Constant arrising believe of being at war with something

[effortlesslumen]

I constantly have this believe going, where im constantly at war with an adversary. Either myself or some obstacle, person,...  I think this causes more resistance than being fuel.  Its not about being defenseless or powerless or ignoring forces of nature.  Im aware enough to see when this kind of thinking patterns emerge and can stop myself and not take it to seriously. But i keep slip into this believe pattern, what could be the reason ? I currently have not found the awnser to this question myself. Any ideas? 

Edited October 8, 2023 by effortlesslumen