Upasana Journal

[caspex]

I have progressed. Past few years my spiritual journey was all about the mind i.e. building knowledge, experiencing ego deaths, realizing oneness, no others, impermanence. 

Now it's moving towards the heart. Few days ago I had an awakening of the heart where I understood the certainty of the true self. My heart bloomed and I felt I had breathed in after a long time. Calmness, peace. Above all I felt that I was good. Goodness seemed to be the point of life. I am the source of all Goodness in the world.

This was a long time coming, I realized that I needed to move towards the heart for a long time.

 

Although this made me realize how backwards I am going about it. In the three granthi system you go bottom up. i.e. the gut, heart then the mind. 

Awakening in your gut should provide you with a sense of utter security, balance and stability. I actually want to work on that before the heart. I believe the ephemeral nature of the spiritual states would be made more permanent if I do this.

 

During the start of this journal I was going at my sadhana hardcore and I became a complete celibate too. I had forsaken even garlic and onion. Right now the only thing I avoid is non-vegetarian items and any sort of intoxicants. If I am gonna work on awakening my gut and the base of spine I assume controlling my sexual urges must be a big part of that. Brahma Granthi sits between Muladhara and Svadhisthana after all. This should increase my connection with my deity too and increase the quality of my sadhana.

For now I am just going to start by sitting and focusing on the contract points between me and the ground. Really feeling into the base of my body and hopefully my being as well.

Edited April 27 by caspex

[caspex]

7 days into the gut meditation and I have had my first experience. 
The way I do this is by sitting under a cold shower, cross legged (one shin over the other), and doing the Prithvi Mudra.

It was building up to this over the past week and finally had that release today. Essentially my awareness finally shifted from my head to my gut and suddenly the entire world was enveloped within my gut. 
It was as if the world was in a cosmic womb. Which suddenly reminded me of the concept of 'Hiranyagarbha'.

I looked it up later and found out that it is closely related to the creator god 'Brahma'. The whole point of this meditation was to stimulate my 'Brahma' Granthi. I think it worked quite well.

My midsection and below felt as light as a feather. As if a source of pure light and energy had opened for a second within my gut already overloading it with energy.
It was amazing.

Another big insight I had during this was that the world is essentially like being underground where each and every thing is connected to each other like roots branching out in the dirt. 

Very interesting indeed. I am gonna continue on. This is likely a very early stage of whatever I am hitting at.

 

Now I don't know whether to call it placebo or something else, but whenever I am stuck in my meditation I can call out to the deity I worship and I get an instant boost in concentration power.
In fact sometimes it even helps me skip the initial stages altogether when starting my meditation.

Edited 3 hours ago by caspex