WaveInTheOcean

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You should be good to others, because these "others" are just as much you as the "me inside this body" you believe you are. Of course it takes a lot of consciousness work to realize Oneness, i.e. that there is only one Self, which is what you are, and which is what everything and everyone else is too. This 'Self' is equal to Nothingness, Consciousness, God, Love, etc :> The 'I' you think you are, i.e. a separate self stuck in a body, experiencing an outside material world: that is illusion. You aren't stuck in a body. You are absolutely nothing, thus everything, imagining everything from nothing, including "yourself" and "others".

It's not that I disagree. Of course, you can always become more conscious. Of course, there are infinite nuances and levels of consciousness. But isn't 'consciousness' and 'the present moment' synonymous for the same 'no-thing' ? I'd say that 'being deeply conscious of reality' and 'having surrendered to the present moment' are two ways of saying the same. To be deeply conscious of reality is to have surrendered to the present moment, and vice versa. What is reality? What is the present moment? Well, this takes consciousness -- or surrendering/transcendence of ego -- to grasp. It can't be communicated with words; only pointed to by them. As a matter of fact, the mere phrasing 'surrendering to the present moment'; it only really makes sense to those who have done it. To a guy who lives in and by ego, totally, the notion is fantasy. "What is there to surrender?" he will ask. Consciousness = Surrender = Liberation = Freedom from suffering = Transcended ego You are contradicting yourself here, Leo, because I know for a fact that you have a dream of being in a "state of God-consciousness" (5-MeO/DMT-like) 24/7. So in that sense you are searching for a specific permanent condition, although you may 'externally' have given up on it as of late. Of course, the search itself is probably the reason it ain't already the case; God's favorite game in town: hide'n'seek. Bullshit Of course, it makes a difference to your ego how long it lasts (the longer the better), and you like expanding your consciousness because it makes you feel powerful. In the end, the only difference between a stage orange guy desiring power and money, and a stage turquiouse guy desiring consciousness, is that the latter is a higher level game. But both are games, both please the ego. It's just a matter of how transcended the ego is, how surrendered it is, how conscious it is. The more conscious a ego becomes, the more it values consciousness in itself. Ego is always the case, cos God = Ego. You can't eradicate ego, because eradicating it would mean eradicating God. Like if you tried to eradicate all evil in the world, what would happen? More evil would come! Does a blind-born-man know what darkness is? No, cos he has never has experienced not-darkness, so naturally he has no clue what darkness is. In the same way, if you *could* eradicate ego, it would mean eradicating God, which of course isn't possible. It's just a matter of how sophiscated a game you are playing. The most sophisticated game is the meta-game of not-playing the game Yes, I can be more conscious than I currently am. But what do we mean when we say 'I' - who or what is actually becoming more conscious? God of course. Or even if we accept 'the separate self' , the 'I', as a real thing, then it's not its doing. Either you are already completely free and and in-control, consciousness itself, OR, you are a puppet being moved around by consciousness. Consciousness = God

"But it's true that in some bodies the Self is more awake than others." That's not true. I'm not saying it's incorrect either Im just saying this is word games The Self is naturally awake at all times. If it's from some pov asleep, i.e. you view yourself or Trump or whoever to be asleep, then that's just your point of view. Ultimately speaking everything and everyone are Perfectness, The Self unfolding its infinite imagination to itself to infinity in infinite ways.

mahasamadhi is an imaginary concept just like person

Understanding is always limited and relative. I'm not saying that understanding can't be improved or that understanding isn't good. Understanding is fucking amazing. But you cannot eat the menu.

Well, everyone are already in the present moment. The present moment, the now, is all there is. Being in it -- we all are. I'm talking about surrendering to it. But sure, in order to surrender to it, you have to become loving/conscious enough of yourself -- your ego -- so you can transcend all your selfish survival-ideas and merge with your true self, God. The paradox of this 'complete surrendering' is that -- in the end -- this includes transcending the idea that 'one could ever become more or less conscious'. This idea of 'degrees of consciousness' is a useful tool pre-awakening. But in the end, even that idea has to be transcended. It is relatively true that person X is more conscious then person Y, but absolutely speakning, nothing we can write or think with words is true. As long as you believe that you yourself or anyone could ever be more or less conscious, you will keep chasing yourself, never being Being itself and resting in Being. What I'm saying is that enlightenment to me is a complete freedom (cos one has given up his/her freedom), complete free expression (no resistance to anything), complete control (cos one has given up control), complete knowledge of Oneness (sees that everything is The Self or 'I'). A basic state of unity, seeing yourself in everything, seeing all events, all things as one Infinite Eternal Happening that is manifested by one's own Divine Will as that Infinite Happening itself. I may not know how to shine The Sun or how to beat the heart, but that doesn't mean it's not something I do. I do it unconsciously of course - just as I some times (quite often) breathe unconsciously. To be infinitely conscious is to be infinitely unconscious, don't you see? It's concept, man, just as everything I write is. It's just pointers. If you believe you can become more conscious, of course you can. Spiral Dynamics, Levels of Consciousness, etc. ... But it's a game. A game of duality. Might be useful though, sure. Just as Einstein's General Relativey is useful. But what is useful and not-useful is an opinion of ego. I'm not incarnated as a living being/human person. I'm imagining that I'm living as a living being/human person. It's a game of mine as God. I dig it quite a lot. The sour with the sweet, the sweet with the sour. How could I know what's sweet, if I don't know what's sour? How could I know what infinity is, if I don't know what finity is? To believe (blindly) in states is to be asleep. Believing in states as a relative idea, as a concept-game, can have its uses within the dreamscape, sure, but it's just that: belief. Believing in it dogmatically/unconsciously will make your "subjective" stream-of-experience be (feel like) an apparent experience of separateness and division; as opposed to an experience of wholeness, interconnectedness, unity, love and infinite mystery. I don't exist in any body. I can think and speak from the-perspective-of-a-body, and I get so-called sensory inputs through one, but I don't exist inside any body. I exist nowhere, thus everywhere. I am nowhere. You believing ' I am here ' is exactly that: belief. In actuality You/I are nowhere; We aren't any thing and we have no location. Again, awake vs. asleep ('degrees of consciousness'): It is - perhaps - the final duality you have to transcend if you want to awake Oh, the paradox of all paradoxes, the strange loop of all strange loops ... hehe love you! <3

it is already gone, that's the point

There are no persons. Or ofc "there is" if you are imagining persons to exist, but still, try to ask yourself this: What is a person? Like really, what is it?

To differentiate between 'The Godhead itself' / 'formless infinite consciousness' on the one hand, and then "something else" on the other, e.g. 'yourself running around in your house eating blueberry smoothie', is precisely dualism. You running around in your house eating blue berry smoothie is formless infinite consciousness. This is a fine pointer, but still concept (like everything we can think/say with words). We can't eat the menu. Enneagram type 5's primary ego-temptation: replacing direct experience with concepts. There are no rocks, no ants, no children, no adults. God-consciousness is what is. Every state is natural; every state is a state of God. There are no other states than the state of God. Nahm hit the nail on the head here: --- To insist on this slicing up of Reality/Oneness into parts keeps you stuck in duality. I understand; your job is basically to make fine distinctions when you present new material in your brilliant youtube videos. But every so-called 'person' is absolutely nothing other than yourself: nothingness, God, infinite formless consciousness. And what is there to be conscious of? God, Oneness, Nothingness. Infinite Love/Consciousness/Imagination you say, but how do you know that *ANY* so-called 'person' isn't COMPLETELY conscious of 'It' already but just plays on? Pretends? Like a great actor really immersed in his or her role? Consciousness goes deep cos it's infinite. But enlightenment isn't an accumulation or collection of far out (to humans) crazy trips into consciousness/mystical states/psychedelic trances. Enlightenment is 'merely' a complete surrender (complete let-go), beyond mind, beyond ego, beyond thinking, beyond judgements, to Reality as it is without concepts on top of it - without ideas or thoughts thoughts about it, Now. Of course there can still be lots of thinking, there can still be lots story-making (such as the idea of 'degrees of wokeness'), but if you don't see that any thought, any idea, any concept, any story is just that: concept, fun play, story-making (absolutely speaking: nothing!), well, then you are still stuck in duality. Enlightenment is looking at everything -- including all your so-called 'own' thoughts/ideas, as well as 'other's' thoughts/ideas -- and smiling on the inside, knowing (*feeling*) deeply that it is all absolutely Divine Perfection unfolding, no matter "what it is". A simultaneous complete immersion into & complete detachment from experience. If you go around still making judgements about reality that you deeply believe to be true, such as "I am not enlightened", "I am enlightened", "I am x or y" , "I am not x or y" , "x or y is not enlightened", "I still need x or y", etc., it is because you are caught in the hamsterwheel of duality; or should I say, you are caught because you are making those judgements. How to get out of this strange loop? Trying to stop making judgements is in itself a judgement of oneself: "I am making judgements, gosh I have to stop!" Don't try. Take yourself 50% less serious, smile, love, let go, let be.

Ayahuasca more gentle, much time to let it sink in and do its healing DMT instant blast off into God consciousness. Very short. Hard to integrate anything if you're not already spiritually mature - so to speak

The OA , show on netflix , pure spiritual beautiful filmmaking

Human people are his imagination. God doesn't love. God IS love. Rape is bad. Very bad. Utterly evil act, ... yet if anyone does it, it is of course still God's imagination, and it is happening cos of Love, or cos of God. And if anyone who does it, we will lovingly hunt them down and put them into prison with all our love.

just putting this one here: Terence was rambling about a lot of things and of course isn't right in all he says/predict, but his general idea of "time speeding up", complexity going amok, interconnectivity increasing etc. are on point

Of course - in a sense - God has a plan for everyone (everyone is Him/Her), cos God is all-knowing, omnipotent. But the metaplan is just God/Nothingness/Love itself. So void of ground, it is infinite. The ground of being is groundlessness.

Well, what would the objective be? You as God decide what objective you want to imagine there to be I could say that the objective might be love, a test for how loving God can be. Or how creative. Infinite imagination. I could --along the same lines-- say that the objective is for God to wake up to Itself, after God had (on purpose) forgot that He/She was God. The suffering only makes the waking up feel more profound. The only one who suffers is God. There is no other than God. You are God.

The ego ('me' / 'I' / the feeling of being a separate self) is literally The Devil in this 'human game by God'. But of course, the ego is completely deliberately imagined to exist by God, because God is inherently playful, and nothing is more thrilling than imagining that the diametrical opposite of Oneself is real. This game - dream, life - is a constant dynamic back-and-forth between God and ego, between love and hate, light and shadow, consciousness and ignorance, play and seriousness, expression and depression, acceptance and denying, accepting and judging, letting go and resisting, gratitude and self-pity, destiny and chance, expanding and contracting, grace and cruelty, selfishness and selflessness, attached and detached, trust and fear, responsibility and blaming, etc. It's most interesting when it almost seems like the darkness will win; when you are on the brink of suicide of depression and then bam: the Truth of Light hits you like a wrecking ball, and you cry and laugh uncontrollably over your own deliberate ignorance ❤️

The ego has yet to surrender to Love and its own unreality. Takes time, takes more consciousness work. It's a sneaky trick of the ego. It senses its obliberation, and pulls up a last resort trick: "perhaps everything is false/nothing/unreal: but <I> must be true, I exist, me me me! And see what you have done to me by engaging in psychedelics and spirituality and seeing everything is unreal (except me ofc!): I've become depressed by it, stop, stop!" You were just as much God during the peak of 5-MeO as you are now. You're never not God. Only God is! 5-meo "merely" expanded your consciousness as God. "Its what I experienced. only was the nothingness, and me. I'm the only being that exist, alone, in the nothingness" What do you mean when you say "I experienced" : can you show me this "I" ? You say you were the only being existing, alone, but where is this 'being' you speak of? What is it made of? You cannot have 'up' without 'down' -- can you have "me" or "I" or "self" without "other" ? Contemplate.

You create fear because it is necessary for the survival of gswva. Now, why did you imagine gswva (and all the fear accompanied with forgetting that one is Oneness itself, and instead believing to exist as a separate self) into existence in the first place? Well, that's for you to find out, but the answer is probably that you did it out of love/a desire for infinite imagination. You are Love itself. You can't help but Love yourself. That's the absolute truth. In more relative terms, no, you will not be loved by anyone, cos there is only you - as God. And it is up to you, if you want to live a life where you are loved (where you love yourself, that is) or if you wanna give in to fear, self-hate, etc. This is self-hate, negative self-thoughts. Not necessary! <3 The 'me' and 'I' you are talking about doesn't really exist anyway. This is the illusion of the separate self. I mean, hehe, what do you even mean when you say 'me' or 'I' ?? Where is this separate self/<insert your name> that you are talking about? I guess you have a sense-of-self -- we all do -- but what is the sense-of-self actually? To quote veganawake:

Your distinction between 'being in a state nothingness' and 'being in a state of dreaming' is that: an imaginary distinction, your ego is making; trying to grasp something that it cannot grasp. Nothingness and life/dream/Maya IS completely identical. No difference at all. What you are experiencing right now is nothingness. It's absolutely nothing other than your own imagination as God. Sure, we can talk about states of being stuck in dreamland, and states of being aware 'of what's going on' , but even the state of being 'aware of what's going on' (nothing, imagination, God, Love) is actually just a state of complete and utter amazement, cos it cannot be understood within any thoughts what-so-ever. We can only talk ABOUT the truth with words. We can never GET to the truth with words/thoughts. The truth IS ALWAYS THE CASE. It is not a state. It is what is. What stories you then create inside this 'is-ness' (your mind as God) is exactly that: stories, perspectives, narratives. This is the job of the separate self: to understand its own place in this world. Enlightenment is seeing that all 'trying to understand' is completetly and utterly futile. Reality is seen to be an utterly complete mystery, always out of reach for the separated logical mind. To be enlightened is to give in. To let go. To stop trying. To surrender oneself to the truth is to pour so much love into the ego that it explodes and surrenders to the mystery of existence.

very beautifully written, thank you <3

Yep! <3 We are, yeah, haha. The cosmic joke <3 EDIT: Edited/added-to my prior post a fair bit btw

What you call 'reality' exists of course, because you want it to. It's your dream. What is in front of me exists only because I'm dreaming it up. Unconsciously, most of the time, sure, but that's how I like it. You can't tickle yourself can you? Or surprise yourself? Haha. The funny thing is, you can and you do! Only you do it by imagining something 'that is not you' (your friend tickling you, or your girlfriend making a surprise party for you etc.) Look - you are fucking God. No need to speak of God as if God is some 3rd-person-outside-to-you. It is you! There is no duality! What you call duality is non-duality. Non-duality, duality. Let go of your mind games/logic-thinking/concepts/word-games and observe what is going on: it's all your dream. Your imagination. The coolest imagination is that in which I act like there exist something that is 'not-me' or 'out-of-my-control' -- that's very exciting, playful, very thrilling, fun...Love: that's 'other', that's you. God/I/You create apparent duality because of our non-dual nature. It's the only thing 'We' can "do", you see? We can only "do" duality. If We chose not to do anything then that's raw, pure, non-duality: total utterly empty nothingness/oneness. The funny thing is, it doesn't even matter if We do stuff or don't, it's still 'that' (nothing, imagination) if We do, and if We don't do, We do, because by not doing, in the totality of Our absolute emptiness We can't help but create...i.e. in absolute total nothingness exists naturally a potential for infinite dreams/things.

as long as you want to wake up, you aren't going to your wanting to wake up presupposes/implies that you somehow aren't God/Oneness/Love/Complete/Perfect already: that you are a human. Which is false. You are imagining yourself to be a human, to have xxxx as name, to be xx years old, to live in xxxx country, to have been born by mr. xxxx and mrs. xxxx, to have xxxx as a job, to have xxxx amount of money left to live for, to have xxxx as a car. etc etc Stop giving in to falsehood (believing any of what is going is serious or real) It's just your own funny dream, haha <3

perception presupposes a subject-object-duality, right? "The perceiver" and "the perceived". Perception exists of course if you see yourself as a separate real self inside a bag of skin. Then you are perceiving 'the world' through that bag of skin. (Or we could put it the other way: by insisting perception is real, you make the separate self real) Direct consciousness "of something" is seeing that "that something" is you! (your imagination, nothing) - seeing yourself - God seeing God - You are God!