WaveInTheOcean

So it is to protect 'the known, the old' ... in fear of ... 'the unknown, the new' ... In short: fear of death -- fear of (missing out of) Love. --- Someone here: I'd say the most delusional are those who say they aren't delusional. I'm delusional. I'm a human being, lol!

Why do you want to know -- give it a go. or If you really want to know why -- give it a go. <3 <3 <3

too much ayahuasca, too much changa, too much 2c-b, too much summer, too much love, too much of the world's best psychotherapist (for me), too many amazing friends/familiy, too much health, too much 'luck', too much to be grateful for.... too much silence everything is seen as frequency the universe becomes a symphony too much music I'm exploding outwardly like a 'hectic marketplace', yet I'm still inwardly like the "Himalayas" ....

Why are you talking to yourself? Perhaps you are the most delusional <3 (im just teasing you, you know i love you).

yes, yes, but: full of truth as well depends on interpretation, you know. There is truth (:>GOD:>) hidden in every religion, every song, every piece of art, every part of nature, every critter, every river, every blow of wind, every tree, every ray of sunshine, every grain of sand, every colorful flower, every drop of rain, every wave in the oceans, every disaster, every blessing, every curse, every gift, every human stranger you meet. just look, listen. like really.

You go talk to a good psychotherapist or do some kind of holistic healing therapy that involves the body and heart just as much as the mind. (ayahuasca works if you can find a good shaman). healing = becoming whole (again) trauma = being disconnected from oneself, fragmented, separated, not-whole meditation = a form of healing (( From Latin meditatus, past participle of meditari (“to think or reflect upon, consider, design, purpose, intend”), in form as if frequentative of mederi (“to heal, to cure, to remedy”); in sense and in form near to Greek μελετῶ (meletô, “to care for, attend to, study, practise, etc.”) )) yoga = to unify contemplation = a form of meditation

Look dude. Look. Inward. Actually start contemplating without the need to get an answer. The questioning ITSELF *is* "the answer" you are truly looking for. A concrete answer to a question is ALWAYS *limited*. You see? It's the question that's the higher view, the answer that's the lower view -- otherwise you couldn't differentiate between the two, huh? ?????️?☯️?♾️? Instead of asking questions to others, perhaps start asking questions to yourself, such as why you are so addicted to the need to ground 'reality' (everything) in 'a brain' ?? Social conditioning. Programming. Matrix. Perhaps. Perhaps not. Look. I can't help you. Help yourself. 'Simple fact' - oh, be careful about 'simple facts' ! ??

?????? Nice one bro. Will use these analogies in the bar and the library ;))??️?

By letting go of the need to verify everything. But you can't let go of it. You can't do anything. To realize you can't do anything and that everything 'you do' is beyond your control, but orchestrated by Infinity/The Universe at large (just like a wave in the ocean can't do anything but is totally orchestrated by the ocean & wind ?️ ? ?), that is called 'surrender' and/or 'faith.' Let go.

?????? Being asleep is fun but is suffering. Being awake is boring but is bliss. Pick your poison! Maybe you haven't suffered enough;) Maybe the devil wants a last dance with you. What do YOU want?

"If I drop all desire, then how will I find a girlfriend that suits my personality? Don't we have to date many girls to find a matching girl? How will I get dates without putting effort into it?" Drop all desire, and your current egoic personality will be replaced by your soul's personality. When you are least looking for a girlfriend, then is when she shall come, out of nowhere. Existence is inherently magical. Wake up. Let go. Say yes to your soul, no to ego. Remember to breathe through the pain. Real letting go hurts. A lot. But it is the right thing to do, if you want to awaken. The question is if you really want to or would rather stay asleep a little longer? There is no rush my friend; The Universe/God has Infinite Patience ??????????????

Thank you for your response. I let go as much as I could, but I love life, have big plans, so I wouldn't let go of breathing, yet. I gotta say that I have had less profound trips before where I simply forgot breathing, forgot being human, like totally lost all sense of being human. During those trips I still breathed of course. I just wasn't conscious of it. My DMT trips as of late are way more holistic than the way the 'normal DMT breakthrough trip' is described on Reddit. I don't lose consciousness of my body or my breathing anymore. Not because I can't let go, but more so - I believe - because I'm starting to integrate the spiritual and earthly into One. During this DMT trip it felt like I let go of absolutely everything, except the last part of my ego that kept me breathing. If I let go of that I would physically die, not conceptual imaginary ego death, but real physical death (yet also imaginary, just a different level of imagination, 'lower level', *source code") . I know I will die anyway, so what's the rush ... -- as long as I find eternal meaning and joy and peace in this life of suffering (globally speaking). This DMT trip was scary in the sense that it really, really felt like 'the end of the road of letting go' .... It was like I was having a conversation with Myself (projected as my soul speaking to The Universe/Infinity): Universe/Infinity: "Wauw, dude, you think you are really good at letting go huh? You are pretty good obviously, but good enough to also let go of life, as in totally, totally letting completely go? Hah, let Us show you what's in store!" Me: "Oh shit, no no, chillax, I'm not gonna physically die yet bro, let me breathe through all of this (life, suffering)." Breathe, breathe, breathe. Remember to breathe ???????

The body 'is in' Consciousness / Soul.

Yup, as the mystics before me pointed out: "Death is 'a stripping away' of 'all' that is 'not-you'. The secret of life is 'to die before you die' and realize there is no death". I already knew that before my last DMT trip -- and not 'knew' as 'in belief', but as in: I have directly died many times already, i.e. transitioned from 'selfish states of consciousness' to states of 'Eternal Love, Empty Consciousness, God, Infinite Imagination, Absolute Goodness, Pure Being.' There is no death for 'that which you truly are' (God, Consciousness, Love, The Now, Soul, Infinity, Eternity, w/e you wanna call The Self-Less Self), since it is already simultaneously both dead and alive; or even more accurate: it is neither of them, it simple is what is: THIS: *plays a note on the piano*, and we won't give it a name. The thing is, nothing we can say with words about 'Absolute Truth' ... 'is it.' Everytime we say a sentence, we are limiting Infinity to something finite our ego can grasp onto. So even saying 'death is imaginary, you are eternal' is a limitation. Everything is. Yet everything is also IT. 'Death is imaginary' is a fantastic pointer to towards Truth, though. Life is also imaginary. My life as Thomas, your life as Leo, is also imaginary. The essence of 'every experience' is that it is part of the Infinity of Imagination. Absolutely EVERYTHING is imaginary, which means that EVERYTHING is also real. The only 'thing' -- we could say -- that is 'not imaginary' is Infinity (God, Consciousness, Love), but again: all language is limiting. What I'm saying hardly makes any sense to those who have close to no experience with ego-death. To be able to communicate pointers of truth clearly and accurately even to those who are deeply asleep is an art form: a task of immense complexity. The Essence of Reality (Infinity) is so infinitely meaningless, that whatever is then 'imagined' must - per definition - be infinitely meaningful. From the perspective of me as a human being who "needs to": breathe, eat, love, have sex, sleep, pee, shit, drink water, feel that life is meaningful... - death is *not* imaginary. (Absolutely speaking it is, but follow me here, please). I can die any time. I could have stopped breathing during my DMT trip. I can get killed by a car on the road in 30 minutes. I will die. Waveintheocean/Thomas will die eventually. That is as true as Truth can get with words. Leo will die. Not ego-death -- not some kind of 'imaginary' 5-MeO-DMT-trip-ego-death -- but as in real physical death. Yet, what I *really am* can of course not die, cos it wasn't even born to begin with, I am Infinite & Eternal, as you say, sure, I know that, that's not at all what I'm talking about here. I'm talking about real physical death. Just forget all the fancy spiritual talk, I'm talking totally down to earth: I will die. That's as certain as the Sun will rise tomorrow. I will die. You will die. This is simply a fact we can ALL agree on. You can run away from 'yourself/truth/death' all life, but you will still die. Now, what is physical death, then? It's imaginary of course. But my whole life, your whole life, *IS* already *imaginary*... Death isn't different in that way. It's Infinite Imagination. And there is infinite meaning behind your life and behind your eventual physical death. What I got a taste of during my DMT-trip was just what awaited me after my imaginary physical death. It was bliss beyond all human imaginations of what bliss is. I can try to describe it, but words fail. ... Life, as in down to earth life here on Earth, is mystical, enigmatic and ineffable...just like death. But it's also rather obvious that it is filled with so so so much suffering. One thing is the suffering in my own 'egoic limited selfish life' 'as Thomas'... - Hah, that's only one drop in the ocean of the bottomless suffering human beings 'have and are and will' endur-ed/-ing/-e....... Life is painful as fuck. We can transcend our own suffering, and thus help others transcend theirs, yet it's still filled with suffering. You and I, Leo, are lucky, lucky souls who can smoke DMT in their apartment in a relatively safe country like USA/Denmark. But let's look around on the globe shall we: it's beyond belief, it's too much, it's literally painful and mesmerizing simultaneously to see how much suffering the average man & woman endures in their lives on Earth. I went through what felt like every single possible human emotion ever felt on Earth during my DMT-trip, from heavenly highs to contentment to the most terrifying painful lows down in the deepest parts of hell. It was clear to me, that relatively speaking, the sum of all these 'emotions' was (still): pain, suffering. That's just the nature of the human ego/condition: to be in pain, to suffer. And it was just lucidly clear to me that there was a deep, deep meaning & purpose behind all of it. And while you always have an invitation (here on Earth) to wake the fuck up and actually transcend all your own suffering (transcend ego), globally speaking it's just a tiny tiny drop of suffering that's being transcended in a vast ocean of suffering. Life IS suffering. Death IS bliss. Yet I'm not saying you should strive to die, i.e. begin getting suicidal ideations. Suicide is an imaginary external solution to an imaginary inner problem. Suicide literally will just make your soul reincarnate instantly back into Earth one way or the other (it's infinite, remember), because you haven't finished the lesson yet. What is life? It's a long, long, long, thorough lesson in accepting pain, transcending suffering, saying no to ego, saying no to devilry, no to cravings, no to being asleep, and instead: yes to liberation, yes to being awake, yes to selflessness, yes to Love. That's what it is. It's basically about becoming a professional at 'breathing through all the pain of life'. When you have become pro enough, you can consciously die - Mahasamadhi - and join the rest of the pro-breathers in the afterlife. Consciously dying = Afterlife = Bliss Unconsciously dying = reincarnation = still some suffering left to transcend:-).

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I so wanted to join 'soul-land' (death, die), but I so much also wanted to keep living here on Earth even though the suffering - in life - is eternal (globally speaking). You should let go of everything, but better keep breathing brethren. Until your soul is ready to die. I was teased by the universe, but on the inside my soul is not ready to die yet. I imagine I will eventually, in my 60ies, 70ies or 80ies, consciously die by simply stopping breathing, either during meditation or during a dmt trip. Maybe before, maybe later, i got no clue what life got in store for me, and I love that. The unknown. It's exciting. All I know is that there is eternal meaning behind everything. Just look. Psychedelic therapy, let's go. <3

Oneness is only a paradox to the Mind (ruled by ego). To the Heart it is obvious and lucid as daylight that Oneness is what is. The Heart just doesn't *think*: it's about feeling & intuition. Listen and follow your (divine) intution, nothing else.

Listen/read to some Rumi, Matt Kahn, Alan Watts or Osho if you want to listen to people who are/were actually very awake in heart ?❤️? and body ???

Effortlessly? He's saying a lot of useless masturbating show-off total theoretical meaningless nonsense that only traps his followers (like you) in believing you yourself can think yourself to greater understanding through language. That's the trap with psychedelics that Alan Watts warned about. You start taking psychedelics, suddenly realize you're God, and then in sneaky sneaky subtle ways forget the obvious fact, that YOU HAVE ALWAYS been fucking God, nothing changed. The one who starts clinging to 'the God-realization' is the ego. Leo is mostly just shooting these "theoretical ultra meta/metaphysical/advanced self-masturbating conceptual fancy spiritual language-videos" for selfish reasons, his own ego's reasons. It's because Leo deep down is afraid of 'being stupid' (that's also what his fatigue syndrome-(hypochondria) is a somatic symptom of and also why he dislikes weed).... - So he has to constantly 'show' himself (his ego) - and others - as a smart charismatic witty intelligent man that is very good with words, deduction...in short: THINk1ng . You see? Think is KING for Leo's ego. He can't let go of his extreme addiction to think 24/7. Think think think. But look, Leo is brilliant at thinking. One of the brightest thinkers in the world, so naturally I'm glad he is still addicted to it, cos it means more videos for us, haha, although the price is his own suffering and maintained slumber instead of a "true holistic, whole, full-blown rainbow-body-heart-awakening" that isn't addicted to ANYTHING anymore (except breathing & water, and perhaps sunlight/food, a few minutes of sleep/meditation). Be careful with your projections. As said, Leo is far from enlightened. He's still deeply addicted to many things, including the aforementioned (addicted to thoughts, he has even admitted this several times here) & feeling superior to others. He is addicted to maintaining this self-image of 'being one of the smartest thinkers in the world.' It's rather obvious.

okay, exactly my point, i only read this now, haha, my bad replying too early. Yes indeed, good one.

Thanks for the analogy. Nifty.

Haha , touche. Mic drop. ???

To help me see that everything was and forever will always be perfect. The one who needs to meditate and take psychedelics IS 'the ego' ... i.e. a theater play/character/dream/game/mask ?????? ???☯️

The one who 'wants to control' is ego. Let go of that, will you?