Randomness getting organized

[Aloos]

I feel that I need a journal that can organize how messy my life and my thoughts get . I gotta prioritize my tasks and strategize my time and energy towards achieveing my goals .Goal no. 1 of this journal is being more productive , and the other goals are :

1. Reading more 
2. Studying smarter and harder 
3. Getting over my addiction on social media 
4. Stopping wasting time and utilizing it well 
5. Having self-control 

I’m gonna be dedicated to journaling daily even simple things but what’s important is the intention to start the change . 

We’ll see how it goes ?

[Aloos]

Rule no. 1 for this period of my life : Don’t give a shit about what they say behind your back 

Rule no. 2 : Focus on you and work on you for you by you

One thing that should be completely eliminated : social media . And especially during this period cause I have to studyyy and work hard on myself 

One thing I’m grateful for : My health 

One thing I wish I can be : Being more assertive 

One wish for development : Being strategic 

One thing I hate about myself : Can’t organize my time and I’m always late 

One thing I love about myself : being strong from the inside 

One thing that I hate in people : hypocrisy 

One song that always touches my heart : Everlasting nothing 

One movie that is very deep to a level it made me cry  : The fault in our stars 

Where I see myself in 5 years : Independent, assertive , graduated and having a job , speaking 4 languages and being in a healthy , interdependent relationship 

One thing I wish I can live without : my phone 

Lastly Two things I wish I can master : Chess and Sudoko 

We’ll see anyways ?

[Aloos]

This song makes me feel alright especially when it says “ you’ve got your passion , you’ve got your pride , but don’t you know that only fools are satisfied, dream on but don’t imagine they’ll all come true “ . 

It’s gonna be alright and all of this shall pass as all the hardships passed ... 

we’ll see anyways ✨

[Aloos]

This period is really hard and the only choice I got is to fight . Every horrible thing one can ever experience is happening and I just feel that I can’t hold on . Giving up on everything is the easy choice but not the right one . I ought to be strong and start from where I am at with this little time left with my hands crumbling ,feet shaking , heart beating with fear and doubt and mind wondering negatively . I ought to start cause the next 6 days seem to be the hardest . I gotta get out of them with the least losses possible and the greatest results possible . 

It’s hard but I’m all about experiencing the hardships and growing because of them . Running away or delaying the work won’t work ! The courageous thing is to face and fight and experience all the consequences!!! And I will ! 

Everything around me is bringing me down but there’s this light in my heart that’s leading me through the darkness to the right path that aligns with my soul and goals . And for sure this too shall pass like any other hardship . 

My main priority is to study as hard and smart as possible . I’ll try my best to delay the instant gratifications and utilize every minute . I could do it before and I believe that I can do it now . 

After this period I won’t be the same and for sure everything will be alright . Just need some patience , courage and determination to keep going . 

I can’t imagine failing which is why I will do everything to succeed !!! 

We’ll see anyways ??

 

[Aloos]

I felt that the sea washed me of myself , the sun healed me and gave me strength and the sand absorbed all the negativity.. 

I am sorry for everything but sometimes a person can reach weakness where they feel paralyzed... 

I am sorry for myself because I’ve put myself in a victim’s position ... I ain’t weak and broken 

The healing is taking place ... I’ll be alright 

No more victim mindsets and no more weakness !!! I ought to be strong !!! 

This song is the only thing that gives me hope that there’s still a lot of goodness and amazement in the future .. And I’m still 22 but I don’t really know about you ?

 

[Aloos]

 There are things we have no control on and they happen because of a reason ( we may or may not know it ) cause I believe it’s kinda universal or let’s say from sth above our capabilities and understanding as humans ... 

Sometimes we can’t understand why we’ve been put in situations like this or we’ve acted unconsciously for no logical reason and it can be a reaction or an action that was so spontaneous but it made a tremendous effect ... 

But I believe that everything happens for a reason whether we accept such thing happened to us or not !!! 

We may see it on the external view as awful, but may turn out to be a blessing for our lives ... 

A lot of times we feel sad and disappointed because of the effect Truth has on us , but it’s totally better than the temporary happiness we get from lies ... 

Some people come to our lives for showing us sth we have been blind from seeing for so long ... sometimes we feel that their existence is a burden however the messages they have for us to grow are not usual ! We don’t know what we’ve added to their lives but for sure we made a difference! And they are let go although their effect on us never will ... It’s sad to lose such people but honestly it’s better ..

My principles in life lately : 

1. Shut your mouth ... don’t share your personal things with others 
2. hear more than you speak
3. Be rude when it’s necessary ... some people deserve that 
4. Most people’s intentions are the reverse of wht they show so watch out 
5. Don’t believe everything you hear ... a lot of wht you hear are lies !!! 
6. Be logical and use ur common sense 

I’m grateful for all the experiences I’ve gone through and for the lessons I’ve learned so far 

We’ll see anyways ✨