I have to stop doing this.

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    I'm very sad to say that my time here writing nonsense and depressing stuff that helps no one is coming to an end and that I'm gonna miss talking here. I have lost safety even in this part of reality and even though I'd love to stay for longer, I feel I cannot. I just cannot. I should not if I want privacy and more safty.

I should have left earlier though. 

From  now on I should train myself to use only the videos. Nothing else. Not the forum. Doesn't matter. I should have done this before. Whatever. My life is destroyed. If I was wise enough I would have left this place when I had the chance without asking any one of you.