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I think this sentence is where the truth of this post lies. Personally, I sought and sought for years looking for the thing that would finally make me happy until I realized: shocker! I could actually just be happy right now. But I kinda don’t know if I would have been able to realize that if I hadn’t been seeking for so long. So I still see the value in seeking. That being said there’s still so much more to go and it’s not necessarily that simple.

Do you have anything you enjoy doing?

I would freak the eff out tbh. Probably wouldn’t be able to “stay calm” or anything. Would swear off drugs forever. Find a really good lawyer.

But I don’t wanna!!

ClearSpace app was reallyy helpful for me. It makes you do an activity like take a deep breath or pushups before going on your apps and then you choose a time limit. The free version gives you one app so if you find you’re really addicted to tik tok for example you can set it to that one otherwise the paid version you get more.

Aw yeah I know it’s really hard to make sense of all this human stuff we go through. I just have this viewpoint because I went through it myself. Lots of psychedelics, therapists, self help. I was lucky though because I eventually found a healer who really helped me work through my childhood traumas. It’s a journey. I have a really good feeling that you’re going to have a breakthrough and have a better understanding of how to heal more deeply though. Bless you <3

I don't know you or your full story and whatever but I wanna add that trying to heal yourself with psychedelics is a slippery slope unless you have professional healing experience. Psychedelics are not inherently healing. They can give you deep insights about life but without knowledge of how to apply those lessons there's a big potential to get stuck in this loop of having crazy experiences, but staying in an overall lower vibration. Again, I don't know your particular story but wanted to add my two cents.

Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you; Matthew 5:44 I mean come on does it get much better than that?

Basically because, through the struggle you prove to yourself your amazingness

I’ve done two. But it’s been a few years. It’s very very intense, if you’re doing the Goenka one.

Already fully aware of the connection there’s no need to talk to people like they’re stupid.

Oh woah that’s actually really fascinating. I have no experience with this but a quick google search did come up that another person said their experiences with LSD were less intense (however, still existent) while on an antipsychotic. It makes total sense. That being said I’m trying to figure out why you want to take psychedelics if you are schizophrenic?? Going crazy is not fun??

Dude a majority of my experiences with psychedelics come from low doses. Albeit, a lot of them, but yeah I would say it’s extremely powerful. I am quite sensitive to the substances, however, so small is rather great for me.

Refer him to someone who is experienced in addiction and just coach him on what you have experience with

Psychedelics are no joke. There is a very real possibility of opening one too many doors and seeing too much too soon. Proceed with caution.

I don’t really know how to put this but I’ll just start by saying I’ve been a spiritual seeker pretty much my entire life. I was quite young when I remember asking the question to myself “why am I here”. So I guess that combined with trauma from childhood I naturally turned to therapy, psychedelics, self improvement. I always felt like I was looking for someone or something who had life figured out. Leo was definitely that person for me for a long time. Then I found ayahuasca. The healers I saw had over 700 ceremonies in over 10 years under their belt. I experienced MASSIVE MASSIVE transformation under their care. But now—they’ve stopped drinking medicine and have: turned to Jesus (???). This means that I’m more lost than ever because I really looked up to these people and they really do know so many secrets to the universe. So I believe that they have found something real in believing Jesus to be the son of God and to be our Lord and Savior. Typing that out is painful for me… I thought I had already figured out that while Jesus was a really cool guy, he wasn’t the Son of God and I DEFINITELY didn’t need to repent for my sins to go to heaven. I did however grow up religious. This complicates things for me. I don’t know what to do. I actually kind of do see the Truth and value in believing that Jesus can save us. But like as soon as my mind starts working I debunk it pretty fast. But maybe I just need more faith? Ugh. So back to more questioning I go. Man, I’m tired of this…

I ultimately just want to do the right thing. Yes there is a little fear in me that I will spend eternity in a fiery hell if I don’t accept Jesus. AND there is the side of me that is afraid I’ll be living in a type of “hell” here on earth if I don’t believe in Jesus.

This is very interesting.

Because if I don’t I’ll go to hell. Hypothetically. If you get what I mean.

I could see how it would bring more peace. For it to be an end to seeking. To see that Jesus is the most high and to believe that is reality. Were you raised religious? To me it’s like asking me what water is (I come from very religious families)

Quote from her Facebook: “I could never deny the growth I experienced in 12 years going so deep with the plants. But after so many years and still having so many questions and feeling unsatisfied with the loop I found myself in I knew what I was experiencing wasn’t truth. The gifts and blessings God has for us through his son Jesus is unlike anything I have ever known” Sheesh!

They are pursuing truth though! That’s why this is so hard.

What about Christianity is so tempting for people? Why are there so many stories of former new agers coming out of their old ways into Jesus? I mean there’s gotta be something to it right?

Very normal and very ok. Don’t be too hard on yourself. Very typical. It’s the nature of this work and it’s why change, when it happens, is so precious. Because it takes a lot of effort. Try and see where you can comfortably “brute force” something and where you find that titrating your work will be more beneficial. Yes, trust the process and also realize that this sort of “itching to just meet your goals” you feel is normal and part of what will fuel you. It’s not comfortable to have big dreams and to see all the work you need to do to get there. You sound like you’re doing good though. Big dreams, a hunger for more, you’re getting out there like seeking therapy. Sometimes big change happens in big moments and often it happens through all the small moments that have added up <3