Leo Gura

Devilry... devilry never changes.

@Shroomdoctor You need work on the very basics of putting together your life and career. Forget the lofty metaphysical stuff for now, and enough watching theory. Now it's implementation time. Unfortunately there can be no shortcut for doing your pushups. You just gotta bite the bullet amd start doing them, one baby step at a time. Gradually build up your momentum. Yew, this work takes lots of work. Accomplishing your highest vision requires a lot of hustling. Maybe see my video: How To Get Shit Done. You have to be results oriented, not just theortical. Also see my video: Balancing Theory vs Practice. You are stuck in a cycle of avoiding emotional labor and there's just no advice that can let you skirt that. You cannot grow up and become successful without emotional labor.

Locked for general stupidity.

Game companies have gotten a lot greedier and more exploitative in the last ten years. Few games are made for the artistry any more. Of course indie gaming has also taken off in the last 10 years, which was great! Online distribution has allowed for more exploitation. With great power comes great responsibility. Companies like EA, Activision, Ubisoft, BioWare, Bungie, Blizzard, and Bethesda have sold their soul to the devil because they became too successful for their own good. The money corrupted the art and they will never produce the same kind of great art they once did. Look to small, new companies for art. You are not going to find art at McDonalds.

So glad I exited the industry in 2008 when all this horse armor stuff began. I had a phone interview with Todd for working on Fallout 3 but it didn't pan out.

There is no practical way to verify anyone's age online. Moreover, this is a public forum. If someone wants to view it, they cannot be stopped.

Sounds like you got some special genetics. How your body metabolizes chemicals depends on your genetics. I'm unusually sensitive, for example. You are the opposite.

Yes, I have removed about 20-30 books which over time I felt didn't meet my quality standards. I replaced those books with better books. Quality is more important than quantity in this case. There are far too many books around which will waste your time. As I become more conscious my quality standards rise and I'm less tolerant of low-consciousness books.

Obviously he wasn't anywhere near awakened, but his heart was in the right place and he was drawn intuitively towards Love, which resulted in his entire career and sense of life purpose. He's a great example of someone boldly following their LP. A lot of people following their LP intuitively simply because it feels right, without an deeper existential understanding of why they're doing it. That's a fine way to get started. Later, existential understanding and consciousness work can be added on top of that to take your LP to crazy levels.

Yup, reality's a trip.

No, it's deeper than that. The entire self/other distinction is imaginary. There is no one in the universe but yourself. By this I mean, you are the entire universe and all "others". Universal Mind imagines your body and all other bodies into existence. See my video: What Is Reality?

Which is why I said: That accounts for the mystical experience you were talking about. A mystical experience is an intuitive groking.

Yes, of course. This is an example of paradigm lock. Since you are God, if you take your own ideas seriously enough, you will get stuck in your mind until you die. So the solution to this kind of skepticism is death. There are a million different ways the mind can lock itself into an ideology from which it cannot escape other than through physical death. No amount of reason will solve this problem because reason itself is the problem. The skeptic must intuitively grok that skepticism is untruthful and biased. If he fails to grok this, he's fucked and nothing can save him.

That's right. Nothing stops the mind from deluding itself by adopting an ideology like skepticism. The key question is: How do you know skepticism is valid? You don't. Apply skepticism to your skepticism until you realize that skepticism eats its own tail. And where does that leave you? If you were a true skeptic you would have to surrender your skepticism on the grounds that you cannot tell if it is true or false. By advancing skepticism, you hold that skepticism is true, which is false. On the other hand, if you hold that skepticism is false, that is also false. So you're fucked either way because the mind cannot grasp Truth. Your mistake was assuming that mind can grasp Truth. Be more skeptical about that assumption.

Since there is only one thing in existence: consciousness, the only thing that can seek consciousness is consciousness. It is it. A = A. Or to put it another way, nothing seeks enlightenment and enlightenment is nothing. That's right. Truth and lying must ultimately go full-circle and collapse into a Unity. Both. There are multiple forces at work. You have an innate attraction to consciousness and love because those are you truest nature and deep down you feel it. But also the ego-mind likes the idea of all the material spiritual benefits and status it will receive for reaching enlightenment. The ego-mind loves the idea of being special and unique and better than everyone else, so of course enlightenment sounds great in that respect. But that's only because the ego-mind doesn't really understand what enlightenment means until its too late. The ego-mind is like a moth attracted to flame. It does not realize that it will die in the process until it's already on fire. You are right. Since you are God and you are One, you cannot ever fully escape yourself. Consciousness will always eventually awaken to itself, it's just a question of time. What pulls you to God is simply the fact that you are God! What's amazing is not that God is pulled towards itself but how God lost itself in the first place. All evolution and life is the process of God pulling itself towards itself, realizing and actualizing itself. Awakening is beyond normative, it is absolutely mandatory and inevitable. Awakening is Absolute Truth. You don't have to awaken as this human lifetime, but eventually you will awaken no matter what because you are Infinite Consciousness and there is nowhere you can escape to from yourself because you exist in all places. Eventually EVERYONE gets it. Just not within this short human life you know. You have to remember that God's time horizon is infinite while the human time horizon is 100 years. That's a huge gap! Stop looking at life through the human filter of 100 years. Look at life as it would look if you had 100 trillion years to live across 100 trillion lifetimes across 100 trillion different lifeforms across 100 trillion different universes.

You ask some good questions. Infinity is a very tricky beast. It does not work like ordinary finite things that we're used to dealing with. By definition, infinity is endless and so you must grok that an infinite thing cannot ever be made fully explicit. So in the case of the fractal it is infinite, but what you're noticing is that it cannot be make fully explicit because in practice the computer will run out of finite memory. This occurs because a finite object (like computer memory) cannot ever encapsulate infinity. No part of reality can ever capture the sum total of reality. It's as if you're trying to fit a large box into a small box. Of course you will always fail. Infinity is a singular object with no other in existence, and it includes all other objects in existence inside itself, since there is nothing but infinity and everything is it, including all finite things. Fractals are really no different than numbers. How do you know numbers are infinite even though, by definition, no human has ever nor will ever count up all the numbers? Numbers are endless, yet nonetheless your mind is intuitive enough to grasp this as true. Really ask yourself, how is it possible that you understand that numbers are endless enough though you have never reached their end? You might say it's just a theory that numbers are endless, but this isn't correct. It's more than just a theory. Your mind can actually grok the infinitude of numbers, not as theory, but as truth. You are placing an incorrect and naive expectation on infinity: that it be fully explicated in order to be "truly" infinite. But this is precisely wrong! True infinity is pure potential and formlessness. It cannot ever be explicated. Infinity is an implicit thing. No matter how much you explicate, unravel, or actualize infinity, you will be as far from the end as before you began. That is just the paradoxical nature of infinity. It is endless no matter what you do. Infinity cannot be grasped with the rational mind because the rational mind is finite while infinity is infinite. You can only understand infinity through a hyper-intuitive function of the mind. Intuition is implicit while rationality is explicit. But as we said above, infinity cannot ever be made fully explicit. So the mistake that rational and scientific people make is they demand infinity to be made fully explicit otherwise they believe it cannot be real. But of course this demand turns out to be misguided. You must change your mind to fit infinity. Don't expect infinity to change itself to fit your limited mind. More over, yes, the duality between infinity and finity must ultimately collapse into Absolute Unity. Hence the infinite and finite are really identical. Unless you imagine they aren't, in which case you create the world of duality to which you are then a prisoner. You become a prisoner of your own finite, dualistic mind. Until such time that you wake up and realize Absolute Unity.

It is what it is.

Definitely not! It will mindfuck you so hard you won't remember your name. Start with one of the classic psychedelics at low doses.

In practice the peak of an LSD trip only lasts up to 6 hours. After the 6 hour mark you will exit deep tripping territory and remain in the after-effects zone with a long gradual tail. For LSD you definitely gotta take the entire day off and start your trip pretty much as soon as you wake up that day. For deep tripping, just sit still in a room and contemplate reality. There's no need to go anywhere or do anything. Staring at the carpet is basically good enough. You shouldn't be left disappointed.

My brother found himself a wife on OkCupid. They have been happily married for several years. So don't poo-poo online dating per se. It does work. You just gotta be careful (as with offline dating).

@herghly The psychedelics showed him important truths. The difficulty is integrating those truths into a mind which is not prepared for them.

Your loved ones are imaginary.

If you are serious about being a successful musician it cannot be done for the sake of money and sex. Your motivation must be creative and artistic. The point of making art is never the sex, success, money, or fame, but the joy of creating the art and sharing it with the world. Your band needs to gets its priorities straight or you need to find a new band. If they don't fix their priorities ASAP they will never reach success or fame, so don't worry about missing out. You're actually missing out by following them blindly to the dark side. You're literally choosing to sell your soul to the devil for fame. And the devil won't even fulfill his end of that bargain. So you'll end up with nothing. By leaving the band and restarting under proper values and priorities -- that's your best chance at success. There cannot be good art without integrity and creative vision. You are putting the cart before the horse here. The rewards for your art should matter a lot less to you than the process of making the art itself. Be careful about chasing get rich quick schemes. Those usually never pan out. If you want success, you must ground it in something solid that offers massive value to the world. You need an attitude of giving rather than taking. Solid success in music requires years of serious dedication to your craft. You should be so obsessed with making great music that you don't even have time to think about sex. Making great art is more rewarding than sex. But for this you need to be genuine artist, not some hack.

@Aquarius Go slower next time. Obviously lots of guys online will only want to use you for sex and never see you again. You gotta test the waters more before you dive in. Get to know his intentions and his character. Careful. Lots of creepy fucks online. Don't just randomly sleep with them. A depressed/anxious dude on a first date is clearly a red flag. He should be happy and excited.

You imagine all of reality, including psychedelics and the Earth. So you placed it there using your mind. Psychedelics don't grow out of the Earth. They grow out of your mind.