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Igor Kufayev Better google him, I had problems choosing the best video.

Colin Wilson. I don’t think he was very deep into turquoise but he definately licked it. And he liked his research

I have this too - I link it to my kundalini. I don't think it is fully awake but I can feel it rising at times - I get that high pitched ringing as well. If it gets too strong (the vibration) I have problems sleeping and have this weird sensation like I am bigger on the inside (yeah, like TARDIS and and going beyond my body. Once the vibration went very strongly though my body - following days were very strange...

It is always so easy to say when you don't actually face the choice. When you are not facing nothingness and do not know what the consequences of the pill really are. might be that you would spit it out after all. Might be that you would regret it anyway...

It is a very short book but it is written out of some incredible experience. Mind of this girl has been blown up and she died but her body lived. She is now decoding reality without it - literally like from Matrix. Mind blowing experience to me! She describes what happened and what she learned so far from it. She gives some advice how to make your life more worthy (for no better word). More effortless, more yummy Her awakening is incredible but you must wonder if you would wish something like that upon yourself... Nevertheless you want to know what she knows.

I think I figured out what happened to me during my weird meditation experience - I figure I must have my 3rd eye open and I practised vision through it. I must confess that it sounds a bit abstract to me at the moment because a few days ago the concept of chakras was a bit on the x-files side to me, if you know what I mean, but I am open minded and it sounds like the most reasonable (hello reason ) explanation to me. I am afraid that is too new a territory to me and the experience scared me because I was not aware of potential consequences of my actions - didn't want to get myself into some trouble just out of ignorance, so I backed off. A few months or maybe even a year before a read about a pineal gland and watched a video - apparently it is very likely to have it calcified in adulthood. I have these annoying migraines and they are often linked to quality of my sleep so I had this idea that maybe they are somehow linked to levels of melatonin and it might be a good idea to decalcify my pineal gland (I just assumed it was - no scan was done). So I bought MSM, chlorella, boron and started to consume them - I continue to intake MSM and chlorella till now. After some time I got my dreams back - before I was not dreaming as often as in my youth - now I dream every day. Anyway - I just though it might give some background to my story. Then I had the experience with meditation - you can read what happened (weird meditation experience) I got to the stage when my heart was pounding, I could see the room illuminated - my vision shifted twice - maybe it is possible to go farther, I was a bit afraid to go, my body (ego?) was frightened. I would love to know more about it before I go farther but I feel so ignorant, so stupid that I don't know where to start. I want to be at least a bit prepared for what's coming. I thought I would just have a "boring" meditation... Please - tell me what is next? Is it safe?

Jesus, I am shaking.... For a moment I got scared I would not get out of it. I went really deep in this state! My room was like illuminated and my heart started to pound but I had a feeling like I was losing contact with my body, I started to tell myself to relax. I put the light on and shook of the feeling! I don’t know if I should continue I need guidance but I know nobody. I did some research today and it looked a bit like my 3rd eye chakra might be opening? Could that be it? I did not even believe it... I did try to decalcify my pineal gland though for my migraines sake. I am freaked out - will do some more research tomorrow- anyone some advice?

I am fairly new to meditation - I have been doing it only for a week, every day for 15-25 min in the evening, before sleep. I thought that would be a good start, plus I have very little time, so that's all I can squeeze in at the moment. I just close my eyes slightly, sit still, put some music/ocean sounds on and try not to think My thoughts usually are quite persistent though, so it goes better or worse. Then I try to concentrate on my body - like to move the energy all over my body, to spread it around, see what happens - that relaxes me, then I kind of try to focus my eyes on the darkness and watch it for a while, just observe - I get this feeling like I am in the centre of this huge dark universe. Yesterday I kind of noticed some kind of purple fibres in it and I focused on it more - the same way like you focus on these funny 3D pictures that at first look like noise but later when you look at it for a while and do it in a specific way you notice a three-dimensional figure - my vision shifted somehow and I transferred - I opened my eyes and I can't even describe it, the darkness felt different - it still had this purple fibre but it had a new dimension in it but was brighter and wider and I felt it with my whole body. I could experience it for a while, when I was focusing on it with this specific way and then it passed. Is that what it is supposed to be? It was very interesting. What was it?

Name: Maja Age: 38 Gender: Female Location: Belgium (but first 26 years spent in Poland, then 2 in Luxembourg) Occupation: Local Support Manager Marital Status: In relationship Kids: Daughter 9 y.o. Hobbies: dancing, reading, music, nutrition (lately), new ideas, travelling (whenever possible), cooking, observing world, psychology I never thought about it in categories of self development - I was just just curious about world - inner and outer. I still remember when I was a child and it struck me - this question: why do we exist? how weird is that! Why does world exist? And nobody could give me an answer. I can't say that I got obsessed about it but it was always at the back of my mind, I watched it differently. I read a lot of books - I also had a brother who loved that subject and I would take his books (he's 4 years older), so as a teenager I was reading Castaneda's books, Hesse, Dostojewski, Colin Wilson. Whatever I could find in the 90's in Poland (the market was limited and the internet was not so available as it is now). I would have a lot of self awareness (well, not on Leo's standards, on average standards). Unfortunately, I was also lazy to take enough profit from my consciousness and I screwed up my studies - failed at the last year (I studied psychology). That is something I need to work on - my conscientiousness - I get distracted too easily and lose my goal. I got a good but mundane job in Luxembourg and moved there, then to Brussels, got a child and all that, even though still made me learn things about myself, slowed down my development. I picked it up when I had to fight for my health. I get severe migraines, so I cleaned up my diet - I am gluten free, dairy free, I don't eat meat since I was 16 (I eat fish now though), I try to eat clean and removed all sugar. I read and listened a lot about nutrition and am trying to fix my migraines by myself (it goes better and worse - still working on that project). I am introverted and I sincerely like it - I have nothing against extraverts but they can get on my nerves when I have them too much around (something like silence and contemplation seems to be a foreign concept for them ;)) - I have no idea why people here put them in one line with "shy" and "socially awkward" - they are not synonymous. Jordan Peterson's and Leo's video's gave me a final kick to pick up where I started as a young adult - et voila! here I am

@pluto No, I am sitting straight - it is usually late, so I am afraid I would fall asleep if I laid down. My natural, authentic self is definitely more different than I expected I am not sure about my bodily experience - it is not spinning for sure, it feels a bit lighter, thinner maybe - I know it's there but it's less important, I was a bit afraid to move it to disturb the experience, I was operating the experience from the centre of the body - at least I thought I was.

Hmm - for all enthusiastic followers of this thread - a follow up: my strange experience (if it is strange, maybe that is common, I don't know) continues, yesterday my vision shifted again more in some orange/purple zigzag mandala like pattern (I wish I could paint it but it is so complex..!) - first it was just in front of my eyes, in front of my face, like a veil and then it moved away and started to move - like in a wavy motion - I opened my eyes completely by that time. It is like a dark like flat 3D wave - hard to describe. After some time my alarm buzzed and the veil immediately lifted - very weird feeling. Anyway. That's it. I thought meditation would be boring but it's actually fun and I keep looking forward to it.

In that sense the only truly honest friendship would be possible with a person who is also very well developed and will appreciate the truth. And even that does not mean you have to articulate all you notice about them But you may try and be as honest as possible without hurting somebody - as true as you think they can handle.

@Leo-Tzu I'd say less brain fog (but I associate it with gluten free as well), better skin, cleaner teeth, I can go without food for long periods of time now (I do IF as well) - before I would get hangry - mad when my blood sugar dropped. I can taste subtle flavours in food, I can taste additives in food - I got more picky My migraines stop sometimes - before they would go on and on. I do eat quite some fruit though - some would consider it still sugars I guess.

Leuven, Belgium (I am Polish though :))

I am an HSP. It is a scientificly proven trait. You may test it here: http://hsperson.com/test/highly-sensitive-test/ For me it was quite eye opening because I always assumed other people were just mean but when I read about it I realised that they simply felt differently than me I read the book, saw the film, my daughter is also sensitive, makes me understand a lot of things better now.

I’m just reading his book. He is definitely an interesting person and worth looking into. I like his theory about integrating the shadow (he took it from Jung I believe) but I find he digs into the religious stuff too much in my opinion- although it is interesting what he has to say. He goes very deeply into archetypes which are, I suppose, buried in our minds so it might be useful to learn more about them. I have some funny feelings when he talks about role of women and men in the society, I don’t quite agree there with him. I think people are starting to consider him some kind of a guru and I always have a bit of a careful reaction to such blind following, I immediately take a step back, just in case to see what happens. He seems overwhelmed by it all as well anyway. We is very eloquent, articulate, smart, composed.

I would say not necessarily stop watching his videos but maybe start watching others, read more than just one book, talk to many people, travel, do some thinking, meditate. It will all give you more perspective. I catch myself sometimes on getting easily carried away by some people’s ideas without thinking them over critically. But the more I read on the subject, the more aware I am. More open to new ideas.

@Solace you should add some protein and some healthy fat - that would make up for the kcal. I like to add cashew nut butter or macadamia nuts (you may eat eat by spoon or add it to your smoothie), have some linseed oil (with a salad). For protein you may add hemp seed or pumpkin seed to your salad, or grind it and add to your soup. If you eat meat/fish/egg, well that's easier. You will lose a lot weight if eat only what you described and your body will get weak. I don't have a problem with eating twice a day (IF is great!) - just make sure you get all your body needs. Ah - and cruciferous vegetables are great! (broccolis , cauliflower, kale, Brussels sprouts - yeah, all that stuff ;))

Seems like you lready are Nevertheless if you are not trying to lose weight I would think the kcal intake is kind of insufficient. Especially if you are male, are you? I am also doin 2 meal per day and often catch myself with that problem.

Is that all you eat all day?

good one - he might be in the middle of the scale though, then it's more difficult to tell. I am INFP-T I am not too surprised to see so little of Ss here - Intuition rules. Happy to see them at all. With Leo I was hesitating in my guess though - between T and F. I guess he developed his Feeling well enough. My boyfriend is INTP and he's a bit different in that area (could use some self-actualising )

For me quitting something is easier than starting something but maybe principle is similar so I might try to follow my own advice It is in fact a matter of motivation. You must be convinced that it is something you need and want to do - you have to own it internally. To change my diet completely I had to have some health issues to show me the way and then I watched tons of videos on the subjects and read some books to know more about what is going on in my body and what is food in fact doing to it. In the same time I followed an advice of JJ Virgin who might not be an enlightened person but who knows a lot about marketing and about nutrition; she is passionate about what she's doing: you can do anything you want for 3 weeks. So I figured, yeah, I could try it for 3 weeks, I am fairly good short term And I did. Then I had already some results, although first weeks were bad - detox felt horrible, but I knew I had to do it. And after these weeks you don't want to go back (as she predicted ) so you kind of stick to it.

I stopped eating sugar half a year ago and I don't miss it too much. It's another addiction our body craves - apparently it is bacteria and fungi that demand it the most and our bodies follow. I would have occasionally a piece of dark chocolate or once a year a piece of birthday cake but otherwise I'm free. If I really need to add something sweeter I would choose dates or a tiny bit of stevia. Honey (even if you are lucky and get the real thing - most of the honey contains corn syrup), agave and maple syrups are still sugars. I stopped even drinking fruit juices (unless really, really fresh and properly obtained - then I might still go for it).

Do you know works of a Polish artist and writer Witkacy? (Stanislaw Ignacy Witkiewicz) He was experimenting with drugs and creating his art in a bit scientific manner, he even wrote a book about it. An extraordinary man. Not sure if he was directing his sexual energy the way discribed here though