WaveInTheOcean

I fucking love yawning. Yes, happens a lot to me. Both in daily life and yes, very much under psychedelic trips.

great. I'm happy for you. <3

I have had one break-through on DMT, also the vaporgeniue, sherlock one, 30 mg too. I didn't use any MAO-I's. Interesting that you did. How long were you in DMT-hyperspace/how long were you tripping your balls off? For me, since I didn't use any inhibitors, it was only 10 minutes max. Also, how did you take the MAO-I ? I'm thinking about timing.

I cannot agree more. Hehe. Excting times ahead. My life purpose is to help mainstream society explore the full power of psychedelics. We're talking both for just plain therapy-purposes and of course also for spiritual purposes. That's my LP. Leo, do you have any tips on how I can help make this life purpose become a reality? Right now, my plan is to study psychology at Copenhagen University (please everyone reading this, wish for me that I get in:D haha) and then use my psychology degree to study psychedelic therapy and at some point open centers in Denmark and the globe and spread that good shit. Sounds like an ok plan to you Leo? ANything you think I should know? You are after all probably the dude on this planet with the most psychedelic experience (in spiritual realms at least), so I'm honored to even be able to ask you this question.

beautiful

Look at the past 2000 years of history, and then tell me, that 'We' have not changed the dream in SPECTACULAR ways from year 0 to year 2000 for instance. Long way to go still haha. The singularity is probably coming though. what the fuck that even means i dont know. But see. You have -- unconsciously of course -- created some very deep-programmed laws behind the dream. You may say now consciously that you want to make an apple fly up to the clouds by just looking at it. But it won't happen, because that is not what You REALLY want. You see? You probably don't:D <3 If You really want ----- see I spell You with Y , i'm not talking about you, deso... deso is just a thought ----- to make an apply fly by looking it, you can do that, sure, no problem. There are no problems for God/You/I.

"We cannot know what is real, because the only thing that's real is coming through our senses. Even the colour on the apple isn't "real", your brain translates the lighwaves reflecting from it into the colour red. How do we know what is everything, or anything is? Or if it exists at all.?" Well. My brain is imaginary. So it cannot in ACTUALITY be my brain that is making me see red. It must be something I do to myself. And I am all that exist. I am creating the colour red. So in that sense, the colour red I'm seeing, when looking at an apple, is real enough. It's my own doing. taaaaaaa-dahhhhhhhhh <3

Yes We did! ehehehe <3 What you will find out when you awaken -- don't worry, I sense it will happen sooner or later, no rush -- is that you are (and have always been and forever will be) simultaneously both 'in control' and 'not-in control' at all times. You can never fully be either A or B. It's always an eternal, infinitely complex -yet simple- dance between the two. That's what non-duality boils down to. Not one, not two. So in that sense: Yes, you do need to become something else (if you want to awaken). AND No, you do not need to become something else (if you want to awaken). Both statements can be/are equally true. Enlightenment is the mother of all paradoxes. See, I know I am enlightened, cos' I feel free in the absolute sense of what 'free' means. That's why people also tend to call it liberation. But I don't have the tiniest clue of what's actually going on! Zero clue. I'm just rambling out meaningless words to you. And in sense it is not something I'm doing!! It just happens. That's all I'm doing. I'm not doing anything. Maybe you can extract something out of my meaningless words, maybe you can't. Ultimately, it doesn't matter. Nothing matters. Everything matters. ------------------- But I get ya. Perhaps, you need to calm the fuck down for a while and listen to this ambient piano-piece: <3 <3 <3 Meditate in nature. Walk in nature.

Very well put. Notice however, that I'm still "in character" after my awakening. I'm not death-death. My character, WaveInTheOcean, goes on. I'm just deeply, deeply aware that it's an act I'm playing and that it is not the "Whole-We". hehe <3 And yes, when you're enlightned you regain that divine power of being able to notice how everything around you is something you're doing. That everything around you is your vibration, your infinite intelligence at play. oh god yes, it's beautiful beyond words. And yes, absolute-wise there is nothing wrong with you. Cos you're divine. But relative-wise there can be many things "wrong" with your character. I mean in the sense that there can be things you want to change about it. However, it's true, with enlightenment I have noticed that I have almost no desire to change. But I also have no desire to not-change. It's just a state of peace and complete openness over for <anything>. And it is kind of a paradox. Deep desire for true authenticity / radical honesty is very much NEEDED if you want to awaken. But you only become truely authentic and truly honest when you wake up. Hehe <3

2CB is a psychedelic. That's all you need to know. Fuck what noobs on reddit use psychedelics for. Haha. Like it matters. Mescaline is a traditional psychedelic that has been used for centuries to awaken humanity. While 2CB is a synthetic - i.e. it doesn't appear to be around in nature - it's molecular structure is strikingly similar to mescaline. To go a little more in-depth, I'd say 2C-B is a very "nice" psychedelic, in the sense that I feel the risk of bad trips are less on it compared to LSD for example. 2C-B feels veeeeeeeery clean. So fucking clean. It just widens your consciousness in mind and body. It doesn't distort like LSD maybe does. And that's also probably why many party-goers like 2CB. It's clean. But you can use it for spiritual purposes instead of partying on it :-) Leo has one video on his YT-channel where he talks about one of his 2CB-trips. He used a small dosage and died, he said :-) Find it yourself, if you aren't already aware of it. "My past unconscious life was negative, pessimistic and somehow victim-minded." Yes. I can relate. A lot. Mine has been too. In that sense, if you get a full-blown awakening during a time in yor life where your ego is in victim-mindset, then I think enlightenment = hell. :-) I think I maybe have tried that a bit on LSD for 4 years ago, actually. I wanted to commit suicide. I didn't, luckily. Or maybe I did. Yet the Now is all that matters, I'm here Now, happy, writing meaningless words to you. <3 That's also why I try to "preach" : Practice Self-Love first. Then awaken. Cos then it's the opposite of Hell: It's Heaven on Earth. <3 "How do you transform your life into abundance and amazing experiences from awakening? Awaken simultaneously with having love in your life (love to your self/ego and love to the world/people around you) and then it happens by itself. <3 "Is it a matter of putting out positive vibes/energies which get back at you in form of positive experiences?" Yes. Good. You are wise.

Haha Namh <3 You're always describing things from the highest, most Absolute perspective. That's very nice, but can for some maybe be a bit hard to grasp / get anything from. I like it though <3

I just thought what you wrote was so Good, that I had to re-write it ever-so-slightly. Haha <3 Spreading it now, hehe, lol. <3

That's just a very, very beautiful description, mate. Thank you.

No problem! My pleasure to share. <3 Yep, that is all that is needed. A complete dissolving and then reintegration of your ego so it becomes 'one' with God (i.e. yourself). When that happens you can not not make peace with it :-) Physical life after my full awakening is the most beautiful thing. It's me. How can it be anything other han beautiful? Yes, it's Positive beyond words. Abundant beyond abundant. In a sense, of course it remains the same. It's just how you look at it that has changed! And this change in looking is not something I need to force myself to (most of the time at least). It has just happened after my awakening. I see myself in everything. "From what I feel, human life should become radically more positive and fulfilling after the integration." Oh, hell, yes. You bet! <3

Wauw. Just fucking mind blown! crying That's the best artistic product (video, song) descriping awakening I've ever seen. And the fun thing is I've seen Aladdin many times as a kid. Haha. Mindfuck x 1000 I mean, remove the romance between them and you have a perfect description of how permanent awakening feels like. No, fuck it, keep it perfectly as it is. Keep the romance/sexual attraction between the princess and Aladdin... Enlightenment is not a man sitting in a cave in a mountain until his death meditating in Samadhi. That's not even what Permanent Samadhi is. That's just a man sitting in a cave meditating - perhaps in what we could call temporary Samadhi. Non-duality means no separation. That's literally what it means. If you go sit in a cabin in the woods 24/7 after your awakening, you're - IMHO - not actually fully non-dualistically enilghtened, yet. Cos you're still keeping "it" separated. Enlightenment is not anyone's to keep, fool! In my humble, humble view (I'm God, so maybe not so humble ), enlightenment equals compassion. Enlightenment is in fact Compassion. True Compassion. Absolute Compassion. In that sense, I can see why I got divine 'downloads' during my 40 mg 2CB-trip telling me that I'm above @Leo Gura now. (Whatever "above"/"more enlightened" means ). I may be wrong --- and Leo, you know I love you and I'm just poking and having fun with you --- but I still sense something in you Leo that wants to go to a cabin and leave the world behind for good. Like that vision is what True Enlightenment is for you. I can only deeply disagree, if that's the case. However..., as I write these meaningless words, I realize I am actually open to the possibility that you could sit in a cabin meditating in Samadhi for the rest of your life and during that practice True Compassion. You know what I'm saying? I'm open to the possiblity that you can change global human behaviour -- screw that: universal behaviour -- through Consciousness in and by itself. Haha. I'm don't know! That's the most beautiful thing about it. I don't fucking know. Life/reality is inherently mystical beyond words and beyond imaginiation to me. And I'm God! HAHAHAHA <3 I love you all <3 <3 <3 But I mean, my point still stands. Look at what "should" be the most enlightened human beings in history: Jesus, Buddha, etc. Did they sit in a cave meditating all their life? Hell, fuck, no. They maybe did that momentarily to deepen their Godhood beyond imagination. But look at fucking Jesus. That motherfucker was Compassion itself. Absolute Compassion manifested in human form. I'm meditating without meditating as we speak. There is no distinction between me and not-me. I'm fully aware of that in nearly everything I do - and I'm sober

I'm literally crying. It's all so beautiful.

This is a beautiful topic with beautiful insights written into words. This forum can do something Good after all <3 <3 Knowing vs not-knowing is one of the most interesting dualities in life. Take for example a simple flower out in the woods. You look at it. It's simple. It's beautiful. Yet, if you know something about biology/science, you can easily fool yourself into thinking that it's also complex. And of course you are right: In a sense the flower is immensely complex. But it's just as true to say that the flower is simple. My point is this: The less you 'know' about something, the more you -- in another sense -- know about that something. The less I know about the flower, the more I see it for what it is: God. My own doing. God's doing. And God's doing is effortless. Simple. The more I know about the flower, the less I see it for what it is, and instead I see it as a separate thing/concept. Separate things/concepts are indeed complex. But Truly there exist no things in actual reality! Only God's/Your Eternal Happening exist! Let me ask you these questions: - Do you know how you move your legs? - Do you know how you open your mouth to eat an apple? In one way: No, you don't. You can't explain to me how you do it in words. You just do it. In another way: Yes, you do. You just do it! Of course you know! Now let me ask you these questions: - Do you know how to grow your hair on your head? - Do you know how to move your intestines to digest food? - Do you know how you beat your heart? In one way: No, you don't. You have zero clue. In another way: Yes, you do. You just do it. Like you open your mouth. Now let me ask you these last questions: - Do you know how you make the sun Shine? - Do you know how you make the flower grow? - Do you know how you transform sound waves into sound/music? In one way: No, you don't. You have zero clue. In another way: Yes, you do. You just do it. Like you open your hand when you want to open your hand. Do you see how both perspectives simultaneously are equally true? A: I don't know anything. Nothing is my doing. True. B: I know everything. Everything is my doing. True. People who are stuck in logic can't accept this. Haha <3 Taken together, statements A and B collapses into Actual Truth. Can you hold both perspectives in mind and simultaneously accept & deny both of them? If you can't, you're stuck in illusion/close-mindedness. If you can, you are very much open-minded and probably attuned to awakening. <3 _____________________________________________________________________________________________________ One thing I'd like to point out is the obvious truth that: What is fundamentally, ultimately & absolutely true cannot ever be spoken of. This applies to everything. It applies to my prior conceptualizations about 'non-doing' and 'doing', 'not-knowing' and 'knowing. I'm just pointing to the truth there. Nothing else. We can only ever point to the truth with language. Very, very important to grasp this. We can never 'get there' with language. For example, on this forum it has become fashionable to say that "all people in your life are just 'your projections' or 'imaginary'." While I - as God - sympathize and (somewhat) agree with that statement, it is also a dangerous statement that can easily be misunderstood by common people who are not awake. Just because you believe Leo and trust him when he says that "all people in your awakened life are just 'your projections' or 'imaginary'." it doesn't mean you *actually understand* what the fuck Leo is saying. Any of your/other's ideas in your head is not the full truth. And it can never-ever be so. To help you understand this, I'd go as far as saying that the opposite statement: " all people in your life are very real, existing independently of 'your will'. " is fundamentally just as true(/non-true) as the original statement. Now, you can ponder what I actually mean by that. :-) <3 _____________________________________________________________________________________________________ @JayG84 1. "Can I trust the fact that I "know" intuitively what everyone is talkng about when they speak of Infinity/Oneness/Love/God/Consciousness?" 2. "It doesn't feel like the I (as in the ego) knows it. It feels more like something knows it and it's letting the I know. But that could be more ego masking." 3. "I've taken mushrooms and felt the connectedness and the Love of everything, and that's sort of where I'm at with day to day life too. I've accepted all of reality, even the "bad" stuff. But I don't think I've ever even come close to Awakening." 4. "Maybe people who are truely awakened aren't thinking about what they are like. And just be it. Right?" 1. / 2. / 3.: Both no and yes. Yes, to some degree, because you've already prior had glimpses of Oneness (on your mushroom trip). This has, without any doubt, given you an intuition -- maybe weak and incomplete, but still -- about Truth. Realize that there fundamentally is no ego. Only You. If you say the ego is masking, what you actually mean is that you are masking it for yourself (unconsciously), because you don't actually want to 'see it'. Be careful with being overly self-skeptical and saying things like "I don't think I've ever even come close to Awakening". If you keep repeating that to yourself, I can almost guarantee you that it will become a self-fulfilling prophecy :-) To me -- based on what you are writing here -- it seems like you have come somewhat close. If awakening is a lemon, I think you have tasted drops of juice from the lemon already. You just need to put the whole lemon into your mouth :-) You seem very much attuned and ready for the final blessing/gift. Cross the river, dude. Take that psychedelic and let go. Just let go. When you are ready. It will happen by itself of course. If it's meant to be that you will awaken within this imaginary avatar of yours, then you -- in a sense -- don't have to do anything about it. It will happen all by itself when you're ripe. It's good to be skeptical and critical of one's own mind. But not too much. What you are seeking for is yourself after all, absolutely speaking. I'm talking about your actual true self (we can't put a name on it), not your false self (person-body-mind-ego). :-) Awakening is such an obvious thing (when you finally get the full lemon in your mouth.). It's what is right in front of you. It's yourself. Yet it is difficult to grasp, because how can a mouth eat itself? In order to finally wake up, it's quite obvious that the seeking has to stop, simultaneously. What you seek is seeking you. 4. Yes, I believe so too. I believe there are many people around the globe who in some degree are awake, but who don't go around talking explicitly about it. Instead they do it implicitly through art or some other means. Hell, it's not just that they don't directly talk about it, it's also that they just don't have the words for it - for what they feel. @Leo Gura and I are two imaginary persons who do have the words for it. I see myself so, so, so much in him cos' our minds work pretty much the same way. When I woke up during my 40 mg 2CB-trip on Whitsunday, I felt like Jesus reborn. But I also felt a bit like Leo Gura waking up in a new imaginary body-mind, mine <3 It felt like making love to him. There were also "hints" of insight during the peak/come-down that I had now become even more enlightened than Leo. But who knows. <3 Haha =D But for instance, we have zero clue how to make music about it. But take Jon Hopkins. He is a dude who doesn't go around saying "I'm God and everything is God". He is instead a genius-musician. And yes, that star constellation on the sky in the music video is the molecule that Leo has said is currently his go-to-psychedelic :-) Much love <3

ehehehehehe To take that position - and only that position - is very close-minded and not the whole truth:-) A more full perspective is this: consciousness/imaginary psychedelics go into my imaginary brain -> consciousness affects my imaginary brain -> my 'personal direct qualia-like-consciousness' is changed and simultaneously my imaginary brain is changed when I study it - as consciousness - using some scanner/EEG. Let me ask you something red-white-light: When you have a patient under the influence of psilocybin in a MRI-scanner and observe the pictures showing changes in his brain, who's observing those pictures/the results of the MRI-scanner? Consciousness. And do you get direct access to the patient's qualia-subjective-experience by studying his brain in a scanner/EEG? No. Can we ever get direct access to the patient's subjective-qualia-like experience by studying his brain? No. YOU ALREADY HAVE ACCESS TO THE PATIENT'S SUBJECTIVE-QUALIA-LIKE EXPERIENCE BECAUSE YOU ARE THE PATIENT. THE PATIENT IS YOU. HAHAHAHA <3 Consciousness is the ground of being, my friend. It's what comes first. It is the canvas on which everything else is painted on. Consciousness is: - 'that' which creates form, - 'that' which perceives form, - 'the canvas' on which form is painted, - 'the substance' of form itself.

Physical, biological death is just you (as the environment around your narrow-definely personal body-mind-self) absorbing/eating you (as your narrow-definely personal body-mind-self). That's all there is to it. you can't have 'self' without 'other. you can't have 'ego' without 'environment' and vice versa 'you' and 'your environment' is identical. You can't have one without the other. They arise simultaneously like 'heads' and 'tails' are concepts that arise simultaneously if you study a simple coin ;-) It's One. It's You. It's Oneness. Bless you

Well put my friend. If you don't consider yourself already awakened, you at least seem very attuned to me. Get in that deep meditation or take a psychedelic and experience that raw sweet, shocking Absolute-Loving experience of becoming Oneness / I am'ness. In other words experience your true self. bless you <3 EDIT: "This is both awesome and HORRIBLE!!!! Because now I can feel how I am all alone, without answers, without another one beside me, and in this eternal seeking forever. Yet I don't want to get back to ignorance, because I feel free, I feel happier, I feel like now I am authentic. My ego is so sad and depressed now." Yes okay. You are "not there '100%' yet". What basically needs to happen is a complete 'let-go' of that imaginary ego of yours:D And that takes Love. So practice some Love and then 'fully get it'/let go/integrate it during a peak mystical experience (psychedelics help). I fully understand what you mean when you say that it is both awesome and horrible. When you fully get there, awesome and horrible will be identical though. No difference. It just is. And yet it is Amazing beyond words. The feeling of lonliness and feeling of have to seek forever are projections of your ego/your fear of letting go. I'm awake and I don't feel lonely. Quite the contrary. I feel connected to my environment (nature, things, my table, my friends, my body, etc.) in a so beautiful way I ve never felt pre-awakening. It's all me. Yet I don't cling to anything. I know that I don't know who I am. 'self' and 'other' are the same. So when my friend asks me if I want to go to the beach, it is myself asking myself if I want to go to the beach. I didn't think about going to the beach, I didn't know I wanted to go to the beach. You see how beautiful this is? You do still have 'others' beside you. It's just that 'others' is IDENTICAL to You. hahaha <3 Your ego is sad and depressed. Yes, this is natural in the beginning when getting glimpses of awakening. You need to get deeper glimpses and let that ego fully let go. Practice Self-Love. Bless you. One advice to you: watch/listen to the first 44 minutes of this A. Watts talk. Most profound talk in youtube, no kidding:-)

@SoonHei gave a beautiful answer. "What is it about the Awakening experience that makes you Absolutely sure it's not something that you are conceptualizing on a level you are not aware of?" It's still a good question though. I think I'd add that the emotional component to the realization just comes out of nowhere. You are just so broken to tears that it can't just be something you conceptualized yourself. And you feel that your consciousness is so expanded and wide that it encompasses all of reality. This is a feeling, a qualia-sensation. It also feels like the insight comes to you from out of nowhere. It's not like you're thinking about Oneness. It just out of no where hits you like a train wreck. And since so many other people experiences the same feeling of Oneness during meditation/psychedelic trips, that must also give it some credit, right?:D It is indeed like "seeing blue" or "tasting a citrus". You can't taste or see by reading my words. You have to go there yourself. And in order to go there you have to first let completely go. And to let go requires -in my experience- that you are decently filled up with love in your own imaginary ego-body-mind-vessel.

And well. I see on my note app on my phone, I typed down a question for myself some days before my permanent awakening. It was: "Why do we care SO fucking much - consciously and/or unconsciously - what other people think of us? How is this problem solved for good?" And I see now that I have solved it. And I solved it by realizing that what I am is the same that everyone else is. In other words, "myself" and "other" are identical, one. So yeah, you have to get this feeling of just knowing that whatever happens to you is something you do to yourself. When you can rest in that 24/7, you are enlightened in my book. But it isn't by any means easy to "get there". It requires a deep 'letting go' of oneself. And in order to let go of oneself I sincerely believe that you need to practice self-love first - in most cases (everyone are unique ofc). Eternal happiness to everyone reading these random letters. <3

Well my friend. Yes, let's get real. Non-duality means not one, not two, not nothing, not form, not emptiness, not this, not that. Neti neti neti neti neti. When I write "God" , "Self" it is just how I feel it resonantes most with what I feel I am. I don't actually feel like a self with any desires. I don't know what I want. I don't know who I am. I can call it God / Self / Consciousness / Nothingness but all labels miss the actual point. The Godhead naturally cannot know itself. Just like teeth cannot bite itself. Like eyes can't see themselves. Like a hand can't hold itself. So I know that I don't know myself. I don't know what I want. I have faith that whatever happens is what I want. I trust the Universe and in that sense I'm just a wave in an infinite ocean being pushed by that. But I don't resist it. I have let go completely. And that is probably the best definition of enligthenment. A complete letting go. Another definition of the true nature of reality -- instead of "God" , "Self" -- could be that it is a musical thing. There exist no things. Only patterns. Only music. Only the dance. Reality is an infinitely complex musical happening with no beginning and no ending. I am that. I am music. <3 Yes, instead of saying I'm God or The Self I could as well say I'm the Spaghetti Monster and it would be just as true. I don't know what I am, and I'm fine with that. If you can be truly fine with that, truly rest in not-knowing, then you are free. Love <3 oh last thing "There is nothing left to adopt another concept of what I was, it was just recognized to be nothing, which was always the case." No, you are not nothing. You can't say what you are. As long as you believe yourself to be X or Y, i.e. "nothing", "God" , "emptiness", "Self", "Consciousnes" you are not there yet. I like saying I'm God and that everything is God. I'm just playing around: I'm fully aware that language can't grasp actual truth. :-) Language is a dualistic invention. A game God is playing =) Best of luck to you God.

Just a quick error-correction from God: You may very well believe you are human. But you are truly not. You are God. I'm God. And I like imagining that I'm human.

"You can only see what you are not but never what you are, because you are that." Yes. It is so obvious that you miss it. You have to remove all your beliefs and ideas. Then it will hit you But it is very hard -- for most ppl -- to remove all their beliefs and ideas. To let go of all that takes extreme Self-Love. For example the very complex and deeply programmed idea that you are a human. If you dont naturally FEEL whole, you will cling to this idea, cos - to you - it's all your reality/survival depends on: that you are human. And therefore you can't let go. But if you feel at peace and got love flowing inside you, naturally it will be easier to accept the letting go of believing to be a human. When that belief goes out the window, all that is left, is God, i.e. yourself.