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You likely have a more feminine disposition. If any ladies read my report above, I doubt they would be impressed since I'm just describing one of their surrender states. I'm sure many would think "oh yeah i remember feeling like that"

I have always had nothing but respect for you

Schizo beat me to the punch so I'll comment more on the epistemology side. I'm not anti-consensus on principle. Obviously consensus is useful, and certainly preferable to made-up ideas pulled out of one man's ass. And powerful, centralizing consensus (such as the modern science paradigm on nutrition) is rarely entirely right or entirely wrong. Sometimes I speak snarky (for my own amusement) so it seems like I'm irreverently dismissing decades of hard-sought insights by millions of professionals, but that is not the case. I would say I'm 80% on board with the professional rhetoric. Most recommendations are sound. Eating whole foods, limiting processed foods, exercising, sleeping well, not smoking or drinking, etc. is good advice. My only bone to pick, really, is the red meat/saturated fat issue. Saturated fat is not only not-harmful, but is in fact, beneficial. This is so obvious to me right now that I struggle to explain it in the same way that a psychonaut can only sigh and chuckle when a skeptic tries to naysay his mystical experience. So I am not blindly dismissing all of modern nutritional science, I am pinpoint critiquing one flawed aspect of its understanding, which is only flawed because of the echo chamber effect. If science re-did an investigation on saturated fat from scratch starting today, using a population of healthy unbiased humans, it would not find a single health risk, and this will shatter the certainty of so many medical professionals and dieticians, and nobody wants that. The issue is that science is unable to do such an investigation "from scratch," since it is tethered to its decades of research, and frankly it does not have a truth incentive (also it's a lot harder to find healthy unbiased humans than you might think. Most healthy people are already indoctrinated into the "plants over animals" camp, which skews results. Healthy animal-based eaters exist, but are rarer, and often not studied. This will hopefully change within the next decade.) The steering wheel on the ship is already jammed left, and it will take a herculean effort to bring it back to center, which is simply not worth it in the eyes of most professionals, ESPECIALLY since they've self-deceived into believing that leftward IS straight. For the sake of truth, the entire ship has to turn rightwards (to reach center), but the devil has gotten ahold of the entire crew which is convinced that going right is to go astray (not knowing that they are already astray, but to the left)

This is crassly and rebelliously flung around only because people demonize meat and recommend limiting or forgoing meat all together, especially red meat. Vegans, Vegetarians, Pescetarians, Mediterranean dieters, Plant based advocates, new-age healers, average, well-meaning health-conscious people, and "scienced-based" nutrition studies have all formed an incestuous cohort under the unifying banner of "blame red meat." Which is stupid, because we evolved to eat meat. This is dumb, yes. We are omnivores, and the optimal diet obviously includes animals and plants.

<10mg plugged is very (annoyingly) sensual. MALT does not make me "horny" in the way that I like - usually when I'm horny there is heavy emphasis on genitals, masculine-feminine polarity, and my desire is single-minded on the female figure like a laser, it's like the whole world goes away and nothing matters other than conquering her body. It's an addictive, amazing high. But with low dose MALT it feels like I've turned into melting syrup, lots of involuntary squirming, shallow breathing, as if I've suddenly turned into a woman in heat myself. No genital desire or imagery it all, just pure melting, flow, warmth, and a vague desire to hold and be held (by nobody in particular). And yet it's unmistakably erotic, bodily, and feminine. It feels as if my dick disappeared, in fact, that all men have been erased, and the very air itself is rich with estrogen. And I am suffocated in it like a fish in water - or more aptly, I feel like an ice cube dropped in a pool of lava. Objectively speaking its actually a very pleasant experience, but my masculine ego did not enjoy it at all lol. 15mg+ plugged seems to bypass everything I've been describing, and mind begins to explore infinity without any notions of bodies or polarities.

@Schizophonia I'm sadistic by default : )

Understandable Just remember that there is no real healing without a real threat to your ego. What stops you from thinking clearly? It's really no different than everyday thinking IMO. For example I can think about my mom on MALT just as well as I can think about her right now in a "sober waking state." The only difference is that on MALT the ramifications are supercharged. "Mom" has infinitely more unreality and interconnections on MALT, but the core thought is the same. If it happens, it happens. If it doesn't happen, it doesn't. No good or bad Not mutually exclusive. I love to think and surrender/let go at the same time Don't force it. The juiciest contemplations are instant and effortless. They will come spontaneously with more consciousness and less agenda. i.e. up your dose and stop trying to heal. But if you're not willing to do that, then just don't worry about "contemplation" they say that because most humans have erratic, fear-based thoughts. So it's better to just dissolve those and chill. But once you are advanced, there are higher-order thoughts you could have. But again, don't worry about that for now

anthem level

Consensus reality is threatened, at times to the point of no return, yes.

Contemplation comes so naturally for me that it has never occurred to me "how" to do so. In fact, I'm always shocked and dumbfounded time and time again when my "normie" friends take something like LSD and merely report "cool colors and moving objects" where I would draw hyper-dimensional interconnections on half the dose (which I fondly call "the webs," i.e. the beholding of consciousness by consciousness, admiring the precise intelligence of its current form, recognizing that there is no difference between what is and what could be, but seeing how and why it must be this way) This agenda to "heal" most certainly blocks pure contemplation. You're unable to admire the selfless uselessness of beings and objects unrelated to your healing. You also don't dare to dive into the abyss beyond death, the formless Origin where sheer, blinding, majesty reigns and no humans are allowed to exist. I don't have any answers for you, whatever works for you, you must figure out for yourself. However it may be worth it to trip without any agenda at all. Pretend for a second that you have nothing to heal, and become curious and interested in what lies beyond. Consciousness responds to desire. If your contemplation attempts are fruitless, it's likely a lack of desire. As for the substance, I would recommend a medium-high dose of MALT. It will absolutely obliterate you, but that is precisely the love you crave. We spend our whole lives running from the one thing we want more than anything. We're so silly for that.

Damn. That's kind of a shitty omen. I've been planning on testing oral MALT for a while now. I'm still going to go through with it, for science. I'll report back here when I do.

This description is spot on. The "horny" thing is very real at low doses. It makes you squirm and pant and crave touch. It's a very feminine feeling which I found to be somewhat threatening since I typically identify hypermasculine. I still managed to surrender to it just fine, but I'm not particularly eager for more lol. At higher doses the "horny" thing generally dissipates and you go straight to infinity/imagination/godhead which is a million times more threatening (lol). So MALT is a challenge for me regardless of the dose. But it's still my second favorite psychedelic (only after 5meodmt) because the rewards you reap are proportional to the threat level. And perhaps the biggest lesson you will learn is that no matter how severe the threat, how terrifying the trip, nothing... really happened. Here you are. You are absolutely, irrefutably safe. Wow.

the lack of mention of meat got me sad but otherwise good summary @Sugarcoat

Great awareness. This is not surprising to me.

@eos_nyxia Half asians are literally the hottest possible race lmao brother was beyond deluded

You're making a lot of assumptions that you cannot know for sure. But you trust your intuition because of basic pattern recognition - you've observed uptight people before and they hold their energy in similar ways influenced by similar past experiences. This allows you to make inferences about new people you don't know. I hope you can see how Leo is actually operating on the same principle as you. He too is trusting his intuition born of basic pattern recognition - he has observed time and time again how people with so-called lightness, ease, and effortlessness end up tricking themselves with fantasies and lack of results. To run with your example, If you show me "endless manifestation" of women to my face, I have no problems with that. I would be impressed and ready to learn. The problem is if you talk about "endless manifestation" of women with nothing to show for it. And let's say I encounter 10 such liars back to back. What's the chances that the 11th dude will be honest? Not agreeing with Leo necessarily, I think you're both speaking the truth in this case. I just think you can give more credit to his view. It could be a trauma-based energy block, OR he could simply be tired of liars, as you would be too, if you had his level of exposure.

I only hear reborn lol

You're awesome lol

That's not a very charitable take - he has healthy caution unlike so many naive optimists. I wouldn't mistake that for a character flaw.

Dan Koe directly credits Leo Gura in his published book "The Art of Focus"

Joy of the dance

Yes. Money comes from mirroring people's needs back to them. This is indisputable. The problem is that most people's needs are myopic, selfish, and petty. This causes higher-consciousness people to get fed up with the whole system and they try to overhaul everything with "higher consciousness values." But then their business dies because nobody cares. You can't repress biology. So we're in a weird spot where we have to dance that line between what they need (quick fixes, relief, feeling good, etc.) and what genuinely helps them (often overhauling their lives, painful reflection, facing fears, identity-level change. long periods of no gratification) You have to lure them in with the former before having a genuine impact with the latter. But this is pretty hard to orchestrate as a novice entrepreneur, creator, or coach. Because you're broke and overly idealistic, it's overwhelming. It's so much easier to turn off your brain contribute to the cesspool, or to endlessly pontificate about grand benevolent schemes that never materialize.

TAKE MY MONEY

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This will never happen. Japan is too racist, they have an implicit "pureblood" bias and lothe the idea of foreigners soiling the ethnic homogeneity. Japan could easily fix its birthrate issues by being more immigration-friendly, but it's too prideful once again. Similar to how it refused to surrender in WWII despite clearly being backed into a corner, and the US had to nuke it TWICE. This neurotic "never surrender" mentality remains to this day where the leaders of the country would rather have a pureblood sinking ship rather than a functional, floating multi-ethnic multi-cultural ship. "never surrender" to dying pipeline is just sooo japanese lol (very stubborn). Of course, none of that stops me from moving to japan pfft. Ladies here I come!