tsuki

I don't think anybody is going to hide your posts for you. The posts are not the problem. This place is already running through your veins, your soul is entangled with it. This is why it's difficult to leave. Freeing myself from my masks is never about smashing anything, or even taking them off. It's about a smile, laughter, the 'even me' phenomenon. It's shameless nakedness, having the audacity to not care.

Unconditional love is emptiness. Always receptive, always there for you when you need it.

@Pouya They are interconnected, the distinction is practical/arbitrary. I do not find it true that emotions are non-symbolic. They are their own language and go unnoticed most of the time. I tend to distinguish emotions by the fact that they emote me to action when I surrender. They are expressed through subtle (or not) body movements. Think dancing for example.

I'm still missing @Zweistein. She posted here a few days ago. I hoped she would drop by and say hi.

No video today since I'm on a business trip. I'll post one tomorrow if I get home at a reasonable time. I'll address your comment in the video @jbram2002 .

You're disturbing her. Let her do her thing.

No.

Great read and a touching story. I have a few observations, but I'm on a business trip so I'll keep them to myself for now. I appreciate the guts you gathered to share this. You will feel better I promise.

She's an oyster, she protecting her heart. I can kinda start to feel how that's wise. The world of regular people never ceases to teach me the simplest lessons.

@now is forever Am I blocked again?

@now is forever Please tell me that you're just fishing for love like Joseph did. Please stay.

@now is forever

Despite our differences, I wholeheartedly cheer on your efforts. I know how difficult this is. You're the man. I love the dark souls series. It didn't teach me to love pain. It taught me to watch my mistakes and try again. Strangely enough, I only make progress in it when I am playing for the sake of playing - enjoying the views. If I desperately want to get somewhere, prove something to myself, then it becomes a chore. Dark souls is a game where death is a given, and this realization brings peace that makes space for enjoyment.

Ahh, this stings. Sorry.

I'm sorry, but I'm done being a target for your projections. I'm not going to respond to this to avoid spreading pain. I'm sorry for laughing at you. You have your reasons for being the way you are. So does my wife.

I think we derailed this thread enough. PM me.

@mandyjw I'm sensing the collective female trauma incoming. No, we don't have this figured out. It all works until it doesn't and we suffer to wisen up.

What can I do for you? Do you have any questions?

Oh yeah. She absolutely loves and yearns it. I'm just not too fond of the Titanic sinking in the background, that's all.

I want to help you because I can see myself in you. I want to spare you my own suffering. Still, I know that I wouldn't have listened to myself when I was your age. Just please take good care of yourself. Love yourself. Don't make yourself suffer any more than you absolutely have to.

You're both incurable romantics. There is a reason why romantic love stories end in death of tuberculosis instead of 'they lived happily ever after'.

Hahahaha

...and that story is what makes you suffer. Like I said in the beginning: only your own suffering can cure you. You just haven't suffered enough to give up. Don't worry, you will get there. You're on the right track.

The solution is: stop obsessing about having sex. Give that shit up. Are you involuntarily celibate? Start being voluntarily celibate and reap the benefits. Still your monkey mind that keeps bringing your failures up, start meditating regularly. Focus on things that will serve you 15 years from now instead of focusing on what has been happening for the past 15 years. When you're successful and happy, girls will find their way into your bedroom if that's what you want. I'm glad that you've calmed down a little. You will get through this whether you like it or not.