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@LifeEnjoyer I’m not a master in this subject but yes I think the ego is a construction. What are you trying to understand? For me learning about the ego has helped me live a more heart-centered and loving life because I’ve been able to distinguish between the two. You have to understand that this is nuanced, because while yes we are all living in a construct, we are also made of the divine unseen All. Everything comes from that Source and “good and bad”, ego and heart, are all divine. What are you trying to figure out by learning about the ego? For me I wanted to learn about the ego so I could be more loving because I saw that my ego was not as loving as my heart. And yes, all is love, AND there are distinguishing qualities of living in love vs. living in fear.

Bro of course. To be completely without ego is to be dead

@Hojo 👍🏻

I wasn’t talking about the dreaming part.

Well it’s a nice way to look at things but it’s not technically true

@Hojo does that happen during the REM cycles? Haha just kidding

Honestly no. It’s very freaky to me to think that everybody alive now will literally be gone in the next 100 or so years. I mean our lives are a blip in the echoes of eternity. I think about it all the time at this stage in my life and it does actually help me create action. Since this is the only life I have and I don’t know when it will be over or what happens next I do try to live to the fullest. It’s not that easy and there’s a lot of twists and turns to get there but this impermanence really does drive me. I still don’t accept it but I do try.

@DreamScape you’ll figure it out in the moment. If love is your guiding principle you’ll be guided to love. It’s not easy per se but it is a way to live.

I don’t think there’s anything wrong with using this plant as a teacher. It’s super powerful. It can be a “tricky devil” so to speak like others described it’s very addictive and easy to misuse. It’s in its nature to be so if you think about it the plant itself is sticky, referencing its “sticky” qualities.

Ok I was able to get this uploaded after some technical difficulties trying last night

Why. Just why.

MDMA is 3, 4-methylenedioxy-N-methamphetamine. That’s where the grinding teeth come from.

or is that just the ego mind saying that? Do you have to sort of get past the layers of deception in order to say that accurately or can I essentially walk around thinking about how I am imagining all this stuff?

I've always been super careful with my caffeine consumption since it's so easy to become dependent on. But I've been off daily caffeine for months and I still feel like I need an extra boost. I crave caffeine almost every day. I do have a physically demanding job but I still feel like I shouldn't "need" caffeine like I've been craving it. What am I doing wrong?

Somatic Experiencing man. Look into it it's a deep study of our Being. Peter Levine is the founder of it but it's based on indigenous wisdom. By far the most awakening I've had. Meditation is a somatic practice. But it's just one. And it's an advanced practice. You may benefit from other body-mind-soul practices.

The Great Mystery as taught by some indigenous cultures.

What were you hoping to experience? I used to be a big proponent for meditation because I thought it was THE way to live a good life. I have done 2.5 10-day vipassana retreats and kept a meditation practice for months at a time sporadically. But since diving into Somatics a couple years ago I see there are other ways to heal, grow and gain self-awareness. Meditation is just one tool.

First of all I’m so sorry you have a mother with these types of problems. Sounds extremely difficult to deal with. One thing I’m gathering from your post is that you’re trying to change her. You understandably don’t like how she has chosen to live her life and you want her to change. But the thing is, you can’t change people. I’m sensing the two of you have some codependency going on as well. She’s an adult and has chosen to live her life in this way, and must live with the consequences of it on her own. I know you wish she wasn’t like this, and that’s very hard to handle having a parent that you want so much more for, but it’s necessary for the both of you, that you let go of the plan you have for her and let her make self-destructive choices. I would try stepping back a little. Setting some boundaries about what you will and will not tolerate in the relationship between the two of you. Release some of the need to control how her life goes, as hard as that is.

I’ll speak from my experience: microdosing gave me elevated levels of consciousness, but ultimately didn’t do a damn thing for my depression.

Talk to a trusted friend or therapist about your troubles

One of my teachers says it like: the same free will that allows some to turn towards the light allows some to turn away from it.

This may or may not be helpful to you but something one of my teachers taught me is that it’s ok to give up sometimes. I noticed in myself that in the incessant pushing in life I never just let it all go. Interestingly, I get stronger after giving up. Maybe something you can play with. Good luck.

Acid in particular is like that for me. Literally enlightened one day, normal the next. Ime mushroom lessons tend to stick around longer.

Of course! For me it gets triggered by something. One small and easy to describe example of this in my life is the way that the sky was shown to me during a mushroom journey. Now every time I look at the sky I am taken back to the same experience I had many years ago. It feels similar too. Actually this is one of the things I love so much about my trips with the little fungi. I’ve had my psychedelic states integrate into my “normal” states very easily.

@mrPixel He said he took 3 grams and didn't feel much.