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@Joseph Maynor I was wondering why haven't you done this already. There seems to be very few people you can talk with without rustling hostility (?) for whatever reason. Just curious.

@Joseph Maynor The fact that my sentences end in a full stop does not mean that my thinking is absolute. I am simply conveying my perspective and giving you the benefit of assuming that you can see that I'm being honest to my experience. I never claim that reality is any different from how you (Joseph) perceive it. I am communicating my perception of it. Establishing that something is only my perspective every time I try to say something is silly. Equally silly is trying to convince others of being turquoise, or any other color for that matter, as it is nobody else's business. Have you noticed your absolutism about my absolutism in your response? I'm not saying as a riposte, but to point out how language works.

@Joseph Maynor You are underestimating the fact that Leo is making a living through his videos. Most people will not recognize value in a perspective unless it is presented as true and backed up by authority. You have to tailor your message to your audience if they are supposed to digest it. Sometimes they need to digest it, just to see that it's junk food. This is how self-development is done up to a certain point. Leo has repeatedly said that his videos are a solid island of shit in a sea of shit. There is no way to gauge other people's stage externally like you're trying to do. Nor there is a need to.

Do not treat stage Green as means to an end. You will never get there if you're seeing it as a disposable ladder from the start. Well, unless you view any other stage like that. Emotions are not errors in logical reasoning. They are a manifestation of a mismatch between conscious and unconscious worldviews you hold. They are a reasoning faculty that guides you according to your unconscious compass. If you subject yourself to your emotions and understand what they tell you, you will align your value systems and become much more integrated and therefore stronger (not in alpha sense). Stage green is a pendulum swinging 'too far' in the opposite direction from 'alpha' in pursuit of exploration of unknown territory of the Self. In order to learn, you need to explore. Pendulum becomes still as Yellow, with the integrated Self.

@Mikael89

@Arkandeus It seems that you suffer because you're too happy . I'm not even joking. Have you even been in a serious, long-lasting intimate relationship with someone? Women are trouble, but so is everything else. Your current situation seems like you cannot accept your attraction towards people. Why is that? Why can't you trust yourself in this regard? Is this beauty unbearable? Why do you have to bear it? Do you think that Jesus or Buddha beared the beauty of the world? Or they didn't and became who they were? What would you do to express the beauty of the world to other people? Would you tell them your experience if you could? Wouldn't it frighten them? Wouldn't their fright frighten you? There are ways to express love by doing thing you've always done. Beauty you see is an expression of your inner being. You are the world's beauty by being who you are. Let men be men. There is no need for them to have their masculinity balanced by femininity. You have, and does it prevent your suffering, or amplifies it? Do you wish your experience to other people? Do you think that they can handle it? They all go in their own pace - so are you. Masculinity turning onto itself will produce femininity in the end. It has to. It is the same energy called differently. We are all one. We all have a path that leads nowhere. Tuning yourself to the world's beauty tunes you to the world's suffering. Beauty is suffering when you try to control it.

Looking for validation of your inner peace from others suggests that you aren't. Would it be a problem if you could never arrive at peace? If so, then you aren't at peace at all.

@Leo Gura Doesn't it imply that anything you say about infinity is nonsense?

Why do you regret it? Is regret driving you back to your practices? Is it perhaps easier to discipline yourself, than keep being lazy?

I used the phrase 'running' to make our conversation coherent, but the original question was about stillness among your troubles in general. You can solve all problems by not seeing things as problems to be solved. By seeing that having a problem is not a problem. I'm hesitant to say this, but the point of this exercise is to see that you do not, in fact, do things for a reason. You may think of yourself as someone needing discipline in your life to be happy, but this idea originates from your self-image of being lazy. This cycle of discipline and laziness is perpetuated by the interplay of two conflicting self-images that combat each other through discipline and relief. Try being a lazy fuck for as long as you can bear. At some point it will actually be easier to discipline yourself than do keep being lazy. Noticing of the point at which 'personalities' switch is a valuable skill of self-mastery. It will allow you to feel like going with the flow of yourself. People need to rest. Being lazy sometimes is okay. Sorry if it feels like a projection. I simply have a feeling that we're alike.

To stop running. The subtlety of the distinction becomes apparent when you see that idea of stopping running makes you tense. Does it?

I think that the difference between the two is very subtle. Struggle can manifest itself as chatter commenting on your feelings or actions. It can also manifest itself as chatter commenting the chatter that comments feelings or actions. That's the spirit! Have you ever considered them as useful in some respect? Each of your perceived vices can be seen as a strength if you give them enough consideration. That is a very powerful perspective. Stoics had something to say in this regard. The prominent ones are Marcus Aurelius, Seneca and Epictetus. Thinking about death can also bring you solace when you are in the grip of your self-loathing. There is nothing to fear, but there is nothing to rush towards either. It will come on its own terms - no need to hasten it. Suffering is a welcome change from the perspective of the eternal stillness.

@pluto That is beautiful.

Interesting how you advise me to question my beliefs while at the same time refusing to question yours. Treat the statement that 'Brains do not exist' not as a belief, but lack thereof. Truth is not a matter that is decided through a consensus of independent actors. Nor it is a matter of investigation of reason predicated on cause and effect. If every effect needs a cause, then what is the cause of 'cause and effect'? Is 'cause and effect' an effect, or a cause? Your squirming ego is delicious

Hey, sorry to intrude. I've been following you for a while and your previous post struck a few notes in me. I really enjoy your honesty and openness. I've been wondering whether I should post this or not, but I guess I have no choice now that I'm writing this. What would happen if you would accept your situation in its entirety and decide on living like that for the rest of your days? It always fascinates me in highly driven people that they seem to think that it requires strength to work on bettering yourself. Wouldn't it actually require more strength to be voluntarily still in your current predicament?

@Ether When the surgeon opens up your skull, you are not there to witness it. Somebody tells you that you had a brain surgery. Even if you saw a footage of said surgery, it is still a TV playing a movie. How do you know that it is you on the table? Because you saw your face? How do you know if you have a face? Because you saw yourself in a mirror? You point your finger towards a mirror that shows something looking like a person and call that you. You are imagining yourself as having a face that is the same face you see in a mirror because you assume that mirrors show you. You do not prove the existence of a dream. Dream is self-evident once you get rid of all proofs and assumptions.

@Leo Gura Is intelligence chaos? Pure, unconstrained, possibility and openness to change?

I was somehow compelled to write it and see what comes out of it. The result was that once I started to describe it, I came to understand that it was an unresolvable spaghetti of various strands of narratives. I gave up, as I understood that trying to resolve it into a coherent story is a lie. It is too much to convey through words. In retrospection, I of think of it as shedding my skin. By combing the narrative of my life, I came to understand that there is no me in that.

I originally came here to share my story. I stayed to answer questions and read them as if I gave advice to myself.

"We're all puppets Laurie. I'm just a puppet who can see the strings." - dr Manhattan, 'Watchmen'

Helping others and being taken advantage of are two sides of the same coin. They alternate as you go trough your life, interacting with people. To help someone is to recognize that they are less able than you are. To be taken advantage of is to see that your ability has been exploited by someone that can take care of himself. You are the one that makes the distinction between the two as you go through your life. The act of helping is a judgement of their ability. Calling others exploitative is a judgement of your own gullibility. When your environment is always competitive, recognize that you carry competitiveness around with you. Action born out of evasion of suffering, or pursuit of satisfaction, is bound to alternate between them.

@joej Let's say that you want to have trips with your family to the countryside. The problem is that you don't have a car because you don't earn enough money. This is the cause of your suffering. So you strive to earn more money, be a better employee/entrepreneur and you success in securing a greater income. You buy yourself a brand new, shiny car and go on trips. This is satisfaction. The problem with stories such as this is that they always end on 'they lived happily ever after', which they never really do. Now, you have: less time for your family because of greater responsibilities, so it may interfere with your trips you have less money because you have to pay the car off you have to take care of your car Accomplishing any goal to secure satisfaction is at the same time opening yourself for fear of losing it. Can you see how it relates to your original problem? As long as you do things for a reason, you are bound to alternate between suffering and satisfaction. If you treat satisfaction as something that pulls towards something and suffering as something that pushes away from something, you will always look for reasons to do things.

Seeking satisfaction through being a man that can is a purpose that defeats itself in case of success. You have created a business that can more than you can. It is a success that stripped you of the reason for satisfaction. Either - find a new purpose, or a new business. Seeking predicated on any reason is always bound to produce both satisfaction and suffering.

Who is the one that says: I'm going to empty the mind?

@egoeimai Voice commenting on its own obnoxiousness and dismissing itself