For fun just ideas and thoughts from a few years ago to now of my journey.

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Ketamine infusion for me starts on  06/10/2025, 1230pm. I will document all of it. Knowing my luck, I will be stuck in an infinity of K-holes just for the fun of it.

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God created humor and the ability to laugh. Imagine a world without it. The absolute genius behind it all is mind-blowing.

 

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This is a bizarre story to do with Paul Stamets, who suffered from a bad stutter and did mushrooms, and it went away.

The weird thing is, I don't really have  OCD as bad as it was anymore. After my last big trip a month ago, I asked that it be gone because it served no purpose, and since it manifested from a big mushroom trip 4 years ago to begin with, in other words, it was needless suffering. See how it goes in the next few months, if it really has gone for good. As for ketamine, yes, people do fall back into depression it; it's not a one-and-done thing, you may have to do it for a few years, but there are success stories where depression has totally gone. As I have said before, we all have different brain chemistry, and by the way, I don't recommend you take 20 grams of mushrooms; keep it at 1 to 2 grams, then slowly build your way up to 3 to 6 grams. And if you wish to go further, that is totally your responsibility and yours alone. Anyway, there is another story, see if I can find it on Terrance Mekkena, to do with mushrooms. Now I remember when one is on mushrooms, you can ask the mushroom which is God I want to know what it feels like on LSD, or let's say MDMA or ayahuasca and the mushrooms will actually change the trip into one of those and how it feels even though you took mushrooms dam I never tried this to see if there is some truth to it.

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Dr. Jane Goodall has passed away;  what a wonderful, beautiful inspiration you have always been, such a lovely human being. You will be missed, RIP Beautiful.

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A little humility goes a very long way.

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For you see, it could take months to download what you have gone through from a trip, even a year or two.

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Love The Illusion.

 

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I need not anyone but myself as God. God is so in Love with itself. So wouldn't you be if you were the only sentient being in existence? Of course you would.

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Amanita muscaria I would try, but not Amanita pantherina. This mushroom I wouldn't ever take. F that, it causes repetitive motion syndrome. It makes for a good story, though. Unless you're stuck making love to your spouse, wife, girlfriend, or boyfriend, that may be fun

 

The next fetish will be women and men wearing surgical masks in porn.

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Amanita muscaria, I love a good background story for fun. Wish Santa left some of these in my stocking

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I will always remember going to Rottnest Island twice a year on my best friend's 50-foot  Riviera and all the crazy stuff we got up to. And are good friends, the quokkas.

I remember walking to the West End on New Year's Eve, then catching a bus back going to the pub and getting blitzed.

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I wonder if anyone remembers  Leisure Suit Larry? Don't know why this came up

Ketamine is such a weird drug. I have two infusions so far, same dose, which is done via Intravenous injection. I hate needles. The amount of ketamine is measured based on your body weight. Ketamine for me is an acquired taste/flavor, fascinating indeed, yes, I woke up on it for a time, had a good talk with, my God, head I have 7 more to go, and they will increase my dosage soon, so I went Monday, then today, next one is this Friday, so 3 times this week. You wear Wireless  Headphones that play trippy music, or you can bring your own playlist and Headphones. There are two nurses always there just in case anything should go wrong. You have these comfy seats which can be adjusted so you can be lying down your sitting up, or whatever, just with a push of a button as well. You can wear an eye mask, or you don't have to; they have a big screen LED TV with beautiful nature always on it. I don't see how you could do this in a recreational setting like a concert, you would want to sit, perhaps they do lower doses. You're a bit wonky on your feet for a time, but you recover fast, and you have to wait another half an hour before you can go home, and no, you're not allowed to drive, so my bro picks me up and drops me off, and you have to pay up front just as you get there obviously for legal reasons. So it lasted about 45 minutes; the nurse says it takes 5 minutes to kick in, but it takes me about 15 minutes to kick in. It can get intense; you just have to let go and go with it. When I close my eyes, all I see are these red colored patterns, which are hard to explain. So all up it takes about 2 hours, I have not felt disconnected from my body yet or any K-holes, nor any hallucinations, but I suspect I will at higher dosages. The weird thing is, when I did that large dose of cubes two months ago, my OCD seemed not to be as severe, since I said it was pointless to have it in the first place when I was on the mushrooms, and somehow, from my trip 4 years ago, it was manifested. So the ketamine seems to help with OCD as well, but I will have to wait and see, as well as my PTSD, and my mind is not as foggy. So I went through my doctor, and she knew of a clinic. The reason I said I wanted to do this is for my OCD and PTSD, but doctore said you going to have to go with server deppression and PTSD not just OCD or they would not except you, so I kind of lied when I saw the psychiatrist for my screening told me you have to fail two antidepressant drugs first, whoops, and I told him I had only tried one, I thought I may not get in, but in end he said it was fine. In other words, I am not doing this not so much for depression; it's for the OCD and PTSD, and ADHD. I guess we will see if this is just a quick fix or a permanent cure. Ketamine is not covered by any health care, and it is somewhat expensive $350 a session. I think it should be covered by health care and should cost around $150 per go. How does ketamine compare to psychedelics? It doesn't, and I would not use it for that. They upped my dose to 60 milligrams; today, I felt so much love, and it was more intense this time. For some reason, I went back into the Amazon trip and remembered bits of it that were negative, which happened halfway through. So now have PTSD from the ketamine and the mushroom trip, and ketamine is meant to help with PTSD. Now I will have to do ecstasy for the PTSD. Just kidding, I think it was more healing the PTSD from that trip I did two months ago, which turned into an infinite insanity. I think I will stick with Golden Teacher because even when I did big doses, I didn't have a bad trip, but then again, there are other factors. If I ever do mushrooms again, no more than 6grams. Then again, I want to try something different. I also got stuck, and I had no idea who I was for a minute or two while on ketamine.

 

 

God can dream whatever dream it wants, and that includes demigods, even mushroom gods that have their own meta verse and even sub-partitions of deities below God, but at the end of the day, it's all God and one.

A good deed is its own reward.

How can that, that already is not be.

Perhaps your assumptions about my assumptions are wrong.

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Been on the L Reuteri Yogurt for 6months now, something like that. The benefits of it, and of course, everyone is different, so what works for me may not work for you, but like with anything, one has to try it for themselves. Anyway, I noticed I can sleep up to 12 hours a day if taken before bed, vivid dreams, as well as unbroken sleep. I don't get acid reflux or indigestion at all. I seem to be more relaxed, I am not as cranky, that could be do to the sleep. And putting muscle mass on and skin looking better. It's so easy to make. Then again, all of this could be do to the placebo effect.

These are some of the so-called benefits of L Reuteri

L. reuteri yogurt benefits the digestive and immune systems by promoting a healthy gut microbiome and fighting pathogens. It may also help with issues like H. pylori infection, eczema, high cholesterol, and constipation. While traditional gut health benefits are supported, anecdotal claims suggest benefits in skin health, sleep, mood, and even anti-aging, though these lack strong scientific evidence. 

Digestive & Gut Health Benefits

Combats Bad Bacteria: The antimicrobial properties of L. reuteri can help inhibit and fight off pathogenic ("bad") organisms that cause disease. 

Strengthens the Intestinal Barrier: It can strengthen the gut lining, preventing harmful microbes from being absorbed. 

Supports a Healthy Microbiome: L. reuteri, a "good" bacteria, helps maintain a balanced gut flora. 

Aids Digestion: It helps the gut break down food and absorb nutrients more effectively. 

Other Potential Benefits

Immune Function: 

By promoting a healthy gut and fighting pathogens, L. reuteri supports the immune system. 

Specific Conditions: 

L. reuteri is used to address issues like stomach pain, colic, constipation, and diarrhea. 

H. pylori Infection: 

There is some evidence it can help reduce levels of H. pylori, the bacteria that contributes to stomach ulcers. 

Cholesterol Levels: 

Some research suggests L. reuteri may have benefits for cholesterol management. 

Eczema and Female Health: 

It's also used for eczema and may support female urinary tract and vaginal health. 

Potential Anecdotal Benefits 

Youthful Effects: 

Some individuals who consume L. reuteri yogurt report a youthful "age-reversing" effect.

Skin and Hair: 

Consumers have noted improvements in skin and hair appearance, including reduced wrinkles and increased moisture.

Sleep and Mood: 

Reports include deeper sleep with vivid dreams, increased REM sleep, and improved mood.

Muscle and Libido: 

Some users experience increased muscle restoration, reduced appetite, and increased libido.

Important Note: Many of the purported effects of L. reuteri yogurt, particularly those related to aging and mood, are anecdotal and not well-supported by robust scientific studies. 

 

My advice is not to always take my advice  for granted. Is that good advice? I will leave that up to you humans . I am usually right about my advice, though. Jeeze, how biased am I ? 

Sometimes, when all you have are amateurs to teach, that is all you can teach. Imagine telling people that you are God and so are they, and that only you exist and you are them. Most gurus, if they know, may keep it to themselves, but then again, who knows? Hay who knows

 

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One of these days, I will talk about manifesting and if there is any validity to it, and if it's just part of the dream, yes, you, Mr. Neville Goddard, I will talk about you. Yes, there are a lot of YouTubers making money from his teachings, and you as well, the Reddit group, you little cretins.

Yes, it is and feels totally alien from being a human.

God is an infinite question/mystery unto itself. Or is it?

 Have you noticed on this forum that some people have been told the truth, but then they forget and keep asking the same question over and over again? Talk about Groundhog Day.

Maybe god divided itself as a form of experiment into separate consciousness to see if each one comes up with the same stuff at the same time, or to see what each individual one comes up with with different ideas. God would experiment upon itself. And would new insights be generated? Would the parts be greater than the whole, bringing new ideas of what consciousness is? You are consciousness, but what really is it? An infinite mind, a sentient being, but you see, these are just words. Words can not do justice to what you are. Now, there would likely be infinite states of consciousness, which I have said before. I wrote this for fun.

There is no enlightenment to be had; it's part of the dream/ illusion. You must have noticed by now that you keep telling people what it's all about, but they keep reverting back to the same old notion. It's so obvious.  Buddhism must be one of the hardest things to break out of, I guess, so is religion. Religion and spirituality are all nonsense. I knew this without having to take any psychedelics. Even the hobo down the street gets this, and he never went to school. It's like a recursive reclusion.

Tuesday, which is tomorrow, I will go for my fourth ketamine infusion. I hope they don't up the dose again above 60mg. How the hell can you use this drug in a recreational place while dancing? When I did have the higher dose, when I closed my eyes, I could see blue patterns this time instead of red, and no, they were not like fractal geometry, whatever that means, I have no idea, as well as memory loss while I was on it. I guess I will find out tomorrow.

One of the most intense trips on ketamine today, and it was the same dose, 60mg. I woke up as God and became the Godhead, and I felt infinite Love.  Had that amnesia again, it's quite bizarre. I would have to say Ketamine is not one of my favs. It feels wonky, not smooth, unclear I don't know how to put it

Gutless spineless pawn.

 

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On 8/29/2025 at 8:03 PM, MuadDib said:

Morality question.

Living in a first-world country as a wage slave is already a life 10x more amazing than 90% of humanity.
One summer I was picking vegetables in brutal conditions, 45 °C temperature, people collapsing, sometimes cosy in a tractor with an air conditioner and music, while brown people stayed outside, lucky.
A man there from India is illegal, he makes $5-10au per hour (I don't know exactly, but I know his manager takes 49% his "legal" pay) ... He sends most of this money back to India to support his family.

Collective masculine wound is ripe to make millions and billions. Is it wrong to make money from it if you help by just rearranging information? Can you be arrogant while more talented people will be jack hammering in thongs for the rest of their lives going nowhere, no matter how hard they work? 

healthy gamer gg is right, mass extinction is coming, egos won't handle dying into irrelevance without big swinging spiritual dicks.

I like driving to wage slave job and not have to worry about being shot, like in third world country, not enough time...

Yes, first-world countries are so much better off. Sorry, I didn't even see this. I am just retracing some of what I wrote when I was tripping. It sounds like slave labour, and it is totally wrong and criminal to be taking from anyone's pay or taking someone's bread and butter when they're just helping out their family just to survive or for themselves, whatever reason. THESE Greedy humans have no morals, ethics, or they make their own. One day, things will change, and I am sure they will. Informative vid by the way.

For the tides, for they are turning.

"Comparison is the thief of joy,

Your imaging that you have a brain, and so it is with psychedelics. It's a very stable, believable hallucination, or this dream would collapse.

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I know Steven Hawking used to go to strip clubs; now he is doing donuts. Man after my own heart.    https://www.facebook.com/reel/1309617063946101

 

If every human gave up just one or two meat groups for good and cut back on the other ones, it would make a difference.  I have given up lamb and chicken, and limited my Free-range nitrate-free pork intake as well. My main ones are grass-fed beef, and I try to get pink Alaskan salmon and other fish, with organic cruciferous vegetables, and all I drink is bottled water and kombucha, tea, and coffee, and occasionally alcohol. Yes, I will give vegan a try one of these days. What if every future couple just had one child? Imagine how the world would be in the future, instead of being overpopulated.

If you think God does not suffer in the dream, think again, and even when God wakes to itself, it can still suffer, and good luck with mapping infinity. Godspeed.

It's this simple: you are God, there is no God out there, over there, up there. down there in the so-called heavens, you are God dreaming, forgetting who you are, and limiting your consciousness, and this is where psychedelics come into play. Do you think God would make it that easy? You just have to meditate, and boom, you're awake. Keep dreaming, maybe for some, but I doubt it. Is it scary when you find out your infinity can be? Can you go into insanity? Of course, you can for a time, but just go with it, and it becomes normal after a time; it does not mean you will, though. Everyone's experience will be somewhat different.

What is one of the hardest things for God for whom it imagines itself in a finite state, to acknowledge? I will answer this. I may have already.

 

75mg of ketamine today, what a trip, so intense and total identity loss, then waking up again, this time I felt a small detachment, and my lips and body went numb, kind of like when you get novacaine at the dentist, and I thought I would let myself go,  and leave this dream but I guess it wasn't time. I also felt this warm wave of love wash all over me. I thought so, so higher doses would be for pain relief as well. I pinched myself, and it didn't hurt. I asked the nurse, and that ketamine acts like an anesthetic at higher doses. She said yes. I also said it would be a bit of a shock if one woke up and had no idea about it. And she said Sorry, what do you mean I said, Wake up, as God then she went I am getting the psychiatrist. No, that's what my brother said jokingly on the way home. She said I have never heard that one before and I thought to myself, perhaps other people have, but they keep to themselves  so as not to sound crazy

Consciousness has always been here; now is forever this, if you want to call it a moment of forever. Now is always now. forever. These are just words, but someone had to come up with them, to give a description of itself, even though it means nothing, and that is God what whatever you want to call it, existence, eternity,  infinite mind, all that is, pure  Consciousness, it just is, but there is one word that may come close, and that is infinity. I know words will never explain what I am. This is why God is self-creation itself. God is so smart that it created all the different languages and believes it is a finite human and that we can all understand each other in this dream. The amount of intelligence, and I like to call it magic, as well, defies belief, staggering. And to create distinctions/division, I could literally go on forever.

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What is the point of the deception after you wake up?  Actually that is an easy one to answer come to think of it now. The other question I have gone through this 1000 times in my head, through every possibility you could ever think of, as to did I really wake as God or if it's another self-deception. Could one also be being deceived when they are on psychedelics? Deception before psychedelics, deception when taking psychedelics, deception after psychedelics? The only way to know would be for someone who knows nothing about waking up as God to take psychedelics, see what happens, and keep doing this with a few 1000 people and see what experience they have . I thought so many times that everything for which I have written could be wrong; this has to be taken into account. I know that manifesting is bull, all of it. You can't manifest shit. I have tried it for five years, on and off, it never worked for me, but most importantly, I have tried it when I was awake as God, and it never worked even then. So either these people are so deluded, or they want to be a part of something bigger than themselves, and love the upvotes and the dopamine hit, or make money out of it as so-called coaches. I now believe Nevil Goddard is part of the dream, or he was a freak of nature, another Jesus, and only he could manifest, and just maybe a few others can, in this dream. but to me, they are all background stories anyway. He was right with what he said about imagination is the only reality. And so is consciousness as well.. Sorry,  Reddit group, you're all full of shit, and all are mostly teenagers who could not manifest a wet dream, and I can not sit back and lie or be a part of it.
r/NevilleGoddard reddit group sounds more like a colt and all the other grifters videos on U tube all these so called coaches on how to manifest money, cars, free dinners, depression away, suffering, win the lottery, get any women you want, loose weight, get a six pack, get rid of cancer and all you sicknesses as well, exes back, donkeys, what a load of cock etc. the only thing that is being manifested is your money into their pocket Trust me, I doubt any of you have tried it in god mode, most of you don't go near psychedelics, and most of you would piss and shit and your pants and run to your mommy if you did so-called reddit group. All humans have the capacity for infinite self-deception. Always remember that.  I am not saying that anyone else's experience when on psychedelics is self-deception no not at all. I still believe what I experience and what a lot of you have experienced to be your truth, but for me, there is still this nagging question in the back of my mind. There was this time when I woke up and I supposedly manifested a bourbon out of thin air with Coca-Cola in my glass, either I did or I got another bourbon and forgot I had placed it there. I swear I saw it fill up by itself. At that time, the mushrooms made a remark about how Christ did the same with wine, and I can't remember exactly what was said, but it was funny. Maybe there are blocks or restrictions on what one can do in this dream, even in God mode, maybe it's not a bug but a feature, or maybe God is a twisted, pathetic, sick mofo.

 

This is my sixth infusion, and they upped my ketamine dose to 85mg today. This time, I went on a journey riding the wave of infinity. Definitely more visuals, and I lay back this time. usually, I am sitting up. It felt like I was only there for 20 minutes, but I was under the ketamine for over an hour. It was like I was sending out waves of love to all of me, in every nook and cranny, every aspect, even aliens, lost souls, and I became everyone, everything; there were no boundaries, no difference between me and anything. I have experienced this before, on mushrooms, but this time it felt like a different flavor. And then there was this moment I became aware of a consciousness that was so bizarre to me, I could not define it in words. It's weird when you awaken to infinite intelligence; it is nothing like a human, it has a  very alien feel to it at first, but you know it because it is you. This one was also me, but IDK how to transcribe it into words. It was like I was seeing through an alien mind perspective. I believe when Leo says it was alien, he means it was so different from anything he has experienced, not necessarily an alien being. I could be wrong, but I was actually communicating with an alien from another planet and seeing its home world somewhere in the Universe.    In other words, with myself, because it is me. I guess I will see what happens at my next infusion, which is this Friday.

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God is pure truth, pure goodness, and love. God is incorruptible. God can not ever judge you; he can only love you more than you know, and only you can judge yourself. 

As forgivenes, I forgave everyone who ever wronged me or hurt me five years ago when I was on mushrooms. As well as when I wasn't, and let it all go.

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Been smoking pot for the past week, Og Kush,  and amnesia haze, which I grew myself in coco coir under LED lights. make the plant like really compact, bushy, and they hardly use electricity or give out much heat, so 20 hours of light for veg for about 3 months.  I use Canna Bio Flores 1 LT | Certified Organic Nutrients.  And order the seeds online. Yes, it is illegal where I live, just don't tell anyone, I mean no one. What you can do is veg your plant for however long, then put it outside, and it will flower. Let nature take its course, it's like a hack, within 2 months it should be done. That also depends on your strain.  Such a gentle feeling, and it was one of the most relaxing feelings I have had. When I was on it, I went walking into nature at night, it was raining, and the reflections of the paths made it look like all these other paths existed, and they went on forever. I kept going into this state of consciousness where I would lose myself and forget who I was, where I was. I was talking to my higher self, it was so fluent so it would seem it was as though I was talking to my fiancé, who passed 3 years ago, and she was looking through my perspective and experiencing what I was when I was very high on pot. No paranoia whatsoever, just total warmth, blissful feeling, and then I got the giggles, I couldn't stop smiling and laughing. Lasted about 5 to 6 hours. I haven't had pot for years. I was trying to study it, so when you go into this other state, it is so clear, then you go back into the other state, and you forget what you were just talking about with your higher self. This kept going, and time just slowed right down, kind of like length expansion. The other thing I noticed was my eyesight was much better, weird, I get that on mushrooms as well, that should tell you something about reality and how psychedelics affect it. My right eye is not too good due to sun damage, and I do wear glasses. Anyway, the other strange thing that happened is there is a post on my walk, and it was though I already passed it, but I was not there yet. This happened twice, but in different places . Perhaps the night before, when I did the same walk, fused into this moment, so I thought I had already walked past the post, but I was nowhere near, kind of like a loop. Kind of like if you drive past a building in your mind, you have already passed it, but then you realize you still have not gone past it as yet. Some sort of spatial distortion, more like mind perception distortions I have never experienced this before. It was fun, though.

My last ketamine was on Friday. It was not as intense it was still 85mg; it gives you a buzz for like 4 days. I believe it can definitely help with depression and OCD, as well as PTHD and ADHD. and pain. If you are suffering from any of these, I highly recommend you give it a try. Either it will work or it won't, but the only way to know is through direct experience. Sometimes I get bored with the norm, so I take psychedelics. Tomorrow is my next ketamine infusion, they will probably up the dose no more pot for a while.

You had to create everything from scratch, and that is what it means to be God. This is why I said God is its own blueprint a while back.

No one in the universe can tell if you're waking up as God was true; only you can know through direct experience, becoming it , and once you know, you know without a doubt. And no one can change your mind. Once you know your God, you can not unknow it. Unless you tell the mushrooms to erase those memories of the trip on a new trip, of course 

You, as God self self-validate that you are God; no one else can do this for you but you, of course.

Because that is the role you are playing now, as being human, have fun.

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So you use yourself to define yourself; that is what it means to be God. Self-tort, self-made, self-actualizes, etc

Existence can be whatever you dream it to be. Form or without form because you are all of it. God created a form and structure.

Today I did 95mg of ketamine. I felt like I was floating like a cloud. I don't remember much at this moment what a ride. My last one is this Friday, then maintenance.

"Fools rush in where angels fear to tread.

You could say God is an infinite brain or mind.

What is God?  God is an infinite self-creating self-actualizing mind. What is Mind? What is it ontologically?

It is void. A void in which distinctions arise, it is a self-aware field of No-Thingness.

Saying there is no you, so there is no point in taking psychedelics, is like saying there is no you. So why do you meditate?

No, that is not a paradox; they only come up when being finite humans.

Without consciousness, nothing could exist, meaning I could not write this, and you could not understand it. Understand.

No mind, no thoughts, nothing, isn't it one has to go so deeply. You're not getting it that you are an infinite mind. And no, you are not understanding the vast intelligence that went into all of this.

You stayed with me because I had money. I stayed with you because I was lonely.

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