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There was no journey to begin with.

You need so much surrender that it will literally kill you. You won't be able to go there unless there is no you.

Keep doing shadow work until it merges with your everyday experience. It's about surrender. Only through surrender you can fall down/up there.

It may have been too rapid for you. Still, now you know there's more. If emotions stopped you, you should do more shadow work.

Remember that you can only go there if it feels right. If you do that out of love.

How many holes have you opened already? Did you ever open one when you weren't ready to see it? The hole is patient, it will wait for you until you muster your courage. You did well, friend.

Aakash, it's very simple. Very, very, very simple. What are you?

And what is the mind activity in relation to that? "The mind" meant in the universal sense.

@Aakash Look around, can you find yourself? Look inside, can you find yourself? Look in between inside and outside. Can you find yourself? What are you?

Become enlightened RIGHT NOW and know this. You have to know this.

What are you, exactly? Don't evade this question.

How is it possible that there are other people? How is it possible that I'm 'giving you knowledge', 'asking you questions'?

@Aakash Now, ask yourself: what am I?

Give yourself some time, contemplate this. Look for similarities between the metaphysical paradigm and physical paradigm. Then, ponder the question: until you realize that they are truly made of nothing. Then, ask yourself: how is nothing different from nothing?

nah-ah. Start observing physical world's mechanics as paradigms. Start observing physical loops "made of nothing, lol".

Paradigm? Paradigms are solipsistic. What is the thing that "paradigms" things into existence? What are paradigms made of? How is it possible that there are "other people" that have different "paradigms"? Have you realized that physical business, a company, is a paradigm that reinforces itself? That "physical reality" is a mind too?

That difference needs to be overcome. That is what magic is.

Have you noticed that if you contemplate a question enough, it always seems to support itself? If you follow a "why" for a long enough time, the reasoning is A->B->C-> ... ->Z->A->B->C Have you pondered how is that possible? It has something to do with your distinction between physics and metaphysics.

Have you encountered strangeloops yet? What are they other than the physical structure of the brain?

lol

To observe your suffering in non-reactivity is to grow wiser. Wisdom will not take you anywhere, but anywhere will be here and now.

You are being asked to let go of sexuality as your identity. It seems like you tried to repress this memory and you know how that worked out. You won't be able to forget this and keep your meditation practice. Realize that attraction is not based on appearance, personality, chemistry, wealth, status, survival, or even biological gender. Attraction is what asks you to release identity. Suffer through it and be happy.

Is it all God, or is there a devil? You seem so happy.

Nothing.