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I need to cool off before I write anything. Too much heat at the moment. It's both good and bad, right and wrong, cruel and compassionate. I feel shameless. The only appropriate word that comes to mind right now that captures this situation is: utter madness. My mind wants to settle on conclusions and I know that it's not the right thing to do now. My wife is suffering a lot, but she's finally in touch with what she's lost in the recent years. She has sold herself to the idea of marriage and dried up inside. She has thrown away parts of herself to protect it. I want her to reclaim these parts and be whole again. Marriage is not an idea and is not a territory.

There are 7 billion people and just one Mandy. To try to live a life like somebody else is the greatest crime and treason. We all live with our lives at stake and we make the best decisions we possibly can given the circumstances we find ourselves in. To look back and regret is to spit in your own face, to throw your life away. It is a fundamental disrespect towards the miracle that is happening right here, every second, just for you. To tell another person that she made a mistake and destroyed her life is blasphemy. Even if you were screwing around waiting for your husband to support you - this is your decision to make because it is your life that's at stake. Can you imagine making that decision consciously, with full understanding of what it entails? To be prepared for whatever comes with it despite what others tell you? In my eyes, that commands respect.

That's soul-crushing. Is there a social stigma related to that? Why would you want to talk about what you do, if you could, like, do what you do?

Why do you feel sorry? Is there something more Mandy than Mandy? Your work is amazing, I have never seen anything like that. I don't follow the trends and I don't know what's considered good glasswork. What I do know though is that it brings joy to my heart and I believe that's what's important.

I'm starting to think that's humble bragging. You like to be praised for your work, don't you?

RIP journal. What am I? An 80's music fan, apparently.

How am I even supposed to answer to that? I feel indebted to you.

I don't know why, but it sounds sad. Is this a goodbye? Maybe I'm confusing sad with beautiful again.

Thank you. If you ever feel like I can help you with anything - don't hesitate to ask.

Sigh. First she pokes and now she goes back to her shell.

Now you got me curious. You're gonna leave me with this?

@now is forever That is how I understand and relate to it. It is grounded in my experience. Other than that, karma is everything. It is all mechanical/organic/divine. There is no control or free will. The only freedom there is, is the directionlessness of the present moment.

@now is forever Never had that one figured out. Will you tell me? I tend to think of it as the currents in the sea of life. The Oracle of the Cosmic Way calls karma fate. Fate happens when we react to what we think that should happen, instead of being in tune with whatever is present. This creates a strangeloop between the subjective and the objective that traps us in a paradigm.

It doesn't feel right to answer this question, but yes - I can. My attention is focused on redirecting energy to my solar plexus. I'm not allowing it to run through the mind. It brings worry and reactivity.

Today was a challenging day at work. It is the first time I'm supposed to program machining of a tool made of aluminum. It's a whole set of cutters that I rarely use and it is different from steel in many ways. That's not the issue. The issue is that these molds are manufactured on very tight deadlines and I prefer to have more space. 10 Techniques Can you keep your soul in its body, hold fast to the one, and so learn to be whole? Can you center your energy, be soft, tender, and so learn to be a baby? Can you keep the deep water still and clear, so it reflects without blurring? Can you love people and run things, and do so by not doing? Opening, closing the Gate of Heaven, can you be like a bird with her nestlings? Piercing bright through the cosmos, can you know by not knowing? To give birth, to nourish, to bear and not to own, to act and not lay claim, to lead and not to rule: this is mysterious power.

@mandyjw It only looks pink because we were sitting right under the spotlight. Ruby pink is nice, but I thought that you had the perfect beads already?

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It certainly felt that way. Not sure if I understood the question though.

I don't think she recognizes it as an important symbol, but we have a nice memory associated with it. On our honeymoon I forced her to wake up at 4 a.m. to go watch the stars. They were beautiful, but the moon was just surreal. In Poland, the shadow splits is roughly vertically, but on Crete it's horizontal. It felt like we were standing sideways on the Earth. It made a big impression on both of us, especially because the moon was just a sliver. We woke up the next day to watch it again, but we just learned that we were lucky the day before. It was the last day we could watch the moon because it now rose after sunrise.

These two look beautiful: They have a very nice contrast, like the spirals I drew. Red and green. One is all wrinkly and the other is smooth. They build tension.

No, don't get me wrong - I was curious how is she gonna wear it, that's all. Whatever you do is fine. I don't want to influence you by having requests like that.

No. I once gave her a three-way connector for Ferrari that we were building a tool for. She wore it as an amulet on a strap lol It was a part for the fuel distribution system. I thought it was a very ethnic thing to do. It was very cute. She said she had an expensive taste haha

My god they are beautiful. Do you want a picture of that ring I was talking about? The silver is blackish and melts with gold. Rough surface that looks like a stone. Are you going to embed it somehow into something?