸⊰⊰⊰⊰• Pink butterfly separator Silver star separator Post images scenery for added effect (I have already fixed my profile issue I needed a profile that would jibe with my journal and my inner emotions. I got a set of 2 profile pictures that do this job now. It's way better than the tackier profiles I used before.) I have 3 right now. I think i can use 1 as a morning profile picture and 1 as an evening profile picture. I'm very specific about things like profile pictures, layouts, aesthetics etc. I am careful about details even down to a dot.

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• Chayne is my savior. My lover. He is my refuge from all the players of the world. I often wonder what if I had met my soulmate early on in life when I was 18 something. How would life be? I wouldn't have fallen for fuckboys and players. I would have been spared all the trouble if my romantic needs were already met at least partially in this sense. My needs weren't met and so I became a desperate woman. A desperate woman is a huge magnet for fuckboys and players. Her brain is unable to have a filter. She sees a guy cheering her and she falls in love. A desperate woman has no concept of preserving herself for the most valuable man who would want a deep connection with her. ••••••••• ••••••••••••• All of my love letters will be written to Chayne. •••••• •••••• •••••• •••••• •••••• •••••• .

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• There are two things here. One is my image and the other is me. My image here on this forum is spectacularly different from whom I actually am. I can't do much to reconcile the two. It's something that happened just naturally, I didn't do anything consciously. Most people assume that I must be some cheap shallow person. But I'm not the person who you think I am. I'll always be a mystery to people because the real me is good at hiding itself. The real me is buried under layers of drama, tension, defenses, issues, facades, and masks of protection that I wear because of my introversion. And that won't go away because I don't feel free around people. There is no point in blaming a person for doing what their brain tells them to do. I operate like any other human. I do what my brain tells me to.

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• So the deadline has come. It's March 27.its time to move on. The guys who try to flirt with women in the journals, I'll call them journal guys. Nothing much. Maybe I fell for a journal guy who knows. I need to focus on this aspect of my life. I have decided to name the above person "Chayne" a French name.

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• As the realization sinks in that nobody gives a fuck about me, I have understood that I have to be extremely serious about my life. Don't give into cheap love that doesn't care. Don't act like a kid. Fucking grow up. Yea I act juvenile because of some unmet needs. And I need to grow the fuck up. I need to pull myself up by the bootstraps It has been very hard to say the least.

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• I'm sick and tired of the world, humanity, people, things, romance, men, Relationships. I just don't know who I am anymore. I feel like I'm sitting in a graveyard. I don't know what life has in store for me I'm going through excruciating mental pain. Everything feels like a joke. I feel like nobody ever gave a fuck about me..