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Sounds like you’re doing fairly well with some small and bigger hangups and that’s part of life. That’s why we improve so we can have more of the life that we dream. But this will be a constant thing if you chose it to be. Once you get a girlfriend maybe you will experience a temporary high of sorts and then fall down again so you can continue improving. Someone told me once that the darkness in our lives is to help us grow and show us how amazing we really are. You are not insignificant, and being lost is how you find yourself <3

You can get an astrology book and read that. I got a lot out of “Astrology for Dummies” by Rae Orion. A person with their sun sign in Taurus may appreciate stability, be stubborn, enjoy earthly pleasures like fine food or clothing etc.. But none of this is set in stone and you can’t really be like “a Taurus is like this”. There are many different pieces of someone’s chart that will influence how this all shows up.

For me, my usage of psychedelics has ultimately come down to a desire to heal. And I know everyone will be different in this and we all have to walk our own path so you may just be done with psychedelics for now. That could change though. Before I experienced ayahuasca I sort of felt like you do like: “okay I get it, I’ve seen god” etc. but I was really blessed to be able to have some deep deep spiritual and emotional healing with that medicine and it really brought a whole new meaning to the other psychedelics I’d done and the spiritual “work” I’d been doing for a long time and I feel like I will be on that path for the rest of my life. So I mean maybe you just don’t have a strong desire to keep seeking in that area of life and that’s ok. You got what you wanted out of it and are ready to grow from all you’ve learned. You can always come back when you’re more ready.

I’ve done it. We all do it. Life is HARD to figure out and sometimes we think we’ve found an answer only to later realize that’s not how things are at all so we have to backtrack and learn again. But I think sometimes on this forum it’s easy to talk willy nilly about things we don’t know much about just because we want in on the conversation or want to seem important.

Yes!!

After many many years of just not getting it I finally figured out what the ego is. This has been a huge missing piece in my spiritual development and once I learned, I was really able to start living more fully from my heart. The ego is simply the false self. And the piece that made me really “get it” is understanding that the ego masks *fully and completely* as the real self. To the point that we can’t tell the difference. They seem literally identical. Something about understanding that made me be like “ohh, now I can finally get down to the nitty gritty and start to figure out what my True Self really is vs. my ego self”. Maybe this will help you if you just haven’t really “gotten it” in terms of what the ego is or if this is old news to you too, lemme know how you finally “figured it out.”

I don’t see I like that. I believe there is only God AND This. E v e r y t h i n g comes from Source.

This is the only right answer

Real=truth. False=delusion. You create the criteria and decide which is true or real. Mostly my ego

you have to understand that God is all of “this” too though.

Depending on what you mean by “too high” I will sometimes just give into it all. Which for me means becoming absolutely paranoid and terrified of everything in my life but then I come back and realize it’s not all so bad after all.

This is good.

Hey I agree with that. Nothing wrong with creating a healthy ego

You’re overthinking it

God chose to materialize otherwise there would be nothing. How else would you describe it

Your soul chose to materialize for some reason. God doesn’t make mistakes.

it doesn’t matter how many psychedelics you’ve done or how many hours you’ve meditated or how many self help books you’ve read. What matters is how deeply and fully you can love. And sure those things can help you reach higher levels of love. They can also create a monster of an ego. And it’s very difficult to tell the difference between the heart and the ego, because the ego is so so good at masking as True Self. We have to continually bring ourselves back to higher states of consciousness. Goodness, love, joy.

@BlueOak absolutely. AND there is something to be said about states of joy and loving kindness and their importance in the higher evolution of our species.

@theleelajoker You can absolutely make a difference between real and false self. And no, there really is something to “figuring it out”.

I’m not really entirely sure what you’re saying but yeah this didn’t change my mind.

@ChrisZoZo wrong about which part. Something special?

I would say a lot of it is in your felt experience. You feel like there is more to this existence for a reason probably, right? Maybe there’s nothing to it, maybe there is! I’ve personally always felt like there was something “more” probably much of that was due to my religious upbringing and then later on psychedelics sort of “told” me there was more…but lately I’ve been going through a faith crisis and realizing that much of what I believed was unconsciously just due to what I’d been taught by my parents and society. But I still deep down feel like there’s something special here so I’m going deeper so that my faith is based in something more real.

@UnbornTao I would say there’s more to understanding real and true self beyond intellectual understanding

@Ishanga I read that book a long time ago and still don’t get it after that. Probably confused me more haha but I feel like I would really get something out of it now