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Are you talking about metaphysical stuff?? I was thinking more in lines of a sandwich. Feeling of something missing is at the same time doing that which is required to obtain it. Metaphysics are a delusion. A delusion one has to work through. The whole of existence is instinctual, impulsive. It is not thought-driven in the slightest. There are still images and words flashing, but I know them for what they are. I don't fight them. I don't resist. I just flow. People are wonderful. Even their suffering when I notice it. I couldn't imagine doing something wrong to them. 'Cause' their suffering. It is all driven by self-image. All suffering is self-inflicted. Suffering is not pain though. Suffering is time. When it comes to appreciating things more than other people - we all appreciate it to the same degree. Some of us are simply too far out there, lost in their suffering, to admit it.

This is it. In the past I'd make fun of that, calling myself an idiot or don quichotte or something. No time, no reward. I have no reason to live. I just do. Yeah and I take care of that when it comes. I tried to make myself to not want, but it's a delusion. The mind is gone. So so are long-term wants. It's always been that way though. That's why I couldn't figure myself out.

Never had that one quite figured out. I even have a journal titled like that, you know? It seems like I'm going through life blindly and it only makes sense when I look back. Everything clicked recently and I'm just here, now. This is it.

Now I'm disappointed. You can do better than that.

Hahahaha

@zambize Just don't ask, mkay?

@ajasatya That's quite a story man. Was it pre-arranged to let her anger out, or did it happen, ahem, spontaneously?

I bet you do. And that's the reason you still exist. It's not about liking or not liking though. I like how your posts grow with time to be more and more integrated. Without a trace of being edited.

Of course. The mind never lets go until it does. I bet you had to use lots of fancy psychedelics to get there. Now you have all the experience in the world to tell other people they're wrong.

Paradoxes are transcended by letting go of the mind. Neither of their ends are real. This is still mind chatter. It's better than linearity, but it's still chatter. This is not being.

There is no paradox. This is mind stuff. Paradox is the sound of a mind that is crumbling. There is only being. Tao.

Say what you have to say. What does it mean?

@mandyjw Now I have popcorn AND a drawing. Beautiful! This is what non-duality means. There is no duality between duality and non-duality. You are clinging to one end of a paradox.

The world of name is not apart from the world of form. Not-two.

@mandyjw There you go again. You cling to paradox. You treat one end for the sake of another. Paradoxical mind is still a mind. Paradox is very close to the end of the path. How about fractals? Forrests of mirrors? Rings any bells?

@mandyjw Then why do you still doubt?

It's a dismissal, but it retains your honesty and dignity. You still believe in something and it is ungrounded. Use your honesty as a compass. Find that thing and it will not feel like an insult to let go of that. It will feel like a joke you played on yourself. You will laugh and bear no grudge towards me.

@mandyjw @mandyjw You are the one that doubts Mandy. No. This is it. There is no me and there is no you. You can't have it. There are no 'many paths'. All paths lead exactly to the same place. The absolute truth is true and was true the whole time unbeknownst to you. It changes nothing because it's already here. You cannot change it and there are no many facets to it. Love is not a thought. It's their absence.

@mandyjw Love is not a thought. It does not say what you should do and how to behave. You are it. It is a feeling, as if you weighted 100 tonnes and it pulled you down right into the present moment. That everything clicks together in magnificent orchestration of reality. Nothing is missing right now and you go along with it. Self-realization is stable because there are no thoughts to doubt the silence. Doubt is dependent on time.

You still think that you are doing things because you're committed to love. Love is not a destination. It is a vehicle. Abandoning love is not about embracing emptiness. They are not-two. Not separate. You still think of it. They form a paradox. A strangeloop. Embrace the flow. Lose yourself in it.

Osho.

Don't worry. I'm foreshadowing a 2 hour long video in which Leo just laughs. Laughs at the joke he finally got. Laughs with a laugh you've never dreamed of. It will sound more like a squeal though. This will be the final upload of the nonduality series.

Hey, I didn't sign up for a soap opera of this length. Leo is around 30. Have some faith man. Maybe he'll read your journals and speed things up?

His conclusions are irrelevant. Just read the first book of ethics and see how he derives god from logic. The method is what matters.