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Lol what more do you want to know?

I dont like clubs normally so I would never choose to go to them alone. The vibe is usually too rowdy and the music too loud. Havent missed them at all during the pandemic tbh. And what does that tell you?

It was all a dream. No, I wasnt very nervous, Its not my first time going out in general, I have done it a million times, just alone this time.

Dont know actually, we talked about going out again to some bar but alot of stuff in said in the hazy atmosphere of a bar. I will contact her on Friday and see, otherwise I will just get on with my life, detachment baby!

Relative vs absolute. Ego/body/physical will die, awareness will not because its not a thing. But 99% of people are identified with the ego so they are afraid of dying which makes sense because ego will go someday... completely.

So tired of this virus... but I believe it will help humanities evolution alot, just look at the incredible growth in technology that happened because of WW2 or the Black Death going into the Renaissance, despite how horrible they both were.

Thats why you need study Spiral Dynamics for a long time to really understand what its all about. Its really hard to get fooled for me nowadays , first off all because Coral is so rare that finding it on Youtube is most likely impossible and also because alot of people misuse Spiral Dynamics for narcissistic purposes so thats something to always keep in mind. If someone says outright that they are a particular stage without being asked about they are most likely a bullshitter. You have to have extraordinary discernment and always be critical.

Finally someone put the nail on the head! Something like this had been floating around in my mind but I couldnt put it in the words! Yes principles are steadfast which goes against the sort of looseness of being a relativist but at the same time they are important because without them you can easily veer off a good path because you delude yourself. Imagine an 1 year sober alcoholic saying "Oh having one beer its not technically bad because thats just a judgement I make in my mind!" and then he goes and fucks up his life again. Its a tricky balance. That alcoholic could easily be better off following some close-minded hardcore principle.

My top 5 personal principles I figured out are... 1.Integrity and Honesty 2.Decency, Respect and Kindness 3.Thoughtfulness 4.Accountability 5.Humility But my values on the other hand are probably around 50-100... So what makes values and principles different from eachother? Principles seem to be more "holy" than values and seem to be more like guidelines for a good and virtuos life... They often seem more pure and beautiful can almost put a tear to my eye when I contemplate them... why is that? What do you think? What are your highest principles?

That makes alot of sense!

Turquoise builds on top of Yellow and keeps the systems view, probably expanding it even more but Turquoise lets go of the mind and goes into Being so its not as analytical and more chill. Thats one of the bottlenecks that makes Turquoise or even enlightenment difficult to reach because the mind is so addicted to thinking and modeling.

I kind of want to create my own mega-post with everything I have learned the past year too. There is so much stuff mostly scattered haphazardly on my laptop that it would be quite hard to put it all into writing here... But maybe I will... We need more Systems Thinking on this forum... Its severly lacking! Also I dont feel like I have learned it all, it will probably take my 5 years to fully integrate a concept like Holism, its so fucking vast!

This is freakin amazing, dude! Will save this post and read it more carefully as I have too have been studying Systems Thinking for about a year. Kudos!

I decided to stay in this forum... for a while... I still stand by everything I wrote and I am not taking it back. Thanks for all the replies, it is refreshing to see that not everyone here is a blind follower.

I can close my eyes and realize there is noone looking out into the world... yet I still exist as this idea of a person in a body. So not much has changed really even though Im really grateful for this realization that I have worked hard at for the past 4 years. How do I deepen and fully let go? Where do I look? Thoughts I guess? Any help 'preciated thanks. (Sober. Dont recommend psychedelics please, I know they exist but Im not in the right mindstate to do them right now.)

@Leo Gura Exactly what I thought you would say. Nice little insult there too with the "cute", seems all your awakenings created an infinite ego, good for you. Im out. Bye.

And you constantly harping on how elevated you are makes me start fantasizing about distant awakening lands that I will never reach which turns me off even more. I will never awaken unless I shove 500 capsules of 5-Meo DMT up my ass which I will never do anyway so whats even the point anymore. Its like youre floating around Jupiter in a spaceship telling me how awesome it is while Im a homeless bum on street barely having food to eat. Anyway do you I guess, Im leaving this forum and your videos soon, feel like I have integrated most stuff already atleast mentally. Hopefully I will become infinitely conscious the day physically I die anyway.

Why not focus simply on teaching instead of constantly comparing yourself to other teachers? It makes you seem less credible rather than more. Newcomers will get turned off and in turn probably not awaken.

"Leo when he hasnt said how he is the only truly God realized person for 5 minutes."

One of the reasons Im scared to try astral projection too. Reality is weird, man.

Im so lucky I have never experienced it. I once got sleep paralysis after a some really bad sleep deprivation but it was more like I was stuck inside my head, everything was black and I couldnt move my body. Very anxiety inducing but not like a horror movie. Lasted about 10 seconds tops.

Creepy as fuck, and way too structured to be an accident. Its almost like they are guardians which job it is to keep you in the body. It is really fucking weird that everyone has similar experiences when it comes to this, cant be an accident.

Tattoo your forehead and say "Careful, fragile ego-mind inside."

sounds nice

But what is the doer-feeling made of? Where does it exist? Point me to it!