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The real problems started when I got awakened to how much I was suffering after attending a meditation course. Haha. That’s when all this deep deep suffering began. Since then I’ve been clawing my way out slowly, and not without a massive fight. And I’m still not strong enough. Funnily enough, some of my most massive sufferings of late have been contrasted by huge feelings of bliss and happiness. Like, the work I’m doing is working, I’m catching glimpses of the light, but I’m still deep deep in the cave. I will look into the books you mention, I like the idea of running with my own kind of wolves, if I think I know what that means...follow my own path?

I know your teachings are male biased, I’ve wrestled with that before. I sometimes wonder if I’ve seen too much, in the sense that your videos have set the vision too high that I just collapse from inability to reach it. I’m working on taking small steps. Im glad to hear that they are still true regardless of the male bias, because that gives me hope that the things I see and the voices I hear are telling me something real.

Thank you, I would love to find a woman’s circle and get more in touch with that side of my path.

I do feel like Leo’s teachings are male biased but I think that the general message is the same. I have seen the videos, and I’ve wondered if they have “messed” with me in some ways, or if I’m really not strong enough. Actually the idea that there is a feminine side and masculine side to personal development is fucking with me because I’m like well, which one do I follow?? I see myself as very feminine, yet there is a masculine side in my that has been pushed down because it isn’t ladylike or whatever. And I’m so curious about that side, but also love exploring my feminine side too. Thank you for the love and support.

Thank you so much for your response. I’ve watched those videos of yours and I also finished the life purpose course. The course was amazing. It gave me so many tools. I was reading my values and goals every day and it was so amazing, the thought of my life’s purpose brings me to tears, and I am so grateful to you for that course. I stopped reading them every day. I got caught up in relationship drama, family drama. I am refusing the voice of God because I feel I am too weak. I’m looking to others for answers and wallowing in my sadness because I don’t feel strong enough to do what I need to do. And I don’t know, I guess I’m hoping that one day I will just bite the bullet but it’s hard. And that’s a really heavy thing for me to see in myself. Thank you again Leo.

I so crave for a deep connection. Someone who really understands me and the path I am on. I look for it in romantic partners and then get mad when they don’t understand. I do quite well on my own in the sense that, I can be physically alone and be happy. But as a whole, I don’t have anyone I can connect with and tell them stuff, I’ve tried with my partners and that was nice, it just, it’s different with a partner, and I’m tired of just making romantic connections in order to fulfill that need for a connection.

I don’t have my own sense of self. I look to others for answers on how to live my life, constantly comparing and matching myself up to what they are doing. I see a therapist and it helps a bit, I do need to take care of myself much more and better, that’s for sure. Thank you

@Matt8800 I love this perspective too, thank you so much, I’m going to look more into this type of thing.

@ivory wow thank you so much for this. I’ve been thinking that’s what I needed to focus on but wasn’t sure. I’m mostly not giving myself permission to, thinking that the depression is fueled by my not doing the hard thing

@ttom thank you so much! This was super insightful and helpful.

@ttom Thank you for your reply and for asking. What I expect from life is less suffering. I have been on and off depressed for years, I have anger outbursts and my relationships suck. Basically a lot of emotional problems and I carry a lottt of pain. I want less of that. I have thought of the idea that I'm suffering because of my thought that I'm not where I should be... But even then I still think that I could be doing so much more...but then I think maybe I'm just being hard on myself. I just don't know.

If you've taken the character survey did you also spend the money to get their extended information on your specific strengths? I'm pretty tempted to but figured I would ask here first. Thank you.

I was doing soooooo well with reading my Values and Goals every day. Then I missed a day it took me a couple months to get that far. Previous attempts I missed days at 15, 7, 5. Feeling frustrated and don't know how I'm going to keep going.

I AM very hurt by life, lol.

@Leo Gura thank you soo much for the support!!

@Soulbass How did you make a chart like this?

I would come no matter where you went. I'm in Seattle

I recently bought Leo's Life Purpose Course and I thought it was changing my life. I had my life purpose and was reading it every day etc. Then a few days ago I had the stark realization that I have many narcissistic tendencies. Whether or not I'm a full blown narcissist isn't really the point, however with that realization, I began to wonder if all the self improvement work and life purpose stuff I've been doing is actually a huge narcissistic game I'm playing with myself and the world. My life purpose is "Using My Knowledge Of Creative Self Expression To Help Others Discover Their Unique Gifts" and I'm absolutely terrified that this is a narcissistic-fueled purpose. I want to help people be creative and to discover their unique creativity, but now I'm worried that the only reason I want to do that, is because it will make ME feel good. Has anyone else experienced any thoughts like this?